I think about my skin. I'm not happy with my skin. The rational thing to do about it is try to stop the active acne first and then deal with the mess it left afterwards. I'm willing to do facial fillers too to fill in any indentations. The chemical peel has improved my nose scar. If I don't mess with it, I think it should stay filled in. I've messed with it before while it was filled in. It weakened the skin and caved in so I realize I can't be stupid. It does have the tendency to want to close up even if I mess with it. It just takes forever then to fill in. It's passed the mirror test but I haven't thoroughly checked if it's okay in all lightings. I have never obsessed about something like the tip of my nose. It just brought up all the insecurities that I had. It was awful. I know it's better but I still get panicked about it. Residual trauma. My depression is still persisting even with medication and I wonder if I should wait for it to get better or just take the accutane without postponing it any longer. Either way, I believe it'll happen soon.