I've been using DKR for 7 months today and unfortunately must post that it has not cleared my acne. I was recently diagnosed with PCOS, so this makes sense. I will be starting a new blog today that will detail my new regimen and hopeful progress.
I am back to wearing makeup. I went makeup free for about a week, until I overheard two of my male co-workers talking about me and my skin. Here's the story... I ran into one of my co-workers on a Saturday night out with my husband. He didn't seem to recognize me at first because I was all dolled up (full face of makeup) for a concert my husband and I were going to. The next Monday I came into work and overheard him and another male co-worker talking about the Saturday night run in and it was horrible. He said, "I ran into her on Saturday night and barely recognized her... she looked absolutely gorgeous." My other co-worker (well, actually my boss) said, "So she gets all dolled up to go out, but puts in zero effort and looks like !@#$%^&* for work?" Yup, I wanted to die. I only went makeup free for a week for crying out loud. Look, I know that my skin looks bad. I know that most people cannot tell that I have acne when I wear makeup, but I want my skin to heal. I am pretty sure that it will heal if I continue to wear makeup, but I'm also pretty sure it's going to take longer than it would if I went makeup free. It took a long time (years) for me to get up the courage to go without makeup and then I walk in on that conversation. I don't know that I'll ever be able to go makeup free again. It just hurts and totally kills my self esteem. Gahhhh... end of the story, people suck. I don't go around pointing out my co-workers bad teeth, or breath, or yes, even the acne my boss is trying to hide by growing out his beard... annnd why don't I? Because it is rude! Flat out rude. What fucking jerks! Now, back to my skin and its current status. It seems as though things are FINALLY settling down. I'm still getting blemishes, BUT... they are becoming less frequent. My left jaw looks a million times better - no new actives, just battling hyperpigmentation now. I am loving the AHA!!! I really feel like it has made the biggest difference in my skin. I use it twice a day following the treatment with a few drops of jojoba oil mixed and a light spray of VG for good measure. I quit using the crap DKR moisterizer. Me no like. Yes, I am not using DKR exactly as Dan has directed. I think everyone skin is different and you have to do what works for you. I mean seriously, I've tried a million different things that worked for this friend, or for that co-worker... but they didn't work for me. This is what is working for me, so I am sticking with it... for now. I don't have any new pictures to post, but will try to get some up in the next week.
I did it!!! I grew a pair and FINALLY went makeup-free today! OMG - it was incredibly difficult. I had a hard time looking anyone in the eye and when I was in the presence of someone else, I would turn my head so that my "bad" side wasn't in view. Ugh, but I am proud of myself. I know that in the long run, being makeup-free is really going to help my skin heal. When I got home, I rushed to the bathroom mirror to scope out the disaster and surprisingly, my skin didn't look nearly as bad as it normally does when I wear a face full of foundation all day long. I just updated a few days ago, but my skin is still coming along very slowly. No new actives to complain about really, but the left side of my jaw looks HORRIBLE... STILL. I have this fun mixture of healing blemishes and comedones. I wish these !@#$%^&* comedones would just make up their mind and either surface or go away. I hate the rough texture. I would honestly rather have a white head than a comedone any day.
So, my skin is... improving. Very slowly. I had a pretty bad breakout around day 21 and it lasted for a little over a week. My skin is still healing from the massive acne attack. I'm talkin' 14 new blemishes in a 7 day time period!!! WHAT?!? NO!!!! Most were located on the left side of my jaw, although I also got blemishes in places I have never or very rarely have gotten them before, i.e. my temples, forehead and cheeks. It sucked. Bad. I started to wonder why I was getting so many blemishes on the left side of my jaw and it finally dawned on me. I always rest the left side of my jaw on my hand when I am thinking or in a meeting at work. I mean, I'm not 100% sure that is what is causing the issue, but I think it helps to explain it. Needless to say, I have been trying to avoid all face to hand contact since, but some habits are hard to break. I started adding AHA to my routine about a week ago and it has made a HUGE difference. I think I stated in a previous post that the skin on the center of my forehead was looking pretty flawless. Well, since adding AHA to my routine, that small patch of groovy looking skin has gotten a lot bigger. I mean, we're at more than 50% of my forehead looking flawless. This is HUGE. Also, all of the blackheads on and around my nose are gone. Bye bye suckers! My pores are still large, but they are not black anymore... hallelujah! I know it's only been a little over a month, but I feel like I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. One last note, over the past 2 weeks my once favorite foundation has continued to fail me hardcore. It just doesn't go on like it use to. I didn't have any problems wearing DKR under my foundation for the first 3-ish weeks, but all of a sudden it looks plain awful an hour or so after application. My skin is not dry in the least. I just don't get it. Still trying to get the guts up to go makeup free. I mean honestly, I'm not hiding anything anyway, right? Everyone can still tell that I have acne, right? If anyone has any light coverage acne-friendly foundation, please comment!
