Feel like I need to change the title of my blog since I'm neither on 40mgs a day nor am I probably going to be off this stuff in 5 months. So, after my derm appointment on the 24th, I'm still on 60mgs a day - and I ended up having a little breakout last week - probably stress related. My ever problematic jawline had 2 little ones develop (which I popped) and I developed another pimple in that problem area on the apple of my left cheek (which I also popped). The good thing is that these pimples are small - the bad thing is that they still don't dry up and go away, they really just sit there (hence my popping). The red abcess on my nose is finally starting to go away, but there is still a bit of a red mark.
Otherwise, things are good! Still really just dealing with redmarks - and my right jawline, though almost perfect, is not completely smooth yet. I'm beginning to wonder too if the accutane accentuates redmarks? The ones on my cheeks just don't seem to be fading at all!
So, technically I should only have to do one more month of this - but because of the breakout, I expect I'll be on it for another month. My derm said she'll keep me on it until I have a full month of clear skin.
Have to say I'm kind of ready to be done with it. I'm tired of the chapped lips and feeling tired all the time. I really do feel so low energy on this drug. Can't wait to be done...argh. Definitely worth it for the results - my skin has never been so healthy in the last ten years - but I'm tired of being on drugs all the time.
Sorry I have not been updating, but my skin has been so good that there's been so little to report!!! I have not had ANY breakouts - not ANY - since my last posting!!! Woot! My skin is so smooth - and the only thing I have to contend with are redmarks - and there are a lot of them all over my cheeks. Hope they fade soon so I can go out and about without my makeup!
I have my next derm appointment tomorrow - and I expect she'll keep me on another month, which is totally fine by me. I'm scared to go off this stuff and have my horrible skin return. The only thing I look forward to in getting off the accutane is for my lips to return to normal (so dry and flaky) and for me to be able to bask in the sun without turning purple and swollen.
Only weird development is that I've developed another one of those cystic red abscesses on my nose - this time on the other nostril! The one I had before has completely healed, but it took about a month. I don't know why these things develop, but it seems to coincide with anytime I have a cold. Maybe it's the irritation from the tissue that ruptures the skin around my nostrils. Anyways, never happened to me before Accutane - so I expect it has something to do with it. Wish it would go away!!!
Will report again soon - I promise!
I just returned from a beach vacation in the Caribbean - and definitely saw the effects of Accutane - both good and bad. I decided to keep it to 30mgs a day instead of my prescribed 60mgs - just to minimize dryness.
To start with the good, my face usually massively breaks out on planes. But no problems this trip! I had one tiny little pimple develop in the middle of my chin, but I popped it, and it has already healed. Sitting in the sun also used to cause major breakouts - but again no problem! Still clear!!! Woot!!! Also, I didn't have too much of a problem with dry lips. I brought my vaseline everywhere - and bought SPF50 chapstick, so they were ok. My skin also just feels so smooth and soft to touch. I love it!!
Now the bad part - I still have redmarks, so I couldn't go out without my makeup and am still self-conscious about it washing off while I'm in the water. Also, I used SPF 85 for a boat trip (granted I was outside all day) and I came back so, so, so sunburnt!! Most places on my body aren't too bad, but places I missed with the sunscreen look almost purple - and they hurt! Bad. Bad. Bad. Aloe is my only friend. I know people noticed that it was weird that I just burnt since I kept applying sunscreen. I don't usually burn like this - I usually tan! So this was really weird.
Back on the 60mgs again starting today. Here's hoping for a month of clear skin so I can be off of Accutane soon!
Oh my God - I can't believe I've been on this stuff for 100 days! Feels like some sort of anniversary.
So update - since my derm appointment last Friday, I've been back up to 60mgs a day again - 1 30 mg. pill in the morning, and 1 at night. I definitely feel the difference from the 30mgs a day. My eyes are kind of perpetually red, my lips are peelier, and I'm so, so tired.
Good news is: clear skin! I'm really amazed. Even my mom, who I haven't seen in a couple months, said yesterday - "wow, your skin looks so good! Just the texture looks really even!" Felt so good to hear that. Haven't gotten that compliment much in my life.
