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6 Months And 2 Days!

Hey people, So I've been on accutane for more than 6 months! Can't believe how fast it's gone by. At least this summer! I talked to my derm a few days ago and I'm supposed to Continue with the meds at least til our next meeting in October. I wanna know when I'll be done so I got a set goal. Getting excited about it!!! I'm still on 30 mg/ day as thats all my body can handle without Getting too serious side effects. Just trying to stay positive and Take one day at a time.

blueberrie

blueberrie

08/17/2012

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08/18/2012

 

I Blame You Mum

My parents never cared or been supportive When it comes to my skin. 3 years ago after already trying every treatment available several times, I wanted to try accutane and mum just said it was a bad idea and that medicine was risky and made me feel terrible for even thinking about it. Very discouraging. So without even telling them I went on accutane scared to death about what might happen. Of course I experienced some side effects which were blewn up completely in my mind and when I told my mum her attitude was kind of that I brought it on myself. After 10 days I stopped. That was 2009. Now I just wished Id finished the course 3 years ago. Would have saved me heaps of crying anxiety and most importantly my skin texture. I've got some support from my parent though. cash. They did pay for some treatments that I had done. But i never got the emotional support I'd needed. So I blame you for this mum. At least partly. For not being there emotionally. For not even asking me how I'm doing during these 5 months. If it wasn't for you and you're opinions my acne would had been gone years ago.

blueberrie

blueberrie

07/19/2012

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07/22/2012

 

Nearly 5 Months- Update

So it's almost been 5 months since I started my accutane cours. There's been a few ups and downs, having to decrease My dose from 40mg to 30 because of side-effects. The worst Part has been what it's done to my eyes! They were so dry, svollen Sore and burning that I could barely keep them open. So currently On 30 mg which is ok. Still very dry eyes (but not nearly as bad) dry lips And sore joints. As far as scarring goes its still very obvious and I'm trying not to look at it too much to keep myself from getting depressed. Will deal with it later. Hoping to end this course pretty soon and that acne Doesn't return. Ever. And that my scarring disappears. As if it would. That's it for this time!

blueberrie

blueberrie

07/11/2012

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07/16/2012

 

Hate My Life

Just over 2,5 months in and the acne is pretty much gone. the scarring is getting more noticeable every day. I hate it. Can't bare to look myself in the mirror. this i so not what i had in mind for myself when thinking about the future.

blueberrie

blueberrie

05/10/2012

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05/11/2012

 

Accutane -Nearly A Month!

So it's almost a month since I've started the course and i'm still going pretty well-. I'm on 30 mg/day atm but probably increasing to 40 mg this week. Actually (for some strange reason) I haven't felt this happy in quite a while!? I thought it would be the exact opposite and I pictured myself (as well as prepared myself) for getting depressed. it's weird. I haven't cried in ages!! Although I've been pretty good at avoiding mirrors in bad lighting but even that doesn't get me down as much as it used to. I'm pretty happy to say that I never got a flare up like many people say they do, I've only got one or two new pimples since I've started!!! I got a few old ones that I had before starting the course that doesn't seem to do away though, is that normal??? The side effects I'm experiencing so far are very dry lips, dry skin (but actually not too bad, I've experienced worse on topicals) and feeling more tired than usually. I can't wait til I'm done!!!!

blueberrie

blueberrie

03/26/2012

 

I've Finally Taken The Big Step..

Which is accutane. I'm on my fifth day, so far 20mg a day but increasing the dose up to 40 mg during the coming weeks. I can't believe I'm experiencing NO SIDE EFFECTS! Feels like they've given me the wrongs meds? And I've been TERRIFIED for this. Just hoping things will stay this way even though the dose is going up... Wish me good luck. Hopefully my life will be a lot easier by the summer.

blueberrie

blueberrie

03/05/2012

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03/12/2012

 

Regrets

I should have done something sooner Something that actually worked

blueberrie

blueberrie

01/02/2012

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03/12/2012

 

Next Step

I spoke to my dermatologist on the phone the other day. Since I can't make up my mind about accutane/my acne has got better on this new BC I'm trying, I'm gonna be on antibiotics for about 50 days, until after christmas holidays etc. Hopefully it will kill the remaining acne for good. Although I have tried it before without any major success.. I'm giving it another go!! Keep your fingers crossed people

blueberrie

blueberrie

12/05/2011

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12/13/2011

 

