I've already given up on my diet for the most part. Someone mentioned fruit punch and I lost it. However, I'm still drinking a lot more water, avoiding dairy, and consuming a lot less sugar. Martin, Jon, and I went to Buffalo Wild Wings last night and I had a soda and an extra saucy pulled pork...so that wasn't very good at all. My cheeks are slowly healing and nothing new has appeared on them in a few days. I still don't understand why my cheeks started breaking out all of the sudden. I went from having acne on my chin, forehead, and t-zone to having it mostly clear up on my forehead and my cheeks becoming acne-chaos at 20 years old. I don't understand it. It's a bigger shot to my confidence than it ever has been before. I guess it's because I think about cheeks as squishy, cute little things and I've always liked my cheekbones....and now my cheeks look sullen with the grey dullness of acne scarring. I'm just hoping this whole thing is temporary and my cheeks recover. I try so hard to be hygienic. Over the last year or so I've self-imposed OCD behavior. I wash my hands 20+ times a day and won't go as far as to scratch an itch on my face. I wash my pillowcases constantly and won't touch my face with fabric that I know hasn't been cleaned very, very recently. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I can't go to a doctor to have my hormones checked. When I could afford a doctor about 4 years ago, I went to a clinic and they gave me some shitty cream for rosacea. Anyway, I'll try and keep this updated and keep trying to eat more healthy foods.
My face is alittle better. The overall irritation is going down a bit, but I'm still waking up with new things on my face most everyday. Yesterday I ate a spinach omelet, chicken and a bit of rice, toast with red raspberry jelly and that's about it. I feel very limited and we need to go to the store. Martin's overall attitude towards food shopping makes me uneasy about wanting anything. That and the fact that I have NO idea what I'm allowed to eat really...I guess I have to do more research. Stress levels are high. I took care of some business yesterday and hopefully this Saturday I can call a couple places and grab some applications. I'll update with what I eat today and what I do with my skin. I wish my period would just start. XD
My diet was more managed today. I finished out yesterday with a bunch of water and a crispy chicken sandwich. >.< Today I had half a small glass of milk, tuna, chicken and broccoli, a bunch of water and a cookie. Oh, and some tea. It's called Good Earth -Sweet and Spicy tea. I did my steam treatment twice. I did it once and then had to leave the house again, so I put on makeup and after that I decided I would just redo it. I don't know how hopeful I'm feeling. I'm highly stressed, depressed, and my sleep patterns are off. Hopefully my diet will make a difference despite the things going on emotional, hormonally, and psychologically. I won't get 9 hours of sleep tonight for sure. I have to wake up at 8 and it's 3 a.m. I'm hoping that finding a job will be the key to clearing my skin up and hopefully this diet will make a big difference for me as well.
I'm going to start keeping track of my habits and how they influence my skin. Today I did a steam treatment. I boiled water, put it into a bowl and put a towel over my head to lock in the steam. After that I used some Clinique or whatever stuff I got for Christmas. It's an astringent. Then rinsed my face with cold water. I've eaten: 1 small glass of milk (it's going to be hard to cut it out of my diet) some cheese pizza Terrible start as far as my diet goes. Today I'm broken out between my eyes, on my temples, and some on my cheeks. My cheeks seem to be healing a bit, but the left one has tons of little clogged pores. My right one is scarred up and not looking too hot. I'm PMSing right now and will update when I start my period. I know that some of the acne I have right now is hormonal. I'm due to start any day now. We'll see. I will update on the rest of the food I eat today. Martin and I are going to the store later where I can pick up some chicken and tuna.