I'm scheduled to have my period any day now - but it is late. I really think the Accutane is affecting this because I had a similar issue when I first went on it. So, I have a little, tiny, tiny pimple - not even worth mentioning - on my right cheek. It's really pinsized. Otherwise, no new breakouts!!! I really just am contending with side effects and red marks now.
I'm going on a beach vacation this weekend with a group, so I'm thinking of cutting back down to 30mgs again a day - just for the weekend. It sucks to have to be really careful in the sun and that I couldn't get a wax - I spent a few hours yesterday plucking hairs 1 by 1. But, anything for clear skin so that for the next beach vacation, I'll be free to turn my face to the sun and not be afraid of it causing a pimple or peeling!
So happy with Accutane. A part of me wants it to be done with so I can go back to a normal life - and part of me wants to stay on it forever so that my skin will never look like it used to again! Anything for that...
So, finally had my derm appointment today. I have a new prescription so I now have enough pills to go back to doing 2 30mg pills a day instead of the 30 mgs once a day. Back up to 60mgs!
Actually, dropping down to the 30mgs really helped with side effects. I had more energy this week and my lips weren't unmanageably peely. Worried that they will get really peely again soon, but anything for clear skin!
I asked my derm how much longer on Accutane and she said she'd only take me off it once I have a full month of no breakouts. I'm still having breakouts along the jawline, but nothing major. I can still feel some underskin bumps there, so I don't think I'm done breaking out there yet. But otherwise, I don't worry about my skin too much anymore. It's such a nice feeling! It's really only redmarks that keep me from going out without makeup - but those are slowly fading.
Hopefully this next month (my fourth month on Accutane) will be the turning point. I'm hoping to be off by Christmas! It's hard to believe how much better my skin is on Accutane. As much as I hate the side effects, I love what it is doing for me!
Redmark on my nose is still there. Asked my derm and she said she couldn't fix it until I come off Accutane - it's probably some form of rosacea. Weird, weird, weird. Wish it would go away!
Day 90! 3 month mark - can't believe it.
So, as i posted in my last post, I'm on 30 mgs. once a day now until I can get a prescription for the next round from my derm - who i won't get to see until Friday. Actually, I like being on the 30 mgs. My dry hands have healed completely and are soft again, my lips are definitely less peely to the point that I can go through the day with only a couple reapplications of aquaphor, and I'm generally less tired. So, definitely feeling the difference, but ready to go back to the higher dosage so that I can be done altogether!
I'm really happy with accutane right now. Haven't had any new breakouts since my last posting and redmarks seem to be healing. Even the bumps along my jawline seem to be diminishing. I'm feeling very confident that within another month, I will be completely clear!!! I can't believe it.
Only frustrations - 1. the pores on my nose and in the t-zone just seem so huge - I guess they spent so much time clogged that they aren't used to being clear. So, whenever I put on makeup, it kind of sinks into the pores and doesn't look smooth. I hope this goes away with time! Also, that red bump on my nose is still there. It really is the weirdest thing. It's not popable and it isn't going away! What is this thing?
Scheduled to begin my period next week, so it may be a rough week for my skin - also going away on vacation to a hot place in a couple weeks. Anxious about my skin and how it will be to stay with a bunch of people without letting them see that my skin is such a mess. I mean no pimples, but lots and lots of redmarks! Bleh. FML.
Hmm...not sure I like this new acne.org format.
Anyhow, status update. I made the mistake of waiting to the last minute to make an appointment with my derm for my monthly check up - so have to wait an extra week. As a result, I have decided to extend the remaining pills I have by taking only one 30 mgs pill a day instead of 2. I figure it's better to stay on the medication than to run out and be off it for a few days even at lower dosage.
I'm wondering if this might also help with some side effects. My hands all of a sudden started becoming really dry. Hasn't been a problem before AT ALL! It's like every pore is a little scab on the top of my hands. Nothing seems to be working to cure it. Suggestions?
Otherwise, things are clearing and are very manageable. I only seem to get "plug" pimples these days - you know those easily pop-able pimples that seem to just have a stopper. No cysts! Right now I have 3 little red marks in the area between my eyebrows from the little whitehead/plugs I pushed out up there, 1 on the apple of my left cheek, 1 on my right cheek, and I still feel underskin bumps along my right jawline. But every day, I feel like I'm healing and renewing! So, it's worth it.