A Walking Disease

HELLO I have started taking a new sort of birth control in order to get Accutane prescribed eventually. I'm still hesitant about the medicine and as it seems this bc seems is doing a pretty good job by itself. or at least it seemed to. Acne find its way around as usual and is gradually coming back again now NEVER GET YOUR HOPES UP!!! I don't know how many times I've been disappointed now, probably hundreds of times during these 7 years. I'm starting to feel like a walking disease. I had an appointment with my term a few weeks ago. Total waste of time. She offered me Accutane but also recommended me to try antibiotics (why?!) which I've already tried like 4 times before with no luck. I couldn't make up my mind whether i wanted it or not so she sent me home and told me to let her know once i've decided. Thing is, I'll NEVER MAKE UP MY MIND! Which i told her. I change my mind about it every other day. One day I'm a 100 % sure I'm gonna do it. Next day my acne looks a tiny bit better and I feel OK without it. Is there someone I can go and talk to? someone who can help me making this decision? Making a list of advantages, disadvantages etc. Feeling and worries I have. Maybe they'll discover that I'm not strong enough mentally and the idea of me ever getting Accutane will be totally put off? I don't know what to do I'm quite depressed and Im worried the medicine is gonna make it worse. At the same time I can't stand living like this anymore. I don't even turn the lights on when entering the bathroom because if I see myself in that light I won't make it outside the apartment. I don't wanna live like that any longer!

blueberrie

blueberrie

11/26/2011

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12/01/2011

 

A Modified Version Of Roaccutane

I'm currently studying neurological diseases of the brain and was told that medication usually have a hard time entering the brain because of the protective blod-brain barrier, which also makes it hard designing medication for these types of diseases. This made me think of roaccutane. Wouldn't it be possible designing another form of the medication which doesn't affect the brain, but only the skin issues. Another type of vitamin A derivate?? All you people who study chemistry and know stuff about it, would this even be possible?? That would make heaps of people more acceptable to this drug including myself. I'm scared to death about possibly taking this drug..

blueberrie

blueberrie

11/03/2011

 

How Does This Site Work? Confused

If I write a comment to someone, how am I supposed to know if they've replied or something when i don't get any notices? How does all of this work? How can I keep track of all my posts and why don't i get a notice when someone commented on my blog? This is all very confusing. Not very logical.. please help

blueberrie

blueberrie

11/02/2011

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11/02/2011

 

My Derm Has Disappeared?

I sent my derm an email, explaining how i felt after a phone call where she told me Id have to wait another 2 months before even considering going for accutane (taking the blood tests etc). Basically i have to be on the pill to get accutane at all, which I don't want to do in vain. Therefore i was asking her why they didn't check my blood before I had to go on the pill, in case I'm not a candidate for accutane anyway. I also explained how i felt emotionally. And how disappointed I am that I have to wait 2 months, because she told me 1 month earlier. I can barely wait a day. It's been over a week since i sent the email and I haven't heard anything at all from her. Not sure what to do I sent another email asking if she'd got my other one. still no reply. what to do? why isn't she answering my email?

blueberrie

blueberrie

09/28/2011

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09/30/2011

 

why me??

Today is shit. It's just one of those days.. i hate this.

blueberrie

blueberrie

09/15/2011

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10/02/2011

 

Accutane or not

It's about Accutane. Is it worth is? Is all the talk about longterm side-effects bullshit or are parts of it true? I don't wanna have to choose between a lifelong acne battle or a lifelong desease battle This sucks

blueberrie

blueberrie

09/11/2011

 

Is this how it's gonna be?

Hi everyone I'm new at this site and like most of you guys I'm in a constant struggle with acne. It's no longer just a struggle with acne, it's a struggle with self esteem and disatisfaction and lost control. I feel like I'm the only one out there, I don't know anyone who've had these huge problems with acne, I feel like a monster. It's like acne is eating up my face while I'm watching helpless. The physiological impact it's had on me is enormous. I have tried almost everything. Every cream on the market, antibiotics, birthcontrol pills, light therapy, unconventional stuff like homeophatic approach. NOTHING is working!!! It's no longer the acne itself that buggers me- but the scars it leaves behind. I NEVER used to scar before which is probably the reason why I could stand it this long. Then i tried out roaccutane for about 10 days and had horrible reactions to it, which made me stop the course. And its after that my skin started scarring, could it be related??? When I ask my doctor she obviously denies this. I feel like roaccutane might be my only go. Should I give it another try? Thing is I'm SO worried about catching on all these stuff I read about; brain damage, kidney failure, cancer, alzheimer?! who know what. It's hard to get what's true and what's only lies. Generally I'm a worried person. I worry about everything, specially when it comes to medication and diseases. I would prob catch horrible side effects just cos I believe that 's what's gonna happen. Anywho, please tell me about your experiences., or ideas. what worked for you? My acne would probably be considered moderate-severe. If you have any accutane experience let me know how you gone! Cheers // Blueberrie

blueberrie

blueberrie

09/10/2011

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09/11/2011

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