ACNE: Non exsistant. I have been on 20 mgs a day for a long time. I would say after 4 months, EVERYTHING was gone. Its called the miracle drug for a reason. That being said...time to get real...SCARS. Yeah, they were terrible at first. But they have slowly improved and my doctor has even let me use Retina since I'm on such a low dose. I have noticed tiny tiny tiny bumps on my forehead and jaw line (that only I notice because I'm OCD). But I'm pretty sure its because I dont wash my face half the time (because im so spoiled with the whole no oil thing). But yeah, acne is gone. Could not be happier, its really helped me out and made my life alot easier.
SIDE EFFECTS: Ooooo. Yeah. Well. Okay. So. Mood? Its terrible. I've always been a really really emmotional person, known to be hysterical. And my life has been pretty difficult the last several months. But...accutane amplifies the emmotions. Its bad. I know everybodys different, but I can tell you this. For me, accutane has caused a dark cloud that follows me everywhere. I just don't react to things the way I should. But the good news is, I shouldnt be on it much longer! As fair as hair loss, I had to remedy my thinning by cutting my really long hair to my shoulders a few months back. I hadn't noticed any significant falling out until today. Dryness isn't an issue for me really, though I still use alot of lotion! My lips get chapped occasionally.
HOW I'M FEELING: Could not be more ready to get off this drug. But at the same time...theres a lingering fear that it might come back. But I want to get off Accutane desperately and allow my scars to heal. I'm so happy that I did this but I'm just...tired of this.
ACNE: It just keeps getting better! I'm defiantly still getting some blemishes, but it's all gradually slowing down. Nothing big on my face right now. Just gross white heads and lots of red marks. But really I'm happy. It seems like a certain are of my face will explode and then it's clear. My chin was being the biggest jerk, and now it's all better. I'm hoping it got all the nasty out of it's system? And I'm hoping my cheeks are just pushing everything out and are almost done? It seeeems like its slowing down. I'm pretty sure some of it's my initial breakout. I pray I'm on the tail end of it! Also I'm getting weird hard pimples on my jaw line, but IDGAF because nobody can see them.
SIDE EFFECTS: Im on my way to school and I look down at my hands...they're peeling. EW. Nothing a little lotion didn't fix, but still it wasn't a pleasant sight first thing in the morning. Everywhere is dry dry dry, wouldn't say I care too much right now. Hair shedding has decreased but it's still here to annoy the hell out of me everyday
HOW I'M FEELIN: GREAT! Sure, I have some pimples poppin up. But I can tell Accutane will work wonders for me. Hopefully sooner rather then later! And it just keeps getting better and SOFTER. I went to the derm, I'm on 20 every day now (I was on 40 every other day). She says this might help with my side effects. I hope so...She also said we probably won't shoot for the mg/kg for my weight thing just because I'm so side effecty. I'm 5"7 and 110 lbs, I think being skinny for my height makes me more sensitive to it. I hope I'll still get clear! My XMAS break is starting soon so I'm pretty excited. I won't have to wear makeup! Most of the time anyway. And I'll be able to moisturize/hydrate constantly.
Sorry to anyone reading this, it's more just for me to get all my thoughts/feeling out in one place. I know I ramble often
ANCE: My skin is pretty much the same as last week, blemish wise. Still have some, but not too much. However, my skin is SO MUCH SOFTER. It's crazy. I'm so happy! ALSO have some weird things coming out. I'll have like tiny tabs sticking out of a pore. I had one near my nose on my cheek and it'd been there forever. It was really weird! I got tweezers and pulled it out of my face! EW WTF, I KNOW. It was hard too. It was like a weird hard pellet. Sorry to be disgusting. And I had another one on my chin. No idea what it is..but they leave an empty pore so..yay? Also the black heads on my nose are just kind of falling out. Super happy.
SIDE EFFECTS: Nothing really new! My cetaphil cream is keeping me really moisturized as it gets colder out. It does a great job! Lips, eh, nothing awful. My skin is kind of dry all over though, but in the same way it does every winter. My hair has decreased it's shedding by a considerable amount this week. I hope it'll stop for good!
HOW I'M FEELIN: Better. I had a few bad days in the past week, but I'm a lot more positive right now. I watched The Secret last night and that put my emotions in check. I don't know if I completely buy into all of their theories, but I defiantly think positive thinking can help in any situation.
Getting my blood drawn tomorrow and going to the derm on friday...unsure if I want to up my dosage but I think I will? I'm 40 mg every other day right now so I think maybe 40 everyday might be okay? I was supposed to go to 60 everyday this month, but sorry, that isn't happening...Side effects aren't unbearable as of now, and I'll be on break pretty soon so I can suffer the new wave of agony in the comfort of my home
ACNE: My acne is defiantly improving more and more. My right cheek? 88% clear. That's right. So happy! My left cheek is taking a bit longer but it's getting there. My forehead looks great! BUT...my chin is terrible. Well, not terrible. But theres always something on it and it's really annoying. They keep coming up. My chest/back has never been a huge problem, just pretty minimal little bumps. Anything that was there 3 weeks ago is gone now. I got an underground pimple under my eyebrow (so awk) and it just died. It was sooo painful and I thought it would explode into something hideous but it just disappeared. I have one on my chin and it seems like its doing the same thing, it's slowly shrinking down. Overall improvement!