Only annoyances - inside of my nose is perpetually dry, skin on my face is red from sensitivity, and my lips are very, very peely - have to run to the bathroom all the time to remove white flakes from my lips. Ick. Can't wait to be done with this - but very glad that it seems to be working really well!!!
On another note, I'm trying to avoid alcohol as much as possible. I drank on Saturday and felt fine the next day, but it just isn't worth the additional dryness and tiredness. Friends are making fun of me for ordering water at bars, but I don't care - it's cheaper!
Not much new to report - I haven't had any new breakouts since my last entry. Yay! Still suffering from red marks which are slowly healing - and I can still feel little bumps along my right jawline. I think these will be the last to heal, but I wish they'd get on with it!
Still feeling tired very, very easily - but that's partly because I've been really busy. My nose has also swollen a little on the left nostril. Not sure if this is the accutane, or even if this is acne! It feels kind of like a cyst - but it could be a bug bite - but how random! I've never had this happen before and it isn't really going away. Keep applying neosporin at night - hopefully that will help.
Have to say, I love that I can go all day without reapplying makeup or clearing off oil. Only annoyance is I'm now really self-conscious about my lips - I wonder if they are peeling and I'm putting on aquaphor and vaseline all the time - but by midday, I really have to take a wet washcloth to them to scrub off the white peely skin. Argh!!! Wish this could be done soon!!! Why can't I be like other girls and have beautiful skin?? Do they know how lucky they are and how much I envy them??
So, it's been a completely crazy week - hence, I have not been updating - and of course, my skin has taken a bit of a beating. But I have to say, things really are looking so much better!
Status: because of the stress and no sleep this past week, my skin has been breaking out. One pimple in each problem area all around my face - but at least it's one small pimple and not 10! I have one on each side of my chin, one on the apple of my right cheek, one on the apple of my left cheek, a couple on my left temple and 1 along my upper hairline. Yuck. Sounds bad, but they are so much smaller and more manageable than usual. With makeup, my skin has been looking great - and the redmarks are fading really quickly.
Side effects-wise: I still get tired easily - and body aches seem accentuated - but nothing unmanageable.
And so it continues, but I at least feel like this accutane is starting to take control - even if things aren't perfect yet.
So, maybe spoke too soon since I am experiencing some side effects - and I'm breaking out a little. Let me preface that though by saying, things continue to be just so much better generally!
Side effects: I've noticed that I get really tired easily and I sometimes lose my appetite completely. I also have some body aches - as if the Accutane accentuates any minor aches I have from doing anything. Altogether though, not unmanageable - and I think it helps that I recognize that these are probably side effects of the drug - so I know why I feel the way I do.
Skin condition: Really improving. I'm clear almost everywhere. I just had a little cyst develop over my right eyebrow, tiny whiteheads on the left side of my chin, and some whiteheads along my right jawline. It feels like another initial breakout, but the pimples are so much smaller. It's really just the redmarks - and the general redness of my skin (from the dryness) - that I am covering up with makeup everyday.
That's the story right now! Feeling optimistic, but I still have a long way to go on the drug. Hopefully the side effects will lessen over the upcoming weeks.
Day 6 of taking 60 mgs a day (30 mgs in the morning and 30 mgs at night).
So, things continue to be pretty great! No new side effects from upping the medication. The pimple on my left cheek that I popped turned into a nasty huge scab - but it has healed so quickly! I hardly have any mark left at all. It's pretty amazing how fast my skin is turning over these days. Yay! I just have to remember not to pop pimples like that. My skin bruises so easily that it just makes things worse.
I'm not completely clear, but there is a significant improvement. This has been a really busy week for me - only getting about 5-6 hours of sleep - and my skin isn't reacting as badly as in the past. I have a little cystic pimple along my right jawline that came out a couple days ago. I also have a cystic pimple along my hairline near my temples on both sides of my face. I think these developed because of my high-stress week and as an after-shock from having my period this week.
So, with makeup, my skin is feeling and looking pretty great. Hopefully the next couple months continue with the same progress!
Sorry - didn't get a chance to update yesterday.
