Well... December is a rough month.
I had pretty much 3 weeks of finals (exams, papers, clinic, more work to do....), then Christmas eve and day...
So I had a ton of coffee (I never said I'd stop having coffee.... but I'm pretty sure I had some migraines from withdrawal) and I ate some sweets.
One thing I read said something along the lines of "If you aren't ready to give up a food... then don't give it up yet. If you force yourself, then there is an emotional attachment to the food. You are just going to desire this food more until you let go of your emotional attachment to the food" -- I think that was from Carol Alt's book on eating raw food.
So, I've been going along with that idea. Food has always been very emotional for me.
Think about it-- You cry, your mom gives you a cookie. You're depressed, your dad takes you out for ice cream. I'm not blaming parents-- as a culture, we turn to food for comfort, joy, etc.
We are living to eat instead of eating to live.
and changing that takes some time.
Overall, I've still been quite healthy as far as what I've been eating.
As far as emotions...
I got pretty frustrated yesterday. I didn't know if there really was any difference. Maybe the only difference was in my attitude?? What's the point of all this, I should just give up and go have a beef sandwich with tons of mozzarella. Why am I even trying, this is chronic. What am I doing this for???
And then I stopped and looked at the pictures I've taken since I've started.
It is SO GOOD to take pictures of your skin, even if it's just for yourself.
...Because then I noticed that it WAS worse and it WAS more inflamed. And I've only been doing this for 2 months.
So I chilled out and decided to just keep on keepin' on.