Hey guys, So, this is it! I've reached the end of my Regimen journey. It's been quite the adventure! After the full 3 suggested months, I'm finally clear. I still have hyperpigmentation issues, but that will also go away. After everything I've been through, I don't mind some temporary red marks. I just can't believe I've come this far. My skin is better than it's ever been on any other treatment I've tried. I would seriously recommend this to anyone with acne. This is the first thing I've tried that works. A few things I've learned while on the Regimen: 1. Patience is key: You will go through hell getting your skin the way you want it to be, and you just have to hang in there. 2. Lose old habits: I had to learn how to stop touching/picking my face, and even stopped wearing makeup for a while. I'm a lot more comfortable with my naked face now. 3. How to listen to your skin: I feel so much more in touch with my skin than ever before; I can usually tell what it can handle and what it can't, and how it'll react to most products. There's so much more, but I feel like those are some of the more important ones. I'm also so grateful to everyone on acne.org and the support I found on this site. It's really been an amazing experience. I plan to keep using the Regimen for the next 3-6 months or so, and then I might try to cut down on BP and see how my skin reacts. I'm also still taking Ortho Tri Cyclen-Lo, which is now a great fit for my skin. I'm also currently using AHA and moisturizer every night, and AHA on its own every other night. I also use it in the morning on my marks. I'm working hard to get a clear complexion! Meanwhile, I ended up finding a great foundation from Cover Fx. It's way better than the Tarte one, which was too orange on my skin. I'd highly recommend it! It's very hydrating. My skin is still a bit flaky, and I was considering switching from Dan's moisturizer to Cetaphil. Anyways, I'll be on here every once in a while. I wish all of you the best of luck! <3 Love, Liz
Well, I'm still in the home stretch, and it's so exciting! I just have a few things to report: I slept in my makeup twice this week (oops)...The first time, I broke out on my problem cheek, but it was very minor and is practically gone now. The second time, I didn't break out at all, minus a couple of clogged pores from putting heavy face paint on my upper cheeks. Woo! I actually ended up skipping the Regimen enough this week where some days I was only able to do one application of BP. Thankfully (and surprisingly), I was completely fine. I might try to do this after using the Regimen for the full 3-4 months, since it would be a huge time saver. Also, I'd say I'm around 90% clear! Yay! I owe so much to the Regimen. My skin hasn't looked this good and hasn't felt this under-control in ages. Once I can get rid of my hyperpigmentation too, I'll know that this was a complete success. So excited.
I'm 2/3 of the way done with the Regimen! I can't believe how much time has gone by, and I also can't believe how much better my face is. My acne seems to be 90% under control, which is so exciting for me. I really never thought this would happen, and it's such an amazing feeling! I can't believe all of the stress and time I put into this is starting to show such incredible results! Serious props to Dan. Of course, I'm still breaking out, but it feels a lot more normal. I might get a pimple or two here and there, but they go away within 1-2 days or are removed completely with a gentle squeeze. I noticed I'm also getting more pimples where I used to before my acne became problematic (i.e. hairline, nostril, etc.). Could be the birth control stopping the cheek acne, but I know I owe most of this progress to the Regimen. I also still have a ton of hyperpigmentation, which is pretty much all you'll see in these photos. I promise that it doesn't look as intensely red in reality...the AHA has actually been doing wonders on my red marks! They've lightened up a lot. Another thing worth mentioning is that my face is still pretty dry and flaky, but the AHA and jojoba seem to be keeping it manageable...at least, I can wear makeup over it without looking like a scaly, orange creature. I expect this to even out over the next month, we'll see! For all of those just starting the Regimen or who are losing hope, please stick with it. I haven't felt this good about my skin in ages, and you'll feel the same way too!! Woohoo!
Well, I'm about half-way through my 7th week on the Regimen, and I'm quite pleased! The left side of my face is [almost] completely clear now, and the right side is well on its way. It has 1-2 tiny whiteheads currently. There's a papule on the side of my nose, but it's been shrinking. I still have a while to go before I get completely clear and achieve the complexion I want, but the Regimen is finally starting to work! My skin is now rapidly progressing, and it feels great. Of course, there's still a lot of hyperpigmentation on my face, but I expect the AHA to fade my red marks within 6 months or so. My skin is also still flaky and dry, especially after a night without AHA. I think I might use it more frequently. P.S. Sorry I haven't posted for over a week...It's been hard for me to be consistent with this, but at this point, I might just post weekly anyway.