Ugh. I really thought I was going to be one of the lucky few who never has to endure the initial purge/breakout... but I was wrong. Way wrong. My jawline looks like a war zone and it sucks. On the other hand, it is the only place that I am breaking out... so I AM grateful for that. I am also grateful for acne.org. It is a blessing to have a place to turn to when I am having a bad skin day and need some words of wisdom, encouragement, etc. I read all of these amazing stories of other acne sufferers who have finally found what works to clear their skin and I just know one day that is going to be me. Until then, its nice to be able to chat with people who know exactly how I feel and what I go through emotionally on a day-to-day basis. Acne is so draining. So, for now I am going to 'just keep swimming' and following DKR as intended. Hugs to everyone else who had a bad skin day, too.
Well, I think spoke too soon. The right side of my jaw had a major breakout between yesterday and today... four new blemishes! Ack. I hate this. I can't be too down though. My face IS clearing, slowly but surely. I've had a cluster of three comedones on my forehead for months. They never changed and were just always there. A few days ago I noticed they had gotten bigger, but today they are half the size they originally were. Perhaps they have finally decided to close shop and move on? I also started a new job today, which is stressful, BUT I know will be far less stressful than my last job in the long run. Hopefully reducing my stress will help.
Well, life on DKR is good. For the first time in a very long time, the skin on the center of my forward is perfectly smooth and poreless (which is the obvious goal for the rest of my face... eventually, right?). I am still not having any issues with dryness, flakiness or burning - THANKS VG! I am not getting any new blemishes, except on the left side of my jawline. Its always been my biggest problem area, so it's not really surprising that it still is. Closed comedones how I hate you! Really, a few of them have disappeared, but there are several (side of forehead, cheeks and at the corner of my mouth) that haven't disappeared and I would even say have gotten slightly bigger. Are they finally coming to a head? I don't know. I am dying to start Dan's AHA because I've heard it will take care of this problem, but I have another week or two to wait. Other than that, I have actually been leaving the house without foundation on, which I haven't done in years. I have also worn my glasses in the bathroom, which is something I swore off years ago because I would rather be in denial about the poor state of my skin. These are both HUGE steps for me and encourgement that I am doing the right thing and may actually have clear skin by my 30th birthday (December). I was at the doctor the other day and the nurse that saw me had the most beautiful blemish-free poreless skin I have ever seen. I, of course, complimented her on it and asked what she does to maintain such great skin. She said she thinks it is partially genetics, but also that she doesn't put any "gunk" on her face. She told me that her mother always told her to never let foundation touch her face and she would always have flawless skin. She said the couple of times that she wore makeup for special events (her wedding, etc), she broke out within a week or two. She always said she never touches her face without clean hands, drinks lots of water and stays away from putting scented anything on her face. All of this I have heard before and all of it makes perfect sense. I would love to be a foundation-free kinda girl. I only started wearing foundation to hide blemishes, but I am sure it has caused a lot of the problems I've had over the years. Even though I buy the best-of-the best when it comes to foundations for acne prone skin, it still can't be good to slather it on your face day after day. Now that my skin is finally starting to clear, I am starting to think about scarring. I have quite a bit on my cheeks for my accutane days. It's depressing, but kind of exiciting as well. I always told myself I would worry about scarring when my skin was finally clear and I've never come close to even being remotely clear before, so exciting to start thinking about/researching. Well, I guess that is it for now. I keep saying I am going to post more pictures and hopefully I actually will this time.