So, began the 30mgs twice a day on Sunday and about to begin my third day. The large zit that had developed on my left cheek had not budged, so I popped it last night. It was pretty nasty and now I'll have to live with the scab, but it was so huge! I think this came up because I just started my period yesterday - and I'm optimistic because if this is the only breakout I got during PMS, Accutane is really working! Usually i breakout everywhere!
Otherwise, things continue to look good! I feel a little bit of a bump developing under the skin along my right jawline and there are still some tiny white pustules around my chin, but otherwise I am clear! Just need some time for those redmarks to heal.
Side effects-wise, things do feel pretty dry, but so far no drastic changes. I try to be very good about moisturizing. The most annoying side effect is the dry lips. I feel like I am applying stuff every half hour now!
So far so good. I hope the improvement continues!
Final 40mgs pill tonight! Tomorrow I begin with 30mgs twice a day.
So, progress report. Pretty much still clear! I had a small cystic pimple develop on the apple of my left cheek, which is very annoying, but it's much smaller than usual and I imagine it's because my period is right around the corner. Otherwise left side continues to be clear and healing! Just have to contend with redmarks.
On the right side, still staying pretty clear. I popped the one that had developed along my jawline. It is now scabbed over and healing. Still feeling a few tiny bumps on that side - but I think these might be scars/trauma from past pimples. Hopefully these will heal quickly.
So, I think I continue to be on the up and up - and I hope the 30mgs twice a day will get me there faster without any new side effects!!! Will keep you posted.
Pill #58 tonight!
Very excited! Still haven't had any major breakouts. A few little bumps along my right jawline have become inflamed - but remain small and just a little red - nothing major and very easy to cover up. HURRAYY!!! Left side, forehead, T-zone, and right cheek are all clear - just some redmarks. Only area that still needs to clear up now is my right jawline - which has always been the most acne troubled spot for years!!
Also, I went in for my monthly blood test yesterday. My doctor has bumped me up to 60mgs a day - 30mgs in the morning and 30mgs at night. I'm excited because she said it would move the treatment faster. I said, faster is good - anything for faster. I'm a little worried though about another initial breakout - and she also said that I might experience the accumulated dryness of Accutane sooner. But anything to be clear and done!!!! I'm excited by the possibility that I'll be clear by my birthday (end of October). Please, please, please let the good work continue!
Pill #56 tonight!
And things continue to stay pretty clear!!! Woot!!! I found one pimple had emerged on my left temple this morning and one of the little bumps on my right jawline has become a little inflamed. However, neither is huge and I expect both will go away pretty quickly. Otherwise though, it's doing really well!!
So, only other problems are the redmarks on my cheeks that need to fade and I still have a few scabs from popping the pimples around my chin: 2 on the left and 4 or 5 on the right. But they are healing! And I feel optimistic because I've been under a considerable amount of stress this week, haven't really been sleeping, spending lots of time out in the sun, and I'm supposed to start PMSing any day now: all things that have made me breakout like mad in the past, but I'm still pretty clear!!!
It seems like once all the gunk comes out from the initial breakout, breakouts don't come back in those areas. At least, here's hoping!!
Pill #54 tonight.
Still pretty good! On the bad side, I admit that I popped some pimples last night - 3 on the right side of my chin and 1 on the left. These were the ones I'd been feeling under the skin for awhile and they hadn't fully come to a head, but I figured that they were going to come out one way or another, so I might as well get them out now so that I can begin healing rather than dreading that they'll emerge without warning. I'm still feeling a few other bumps along my right jawline, a couple above the ones I popped on the right side, and one on the left side.
Otherwise, things are good! I continue to remain clear everywhere else. The skin doesn't look good at all - I have splotchy redmarks everywhere and my T-zone, though clear, still has blackheads and huge pores - but NO PIMPLES!!!! I haven't really felt the skin getting smoother. It still feels pretty rough, but that may be because of the dryness and the scars.
And, I continue to love my Bare Escentuals makeup! I went for a swim in the ocean yesterday and it DID NOT wash off!!! Note - I was careful about patting it dry and such, but it pretty much stayed intact.
Continuing to feel optimistic! I hope that I have no reason to change this feeling.
Pill #52 tonight.
Feeling very optimistic today!!!!!!
I have not had ANY new pimples develop since I last posted. That means 3 days of completely clear skin. Doesn't sound like much, but it's been completely novel for me and it's awesome! My skin has had some time to heal - and I hope that continues.
