hey guys and welcome back ....im not sure if any one is following all of this since no one comments or even say hit ...that's rude by the way ...unless you're just a visitor or you don't have any fingers please comment and let me know you're there . anyway ....im here today to talk to you about the affect of acne on me personally and im sure many can relate. well basically ever since i started noticing acne 1 year a go and no i had it for like 6 years but i just started noticing it a year aa go ...i know this may sound weird and there is a funny story after this which i like to call '' the blondie story'' ....i may tell it next time if you want . damn it i keep going into other stuff ....what i want to say is that i feel like im 2 different person : person 1 or let's call him ''bordy''.....is when i dont have any acne ....im like ...oh i'm clear ...cool ...so what now ....and i find myself lost because i been waiting for this and when it comes i dont feel like it's that big a deal ...and of course before i know it ....im focusing on other problems of my body ....like nothing happened ....bordy also thinks if he saw someone with acne that its not a big deal and people should just chill out ....its not cancer now the second guy ....emmm ...let's call him ''dotty''.....is when i have acne on my face ....i turn to this guy that keeps cheking the mirror every hour or so .....to this guy that lost hope in ever clearing again ...itss like why bother with accutane if i keep breaking out and clearing again ....to thiss guy that stays home all day ....well to be honest in this last matter he is no different to ''bordy'' but at least ''bordy'' can go out if he wants to ....dotty cant ...he is stuck there untill he clears out again ...in like a week or so .....and then the cycle repeats thats my life right now with this accutane ....i dont why i keep breaking out aand clearing alltough im in month 5 ...i mean in my last course i stopped breaking out at month 4 ....who knows ....oh well at least it summer vecation and i got no where to go for a whule PS: im dotty right now .....nice the hell to me youu .....hopefully i'll be bordy again
hi guys it been a long time since i posted mainly because afer that trip ( you can read about it my last post) ....i ended up staying there in capital city ....it seemed like the right thing to do .....but you know what ....that food didn't do sh*t to me ...so i kept eating all i wanted and by 2 weeks i was back to my original weight yay .....but things weren't all fast food and candy after that ....i bought cetaphil cream (im on accutane remember) .....and it screwed up my face ....i know they say its non comedogenic but it caused me tons of whiteheads .....and even stopping it i kept breaking out for a week ...untill my face started clearing by the end of my tests( im a med student) ....and as school finally ended and i was back home.....my face was pretty clear for 3 weeks untill i know ...where i got an itchy ugly pimple all the sudden ....im so angry ...im in my fifth month of accutane and im still breaking out ....last time i was clear by the middle of month 4......i dont understand sh*t PS: i been trough hell in capital city with the acne and the test coming up that i broke a window with my hand ....and ended up with a big cut in my middle finger a week before my tests .....luckily it healed before passing the test since i need my right hand to write .....now im left with a very ugly scar on my finger ...i may post a picture later
hey guys welcome to another entry of my fav new thing ( he said hoping that there is actually someone that reads this mess) im sure you all watched the show 24 .....but what really suprise about that show ...is how he shows us ....how much can happen in 24 hours .....like in 24 hours you could change from a single guy who loves to party to a married man with big plans on the way ....or how you go from a happy person going with his friends to vegas to being tased in the face by a kid ( yes im talking about the hangover movie) anyway im about to experience this by hand ...in a few hours from now ....im taking a bus trip from my quiet city to the biggest city in my country ....yeah ''capital city' ( and no i dont live in the US) .....and if you read any of my previous entries ( sorry for my english) ,,,,,You'll realize that im in no mood to take a long trip on my own and to stay at my dorm all alone just me in my toughts ......and luckily i'll be back in less than 32 hours ....so for my family they'll barelly notice im gone ....but for me ...this trip will answer many questions about my future ....with a chance that it could be ....my very last trip ...if you know what i mean so what better way than to try and enjoy it ....with my new cool sun glasses in my hand and my moisterizer in the other ...i got all i need but a clear face ....in other words this trip will suck ....the question is.....how much ??? see you in couple days my beloved readers
