This has been a sucky Memorial Day weekend. Friday I had an appointment with my derm for a cortisone injection for my chin, which is gone by Sat morning but then another one pops up right above my lip (2nd time in this place this month!) and looks like a huge herpes. Nice. My favorite place to get one.
So, I've officially made the decision I'm calling my derm tomorrow to make an appointment to go back on Accutane. Or wait, accutane is off the market...whatever the generic brand is now.
Let me give you a little background to my story. I'm 29 y/o female with cytic acne. I went on my first round of accutane in 2003 after getting frequent cystic acne that mainly showed up around my chin and under the nose area when I was about 19. It's been a long time and can't remember the specifics but I think I was on it for 5 months and didn't go over 60mg. I'm 5'7" and was a tiny 120-125 pounds back then. Oh, those were the days! Anyhow, I faintly remember clearing up pretty fast on the accutane and responded very well. However, after about 4 months of being perfectly clear, I started getting cysts again. It cleard up the regular pimples and I still don't get them to this day (but still the cysts, lucky me!!). When I went back to my derm, she tells me that some people need a second course. I said HELL NO! I was 21 at the time and was just starting to drink a lot in college. So, as the years went on, I dealt with the occasional cyst here and there with a cortisone injection and was perfectly clear while on YAZ. When I was in grad school from 2005-2007, I don't ever remember getting a cyst. I was also on Yaz at the time which has always helped me tremendously.
Fast forward to the last two years. I'm married now (in 2008) and got off birth control Dec 2009 to try and get pregnant. I get pg right away but have a miscarriage. This sends my face into a complete cyst frenzy. I keep getting cysts in the same spot, the cortisone injections help, but they keep coming back for another month. After my hormones calm down, I then get pg AGAIN in July. That results in another miscarriage and probably the biggest damn cyst I've ever had in my freakin' life...right under my nose. Not only am I dealing with the miscarriage loss, I'm also dealing with the emotional issues of having huge painful cyts all over my dang face.
After going to a RE (reproductive endo) I find out that I have a uterine septum which is a congenital malformation of the uterus which causes miscarriages. I had surgery to correct it in Nov '10 then get pg AGAIN in March, which resulted in another miscarriage. The damn surgeon didn't remove the whole septum and had this surgery again 3 weeks ago. Long story short: I'm ready for a baby now but the cystic acne has made me a wreck.
This month alone, I've had around 5 cysts and have realized the mistake I made not going on the second course of accutane when I was younger. My cystic acne isn't probably the worst out there, as I tend to get only 1 at a time that disappears fairly qiuckly with a cortisone injection and I do tend to go at least a month or two without getting one (if I don't have a miscarriage)...But it's enough for me to be horribly depressed and not wanting to leave the house on a regular basis. They're huge, painful and totally embarassing. Especially the lip ones which I seem to get now more frequently. The more and more I thought about it this weekend, the more I realized I have no other option. I'm excited to get pregnant but the fear of the cystic acne has caused me to hold off. I'm know I'm not spring chicken ( I JUST turned 29 a few months ago) but if I get on it now, I could potentially be off by October. That gives me around 3 months to get everything out of my system and I could be back on track trying for a baby in Jan/Feb.
Anyhow, I've spent literally hours on the internet this weekend researching women my age going back on accutane for a second time & their experiences. I've found a few but not a whole lot. I'm hoping that by sharing my experiences, I can help myself by venting & maybe allow my story to help someone else out there who is going through the same situation.
Whew! I feel better already even if no one reads this!!