So, skin still looks terrible since I have lots of redmarks from past pimples all over my cheeks - but they are slowly beginning to fade. I do feel some little bumps under the skin along my right jawline and in the lower part of my face surrounding my chin as I mentioned before (though I can't really tell if these are cysts or scars from popped pimples that sometimes can feel a little hard). The condition here has not changed. Good news: it hasn't gotten worse; Bad news: it hasn't gotten better. I'm afraid that come a hormonal fluctuation all of these (if they aren't just scars) will come to the surface and be very ugly. I'm not scheduled to begin PMSing for another week - so hopefully I can stay clear until then? One can only hope.
But, I just generally feel so much better. Things are really improving this week! As long as I can stop picking, and don't get any more significant breakouts, the worst is over!!! Fingers crossed.
On another note, I LOVE my new Bare Escentuals mineral makeup and my First Aid moisturizer. Keeps me looking fresh all day, no shine, covers up really well, and makes my skin feel really soft!
Pray for me that things continue to improve!!!
Pill #50 tonight.
Can't believe I've already been on this for 50 days!! So, progress report:
Today, skin still looks terrible but it seems to be healing?? (Knock on wood). Last night, I popped two little whiteheads - one that's been sitting on my right cheek for awhile and one that grew on my right temple near the hairline a couple days ago. Otherwise, no new developments!! Thank God. All I have to contend with right now are big splotchy red marks/scabs on my cheeks and along my jawline. It's difficult to cover up completely, but certainly better than lots of pimples.
I do still feel some little pustules still waiting to emerge in the lower portion of my face surrounding my chin and along my right jawline - and I can see them - a lot of little white bumps. I'm kind of surprised that these haven't gone away yet - the little tiny white pin-sized bumps. They haven't budged at all since I started the treatment. Praying that they just go away without a massive red nasty breakout.
Forehead, nose, upper lip, and chin continue clear with just a few blackheads and large pores. The skin on my upper lip and right under my lower lip feel scaly as they have from the beginning.
Also, I've started using new products to care for the skin which I really, really like so far! I went to Sephora for help and they directed me to the First Aid Beauty brand. It's really soothing, absorbs easily and isn't greasy. I also am now using Bare Escentuals mineral makeup - which is great stuff.
So, feeling much more positive about this today! Though rereading my posts, seems that this seems to fluctuate a lot - big breakout, massive popping fest, quick healing, optimism that no more breakouts will occur, then another big breakout, massive popping fest, etc. etc. And so it continues.
Must remember to avoid picking as much as possible. It's just making the skin look worse even if it is satisfying in the short-term.
Pill #48 tonight.
So, current status: Forehead clear except for some redmarks left over from the pimples I've popped. Nose, upper lip, and chin surrounding my nose remain clear except for large pores and blackheads. I can still squeeze out a little bit of white gunk but definitely decreased. Temples remain clear and I've noticed that even when I get a pimple there, it dries up over night. Left cheek still in horrible condition, but no new breakouts. Scabs and redmarks just healing. There are still a few white pustules around the lower part near my chin, so I don't think I've seen the last of the breakouts here. Right cheek is still in very bad shape. Scabs and redmarks are slowly healing - particularly concentrated around the apple of the cheek and along the jawline. I don't think I've seen the last of breakouts here either since there are many small white pustules along the jaw. Popped one that had turned into a whitehead last night. Wish I hadn't tried to remove stuff from under the skin near the apple of my right cheek - as mentioned before, I'd gotten the stuff out and it's healing, but I have a massive red bruise/scab from where I disrupted the skin. Bleh.
I'm trying to be good about not picking because at this point I don't think it's doing any good to pick - just making things worse - the skin bruises so easily. Please start to clear up soon!!!! I'm losing hope and wondering if I should just go off this stuff. My skin has never been so bad.
Pill #46 tonight.
So things are still looking pretty ugly. I really have a chronic problem with picking. I can't stop and now I think it is actually doing more harm than good. Like, last night I felt a few developing pimples under the skin around the apples of both cheeks and instead of waiting for them to emerge, I started popping. Good news is, I got the bastards out. Bad news is, I really scraped up my skin and have massive red scabby bruises. But, I'm just so frustrated! My skin is worse than it has ever been in my entire life! And I'm so desperate for things to improve. I don't even feel like the blackheads and small white bumps have budged at all since I started Accutane. I thought those would clear up the fastest! Instead, things just have gotten so much worse.
