Over the weekend I had my promo gig. I had to dress like a 60s air hostess and approach lots of people to promote the new Lynx spray. My colleagues on the job were three beautiful, thin working models. I was out of place but I didn't notice, I felt confident with my makeup and in the sexy uniform and actually got just as much attention as the real models.
Then on Sunday I visited my parents.
The first thing my mum said to me was "Abi your skin looks terrible. Go to Clinique and get a refund."
I cried for half an hour. It totally killed my confidence. I wanted to cancel all my plans. I have never felt more self conscious and insecure.
I actually felt like I was making progress and looking better. The worst part was is that I always tell myself "Abi, you notice your skin more than everyone else. When people look at you, they don't only see acne". And now I know I was just kidding myself.
So here I am, emotionally starting over. And trying not to blame my mum for trying to help and be constructive and accidentally hurting me.
B3 has stopped giving me the flush, I don't know whether to up my dose again if my body has got used to it... Will do some research today. And some work of course!