Honestly just hate hindsight. I'm looking at my last update haha and my skin was half decent there, infact no it WAS decent. It's actually worse now and in getting cysts popping up under my neck and I can feel one brewing on my forehead. What the hell??
My skin isn't in a good way at all. I'll post some pics of what I have now. I'm not comfortable showing my full face right now but this thing on my neck is painful
I have paid to see a private derm next week to enquire about starting anoth
Just a quick update with pics I just took.
there's quite a few and I know what your thinking, "it's not bad AT ALL". To be fair the pics don't do it justice cos my forehead is insane with all these superficial bumps (which btw Accutane helped so much) and I have a few pus -filled whiteheads on it. The sides of my face and chin and clear yes and I'm grateful for that but it seems the centre of my face is just not how I want it.
I'm still using differin nightly or sometimes every second eveni
Just wanted to give you all an update.
I haven't been on in a while and that's due to a mixture of things. I stopped Accutane in Jan, was on it for like 5 months altogether. I was clear totally for like 3 months and unfortunately came back, not as bad but it's not good man.
My forehead is the worst actually and I have loads of bumps and a few whiteheads on it, I don't understand. I keep thinking maybe 5 month was too short a course and I didn't get all the dose I needed, that po
Hey guys! Figured you all deserved an update.
So I go back to the hospital on the 31st of this month to get my blood levels checked again (they do it every 8 weeks here) I'm hoping to ask to get bumped upto 60mg. side effects: okay so obviously this month I got bumped upto 50mg, and I will say that I have noticed a difference in terms of dryness. My lips are seriously dry and peel a ton, I wake up often having bit my lips during the night and they are bloody.
My face is MUCH more dry this
I just really want to tell this funny story about what happened last night.
On my first date with this guy and ended up kissing, he had a bit of a growth. My skin is a TON more sensitive and this morning I've noticed some skin on my chin has been ripped off by his beard
But yeah, be careful with kissing guys! Hahahaha.
So it's just over a month on Accutane and I'm now on 50mg side effects: So my itchy scalp has completely gone away. My hair hasn't thinned at all, i think i was just being paranoid in the beginning.
Mood wise I am still acting rather impulsively and pretty energetic/hyper. I have not experienced low mood or decreased energy at all.. I havent cried in a couple weeks actually.
Dry skin on arms, its eased with moisturising. My lips are dry as hell and bleed often.
Just an update side effects: The past week my journey has been fine, scalp is less itchy now and doesn't bother me really.
Body has started peeling on my arms so I need to moisturise them every day. Lips are dry but not un-manageable.
I had very slight back pain (bottom left) which was eased by a deep tissue massage. So I feel maybe the pain is typical muscle aches from the gym.
I've gained 2 kg in 3 weeks BUT I started weightlifting again so this could be why, and plus I lost a ton of
I just wanted to post pics I took today on Day 19.
I didn't takeep pics on day 1 because I just couldnt.
As you can see from these pics the outside of my face/jaw is purging and is the worst. My skin seems to be clearing from the inside out!
Ps. Sorry for poor quality photos, I was trying to be discrete lol
I'll make this short and sweet side effects: scalp still very itchy unfortunately and I have noticed my hair has shed a bit the past couple weeks but I am trying not to overthink this and stay positive!
I woke one morning to blood in my nose.
My lips are DRY and peel.
Thats about it so far. Back pain has improved from last week. acne progress: shoulders have improved dramatically if im honest. I have maybe two pimples on my right and 2 on my left and they feel smoother.
So I've decided to write once a week in the blog about how my skin is doing etc on Roaccutane.
The first couple days i did not notice anything at all, nothing changed and I didn't feel any different.
On the third day I went a walk for about 20 minutes and it was sunny and I actually had some sunburn on my chest for a couple days, I didn't think that would happen so quickly! Side effects : for a few days this week I noticed when I take my pills my right eye twitches for a good 15 minutes
So yesterday was my official first day of starting Roaccutane or Accutane whatever you wanna call it.
I hot weighed in at 54kg so the dermatology nurse has decided to start me on 30mg for month 1 and bump me up to 50mg for the remaining months.. I don't think she actually mentioned how long I'd be on it for.
So obviously today is only my second day, so I'm not experiencing any side effects just yet! I've decided to update this blog weekly, probably every Wednesday with information a
I had my second dermatologist visit yesterday and it was with the head dermatology nurse. Basically long story short she believes Isotretinoin is what I should go on since I've had acne farrr too long and tried pretty much everything.