Alright, I'm still hanging in here and doing my best to keep everything under control. Last night, I noticed a few of the last buried pimples were surfacing, which I didn't really have a strong opinion on. I was glad they were coming out, but if they got larger, I would pop them in the morning. Well, after applying 1/2 AHA and 1/2 moisturizer last night, they shrank considerably! I did notice that a papule is forming next to a whitehead I popped though...I've spot-treated it with AHA, so we'll see what happens. Two other small bumps appeared on my clearer side towards my jawline, which I'm pretty sure is just hormonal, and they're also shrinking now. Other than that, I'm still very dry, but exfoliating with jojoba in the shower has helped that a bit. I'm waiting all of this out, and remaining as positive as I can! Eep! Since tomorrow is officially the half-way point to 90 days on the Regimen, I shall post with pictures of how my skin's improved the past few days. Woohoo!
Well, after some much needed moisturizer and jojoba, my skin is back on its way. The swelling is completely gone, and the redness has gone down significantly. Also, the popped areas are still healing. They're not completely gone, but they're looking a lot less angry! I did have to exfoliate with jojoba oil this morning, though. I rubbed a good amount of it between my hands and massaged my face with it in the shower. It works better for me when my flakes are wet; they just come right off! Thank goodness. I noticed that there's still some stuff that needs to surface properly, so hopefully that'll happen soon. At this point, most pimples that are ready to go can be removed pretty easily. The hyperpigmentation is once again my biggest concern right now, which I'm grateful for. I should probably wait until I'm completely clear though before I focus on my red marks. I am hoping so much that this is the last cycle of purging. Nothing extremely deep seems to be forming, which is a good sign. However, my 3rd week of Ortho Tri-Cyclen Lo started yesterday, which means that I'll be ingesting the highest level of hormones for the week. After that, I take the placebo pills. I'll have to wait and see how it all works out!
MY MOISTURIZER CAME! HUZZAH! I'M SAVED! My face feels so much better, and there's no more flakiness. Thank goodness. That's the only good part. Before you look at these photos, I'm just going to point out that indeed, my face is pretty damaged right now. Yesterday I had SO MANY whiteheads, and I caved and went on a popping spree. I might have even went a little overboard, but the good news is that the swelling is down, and now there are just scabs, which means they're healing! The only issue is that the redness is pretty unsightly. I really do swear that this is progress from last week. Everything was just underneath, and now stuff is coming back up and getting removed or going away. It needs time to heal, but unfortunately my skin didn't have time to do that before I took pictures of it. So, enjoy. When my skin gets to heal a bit more I'll post pictures for my half-way point of the Regimen. Peace.
Yeah, I clumped my weekend together again. I said I wouldn't do that, but clearly I can't live up to that promise. Well, my skin's been clearing pretty nicely. Most of the bumps are going away, or are smaller whiteheads. And that's great! I'm happy about that. The main issue now is that I STILL don't have my acne.org moisturizer, and the Eucerin product feels like it's burning my face! My skin's pretty red and swollen. I'm almost positive it's the lanolin alcohol, which is also clogging my pores a bit (nothing major). I can't change to another moisturizer though, because I don't want to mess with other products. I miss using jojoba, too. The Eucerin creme doesn't mix with it well. So, my skin is extremely dry, flaky, and red. Awesome. But, I feel like I can't really judge how it's doing until I get the moisturizer again. Hopefully soon! I'm almost half-way through this Regimen and I'd like to keep the progress going! Pictures to be posted tomorrow. Also, last night I dreamt that I squeezed a whitehead on my chin, and TONS of sebum came out. SO MUCH SEBUM. It was so satisfying, and gross, and amazing. However, still resisting the urge to pop...for the most part.
I'm worried about my face. I'm pretty sure it's irrational, but it's scary to see my acne change almost half-way through the Regimen. It doesn't look as unsightly now, but my skin is SO flaky and red, and these bumps under my face have a pretty smooth, shiny texture, and it's hard to see the pores around them...might be cystic? I have no idea. I want to blame the birth control, but I'm scared to because I have to wait 3 months to see if it'll help or not. Woo. I could be overreacting, though. The fact that my skin isn't exploding in whiteheads every day is pretty fantastic. I'm pretty sure it's adjusting to everything. I also just started AHA, which could be digging super deep stuff out. I need to chill. On the bright side, I'm using Eucerin repair creme as a temporary moisturizer, and that's going well. I'll just have to wait this out and see what happens.
