it's been awhile! Pretty busy lately -__-" but yea emm back here! So i have this new product my mom introduced to me (PONDS Gold Radiance). I didn't like it the first time I tried it because I felt very oily and my face was so shiny with the micro gold particles in it. I didn't use it after the first try because I hated seeing my face shiny and oily basically, I never saw the results but these last passing days; I was surprised how flawless my mom looked when I stared at her one time. I completely inherited the bad skin from her so I can say that seeing her so flawless, shocked me Then she told me to use PONDS for a week. So I did. It's my 4th day using it now and I'm very very very very happy with it! I look stress-free, younger and flawless! the breakouts I had last week were completely healed and the old scars I had are gently fading away :] I feel so happy. I'm using MET soap for my face and I think it helps lighten up my scars and I'm still doing the mask but not everyday now, I'm quite busy so all in all, I think my skin is getting a lot better than before Hoping to completely clear up!Fighting! <3
wasn't able to write yesterday I was out the whole day cause' it's father's day. My face isn't that good and I know why sleeping at 2 am for 4 days, using too many cosmetics and facial products. I regret doing so -_-" I feel how stressed my skin is and I think if it can complain, it will! So I'll stop using some of the products and lessen down the cosmetics. I also started not to wear make-up just today, though I feel terrible. But I did what I had to. My skin needs a BREAK. Our skin gets exhausted as much as we do and if we don't lessen up the facial obsession, you will never get the results you want. Especially if you're one of those impatient people who just can't wait for the results and change into a new product over and over again. I know I suggested trial and error if you're finding the right product for your skin, but at least be a little considerate to your skin and let it rest. That's why before using or trying another product, it is suggested to put a gap between usage of the new product and the old one, like for example; you stop using the old one then let a few days past before you use the new one. And we all should put these in mind, cause' I probably will. My poor skin is screaming at me after the things I've done to it the last few days xD So that's all, hoped that helped and you'd consider giving your skin some rest. Fighting! <3
I was very excited to spend the weekend with the whole family, so when I got up this morning; I did a quick wash and groomed myself for going out (well I didn't dress up, I did my make-up to start off). I even slept with a couple of buns to set my hair curled. So when I came to breakfast, the sad reality killed me xD arrrrghhhh! Dad was going to teach english to a bunch of japanese people! So that means we're stuck at home xD oh make-up went to waste.why is the title like that? well it's because after learning that we weren't going out, I decided not to wash my make-up off even though I'd stay at home. And just before I started writing this entry, I looked in the mirror and was shocked to how freaking OILY my skin was! demn my face is so shiny and I'm so worried that it might cause me break outs! Trial and error. With discovering that the make-up I used today caused my skin to juice out tons of facial oil, I've decided to find for a new one. Why risk your skin? I know it would be such a waste to throw the makeup away but would you rather have crazy acne because of it? Putting that in mind, it's basically the reason why you're putting makeup on! but don't worry, I won't throw it away anyway and I won't use it too. I'll give it away to someone who are more suitable to use such things, knowing that I can't. Cause' it's like that. Trial and error. Try something and if it doesn't work out then look for something else. But this doesn't mean that we should be impatient. Specifically we should at least try it out for some time and determine whether the results are good or bad. We should be aware that some products DO TAKE TIME to process its result, that's why being patient with trial and error is a MUST! "We learn from our mistakes, so never regret anything" <---always look through the good in everything so that you won't feel bad, less STRESS and a happy life, right?So imma wash off now. And I'm thinking of using something different now than my green tea and yogurt mask. JUST TRYING ahe^^ Fighting! <3
