Hello my beauts! So day 44 of this journey and well the dryness around my eyes is just unreal. I don't know if last time I mentioned that I got an eye cream but that isn't even working for me! It's all super red and flaky and itchy. Just plain unpleasant really. My face is healing up quite a bit since the last awful breakout. There is about 4 spots still there but the rest are getting much better. However, my face is dry too and flaky so makeup for me right now is like a no go. If anyone knows any super way of applying makeup to dry skin please let me know! It's all still pretty red though so it would be sort of hard to cover anyway but the dryness makes it even more difficult. I'm drinking plenty of water! About two litres a day and maybe some of ye would say that that is nothing, but it is quite impressive for me. Like I'd usually drink a bottle of water in a day but this is something more. Hmm.. This is me trying to figure out if I have any other new.. I don't think so really. Oh, I'm off the medication that I was on when I had a cold since now my cold is fully gone! Happy times and all that. So hopefully my dry skin will get better now because I really noticed a significant increase in the dryness when I was on those tablets. Fingers crossed anyway. Leave me a comment or just send a message if you want to ask me something! Thanks again x
Long time, so see right? I'm not sure if I mentioned it in the last entry but I've had a pretty bad cold. So when I went to the doc's, I was prescribed antibiotics. So I was on both accutane and these tablets. It has been a rough couple of days to say the least. I'll be honest, my face is so bad that I don't want to leave the house. I'm on mid-term so luckily I don't have to but still, no one should feel that way. I'm even going around with a hood up at home. How ridiculous is that?! I broke out everywhere on my face. I had three huge ones on my left cheek, a bunch of small ones on my right, a tone on my forehead.. you name it, I had it. It was awful. Luckily, it is starting to calm down a little. But everything is super raw and red looking. It's so dry too. I mean, my eyes are just awful right now. Like the skin around them, not my actual eye. It's flaky and scaley, just not pretty at all. I'm still using the same products as before. I thought about maybe using some acne product while I was going through this, and it was tempting, but I figured that it would make it worse and even more red if that is possible. So, I'm living as a hermit right now. Hopefully, I'll get back to normal soon and these marks will all fade away. Here's hoping..
OK, so bad news, I have a cold - which sucks pretty hard right now. And since I had a headache, I wasn't sure whether or not I could take a painkiller for it so I just decided not to. It just came on Friday randomly. To make matters worse, my lips have been super dry these past two days when I wake up. They feel super weird right now - kinda soft but peeling. I don't know, it is just a weird sensation. My face had been looking better last week. I had one or two spots but the scarring seemed to be going down a bit (or just in general the redness of my face). But this morning, everything looks extra raw. I don't know if this is because of the cold or what but it sucks. On a lighter note, I made myself an omelette with tomatoes, onions and peppers in it for breakfast. And I had a banana and a glass of OJ. It was all pretty damn nice if I do say so myself. Also, Ireland winning the 6 nations! Get in there!!!
So, I skipped (or rather just didn't do anything for..) yesterday. It was quite dry yesterday and by quite, I mean there were flakes everywhere! It was redish in the morning but that seemed to calm down later. I could only manage a powder foundation because none of my actual liquid ones sat well on my skin (so I gave up on them). I bought a BB cream in town. I can't remember which but if you want to know just send me a message and ask what you want about that. My lips have been a little drier and have kinda split a bit in the middle. But they have been fine overall. But ok, today, my eyelids though. Like literally, I feel as if there has been a bit of skin burnt off.. There is this super red and raw patch (small now) but it is so scalding when you touch it with anything, especially water or cream. But today, my skin was looking a little less red and very few spots! Yay! But there is still a lot of scarring happening which sucks. I only used the BB cream with a bit of powder foundation over it. I bought some proper brown lipstick too. It kind of washed me out but I think it looked pretty awesome. Also, I was wondering, can you dye your hair on accutane? I kind of want to dye mine.. And I'm cutting it. It is so in the way it is unreal. Oh and Happy St.Patrick's Day everyone!!