SIDE EFFECTS: Oh my god. It's so hard. My hair sucks so bad. So obviously my scalp is dry yet it's such a luxury to not have greasy hair. I love it. BUT my hair is so so so so dry it's killing me. Its tangling so easy. hair. loss. It was the side effect I dreaded most and of course I have it. My hair is falling out. Big time. I'm terrified. I actually stopped taking Accutane for a few days because I was so freaking conflicted. I still am! What do I do!! bald with no acne? I know alot of it is me worrying too much. Not to sound stuck up but I love my hair, it's my favorite feature on myself. And I can't stand seeing it all fall out. So any hair that I loose is a big deal to me. That being said, people around me have also noticed. I run my hand through my hair and 10 come out. And people find it on them! SO embarrassing! And it gets stuck to my backpack. It's awful. When I took the 3 day break, all hair loss stopped. Back aches as well.
HOW I'M FEELIN: Obviously I'm pretty conflicted. I see the dermatologist soon so I'll be able to talk to her about it..I know she won't have any answers. I'm happy to see some improvements..I'm unsure if it's the Accutane or the BC but I'm SO emotional and upset..I'm switching my BC back to my old pill this week so I hope it'll improve my mood. I'm anxious...
ACNE: ug ug ug. I have definitely noticed more breakouts. Nothing super terrible, but I think it might be my initial breakout. It's not really bothering me a whole lot though. I had a pretty yucky situation on my chin. I got four underground ones...I noticed that there would be a little circle of dry skin on the yet to surface pimples. Kinda weird? I've noticed less oil which I'm ecstatic about! Overall, my skin is crappier compared to last week but eh.
SIDE EFFECTS: Oh my god. WHY do I have to be one of the unlucky ones!! I'm trying extremely hard to be optimistic though...this will just be a bit of a bitch fest because I NEED to complain! So last week I woke up with INCREDIBLE back pain. I struggled to get out of bed. I couldn't put my shoes on myself because it hurt so bad to bend down. The dermatologist told me to start to take the pill (40 mg) every other day. SO I'm pretty upset because this means I'll probably have to be on accutane alot longer...I was supposed to be on 60 mg everyday by next month. That's probably not happening. Do people usually see the side effects go down as time goes on (on one dose)? Or does it get worse?
ALSO hair loss! My goodness. I'm pretty scared. My hair is my life...it's not coming out in clumps, but it's a considerable amount I'm too upset to even think about it right now..
Dry lips, dry scalp. Aquaphor, coconut oil.
HOW I'M FEELIN: My mood has been a little worse, most likely because my first week made it seem like I was going to have a miracley time on accutane. I realize that I'll probably have to go through hell like everyone else. I just keep thinking about perfect skin perfect skin perfect skin!
ACNE: I wasn't expecting to see so much happen in just the first week! For the first few days, Accutane literally KILLED my acne. My skin took a drastic improvement. Around day 5 I started to notice some new bumps...oyyy. Nothing too bad, though. And that's not to discredit the changes I've seen. Already my skin has better texture. The new pimples are different than the kind of acne I've had before. They seem to...kill themselves? I don't know how to explain it For example, this morning I washed my face and two white heads just fell off my face. I was by no means scrubbing them at ALL. Raw skin was left underneath though. Also last night I had an underground pimple on my cheek that was extremely deep and didn't seem like it'd surface and i woke up this morning with a tiny scab and ZERO tenderness/inflammation left. I would think that I accidentally scratched it and popped it in my sleep but it was super deep! I really don't know what happened...? I've gotten underground pimples that swallow themselves up it seems. They never surface and they just disappear! Overall, I'm happy despite new white heads on my cheeks/chin and bumps on my jaw line. PLEASE NO IB!
SIDE EFFECTS: Obviously, dry lips! Aquaphor 4 lyfe. My skin is beginning to get a little drier but I got some intense moisturizing cream so I haven't seen much peeling or flaking yet. I had a mini panic attack in class yesterday. I was playing with my hair and like 10 strands came out with one fell swoop. It hasn't happened again, maybe because I have been avoiding touching my hair as much as possible. I'm trying not to think about it though...Also my back hurts like hell. I bent down to pick something up today and AUUUGHGH. It was so painful. Also, bruising. My arm got stuck in a closing door...it's purple.
HOW I'M FEELIN: I feel absolutely great! Accutane has improved my mood tenfold. It might be because I know I'm on my way to clear skin and I've started seeing some changes? Also I have so much more energy! I don't know why. I pay so much more attention in class than usual. I feel so much happier and I'm thriving!
On an unrelated note, I just ate a steaming hot cookie and burnt the roof of my mouth so bad that there's a flap of gums hanging off the roof of my mouth mmmm you're welcome