Supposedly day 8 but since I missed last tuesday, it's day 7 x] So yea, I got breakouts last wednesday because I was so stressed out and missed my regimen. And now they're almost gone :] I'm just hating the marks it's leaving but hopefully green tea would repair it c;The other day I was reading and searching for DIY's. So while doing so, there was suddenly a question in my head that popped out! Most "natural" home treatments are primarily composed of foods that are very rich in vitamins and minerals. That's the reason it's good to put on your skin. But why is it that when it comes to eating it. It suddenly becomes not good for you? example: Chocolate mask DIY. Chocolate nourishes and moisturizes your skin since it is filled with antioxidants that rejuvenate the skin but when you eat it, it's big NO NO xD haha ironic, isn't it? Another example is MILK. If you shower/soak your skin with milk, iit tends to be more softer and nourished. It also helps brighten your complexion and all but when you drink it, another big NO NO! since it's dairy and dairy is one of the culprits that causes breakouts. A website explained it thoroughly but sadly I can't post links here and I forgot how I ended up going there! hahaAnd yea, that kept me wondering now. Well anyway, I'm just sharing the new knowledge I earned (if you can call that knowledge xD) till here! keep you updatd guys! imma kick some retarded ex boyfriend ass now~! fighting! <3
I was totally off since yesterday :/ and my good for nothing ex boyfriend keeps bugging the hell out of me! what is his problem? always putting me down. Such an asshole! Probably one of my greatest source of stress!! STRESS, affects not only skin but whole body systems. It actually destroys everything >.< if you get stressed out, you'll tend to think too much and not do the things you should do properly. Results would likely be a sad life full of worries, poor physical appearance, poor lifestyle and all xD but hey, I know no one in this world doesn't get STRESSED. The thing is that, we should avoid it as much as possible. Before I was so worry free and all, the time wherein I was not yet entering high school (completely flawless). And yes, my high school life gave me all the stress I never imagined I'd have. Then one day, I just realized that I've become an emotional teenage girl with horrible skin! And if there's one thing I'd re-do in my life, it definitely would be high school.Up to now, I can't still handle stress properly and it's all because of my fucking ex boyfriend who won't just get out of my freaking life and leave the hell out of me! I wish he'd just disappear sorry for the emotional entry, I just really needed to take that out One reason why I love writing and drawing, it helps me express my emotions and sort things out. Well I'd better end it here, hope you guys don't get as much stress I'm having right now. Because if you do.....break outs :'( sadness hurts! lol xD
Yesterday I went out the whole day and went on my bike. I was very exhausted when I got home and the bed just pulled me down! I never got to use the mask last night because I really wanted to sleep already. When I woke up this morning......great "breakouts". I just missed one night of the regimen and there they are again but still, everyone at home seems to notice how my acne scars dramatically faded. I just hate the few breakouts today, hope it's gone by tomorrow!Also, I've been sleeping quite late lately. Maybe at least 12-2 am! I dunno, I just can't find sleep and watch movies the whole night. But I discovered that it is very bad for the skin to do so! Especially when you sleep very late and wake up very late as well. A big NO NO NO! I'm so used to doing that and now I want to stop doing so! And if it really helps me to clear up, I'll be forcing myself to sleep and wake as early as I could if that is what it takes to clear up.The photographer came asking my father how long I'll be staying in Japan. I guess he wanted to schedule me for another shoot :] <-----basically the reason I'm so obsessed to clear up. Fighting! <3
As I've mentioned in my previous entry, I'm using a green tea yogurt mask and it's the only regimen that gave me promising results as early as the first time I used it. It's been 5 days and I was surprised to wake up peeling, but not crazily peeling (ones that are very dry and red). The parts peeling are my scars and mini bumps but it isn't really obvious. This may sound icky but I tried to peel off one of the spots and when I got the thin layer of dead skin off, it's like there never was a dark acne scar there before I was like, would the results get any better than this!! So yea, I'm very satisfied with my regimen right now and I have no intentions of changing it anymore^^ I have no breakouts, no redness and I've never felt my face feel so good for some time until NOW :]I LOVE GREEN TEA! <3
