I'm new to this so I don't know if I'm posting in the right place, but I seriously need some help and support.
I used to have pretty bad acne and it cleared up with roaccutane. But now I have recently become so self conscious of my acne scarring that I avoid conversations with people, I avoid going outside whenever I can, and sometimes I feel like maybe I just shouldn't be around anymore. It's affecting me ridiculously badly, all I have been doing is crying. I hate the though of being that person that people look at and go "thank god I don't have skin like her".
I have been studying my skin so closely and I have convinced myself I have new scars developing where I haven't even had a spot - is that possible? I don't know what to do anymore, I can't see a way out of this and I don't want to feel ugly for my whole life. I look in the mirror and all I want to do it smash it and curl up into a dark corner where no one can see me.
I even have acne scarring in places that most people don't get it, I have it on my forehead and in between my eyes. Just typing this now I am in floods of tears imagining all the people that will read this and go "I'm glad my skin isn't like that".
I have phoned the doctor and counselling, but they aren't eager to see me soon so I am just wallowing in self-pity with no help from anyone. Please can someone help in any way, I don't know what to do.