On a positive note, shine is still under control, nose, chin, and the skin surrounding my nose remain breakout-free, and the breakouts on my forehead are healing and I haven't gotten new ones. It's really just my cheeks and jawline that feel completely out of control. I feel like my IB won't be done until every single pore has erupted. WHY ME????!!!! This sucks.
Pill #44 Tonight.
Still look awful. I must say though, popping the zits really helps. At least, it makes me feel better as if I have some control over my uncontrollable face. All the popped zits are scabbing up nicely and flaking off. And I really prefer this to some massive, painful red bump. Call me crazy.
Anyhow, I developed a big cyst on my right jawline and a few new whiteheads on my left cheek and my left temple. I popped them all, I admit.
I've been trying to stay on the mineral makeup this week, but today I cracked and went back to my more intense coverup (Tarte Tinted Moisturizer and Lancome Concealer). The mineral makeup coverage was not great and it came right off in the water when I went swimming at the beach.
So, current status: 6 popped zits healing across my forehead, 1 large popped zit on my left temple, an uncountable number of popped zits on the apple of my left cheek and in a cluster near my chin where the little white bumps used to be, numerous popped zits along my right jawline, on the apple of my right cheek and near my right ear. T-zone remains shine-free and clear (the two zits that emerged on my upper lip during my period have cleared up nicely). Blackheads largely gone, but pores still huge and skin still feels rough. At least white gunk no longer comes out when I squeeze areas of the T-zone.
My acne brought me to tears last night. I just look so bad. And it made me so depressed to see so little progress even though I've had to bear so many nasty side effects. I kept thinking, "why me? What have I done to deserve this?" No one in my family has had acne, my siblings don't have acne, I lead a healthy lifestyle, and no other part of my body is affected, just my face. Why?!!!!" It's not fair. And it's not fair because I cannot be myself. I have to hide and envy other girls with beautiful skin. And the worst is that no one understands. My parents think I'm being lazy when I don't want to go anywhere, when I just want to stay home and not wear makeup. They'll say things like, "your skin is fine, no one cares, let's go," and it's so hurtful because it's not fine with me that I'm ugly.
Pill #42 tonight.
Still nothing much to report. Still look awful. I went to war two nights ago against all the existing zits. I popped them all! So yesterday everything looked like a massive scab. Today. Things are starting to dry up and flake off. All of these little guys are leaving nasty red marks though. But better a red mark that I can cover up, than a massive zit that I can't. I have two new zits on my forehead - one cystic above my left eyebrow and one whitehead, which I popped to the left of my left eyebrow. Don't know why these sprang up all of a sudden. Happened during the day yesterday.
The real problem area (not that my whole face isn't a problem area) seems to be this little patch on the left side of my face near my chin of what were little white pustules around the lower part of my face. Now they are turning into red irritated zits as they make their way out of my skin. I hope that once they go away, that will be the end of those little bumps around the lower part of my face. Humph. Still not clearing up here.
Also, about sun exposure. Today, for the first time this summer, I went to the beach and sat in the sun for two hours. I wore a hat and used SPF 70 Neutrogena spray-on sunscreen and still got a bit of a burn on my shoulders - but nothing to horrendous. Accutane definitely makes me more sensitive to the sun since I got the same amount of color as I would get from wearing my usual SPF 30 sunscreen (when I wasn't on accutane). So, I'd say it's fine to go out in the sun as long as you put on a heavy-duty sunscreen and then apply some aloe or moisturizer to your body after exposure.
That's all to report today. I'm really hoping things start turning around soon!!! I hate going to the beach and feeling self-conscious wondering if my makeup got washed off in the water (it did for the most part). I sat there admiring all the other girls who could just run in and out of the water and turn their faces to the sun to tan without shame. They looked so free. I wonder if they know how lucky they are.
Pill #40 tonight.