The battles are waging on. I'm going to use the last of my moisturizer today, and then get a replacement one (Eucerin, most likely), because I'm pretty sure the new one won't be here until next week, and I can't survive that long. Always good to have a backup moisturizer, anyway! I've been speculating the state of my skin lately, and I guess it's doing fairly well! There's maybe one whitehead, but still 5-6 bumps underneath. They've decreased in size, thankfully. The problem I'm having is that I just can't understand where they're coming from. Is my acne supposed to be going under my face? Or is this just the last of it coming out? Then, I remembered something: I have no idea what, though. I feel like I've been through this before. I can remember feeling these bumps under my face that would disappear, and thinking, "What's going on here?" I THINK IT'S THE BIRTH CONTROL. I vaguely remember this happening with my first birth control. I think my skin is getting used to the hormones. But honestly, I have no idea. Could be the onset of severe cystic acne. How should I know. Going with the flow here, as usual. The key thing is that whatever these things are, they're diminishing. It's just unsettling that they're there.
So, I'm pretty much out of moisturizer. I've been scraping out whatever I can get from the bottle and putting a ton of jojoba in it. I'm hesitant about getting a temporary moisturizer, but maybe I'll give in. I'm worried about not moisturizing properly with the BP and AHA and all that's attacking my skin right now. Speaking of what's attacking my skin, I can tell that this new birth control is changing my acne a little bit. It's more underneath my skin now, but I'm actually okay with that, because it's not visible, and it doesn't hurt. If it pops out, great, it can leave, and if it doesn't, even better, because it decided not to show up anyway. It's so much better than having an evil, horrid whitehead that stretches to get out of your face, but won't leave for a week. I can dig it. It's still a little disconcerting though...I still have a long way to go in the Regimen, and I have to wait 3 months to see if this birth control helps or not as well. It's a little trying, but oh well. Gotta stick with it.
I just need to say, WOW, my skin was flaky yesterday. I have no idea what happened. I washed my face and flakes came off on my towel! I could've peeled so much of my face off. It was weird, but I suppose it's better to let some layers shed and keep my skin as fresh as possible. Gotta get all of the rest of that buried acne out of there! Speaking of such, I'm very irked by a cluster of bumps under my skin on my problem cheek. The other side of my face is SO much clearer, what's going on with this one? It could be because I sleep on that side, it could be the way I part my hair, it could be deep acne from popping last week, it could be the new birth control, it could be anything. The problem is, I have no idea what, but it's either coming out or reducing anyway, so whatever. There are also some similar bumps on my forehead, but they're not red. This might be a birth control situation. Not sure. When I was younger I would get unnoticeable bumps (unless you felt them) under my skin that never surfaced. No idea what those were. Besides those complaints, however, things are looking pretty good. The difference between Week 3 and Week 5 is immense. I can finally see some improvement in my progress photos! Yay! That's all. Enjoy looking at my face. If anyone knows what is going on with that army of bumps, let me know. Thanks! P.S. One important thing I forgot to mention, I'm running out of moisturizer. It should get here by the end of this week or the beginning of next week. I'm compensating with more jojoba.
I know I said I wouldn't clump my weekend into one mega-post anymore, but I did. I should really bring my computer with me from now on. Anyway, I'm just going to summarize: When I woke up Saturday morning (Day 32), I noticed that my skin was going to break out. Sadness. However, the important part about this was that I noticed I was breaking out in the same areas that were popped last week. I realized I have to stop squeezing whiteheads. Some people's skin can handle it, but mine can't. It just re-explodes. So, this time, I let them be, and the next day (Day 33) the breakout had diminished by about 80%! WOOHOO! Although, this was a little strange, because the biggest mistake of this weekend was that I missed a night of The Regimen. I was out with friends Saturday night, and was too embarrassed to take off my makeup and do The Regimen before we crashed. I really shouldn't care, but sometimes I let my skin control my self-esteem. So, I slept in my makeup. Ouch. There might have been a small breakout on my forehead, but it wasn't anything major. Also, I managed to get up before everyone and do The Regimen in the morning. Phew. Seems like one night isn't that big of a deal, and maybe my skin was a bit thankful. My face was EXTREMELY dry, though. I couldn't wear makeup without it caking or flaking this weekend. I was pretty disappointed about that. My search for a better foundation will continue. So, Sunday night, I returned to my strict use of The Regimen, with continually pleasing results. I also used only AHA after the BP so that my skin could shed some of the flakes it accumulated this weekend, and hopefully the rest of the growing bumps from previous pimples. Today (Day 34) I noticed more improvement, and not popping is definitely the way to go for me. If I don't want my breakouts to come back, I should just let them heal on their own, and not spread the infection. Another thing I didn't consider is that I'm about a week into Ortho Tri-Cyclen Lo, and I've read about an initial breakout from the new hormones. Could've been that as well! Who knows. The good part is, I'm hanging in there, and hopefully I can stop breaking out weekly. That seems to be the pattern for now, but at least it's healing faster.