I've never been the healthiest, let's just get that out there. But since I started college, my god, I am so bad. My diet is terrible. This is no joke, I go some weeks where I have like 3 pizzas. It is ridiculously unhealthy, I know, but it is just so damn convenient. I started drinking water though. I bring a bottle of it into college with me. I have a glass in the morning and maybe two in the evening when I am home. I have cut down on fizzy drinks to the point where I honestly just don't drink them. If I forget to bring my water in the morning, I'll either buy a bottle of water or buy some Vit-Hit which is so nice. I love them juices. They're don't that bad for you are they? For breakfast, I always have my big bowl of porridge. If I want to splurge during the week, I'll buy a packet of raisins or something like that to mix in. It is so much tastier. I don't add any sugar to it, which is always a plus. I have started eating a banana for breakfast too just to get some extra food in there for when I am taking my tablets. Oh and while we are on the topic of tablets, I take some essential oil tablets. I don't know the brand name but like, they're just codliver oil ones, I think? Lunch is pretty all over the place for me. Recently, as in the past two weeks, I have been making my own lunch at home and bringing it in because that is well cheaper for me. It is usually either some pasta with tomato sauce (like the proper sauce for pasta, not actual tomato sauce although I do like that) or a sandwich with ham, lettuce and tomatoes on it. Pasta sauce has loads of salt in it, doesn't it? Maybe I will cut down on that. I used to get like a burrito after college some days with a friend of mine but we have cut back because they are hella big and I'm putting on weight! Ain't nobody got time for that. Also, we have found a place that does small ones - so nice! I used to have a 2 hour gap and me and my friends would head out to eat. We don't do that anymore because well, 1. we don't have a long break, 2. I'm putting on weight from so many big meals and 3. I don't have a tenner to be spending on that every week! My usual dinner is something with a bit of chicken or fish. If I am having pasta, I'll have chicken breasts that you have to fry but if I am just having some spuds (or potatoes as most of you will know them as) I'll have some frozen fish or chicken. There will be veg with both of those dishes of course. I usually cut up peppers, carrots and onions with pasta and I'll have peas and colliflour (dunno how to spell that) and all that jazz with spuds. I don't drink tea or coffee really. Sometimes, if I have that odd urge, I'll drink some Lyons tea but that wouldn't even be once a week. I must admit I do like a Chai latte which maybe I'd get once a week. I used to drink it more regularly but due to the budget.. you know what I'm saying here. Alcohol wise, I haven't taken a sip of that stuff since I've started. It's a pain. Like, I've been to a pub with a few friends before and sitting there with nothing to drink is so odd. I know it is terrible to say and I have never been a heavy drinker what-so-ever and would discourage that kind of behavior (drunks are a pain in my hole), it has just be kind of my norm to get one drink or so if I am out. Oh, my cinema habits have gotten quite bad recently. I've gone to see like a movie every week and I've had the popcorn as you do. Proud that I've started getting water but still. And plus, my friends would stop in a McDonalds or a BurgerKing or something like that. I usually only get the ice-cream but still, it ain't healthy! My college peeps and I have decided to go on a lil diet not too so this should help motivate me! I will keep ye posted on my progress (or lack of!).
Ok, so I was stalking around this site and seen people do this kind of 'challenge' where they don't pick or pop anything for like 30 days. I so am going to try this because as I have said before I have a tendency to do just that. I could stand for like a half an hour in front of a mirror doing that. It is so nasty, it's ridiculous. The people living with me will be so chuffed because I'll be spoending less time in the bathroom! Go me So, I am going to start this.. starting today! I'll keep ye posted!
