For some odd reason after 4 months now of being beautifully clear i broke out on my cheeks with four big red cysts. Im not sure if it something i am doing new, the change in weather, or maybe my change in diet (not that i changed it i just recently lost too much weight unintentionally so have been eating whatever id like to gain it back- hence a nice amount of crap) maybe my being alittle more sad for being away from a place i loved this summer and back in school which i dont so much love? I thi
Hello fellow acne sufferers!
Im back!! I always HATED the posts that read "oh im doing so well!" or "Oh my skin is looking so great!" because any time I was on this website or reading or writing in my blog - it was because my skin SUCKED. like Major SUCKED (*if any of you followed me in the beginning of the summer you know what im talking about)
SO- Im not going to start bragging about anything...what I am going to do is write to all of you about how I got to where I am now.
So...the long summer trip is tomorrow..the day ive been waiting for anxiously and nervously is here. I have very mixed feelings towards it because a) my skin is definitely clear! thats for sure. (of course there are those couple of spots here and there that bother me but ill deal) but b) i still look like i have terrible acne because of the scars allll over my cheeks.
the scars are bad. very bad. almost as bad as having the acne still. i hate to complain because it is so much better then it
So I am three months into birth control and a month and a half now on solodyn.. things have definitely cleared up since my initial break out but with clear ups come scars. this can be so much worse then acne! because even with the clearer skin it still looks like i have bad acne! I am leaving in a couple of days...so much for being really clear and feeling confident. right now i am not at ALL feeling confident.
this sucks. anybody have some words of encouragement? im in need
Im smiling as i write this right now. I was really scared to do so because i really dont want to jinx it but i think it is time.
My face has really cleared up. Big time. I am really happy with how its going but again- i dont want to jinx it so i wont get ahead of myself.
but seriously- compared to what i was writing about and how i was feeling and looking only a couple of weeks ago this is a huge turnaround! My right cheek- well lets just say it is SOFT! i havnt felt soft skin on my cheek
Well, I have three weeks to go until i see people again that i havent seen in 6 months now. my face has definitely calmed down but the scars dont allow my face to show any progress- they are just as ugly...okay im exxadurating not just as ugly...but ugly still as having bad acne. I want them to fade more so that i dont look awful without makeup! please please please g-d let them fade more i am going to be going to the beach and swimming and sleeping over with friends and i dont want to worry abo
The title says it all. but i am going to write just to get out my feelings right now. I was cleaning out my room and found a picture of myself at age 16.. back in 2008 i belive, and my skin was a complete disaster. what made me so depressed now (aside from the fact that i went to the derm again just for a cleaning and more crap to use for my skin) is that NOTHING has changed in the almost 5 years since that picture was taken. NOTHING. im older, and my face is just as hideous. I feel hideous. I f
Lately (yesterday and today really) I have been feeling...lets say...contempt with how things are starting to appear. My right cheek has smoothened out a bit (compared to a few weeks ago- ALOT) and my left cheek is showing signs of progression. Still lots of marks all over but makeup does cover it really nicely (i wish it didnt have to come down to that though). I am feeling really skeptical about writing this entry now though, because i feel like any and every time i write or tell someone, or e
Still NO CHANGE. Why the F*** does this have to be happening right now to me? I walk around the mall and just see clear face after clear face of beautiful women,.. and even if they arent beautiful, they still have such amazing clear skin. And I walk around and i feel like i have a gross disease the way my face is so broken out with spots and cysts. Its disgusting. over the weekend this autistic kid that lives down the block from me says "wow you have alot of pimples on your face" thanks kid I DI
Its been almost a month and a half and my skin is still breaking out all over my cheeks! i thought for alittle bit that it was clearing up alittle but last night when i washed my face I noticed so many new big active cysts on my cheeks..it devastated me. I had finally had some hope that it was getting better and it was completely shot last night...and of course today when I went out to lunch with my friends and any picture we took showed every dent and purple and pink mark on my skin...I felt s
Endocrinologist today. went over my entire history with acne and how it all has played out these past 7 years. Turns out though he cant check if it has something to do with my ovaries since I am on birth control and that reduces the hormones that would normally probably be at excess (if i got that correctly). he suggested i stay on what i am doing now, and maybe in a year if it gets better go off birth control and check to see if it is really a problem with my ovaries.
So for now.. I will ju
Went to my dermatologist today for the first time in over a year. Lets just say it brought back many unpleasant memories..so unpleasant that I actually started to cry in the office. I started going to this office almost six years ago for the same reason that I was there today- my face is just unmanageable. Nothing, and I mean NOTHING has worked for way too many years and saying it isnt pleasant is a huge understatement. So he gave me a couple of options but my problem is that I am going abroad t
Im three weeks in on birth control now. Not much of a change though. I finished my last final today and am back home. I know I shouldnt but I felt so embarrassed to see my family again with my face so broken out. Especially my sister who suffered from mild acne and went on accutane this year and has completely completely clear skin- im talking beautiful no scars oil free soft looking skin that I would die for. Im also really not looking forward to facing people back here who I havnt seen in awhi
Ive been really good lately... I used to shower every night and run strait to the mirror to pop all those nasty zits that were more easily pop-able because of the hot water from the shower. For the past couple of days (and thats alot for me!) I shower and glance towards the mirror and walk right out of the bathroom so as not to be tempted. I find that it works a little better for my face that i dont irritate all the other garbage around my cheeks by popping just one pimple that bothers me. So, f
Okay, so last night I decided to conduct a sort of experiment; I bought the new clearsil face wash (which I read online people are not such big fans of because of the salicylic acid thats been added ) but all of last year when my skin was really clear I was using clearsil (the old formula) and it really worked, so.. I figured id give this one a shot because I liked the way it lathered in my hands and really cleaned through my face... but- heres the catch. Im only washing one side of my face with
Ok, So yesterday i added a new entry for the first time in three years to my accutane blog... i decided to start a new one, seeing as this will now be a new eventful journey on birth control to try and get rid of this horrible case of cystic acne ive accumulated in only two months. I woke up in the middle of the night last night with horrible pains all over my face from the acne, and it kept me awake the rest of the morning from all the physical and emotional pain that it has inflicted upon me.