So plans are:
Next Wed I start birth control after I visit my doc and then the following week I meet the nurse again to take a pregnancy test and pick up my Accutane prescription. (Also yes I was confused too because I thought i had to be on birth contr
I haven't updated my blog in about a month and I felt it was probably time to do so. Life update:
Honestly, the last time I wrote I was in a very very bad/low place. I seriously didn't want to be here anymore and my mum was so close to taking me into hospital. Thankfully that did not happen. I took time off work to get my head around what was happening to me. I am on antidepressants again.
A couple of weeks ago I began to feel different, I started doing yoga and eating prop
That's all I do. I cry and stay in my room and wish I never started the gel from the derm. I look at old photos and cry even more. I'm a shadow of my former self and I hate it. I have no one, my mum is frustrated too. I look so ugly guys, bumps EVERYWHERE. Acne all over the place.
I've sprained my ankle too and that still hurts after 5 weeks so that doesn't help either. I have lost a lot of weight and I use feel like I don't exist. I feel done.
Honestly just don't want to be here any more. I don't. Life has just gotten super shit that I don't know what I have left to hold onto.
My skin really isn't the best right now. I'm tryin out Azelaic Acid and Differin again. I fear that the sun is making it worse, I don't know.
On top of that me and my boyfriend broke up yesterday, and it's broken me. I feel broken.
I forgot to mention I have noticed these tiny little pimples appearing over my body. I have no idea what this is.. The first one is in my arm fold, the second just appeared today under my breast and I have a few on my neck. :'( is this a staph infection? Folliculitis?
I feel like I'm beyond low right now. I feel shattered, alone, lost and indifferent. I hate my life right now. I actually despise it. I'm just writing. I'm not crying for sympathy or help as such.. or maybe I am. I just don't know.
I hate my face. I hate feeling my face, it feels rough and bumpy etc. It feels horrid. I just want to feel pretty and for me that's having clearer skin.
My doctor has prescribed me an antibiotic - erythromycin tablets - and a new cream. I am dubious about the a
To make it through the day. Struggling to see the point anymore guys. I feel horrible and ugly all the time, I hate my skin and I hate my body. My joint pains worse right now getting xrays next week but I may need surgery.
So on top of having shit skin and shit feet like wtf? Why am I actually here? I don't know anymore man, I do know I'm very very depressed though and feel like a burden. I've been using isotrex for 10 weeks now and it's done fuck all. I am actually considering a birth contr
I recently watched a video of Cassandra bankson on YouTube and she talked about how as her skin has cleared up, she still sees her acne and doesn't believe that it's as good as it looks. It's so fucking true, once you've had bad acne and you do everything to clear it up, once it's clear and you start breaking out again (not as bad as before) you literally view that as 100% as bad as the first time you broke out! When really it's not. Similarly, as your skin clears you really don't notice it bec
I do, I hate it right now. I'm so unbelievably upset with my skin it's unreal. I hate it and I just don't know what to do. I'm so sick of being upset and basically hiding, I'm nearly 25 but I don't want to be in this life dealing with this.
I'm fed up of rattling my brain wondering if my acne is hormonal, or fungal or normal or a purge! I'm upset thinking that I can't handle people touching my face even my boyfriend, that even when we have sex I'm thinking about my skin wondering if kissing
Guys honestly. I am at a loss. I really think I am reacting badly to this retinoid, is it possible? Like I swear I have a million bumps all over my cheek and neck, even UNDER it and I never get spots there EVER. They are tiny bumps no head whatsoever and occasionally itchy.
I don't know what to do :'( I am in tears over this, in fact I am truly depressed over this. It is affecting my full life right now and I can tell people are wondering "what the fuck has happened? "
I think I need to s
Circles, I'm going round in circles. I said to my mum today that I hate life, I hate my life life (right now anyway).
This year has really been the worst. It started off well with meeting my boyfriend but a snowball effect of bad shit has accumulated. It started with me getting ill in January, I still have a cough from that. Then I hurt my foot in February which put me out the fitness game, still haven't exercised since. My skin started getting shit again. My house got broken into and my bag,
So start of week 4 with isotrex. Dr those of you that don't know it's a retinoid (accutane active ingredient with 95% ethanol btw)
Literally my face is a mess and I'm thinking about just stopping the gel. I wish I hadn't started it. My skin was 70% clear with Differin so I feel maybe I should have stayed with Differin! I honestly don't know what to do guys. This is awful and it's truly hurting my self esteem. I'm trying to hold on but I just , I'm losing it.
The pics adde
So heading into week 4 with isotrex and my skin is a state, maybe it could be worse but it's really bad.
Its s challenging and I feel I can't look at people . because I look so different to what I looked like 3 weeks ago. My face is oily, bumpy, scabby because I picked (stupid) everywhere is bumpy. It looks rash. Is this what purging does? Will it or can it really get better?
My mental state is gone, like I'm so distraught. I do not want to see my boyfriend like this because