Since my last blog post, my acne has definitely improved. The blackheads on my chin, around my nose and across my cheeks have either disappeared or been greatly reduced in size. If things keep going the way they have been, I expect they will be completely gone in the next 2-3 weeks, which is HUGE for me. No blackheads?!?!? What am I going to do with myself? Skin has adjusted incredibly well to the BP. I have had absolutely no flaking, although my skin is definitely less oily. For the first time in I don't know how many years, I do not have to blot my face on my lunch break. It's pretty great. Spots are definitely healing quite a bit faster (2-4 days from start to finish) and they are no where near as big. Just about all of the blemishes that I had on day one are gone with no hyperpigmentation. I have had 3 new blemishes pop up since starting DKR, but that isn't bad compared to my 3-5 that I was getting per week before. Fingers are still crossed that I don't have a huge purge. I feel like my skin IS purging, but is doing so slowly... which, if my skin has to purge... I'd prefer it does it slowly. I am following DKR as recommended (minus the addition of VG to combat dryness) and I have to say that I truly feel like I am using too much product on all accounts. I am going to stay the course until I am clear and then try reducing from there. I just feel like I am wasting product, but am loving the results, so... I forgot to take pictures when it was light out, but I plan to take some and post them in the next few days. Until next time folks! Cheers to clear skin!
Well, I'm on day 4 of DKR and I couldn't happier! So far, the results have been fantastic. Skin is clearing right up and feels plump and hydrated. I have no dryness whatsoever. I attribute this to the vegetable glycerin I've been adding to my moisterizer on top of adding the jojoba oil. I add a drop to my moisterizer at night along with 5 drops of jojoba oil and have a pre-mixed spray (1/3 VG and 2/3 bottled water) that I use in the morning for under my makeup, no jojoboa oil in the morning. A bit of trial and error is required to work out a concentration of product that works for you. It's also oober cheap ($6 - $8 for a bottle that will last 6+ months). You can buy VG at any health food store (like Whole Foods) or online. I prefer to buy mine online at wizardlabs.us. Just MAKE SURE that you are purchasing VG that has been made in the USA. DO NOT buy from non-USA manufacturers - very important. Oh also, if you decide to pre-mix with water in a spray bottle... don't mix too much at once (no more than a mini spray bottle). It is prone to mold if it sits un-used for too long (at least that is what I have heard). I'm going to post a picture in my gallery of my progress so far. It really seems too good to be true. I feel a purge coming, but fingers crossed that it will not.
It's been a LONG time since I last logged into my acne.org account. Life has changed a lot since then and so has my skin. Unfortunately, I ended up having to end accutane treatment after 60 days of use. The muscle soreness got so bad that I couldn't walk. It was scary. Acne hasn't been as bad since, but is still definitely there. So, I've decided to give The Regimen a shot. I'm on day 2 and so far... all is good. I plan to follow The Regimen to the t, minus adding vegetable glycerin to my moisturizer along with the jojoba oil. I refuse to let me skin get super dry and itchy, so hopefully this plan of action is a success. Vegetable glycerin is awesome and so far, my spots are drying and healing right up and the rest of my skin is super soft and moisturized! I've really changed my makeup routine since my accutane days and I think that is what has made a HUGE difference for me. I wear Korres primer and Clinique's foundation for acne prone skin. This combination is the best I have found after literally years of trial and error. They do not clog my pores or cause break outs. I don't think the Clinique foundation actually prevents acne, but it doesn't cause it so... Oh yea, before I started The Regimen, I got a glycolic peel and facial and plan to continue to do so every 3 weeks from here on in. I think it gave my skin a really great foundation to start from. I am also on 100 MG of spironolactone. It wasn't until after I started taking it that my cystic acne finally stopped, which confirmed it was hormonal. So, if you are female and experiencing acne on your jawline, I couldn't recommend it more. Even without insurance, it is a fairly cheap prescription. So give it a shot and stick with it. It took 6 months before I saw results, but it was totally worth it. Regular pimples are far easier to hide with makeup than huge cysts and not to mention less painful. I'm going to brave and post a before picture in my gallery here in a few minutes. Will try my best to keep them updated throughout the process.