I'm pretty sure I've burned my skin. It's nothing major, but it's pink and really sensitive. I know my skin's just trying to get used to the AHA though, so I won't stop. I'm gonna keep trying to find the right amount to use on my skin until it adjusts properly! Especially because it's working! My skin is way smoother, and I can't wait to use makeup for once That's all! Short post via phone since I don't have computer access on weekends. Peace.
I might have gone a bit overboard on the AHA. I feel like there's no proper instruction on how much to use! I read somewhere to use 1/2 AHA and 1/2 moisturizer...does that mean one pump of moisturizer and one pump's worth of AHA? Because I did that. And oh man, that was a lot of AHA. My face BURNED so badly. I wasn't sure what to do, so I just dealt with it. Luckily, in the morning, nothing terrible had happened, but my skin is pretty red and sore today. It looks like a minor sunburn. Hopefully I can feel out how much AHA I should really be using with my moisturizer...but anyone please feel free to tell me! I've also been pretty sensitive lately about my hyperpigmentation marks. They're very apparent, and from a distance it almost looks like I have severe acne because my spots are just so red! A couple of users on the forums reminded me that I'm probably noticing my red marks more because there's less active acne, which I realized is accurate. Living under fluorescent lighting doesn't really help, either. There are still a few tiny whiteheads on my cheeks, but they're practically falling off of my face, and not inflamed at all. Feeling grateful for this progress so far, and I need to keep reminding myself that I'm only 1/3 way there. Meanwhile, I'm going to submerge my face into a bucket of ice. Just kidding. But seriously, I would.
I realized today how amazing it is that I don't care about my face anymore. Well, I do, but not as much as I used to. It's quite a relief. For instance, I was running late to work this morning while doing the Regimen (so time consuming), so I slathered on my moisturizer and jojoba and walked outside, a greasy mess. And I couldn't have cared less. The Regimen seems to have worn me out emotionally; I can't be bothered to worry about what others are thinking about my skin. It's great. I have my days, but as I've said before, it's the good ones that make the trials of the Regimen worth it. Pressing forward, my purge has subsided, thank goodness. My skin seems to be clearing a lot faster now, and the flakiness isn't as bad as it was a few days ago. There's still a ton of redness and hyperpigmentation, but that's why I started using AHA last night. So far, I'm really liking this product. It's only been one night, but it totally works. I mixed it in with my moisturizer, which is what I'll do for this week. If my skin can handle it, I'll mix it in with the moisturizer and use it alone a couple of nights each week. After applying it, my face was stinging for a while, but it wasn't anything extreme. The smell was a bit unsettling (sort of like rum), but it faded quickly. When I woke up in the morning, I noticed that most of my flakes were completely gone! My skin was also a lot smoother. A bunch of small bumps became whiteheads, which will make them easier to remove. AHA seemed to exfoliate my skin really well, and it didn't dry it out like most chemicals do! Yay! Excited to continue My skin is slowly progressing, and it feels wonderful.