hey guys today was the breakdown part 2 .....and just like the movie hangover part 02 ....it wasn't as good as the first one today i had a big fight with family .....first you must know that my family are supportive ( or ''were'' ) but like any other person ....when you keep bringing in the same topic ....that person got bored and annoyed and start thinking you're just doing that for attention which made me realize how strange my mind work ....i been trough dark places in the last couple years but as long as my skin is clear ...i didn't give a damn .....hell a week a go i was having bad accutane fatigue ...i barelly could walk down the street and no one cared in my family ....they tough i was just making shit up or being overdramatic (excuse my english)....but i didnt care what they tough ....because ????? yes you guessed it ....i was clear....like 97 percent clear but now im fucked ....i have to travel 350 km to our capitan city to do some paperwork ....and i have to go alone with a recent breakout on my face ....and i'll have to stay at my college room ....ALONE with my toughts ......yeah i dont want to say what i think is going to happen ....as i fear the mods are going to delete my blog .( yeah you there smiling at this while you read it ) ....but for you smart people out there ....you understand where im going with this right ? oh before i forget ....im on day 76 of accuatne i took 73 days on 10 mg and ever since day 74....im on 20 mg per day side effects = 0000 (strange huh ?) if anyone been following this mess of a blog ....leave me a ''holla''
hey guys i kinda had a breakdown today because of a new breakout despite the strict diet i been folowing .... ...and while i was tied down in the floor by my own family so i wont kill myself ...i had a revelation ....junk food yeah you heard me i spend the last 74 days eating very damn healthy in order to avoid breakouts since i was on a low dose but i never was happy seeing everyone eats what ever they wanted while i keep eating the same food so after i asked my family gentely to leave me alone ....okay fine ...i didnt ask gently anywine i jumped on the junk food train and in half an hour i ate ''french fries ....cookies ...more cookies ...juice ...and yeah white bread '' .......and im doing everything i ever wanted tonight ....since there is a big chance tomorow im going to deal with a major breakout oh well at least i dont have to worry about the medicine not absorbing with all the ft i ate wish me luck ...i'll need it
hey guys i'll keep it short ...what i did was getting enough sleep at night and taking the drug at night instead of day it worked like a charm ...and i got my energy back ...sadly i got a pimple too this week ...so you cant win everything i hope this helps you 2 .....stay strong ....see you later
current condition on my accutane journey age = 21 years old sex= yes please ....jk.....male dose= 10 mg for the first 2 months and a half ....but since yesterday (day 74) im taking 20 mg a day acne side= been having 2 weeks of clear skin followed by 2 weeks of bad skin ever since day 14 (weird) side effects = been having dry skin and muscle fatigue but ever since i started taking the drug at night ...im having 0 side effects (just a little dry skin but no flaking like before) (super weird i know) do you have to use a moisterize while on accutane ? the answer for this is easy ....and i personally have tried using and not using a moisterize while on accutane and i have this to say ......when you dont use a moisterize your skin starts flaking and sometimes it can look worse than acne plus your skin will be super fragile ....trust me i had to learn that the hard way ....and ended up with facial hair loss that wont grow ever since (bummer i know) .....so this round i decided to use a moisterizer more often and i hae to say it does make your skin feels good but sadlly for me it broke me out ....especially since i was using this product called ''biafine'' ...my derm gaved it to me and untill latelly that i realised that it can gloc pores ....so ...: the final verdict: using a moisterzer is very important if you're having dry skin but be carefull and use a non comedeogenic one (sorry for my english) .....and remember to check the ingredients of your products online ....and see if they can cause acne or not ....its quiet easy and better than dealing with a breakout .....we get enough of thoes just being on this damn drug cheerz
my history with acne (boring i know) i had acne since i was maybe 15 years old ....but it got worse in high school ...back then i tried doxy and used BP on active spots ....but i never was clear or even close so i decided to accept this acne and live with it untill i reached college and got in med school ....i realised how much acne was making me inscure around other med student who most of them had good skin ...so one day last year 'may 2014' i snapped and became obssesed with acne ...so i re visited the derm and this time he gaved me accutane (my first course ) was 10 mg for 2 months and 20 mg for 2 months ....i was on it from may to sepetember but i stopped it due to high test results (ALAT and ASAT) and when my enzym levels got normal again ...the derm asked me if i want to go back on it but i refused due to hearing about some scary horror story about the drug and due to me loosing facial hair once( which i think was a part my faut becuz i over washed my face that day) so i stopped accutane half way and decided to try the diet thing ....and it worked great for 4 months after that (or i think it did) ...but from no where this month after consuming sugar on regular bases .. i broke out bad and despite going back to my old diet i kept breaking out ....so i decided i cant stay like this ....the stress was killing me and this diet alltough now it helps keep the bad breakouts away it made loose tons of weight and cant work on the long run .....so i did it again ...i went back on accutane round 2 of accutane ....scary and dark future so i went to a new derm and asked him for accutane ....he agreed but he said i'll have to go on 30 mg for a month and 40 mg on the other months ....but i refused ...because my test results were high on 20 mg and i dont think my body can handle 30 or 40 mg ....so i went to another derm and starting accutane 10 mg a day my dose : 10 mg/day for 74 days (done) 20 mg/ day starting today (day 75)