Uh, so my left cheek is a lot more red and raw today. Not so pretty to look at what-so-ever but sure, that is how it goes. There is a couple of more spots all over my face. The sore-est one is on the centre of my forehead which sucks but it isn't too big. Everything is just very red. Going no make-up today since I'm going to stay home and do nothing (maybe a bit of college work because that has to be done too). I'll let my face do its thing. I washed it quite early so I might wash again around midday just to get rid o some of the oil. Yeah, while we're on that topic, my face isn't dry today, slightly more oily than usual actually. Kind of disappointed to be honest. My eye lids were not flaky and my lips are feeling better. On a nicer note, I'm on day 3 hair and it isn't actually greasy yet. I will wash it tonight though because it just feels weird not to. Anyway, I just thought that I would update everyone. Thanks for reading xx
I promised that I would do this. Now, I don't know if these products even help me yet so I definitely cannot guarantee that they will work for anyone else. So, do not depend on my opinion. Also, I am definitely not told to say anything about any of these products. They are all just something that I have read up about, I did the research myself and I bought them myself. This is something that you need to do too if you're thinking about starting this treatment or thinking about changing up some products. I recommend reading up on this site and looking at vlogs from YouTube because they helped my decisions a lot. Anyway, let us get started! So, for a facewash I use Cetaphil gentle skin cleanser for dry/sensitive skin. I use it at morning and at night. Sometimes during the day if I am going makeup free and I feel myself going super greasy and oily, I'll use this too. It definitely does not dry my skin out at all. It feels slightly greasy when you're applying it with water (I don't use it without water, which you can do) but it doesn't make my skin feel oily afterwards when I wash it off. It is really gentle, doesn't make my skin sensitive or red or anything like that. It is just a nice product which lets the roaccutane do its job. I use my hands, haven't purchased any Clarisonic or anything like that. On occasion I will use the Murad AHA/BHA exfoliating cleanser with this to help reduce the build up of dead skin cells because I don't exactly feel like the Cetaphil does this all too well. Now, mine is nearly gone so I'm not sure if I should repurchase it or not. It helps, sort of, but there is still quite a bit of flaking around my cheeks and all which this doesn't seem to be getting rid of all that well. Maybe I will try something else out. The beads in it are small though which I like because it isn't rough on my skin which is quite sensitive at the moment. I tried some other product to exfoliate my face which I can't remember the name of because I gave it to my friend. The beads were too big and it left me red and raw. I'll try find the name of it for you guys so maybe if you were considering getting it, you wouldn't. As a moisturizer, I use the Cetaphil Moisturizing Cream at night time or in the morning if I am going makeup free. I have the sort of tube of it, not the tub. It feels quite thick when I squeeze it out but when I rub it in between my fingers (which I do before applying it to my face) it tends to thin, maybe due to the heat, I don't know exactly. It applies nicely and leaves my face nice and soft. It is quite oily and thick, so my face tends to be shiny with it. Because of that, I don't use it under makeup because it tends to apply pretty badly over it (for me anyway). Maybe with a beauty blender it'd work better but I use a brush. It doesn't help with the skin over my eyes at all really so I don't know how well this will go if my skin gets a lot drier. I also use the La Roche-Posay Nutritic Intense Riche moisturizer in the small tub. It is a lot more smooth, but again leaves the skin a little oily looking. I use this around my eye area only because the tub is so small and because it was quite expensive (for me anyway). It helped while I was on the 10mg and for a while when I moved to the 20mg. But for the past 5-6 days, my eyelids have been very flaky and his hasn't helped really. So, for underneath makeup, I use the Simple, Kind to Skin, Light moisturizer. And it is exactly that - light. It absorbs very fast and doesn't leave me looking oily. However, because it is so light, it doesn't offer me the amount of moisture I need in my skin. But for the few hours that I need it, it is grand, so far anyway. I probably want to find a different moisturizer that would work better for my skin. For my lips, I am using the La Roche-Posay Nutritic for the lips. It says it is for very dry lips. Now, I know most people would use Vaseline or something but I hate that sticky, shiny look. So, this is very good for me. It leave my lips nice and soft without that Vaseline look. I really like it, nothing bad to say really. I lost it for a bit so I was using Burt's Bees' one but that didn't work as well as this one, hence why my lips are a little chapped now. I found it yesterday, so yay, happy days. Anyway, those are the products I use. If I change up anything or include something else, I will let ye know of course! Thanks for reading x
