Ok guys so I had to do a quick blog post to brag about how much I love this new facial mask I just bought. So today I thought maybe I should jump start the healing process of all these flaky scabby pimples (Ew!) So I went to CVS to get some Queen Helene's Mint Julep Facial Mask. I saw the CVS brand Mint Julep mask, but next to it saw something new. It's called Facial Clay Mask Avocado & Oatmeal by Freeman. I was reading about how good oatmeal is for the skin, but couldn't find any products with oatmeal in it, and I wasn't about to put oatmeal on my face, So messy. Anyways so I got really excited and bought it. It also had Try me Free! Sticker on it. Apparently there is a mail in rebate if you aren't satisfied. Although the entire 6 oz. bottle was only 2.99 or so. So I went to work and got home and washed my face. It was gross. All red, blotchy. I put this Clay & Oatmeal stuff on it and 10 minutes later when I took it off it was noticeably less inflamed, and less blotchy, and red. It also smells really good, and doesn't sting like Mint Julep masks do. I'm going to put it as a spot treatment on and leave it overnight and see how it does! But I'm already incredibly impressed it helped so much in 10 minutes. For any of you who want to try it, What have you got to lose? I love the feeling of a good facial mask. Makes you feel so clean, like you can feel it drawing the impurities out of your pores. And did I mention it smells great?!
Excuse my bloodshot eyes in the picture. I look like I smoked a bag of meth, but I am actually having an allergic reaction to my dog.
Ok so last week was the week I decided to start eating healthier foods to improve my skin. Unfortunately, I didn't follow my plan. I became extremely unhappy all week about my face because this week was the worst I've ever eaten. I had pizza, grilled cheese sandwiches, subway, soda, chocolate. Chocolate is the worst for my skin. So after seeing my face after eating all this it was 1,000% worse. (By my own hand of course.) So this week I am really going to force myself to not eat all that crap. I have however been drinking soy milk instead of regular milk, but I've had soy milk before so that's not much of an improvement. Anyways I'm going to set this blog page to my homepage so that every morning when I wake up and go on the internet I will see my words of encouragement and my lovely picture of my skin. I don't ever want to feel this way again. Mark my words I am going to defeat acne if it takes my whole life. I want the luxury to wake up and not have to put makeup on. Although, this week has been good in a weird way. Since my face broke out so bad, I couldn't cover most of it with makeup. Actually the makeup made it look worse. So I wore less, and less, and the other day I wiped almost 80% of it off at school. That is a giant improvement for me. I used to not be able to leave the house without makeup on, and a lot of it. I had a lot of scars and red spots that I tried to cover as well as my zits I would get. But this time around there's little to no red spots and more and more of those gross, inflamed, red pimples that you just cant hide. So that helped me to overcome my fear about not wearing makeup. Enough of my useless ramblings now. I will be attempting to update this almost every day to let you know my terrible struggles of eating veggies and such (BLEH!). But, I will at least be posting once a week. It will probably be more than that. Later on tomorrow I'm going to post some stuff that has really helped me clear my skin for the most part so all of y'all can maybe try some out and see if it works for you too! And I will also be posting a picture of my skin and how it's doing this week later on tomorrow or Saturday. I will use my actual camera. Funny thing is I am a photographer and I took a picture to show my skin with Photobooth last week, haha that's sad.
In order for me to do this I am going to document every thing I am doing and take pictures once a week. Here is what my skin looks like as of right this moment. Not so great. It looks really inflamed, but a lot of those red spots are pimples from last week that are healing and are drying up from the epsom salt. They are in the flaky-ish stage. I have a really red, really painful, pimple or cyst right on my lip I really just want to go away. That bugger popped up two days ago and I've been trying to get the swelling to go down and the pain to go away but no luck. Other than that one, there are no other painful really noticeable zits. The rest are just small ones that will die within the next couple of days thanks to the Epsom Salt. I also hope my change of diet, STARTING TOMORROW, will help heal these spots faster.
I made a shopping list for my mother for some things I am going to start exchanging from my daily diet. Usually for breakfast I eat cereal, usually kids cereals with whole milk. Instead I am going to try Kashi Cocoa Beach cereal and some Soy milk. (I've had soy milk before when trying to change my diet a while back, so I am ready for that one.) For lunch I'm going to pack some turkey, lettuce, and tomato wraps on pita bread with a banana or apple, and a nutrigrain bar. For dinner I'm going to keep it the same. My parents usually make a nice home cooked meal with veggies, some type of protein rich meat, and I can add a fruit afterwards. I am going to stay away from dairy completely. And drink only water for beverages. Also once a week we have take out night, we usually just get pizza or chinese food. I'm going to continue with that because that will be the hardest habit to break. Hopefully eating better during the week and drinking lots of water will help and then I can start finding better options for take out.
Speaking of, when I go to Subway I usually order an Italian BMT. That includes lettuce, tomato, black forest ham, pepperoni, american cheese, oil and vinegar. Is this something that would be bad for my skin as well? I would take off the cheese now because I am staying away from dairy and lay off the oil and vinegar. I don't know about black forest ham, but I know pepperoni isn't so great for your skin. I figure if instead of having greasy pizza having a sub from subway with lettuce and tomato on it will be a wiser decision?
Today I'm taking my life back. Enough with the self loathing, pathetic, crying about how hideous I think I look. I have managed to keep my skin under control, for the most part, but I can't seem to get 100% clear. I have never addressed the diet problem. I eat the worst foods, and I know it. I'm very picky, but enough is enough. I've tried to do this before and never could, but if this is what it takes to feel and look beautiful, then I'm all for it. At this point in time I am about 40% clear. I have a large breakout at the moment, most likely because of the food that I ate last week and this week. This first entry is the start of my log on a road to clear skin. I know it will be tough, but I'm am going to do it. I am 19 years old and still have acne, still eat like an 11 year old, and still have no self esteem. This day is the start to the end of my acne.
My regimen before all of this includes using epsom salt, and manuka honey. I use bar soap to cleanse my face then gently rub the epsom salt with some water on my face. Every once in a while I do a manuka honey mask, if particularly icky painful pimples pop up. It helps, but I don't want it to look 'okay' I want this gone. Every morning I moisturize with a tea tree oil antiseptic moisturizer. That also helps.
I've had moderate/severe acne for almost 5 years now, and I am finally ready to kick its ass.