Good day! I'm in a crazy good mood today though i had a break out last night, well it was just one! and thank God it's gone when I woke up this morning Know what I did? So basically this entry is about it because I just can't believe how effective it is for me! I just don't know if it will work the same for you, but I've done research about it and I have never seen/read anyone who ever complained or having break outs while using those all natural products. Then with that I decided to make my very own face mask every night (The same mask I applied last night that made my zit disappear overnight!) FACE MASK:-Lemon Juice-Plain Yogurt-Green Tea Leaves (from tea bags)It's funny how I ended up using green tea leaves than it's juice I was so desperate relieving all the redness in my face that I decided to poke the green tea bag and apply it to my face directly rather than soaking it up with water! The great thing is that with those leaves, I was able to make a facial mask/scrub! Because with the texture of the leaves combined with yogurt, if you massage it well in your face it does feel so good! So what I do is combine all the said things and make a paste (well not really that thick) then I massage my whole face with it, more like ex foliating (since i said that it can be a facial scrub too) then after doing so for a minute or more, I apply more to my face and build it up just like a mask. Then I allow it to dry until all I see in my face are the leaves! haha! But if you aren't as patient as me, I guess 10-15 minutes is enough for your face to soak up the effect As soon as you wash it off, you'll be surprised how smooth and soft your skin will be! I was shocked myself the first time I did! Never in my life I felt that way I used to work with yogurt and oatmeal before but I never felt and got such results! So I deserted oatmeal and replaced it with green tea leaves, haha. It has been 4 days since I started doing this and the results are unbelievable! My scars got lighter and I don't get as break outs that often and as big like before! and if ever do, it's barely unnoticeable :DMORE THINGS I'VE DONE WITH GREEN TEA:*The Green Tea Bag MagicOther than the mask, I have another thing that I do with green tea. Since I'm in Japan and people here are so into green tea and all, it's never hard to find one. I have searched this method off earlier this month and only days before my pictorial that I decided to try it. I got myself another green tea bag, mildly soaked it in warm water and directly placed it at the area where a red and crazy zit was showing. I just held it there for some minutes, I even dozed off while doing so. Amazingly when I finally decided to cut the crap and sleep, the moment I took it off the area; I barely noticed the crazy zit that was in there before! I was like OMO! There was still a little bump but it was definitely not as worse as before! REDNESS TOTALLY GONE! and the size deflated! So now, whenever I have a pain in the ass zit showing off. I drown it with green tea!*Water and Green TeaI've been drinking green tea for a week straight. Although I'm not really a fan of it's icky taste, I'm starting to like it and get the hang of it I drink 4-5 glasses a day now. Before I started with 2-3 but I started seeing results and since it was that great, I increased my intake per day. I also drink atleast 5 glasses of water too. I alternate it with green tea. I feel so refreshed ever since I did this. I never cared about what or how much I drink before but now that I'm aware how good it is, I'm sticking with it :DMY DIET:Before, if I wanted to eat something I EAT! Not caring at all about diet. Now since got so desperate trying to change my lifestyle and clearing up to pursue my modeling job, I change everything and threw out all my bad eating habits!When I wake up, the first thing I do is drink! Whether it be water or green tea. I've read that it helps you flush out all the bad things inside you especially since you've got an empty stomach. A river flow of water in your system would be very effective at moments like that. Also, with an empty stomach. It was said that fruits are very effective during times like that and all the vitamins and minerals fruits have becomes very effective when you eat them with an empty stomach. So what I do is cut fresh fruits like banana and apple then I pour some yogurt to it (Yogurt is very healthy and i love it) and if I want texture, I'd put a handful of cornflakes! YUM! Who said eating healthy won't taste good? I just had that earlier :DLunch and Dinner, What I do is that I don't each as much rice now (rice is a very asian thing) and I watch out for oily and fatty stuff I eat vegetables as much as I could (although I'm not a fan of it as well) I don't do anything special really. I just think of what's good and bad for me now, not like before :DWell that's a lengthy entry, but I hoped it helped! Nothing is wrong with trying people plus you won't lose anything if you start changing bad habits into good ones! It will only prosper you with benefits. Till here
Never pictured myself as a model but as a first timer, I was praised a lot! Not to mention that not even a SINGLE ZIT showed! T'was awesome! I had lots of fun and my face is now publicly posted! WOAH I shall continue my regimen, until I clear up amazingly! Believe me folks, green tea and proper diet changed my life :]
Just sharing the successful news! Hope you find inspiration to be confident too!
I wanted to share my pictures so that everyone would believe me but i'm still uncomfortable about it. But if someone is really interested, I'll share everything privately. God bless everyone!