So, nothing much new to report. I returned from my trip last night and the plane ride did terrible things to my skin. All the pimples became inflamed again and I now have 3 new whiteheads on my forehead and a new pimple on my left cheek. Ugh. When will I get to be one of those lucky people who can get on a plane without worrying that a massive pimple is sprouting in some conspicuous place on their face? Plane rides are bad enough.
I went straight to bed when I got home. I didn't pick. Just washed my face and moisturized. The pimples were certainly a little less inflamed this morning but still very much there.
I wish I could feel more optimistic, but things are moving so slowly and I still look terrible. I continue to struggle to find a good daily moisturizer that isn't too drying or too greasy. It's a no-makeup, hide indoors all day kind of day, so hopefully this will give my skin some time to rest.
It's already been 4 packs of Accutane. When will I start seeing things improve????
Pill #38 Tonight.
So, got on a plane on Wednesday which of course did disastrous things to my skin. All the existing pimples became inflamed and two small red pimples turned into ginormous whiteheads. I decided to just moisturize and go to bed when I arrived because it's no good picking at your face when you are tired and aggravated.
When I woke up things had calmed down slightly, but my skin was still a mess. So, I went for a facial! And oh my god, why didn't I do this sooner? My face is so much calmer now - not that the acne has disappeared, but the pimples are smaller and I've had no new breakouts. The facialist was amazing and gave me a lot of helpful pointers on how to handle my skin on Accutane which I will share:
1. Incorporate some yoga into your daily routine. If you breakout around your ears and jawline, this is an indication of poor circulation of the lymph-nodes which can result from sitting still a lot. She said she sees this happen with people who work at desk jobs - which I do.
2. Wash your face with pure honey in the shower. Honey is a natural antibacterial. So is lavender oil. If you dab lavender oil on your popped zits, they'll heal faster.
3. Mineral Makeup!!!! Amazing stuff. Why didn't anyone tell me about this before? Get some mineral makeup. It blends really well into your skin, provides SPF, and feels really light to wear. You can actually wear it to bed and all the time it is helping your skin. I wore it to bed last night and it didn't even rub off onto my pillowcase. It's not the best coverage if you want to look flawless, but it's certainly fine for everyday use to just minimize the horror of all those redmarks, scars and pimples. Just brush it over your face and buildup a little extra powder on the spots you want to cover up. No need for a separate concealer.
This could all be total BS but what the heck. I'm going to try it! I'm also going to try to get facials as often as I can during this 5 month course to minimize breakouts and keep things calm. It's expensive - but what price wouldn't I pay for clear skin and self-confidence?
Otherwise, cheeks still riddled with redmarks, but popped pimples are healing and flaking off. I have a lot of small pimples still around the chin, near my ears, and along the jawline. The cystic pimple on my forehead has shrunk to a small red pimple. Developed another whitehead in the middle of my forehead. Blackheads still diminishing but not totally gone. Argh. And so it continues.
Pill #36 tonight.
Argh. SO aggravated that this is moving so slowly and that I continue to break out. On the good side of things, my T-zone remains shine free and blackheads are largely disappearing. Unfortunately, my pores still look huge and that area looks rough. Probably from years of abuse from the acne and acne medications. Hopefully, this will start to improve.
I'm starting to get some breakouts on my forehead. I developed a whitehead on the left side and 2 small whiteheads near my right eyebrow. I also could feel a cyst developing up in the right corner near my hairline and a tiny whitehead forming in the middle. Yuck! Why???
My left cheek continues to be free of new breakouts. Some of the little white bumps that were there have gotten a little inflamed, but that's it. They are tiny and I hope that they will go away soon. My right cheek and jawline continue to be a mess, but things are improving. The cluster of zits on the apple of my cheek are all now just scabs that need to heal. They look ugly, but at least they are smoothing out, flaking off, and not bumpy huge painful pimples. I'm getting tiny red pimples breaking out along my jawline, but I think these are just the tiny white bumps becoming a little inflamed. At least, knock on wood, there are no cysts developing that I can feel. Can I hope that the days of nasty huge cysts are over?
Side effects-wise - my skin is a little pink and sensitive which is a bit annoying because I perpetually look like I have sunburn. Just on my face. Ick. I also don't seem to have much of an appetite lately.
So, I still look disgusting. And it may get worse because I am boarding a plane today and my skin always gets aggravated by that. I'm making sure to keep my vaseline on hand!