So basically my friend had tagged me in some pics from the weekend and my face looked stupid, all red and like I'd been burnt/had surgery or something. How embarrassing, I look like a freak. Stupid thing to go to the mirror after that but I then ended up picking my face to FUCK! I could literally cry right now. It's like I think if I pick out everything there, all the clogged pores etc that my face will then heal and no new ones will come. I KNOW this isn't true and yet in that moment when I'm picking my face it's like I really believe it.
Wish I could turn the clock back 15 minutes, WHY can't I stop. I always seem to do it when my face is looking a bit better too, like I think I'm helping sort the rest of it out, whereas in reality I just end up taking 10 huge steps back.