I've struggled with some sort of acne for as long as I can remember. I remember periods of semi-clear skin, but I've never had a pimple-free face. At 27, I never thought I would still be struggling with acne.
I have tried so many skincare ranges and spent too much money on facials, blue light treatment and microdermabrasion. I've cut everything from my diet; dairy, caffeine, carbs, etc. I am not interested in taking birth control as my husband and I are planning to start our family in the next few years.
I recently visited a dermatologist after blue light and microdermabrasion treatments did not work for me. He explained my acne was likely hormonal and that birth control would fix the issue. He prescribed me Doxycycline 100mg a day and Biacna. I had tried Biacna before and it broke my face out in some sort of burn. It looks like the entire top layer of my skin had come off! Needless to say, I was nervous to try it again.
Everything seemed to be going well during my first week, pimples were getting smaller, I didn't have any cystic spots and if I did get a pimple, it didn't stick around for more than a day or two.
I woke up this morning on my second week and am feeling very defeated. I have about 4 cystic spots and they are incredibly sore. I'm trying to stay positive, but I'm finding it very difficult. Covering it with make-up almost makes them look worse!
I struggle with anxiety to begin with and when I look in the mirror I begin to feel sick to my stomach about my appearance. This makes my anxiety much more heightened. I'm finding myself avoiding going anywhere but to work and home because I'm embarrassed by my appearance. I'm also having a hard time seeing friends and family as they only seem to talk to me about acne and tell me all of the things that worked for them. I'm tired of being suggested products and listening to people tell me it's my diet, cut dairy, cut carbs, cut caffeine.
This might be a bit of rambling, but I Felt I needed somewhere to get my feelings out.