I'm sorry I haven't posted about the past few days. I didn't have time to access the internet this weekend. I'll just quickly summarize how my skin's been doing: Day 25: Again, flaky skin. Even though I was in a van for about 10 hours, I insisted on wearing makeup the entire day. There were travel videos to worry about and such. I bought Tarte's Maracuja Miracle Foundation the day before, which is a liquid. The woman selling me the product was successful in convincing me that liquid foundation would look better on my face than powder, since my skin is so dry. It's a good foundation, but my flakes were still visible under it. Later that night, when I was finally able to wash my face (about 3:30am), I popped a few pimples that I didn't want to be seen the next day by the camera. It looked pretty horrid but cleared well enough the next day to put on makeup. Day 26: I had to wake up at 6am on Sunday to start getting ready, so I slept for about 2 hours. Great. I also probably shouldn't have done this, but I did the Regimen again (12 hour intervals? NOPE). My skin didn't really seem to care, thankfully. When I got to the makeup artist, my skin was still considerably flaky and red, but she covered everything nicely. My bumps still stood out, of course, but the camera didn't pick them up. My face also started to cake later in the day, but the artist assured me it was because of the powder she used, which made me feel awesome, because my skin wasn't being lame. Day 27: I got back at 7:30am yesterday, with about another 2 hours of sleep . I think I skipped the Regimen Sunday night, because I didn't have time to wash my makeup off before leaving in the van. I ended up wearing my makeup for more than 12 hours. I was pretty concerned about my skin. BUT, when I finally took everything off and washed my face, my skin was actually looking pretty good! It didn't suffer that much at all. I had a couple of new whiteheads around my mouth, but I didn't mind. Maybe my skin needed a break from cleansing and treating. Day 28: Today, I'm back to work, and my skin can finally breathe again. There are still some bumps left over, but they're clearing well. There's a lot of hyperpigmentation, however. I'm waiting for the AHA to arrive so I can start to work on that. The flakiness has gone down considerably. I also start my new birth control today. Woohoo! Sorry I got so behind! Going back to regular posting.
Okay, this isn't good. My skin is SO flaky! I look like a scaly reptile! The worst part is, I'm clearing incredibly, but I feel like that's because my skin is so dry that nothing can live on my face. It's so dry, I can hardly even smile like a normal person. 3 pumps of moisturizer didn't even work for long. I tried exfoliating with jojoba oil, which was suggested on the boards, but of course it didn't work once I washed my face. This is insane. I don't know what to do! I have to wear makeup this weekend! How am I going to do that? AH! So lost.
HOLY RABIES, my skin is responding to the globs of BP. Sorry for the Hotel Transylvania reference, by the way. My friend's infant sister has been watching it about five times each weekend. How she handles it, I don't know. Anyway, I just have to talk about my epiphany. I've read Dan's advice to use more BP countless times, and always acknowledged it but didn't really care, to be honest. I was slowly increasing the BP in my own timely manner for the sake of my sensitive skin. But, let me just advise you all: If it's been 3-4 weeks, USE AS MUCH BP AS YOUR FACE CAN HANDLE. YOU'RE JUST PROLONGING YOUR BREAKOUTS IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY. Don't go crazy, though. Use a finger's length, but make it a thick line. Everything on your face will die a painful, itchy, flaky death. It's so beautiful. And, it's totally worth the minor discomfort. That'll go away more easily than your acne, trust me. So, there's still a lot of redness and hyperpigmentation and all of that lovely stuff, but I just need to post these photos I took today. Compared to week 3, it's amazing (see gallery). Also, I have no idea what'll be happening by Tuesday (progress pic day) with the new birth control and staying in a hotel and not sleeping and shooting videos and all, so here you have it: Is it perfect? Goodness, no. But I'm just so happy that the majority of my skin is flat and not angry. Pretty much all of those marks (minus 1-2 and those small whiteheads on my forehead) are from old acne. It's great. I can't wait to start using AHA on those, too. I might have to kick up the jojoba though, since the area around my mouth is flaking again. Woops! I've heard that some people use jojoba to exfoliate the flakes a bit, so I might do that if they're not gone by the time I have to apply makeup. That's all for today. HAIL TO THE BP.
