Pill #46 tonight.
So things are still looking pretty ugly. I really have a chronic problem with picking. I can't stop and now I think it is actually doing more harm than good. Like, last night I felt a few developing pimples under the skin around the apples of both cheeks and instead of waiting for them to emerge, I started popping. Good news is, I got the bastards out. Bad news is, I really scraped up my skin and have massive red scabby bruises. But, I'm just so frustrated! My skin is worse than it has ever been in my entire life! And I'm so desperate for things to improve. I don't even feel like the blackheads and small white bumps have budged at all since I started Accutane. I thought those would clear up the fastest! Instead, things just have gotten so much worse.
On a positive note, shine is still under control, nose, chin, and the skin surrounding my nose remain breakout-free, and the breakouts on my forehead are healing and I haven't gotten new ones. It's really just my cheeks and jawline that feel completely out of control. I feel like my IB won't be done until every single pore has erupted. WHY ME????!!!! This sucks.