I had promised myself that I would start this blog on the first day.. That obviously did not happen. However, here I am on Day 21 of my roaccutane (or just accutane, depending on what country you're in). Ok, so a little background to me. I'm 18 years old, from Ireland and have had mild but persistent acne since 2nd year of secondary, so I was probably 13 or so? I'm a first year in college now and my acne had been getting a lot worse since 6th year, spreading from just the t-zone and my chin to my cheeks, my jaw line, my back and chest and even my legs. It was a pain in the hole basically. So, about 2 or 3 years ago I started antibiotics and using prescribed creams, facewashes etc. Nothing worked, absolutely nothing. I never saw an improvement, if anything it started to get worse. I never really get any cystic acne. I usually just have a bunch of small-ish spots everywhere with a couple of those deep ones at any point in time. I'll admit it, disgusting as it is, I am a picker..seriously. I spend way too long in front of the mirror everyday just looking, it's weird. So, I went to my doctor in December of last year and he prescribed me this stuff. I didn't know much about it, didn't really ask much either. He took went through all the necessary procedures though and explained a load of shite. I was grand about it until I went home and started doing some extra research and scared myself shitless basically. That's the reason why I have put it off until now. My face went through a super bad phase in the middle of February (I think) so I decided that I would just try this and see if it would help out at all. I was prescribed 10mg for the first ten days and then it went up to 20mg. I take it every morning with breakfast because that is the only meal of the day that really has a set time (except for weekends of course). Right, so while I was on the 10mg, I didn't really notice a huge difference with my skin. I got a small breakout around my jaw line, the spots already on my skin got a bit red-er and my skin got a little oilier around my t-zone and on the tops of my cheeks. Oh, and if I haven't mentioned (which I don't think I have) I already have pretty oily skin to start with. The skin underneath my eyebrows started to get pretty damn dry around day 10 or so. And by dry I mean, it was pealing and flaky and raw looking. Moisturizer was a huge pain to put on there because it would stink when applied first. Another thing was that my legs would get very tired. I have quite a long trek into university in the mornings because I don't want to spend money on a bus. Unfortunately, it was like my bones got sore or something after around 15 minutes of a pretty fast walk (I don't speed walk or anything, but it isn't the normal pace anyway). This continued from around the 2nd day until around the 13th day or so. Now, I still get it on occasion but only if I have walked for about 30 minutes. Sometimes, my arms wound tense up too, but only for a minute. And my eyes would get tired too or out of focus. Now, I wear glasses anyway so this is quite annoying. Once I upped my dosage to 20mg, I didn't notice any real change at first. The area around my eyes got slightly drier, the rate that I got new pimples seemed to slow a bit and the pains in my legs seemed to calm. I tend to get pretty tired in the evenings, like around 10 or so (right when I do my best work ). But other than that, there wasn't much of a change. Now, on day 20, at around 10 o'clock, I looked in the mirror for like the first time since the morning and I noticed that my face looked a hell of a lot drier than usual. Once I washed all the makeup and everything off my face, I noticed a bit of flaking around my mouth, on my cheek and on my forehead. Now, to the touch, my skin didn't seem that much drier than before but it definitely looked it. So, I slapped on more moisturizer than normal. Oh, and my lips have cracked slightly in the middle. Again, the don't necessarily feel drier, but they look it. This morning, again there was some flaking patches. I still have a lot of pretty bright red marks from scarring all over my face and still some active spots going on. So, there hasn't been any dramatic changes in that way at all. My lips were dry this morning, they felt it too which was new to me. My eyelids were very flaky too. I'll try post often now, maybe a weekly or daily update if I have time. I'll post a blog about what products I am using soon enough (maybe even today), we will see. But that pretty much sums up what has happened so far. I'm looking forward to getting this first month of roaccutance finished! I'm glad I started it now before it gets too sunny outside. Anyway, I will update ye all laters!!