As mentioned previously, I've now been using the full amount of BP since Monday night. So far, my skin is loving it. I feel like waiting to increase the amount weekly was a smart idea at first, since I needed my skin to slowly adjust to the chemical, but after a while, I was just prolonging my progress. Everything is drying up and shriveling away again, which is so lovely! I feel like makeup will be a lot more successful this weekend Also, I've decided to compromise my impulse to pop whiteheads. If I have a whitehead that looks like it's ready to go, I'll follow Dan's guidelines and gently try to remove it. If I can't, I'll just leave it be. So far, it's been working out pretty well! There's an increased amount of redness/scabbing (ew) on my face, but at least it's flatter, and I don't believe it'll scar. I also believed at first that I had acne cosmetica when I began the Regimen. This might have been the case, but now I think it's purely hormonal. My breakouts are in hormonal areas (forehead occasionally; cheeks), and they start under the skin. Sometimes they don't even turn into whiteheads, and the ones that do are a bit inflamed. The Regimen is helping, no doubt, but I think I need to start battling my acne from the inside as well, which is why I'll be switching to a birth control with lower androgen levels. Woohoo! I'll also be starting AHA soon, probably within the next two weeks. There is a LOT of hyperpigmentation happening on my cheeks, which hopefully it'll relieve. Feelin' optimistic today.
Okay, just a heads up, I am EXHAUSTED in these photos. I took them the minute I woke up, not sure why. Try not to be too alarmed. Anyway, yesterday was pretty brutal. I went about the usual day with what I referred to as my "oatmeal face," which was kind of humorous, but also came from a place of grief. My boyfriend reassured me that my whiteheads weren't that bad before I left to go visit my parents, but I was still bummed about it. I knew they were going away, but they could've been a little faster before I had to stroll around New York with oatmeal face. And, of course, it was brought up at dinner, which proved to be disastrous. I made the mistake of bringing up my birth control, which I'm going to switch. I'm currently taking Sronyx (Alesse), which is higher in androgen levels, and can hurt acne. I brought up Ortho Tri Cyclen-Lo and its known skin-healing benefits to my mother in passing, which instantly became a huge debate on how to cure my acne. My father suggested Accutane at one point, which really set me off. I was pretty insulted and upset, especially because I don't like people talking about my skin unless I bring it up. I'm in the process of conquering my acne, but it's still a huge insecurity for me. It was a pretty nightmarish dinner. Moving on, I've ramped up the BP amount to the full finger's length. My skin seems to be okay with it, so that's good! I'll be starting AHA next week if all continues to go smoothly with the BP tolerance. My whiteheads are drying out and starting to go away, which is awesome. One popped on its own last night, but I helped the rest of the trapped gunk get out. It healed well, luckily! So, although it might not look like an improvement, my skin is way less congested than it used to be. Its sort of like someone with a brutally stuffy nose, and when it finally starts to clear, a lot of snot pours out, which is nasty, but a good sign. WOW, I'm tired. Looking forward to a more normal post tomorrow.
I was battling the idea of posting pictures of how my skin looks with makeup, but decided against it. Not because it looks bad (coverage is nice, we all know that), but because it doesn't matter. This is about conquering acne and being proud of your skin, not showing how to hide yourself. If I could go without makeup every weekend, I would. The problem is that my image is a pretty big part of my job. It's not the most important part, but it's enough to need to look really damn good for the media, which sucks. I can't just waltz on stage with a red face...I mean, I could, but I shouldn't. I hate it, but that's why my goal is to have clear skin; I want to be able to free myself from those pressures and love my skin, and to be able to show those shallower people that I love it, too! Soon. Anyway, yesterday, in all of my hypocrisy, I wore my arch nemesis, Bare Minerals. I knew that mineral makeup could beat liquid makeup any day (especially for those with oily or combo skin), so I set my grudges aside and applied it after my moisturizer dried. AND, LO AND BEHOLD, IT WAS QUITE IRRITATING. It was irritating because my bumps (the popped ones this time weren't so kind as to diminish entirely) were so pronounced, it was embarrassing. I kept putting my hair in my face because I couldn't stand the way the powder illuminated them in the light. Also, the makeup, as most of us know, is simply irritating to the skin. It was itching all day. Curse you, bismuth oxychloride; curse you, mica. Sephora updates their Tarte products soon, and as soon as they do, that new mineral makeup is MINE. I am done with makeup that makes my skin look like bubble wrap. DONE. Moving on, by the end of the day, the only breakout that appeared to be makeup/irritant-induced was a small whitehead on my chin. Not bad. I washed that stuff off as fast as I could, to find that the whiteheads I was so eager to pop the night before had come back, and with a vengeance. This is why I dislike