Tomorrow is the day! At exactly 10:00 am tomorrow I'll be seeing the photographers reaction Well hey, it's not that bad anymore! It's just scars and a bit of little tiny bumps but nothing major that would destroy the pictures ( i hope xD ) But yea, thank you acne.org! Somehow I found ways to lessen up my acne within just a few days! Although I didn't actually used BP, I followed the steps and read reviews and blogs (where I found the BEST home solutions!) which really HELPED A LOT! Thank God I found inspiration to fight against my insecurities here Hoping for a good day tomorrow and I also hope my pictures would look good.
Thank you God, thank you acne.org, thank you green tea!! ahehe!
I'm about to turn 18 next month and the greatest twists in my life came recently. I'm currently residing here in Japan and everything is really a lot better here than to where I came from. Other than being in Japan, I was offered a modeling job by my father's friend. He came to know me when he saw a picture of me at my father's desk and since then he got very interested in me. So yeah, it was a thrilling fact that a modeling job was slapped right into my face! I know lots of girls who work their butts off just to get into one photo shoot while here I am offered one!
I know some of you are thinking why I am here at acne.org writing this blog and the first paragraph seemed like I was bragging a lot, right? Well the thing is that my life WOULD HAVE BEEN perfect if it weren't for the problem we are all sharing here, acne/pimple/zits/scars! I have been suffering from it for four years and I know there are worse cases than me. It's just that these things in my face really frustrates me! It sucked up all my confidence. In one point, I was even covering my face with a handkerchief whenever I go out or go to school for almost 2 years! I had bangs to cover my forehead zits and I wear HEAVY make-up to cover all my scars and acne as early as 14! All I can do is HIDE all I can hide but the sad reality is that no matter how hard I try to hide it, I will never look flawless anymore; especially now that suffering from acne for 4 years have left me deep scars in my cheeks that no make-up can cover anymore.
So why was I offered a modeling career despite how bad my skin is? Simple, he never saw me personally. He just saw a picture of me and that's all. I don't mean to boast but if it weren't for my bad skin, I do really look good. And when I put make-up on and take pictures, my bad skin doesn't really show so many people still admire me. I'm very thankful that make-up is around because somehow I can put a thin mask that can help me walk around outside without feeling ugly. Now I'm thinking what if the photographer finally sees me? Will he still be interested? My skin is not as worst as before now, thankfully. Make-up can make me look good on pictures and pictures can be edited nowadays. But the sad reality is that, I can't be a flawless model that can do no make up pictorials. Modeling is like my wildest dreams and now that it has come to me, I can't help being sad and frustrated how my bad skin drained away all my hopes and dreams. I no longer am confident, I don't even like people staring at me and I can never walk proudly with my chin up ever again. I know there are surgeries, medications and stuffs like that. But I don't have that much money and I honestly do not want to rely at my parents with those things.
And if ever I clear up (hopefully) It will still be too late. My chance is right here, right now, right this moment in time and all I have to do is show up. I have the guts to show up but what can't handle is rejection. Yes, the photo shoot might still continue but it will definitely be my first and last if ever LUCK is not on my side or better if GOD has another plan for me and maybe modeling isn't what God wanted me to do. But who wouldn't feel sad, right?
1 day to go. My monthly period just ended today, great right? Now I'm left with a bunch of zits! For the last couple of days, I depended on oatmeal, yogurt, green tea and water. After drinking 5 cups of green tea; atleast 5 cups of water; eating fruits, oatmeal & yogurt and making home made facial masks out of green tea, yogurt and lemon or plainly yogurt and oats. It really made a difference. Green tea is a miracle for me and hopefully before Sunday, the bumps on my face disappears! I don't my dark spots (I can work on that later) because I can cover it with make-up! So yea, I'm wishing all the best and I'll pray to God to help me through this!
This is my first time sharing these feelings of mine and I'm glad I can let it out here I don't know if anyone will read this thing, knowing it's so long but I do really hope someone will find my story interesting and have time to talk to me. I'm a lonely person, since I have no confidence making new friends and be so social. So yea, I'd definitely appreciate friends! <3