My name is Rachel and I'm 17 years old, from the UK. I feel I should kinda tell you about my experience with acne before today..
I have had bad skin from the age of about 11/12 years old. I have to admit, although I wish it didn't, my skin has dominated my life for the past few years. I do wish I was one of those people who didn't care, but unfortunately I do care that my skin looks bad. I find it really hard to talk to anyone when I feel my skin looks bad, I find it hard not to wear make-up and literally won't leave the house sometimes, even to go to college.
After visiting the doctor countless times with the same problem, I tried sooo many lotions and pills which just would not do anything for me. FINALLY, the autumn of 2008 I was put on Roaccutane. I wish I had the sense to keep a log then, but heyy. I finished my course in July last year, and my skin was the best it had been since I was a child. I literally got one small spot every month or so, and that was it. My new found confidence allowed me to have a great summer, camping and going on holidays, not having to care about what my face looked like.
A few months after beginning college, I began to feel my skin was getting worse, and indeed it did until this year, after Christmas time, I just couldn't handle it anymore. I couldn't face that I was going to have to go back to who I was with bad skin. It sounds dramatic, but it literally destroys my personality. I turn into a shy and moody person - I'm just not myself.
The past year has probably been the worst of my life, and about 6 months ago I was diagnosed with depression. I couldn't go to school, I lost all my friends (I guess they weren't really my friends..) and I just didn't even want to go on. I was exhausted with it. After gettng through that, I was feeling better in myself but I still had bad skin. It was in no way as bad as before, but it still affected me and still does. Again, after months of going back to the doctor and even going through depression before anything was sorted, I was referred to the dermatologist 3 days ago. As my skin apparently is "not that bad", was given the option of a topical or to go back on Roaccutane. I know they call it a "harsh" drug, but I didn't get any side effects apart from dry skin and lips, so I chose the latter.
And here I am. I was told to take 40mg a day (what I was on before), but after doing some research I have chosen (stupidly maybe?) to go against this and take only 20mg a day. Apparently this means it will be just as effective but less harsh on my skin - but I'll keep you updated, and if anyone has any advice on what dosage to take, let me know!
So day 3 on Roaccutane, and what does my skin look like?
To be honest, I can't see much difference, and there's still a few marks and spots around the chin area, which is the worst part of my face.
I'm hoping for some change soon, and I'll keep updating!