popping my face. They're pretty heinous, but it looks like they're trying to push out of my face, which I approve of. I think I'll just leave them be, but don't be surprised if they show up in my week 3 photos tomorrow. When I compare my current skin to the photos from last week and the week before, I sometimes wonder if my skin is worse, but then I realize that it's just healing. When I'm able to look at my skin objectively, I can see that almost all of my clogged pores are gone, and the ones that aren't have become whiteheads. So, in a way, it looks worse, but it's sort of like an epic purge. Also, most of the redness on my skin is from old acne, which I much prefer. Not bad at all. This is such an interesting learning process. I've changed so much in these past few weeks, and it feels like I'm developing a real understanding for my skin, which is something I've never had. I only used to have frustration, which is STILL TOTALLY HERE, but it's different now, because I can handle it, and I am in control. It feels good to say (type) that. Sorry about the long narcissistic epiphanies. Progress pictures tomorrow, WOOHOO! Love, Liz (I feel like something this long and personal needs a signature)
I find myself getting more and more frustrated with my acne, and I just want it to stop. I'm so impatient. I wore makeup yesterday, and by the end of the day, my whiteheads were so prominent. It really freaked me out, and I squeezed almost all of them. Bad idea. I know some people do it during the whole Regimen, but I feel like it just makes everything worse, and it makes me really upset. I can also feel a few new bumps on my cheeks (where else). Great. Anyway, enough complaining, especially since I'm wearing makeup again today. I promised myself today to stop scrutinizing my face in the mirror, which will hopefully stop me from popping. I am so done with this. I had a good day yesterday, but couldn't it have lasted just a bit longer? Oh well. I need to stay in control. My acne does not control me, and I'm going to beat it.
This morning, I woke up to no new forming pimples, and even better, diminished whiteheads. I was so pleased to see that the popped whiteheads from yesterday healed pretty well, and it doesn't look like they'll be coming back. Thank goodness. The papule near my nose has also shrunk a bit, which is great. I just want to be able to wear makeup today without looking like a bumpy toad. My skin is still extremely dry and flaky, but I'm proud of this progress! This is one of those days on the Regimen when I feel positive and confident about the progress of my skin, and I know I can keep going. It's days like these that help me on the not-so-great ones, and I'm so grateful for them! I know I said I'd also update on the makeup, but I have to write this in the morning before I hop on a train, so there's no way to comment on how that'll effect my skin today. I promise I'll post about it tomorrow, and especially on Monday, since I'll need full coverage for Sunday. Ugh. Stay chipper, y'all. These are the days we should take advantage of! Go out there and show off your beautiful skin, no makeup (unless you have obligations like me haha), and flaunt it You're gorgeous, and the Regimen knows it. It's here to help! That's my inspirational advice for today. I'm done now. Looking forward to posting tomorrow!
Jojoba oil is one of my new favorite skin products, seriously. My skin has been much less flaky and irritated because of it. It still burns when I use the moisturizer, but the jojoba has diminished a lot of the redness in my face. I was pretty surprised yesterday to see the difference after work when I looked in the mirror! I've even been putting a bit of it on throughout the day. It's oily, but it gives my olive skin such a lovely golden shine. The Greeks had the right idea with olive oil, and jojoba seems to be the non-acnegenic oil of champions. My skin is also still clearing! Yay! Even my boyfriend said something about it today. I'm feeling pretty good. There's a small cluster of little bumps at the top of my nose (in between my eyebrows), but my period is coming in a few days, so I don't even count that as a problem breakout. Needless to say, there are still some issues, and I expect to see some on the Regimen for a while. Two whiteheads were popped again on my cheek, closer to my upper lip. I was scrutinizing way too much in the mirror, and one accidentally just came right off. It was definitely ready to go, but I could have done without the bleeding. That always makes me nervous. I panicked a bit and nervously played with the small whitehead next to it, which I forcefully removed. So, now I have two bleeding pores I spot treated them with some BP to hopefully bring down some of the swelling and redness. There's also a papule growing near my nose (on the other side of my face this time), which always kind of bothers me. Papules are so apparent, and they take forever to go away! Ugh! Not much I can do about it, though. I also have to wear makeup this weekend, as usual, which unfortunately won't be mineral makeup. My makeup store doesn't update their Tarte products until next week, so I plan on using the BB tinted moisturizer this weekend before I exchange it. It isn't that bad of a product anyway, especially for one weekend, I just wish it didn't have sodium chloride in it. Oh well! Update on popped whiteheads and makeup to come tomorrow, just gotta chill and go with the flow here.