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My Acne Struggle

myAMBERromance

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Well, I guess this is a good time to give a backstory on my struggle with acne. Quite literally, I was born with it. I had infant acne, and was having full-blown break-outs and cysts by 5th grade. Kids that age shouldn't have to worry about wearing make-up, or how to fix your hair to best hide the cystic acne on your neck. I remember at 10 years old having a terrible cyst under my eye and having to tell my classmates that it was a spider bite to prevent humiliation. Anyways, needless to say, acne was ALWAYS an issue for me from that point forward. Junior High was misery, especially all the questions about my body acne I would get when dressing out in the locker room before gym class. High school was no better, but by my freshman year I had started the endless cycle of trying to find a "cure." Proactiv, Natures Cure, supplements, Neutrogena, Clean & Clear, colloidal silver, sulfur, MSM, RetinA, antibiotics-- I TRIED EVERYTHING topical and over-the-counter to no avail. The products I tried would improve my skin (never 100% clear, or anywhere close) but would stop working after a few weeks and I'd be right back where I started. My skin is not only break-out prone, but also extremely sensitive to metals, talc, etc. I actually had some relief with my skin when I switched to Physician's Formula Talc-Free mineral makeup during my Junior year of high school. However, using the wrong makeup was only a small percentage of the problem. Hormones, oil, & genetics are the beasts I struggle with most. I am now a Junior in college, 21 years old and STILL struggling with terrible cystic acne as well as overproduction of oil, blackheads, minor cosmetic acne and a ton of clogged pores, not just on my face but arms, chest, neck, shoulders & back as well. I was told all during my teenage years "Don't worry, you'll grow out of it," "Its just a phase," "It'll go away once your hormones level out." Nope. So this is where I am. My family doctor suggested Accutane, which was a wakeup call to me because I've always heard that Accutane is a 'last resort'. That was when I realized that I really am at the end of my rope dealing with this. I'm allergic to most antibiotics and topicals provide virtually no relief, and certainly no lasting results. The only thing that has given me some hope in the past is tanning, which really only works on the body acne. Lately, I've been using the aspirin mask and to my surprise I haven't had a breakout since I've started. Which for me is exceptional because this summer has been hellish- as soon as one breakout starts to clear, another is rising to the surface. Miraculously, my skin heals extremely well and I don't scar easily. I deal with the red marks (which almost always fade pretty quickly if there's no new acne forming on top of them) and enlarged pores but no pockmarks, thank God. The only lasting scars have been to my self-esteem, and I attribute my struggle with romantic relationships, body dysmorphia, eating disorders and depression to having bad skin most of my life. Through my relationship with Jesus Christ, I have been able to let go and come to terms with some of my mental/emotional scarring but as anyone who has struggled with acne knows, its a loooooooong process and its especially difficult when you're STILL having breakouts in spite of everything. Anywyays, I'm not giving up and I'm not afraid to do whatever it takes to win this battle.



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Thanks so much, glad to know that there's other people out there that are going through what I am. This site has truly been a blessing. Best of luck to you in your journey as well.

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