I may or may not update this blog regularly, depending on how busy school gets and whatnot.
So it's day 7. There's really not a whole lot to report, actually.
I guess what I've learnt thus far, is to avoid mirrors...and for God's sake, no matter how much you want to itch and pick, do NOT do so.
I made this mistake today and ended up with a horrific red, blistery mark where there wasn't one before.
Great. One more to add to the multitude that already exist on my face.
My lips are still alright, I can sense they're beginning to dry out a little but nothing major.
My skin is taut, red and feels sunburnt and sensitive. It's drying out quite a lot, but moisturiser seems to be doing the trick.
The actives on my chin have surprisingly dried out and become flat. Thank God. All within a day.
I've noticed the severe increase in red marks and spots on my cheeks. The right is definitely worse than the left.
On my left cheek, right in the "hollow" there's a cyst. It's not too painful to the touch, but very obvious when I press on it. It's slightly pink but relatively unnoticeable.
My forehead is beginning to break out, which is new. I've never really had to worry that much about my forehead, but now I've got about 3 white heads spread out.
Probably the worst side-effect I've really noticed, is the headaches. Dreadful, prolonged headaches. I've been drinking plenty of water and attempting to get lots of sleep but I'm guessing it's the medication that's wreaking havoc on my brain.
Hopefully it will subside soon enough. I'm really, really scared for the IB to start really kicking in.
As any make-up worn at school is absolutely forbidden, I'm just nervous about the reactions I'm going to get when I walk in with a swollen, dry, red, blotchy, broken out face.
I'm really trying hard to keep positive, visualising the end to this whole thing.
Updates and pictures to come (hopefully within the next few days!)
I know it's still only day 5, but I just had one of those really distressing experiences with a few jerks down at our local store.
Now, I'm not one of those people that takes the time to wear makeup down at the store, despite the condition of my skin. It just seems unnecessary.
I went down there, donned my favourite sweatpants and sweatshirt (that are both old enough to have seen the jurassic age) and headed down. All I needed was a few fruits and vegetables for dinner.
I've grown out of being self-conscious in my own community, with my skin. I personally know the people that work there, so it doesn't particularly bother me that they're able to see my red, blotchy skin and overall uneven skin-tone.
Anyway, back on track, I get there and start picking out fruits and vegetables, not really aware of anyone else around me. I noticed in my peripheral vision two guys standing together, staring at me. I looked up and immediately averted my eyes, embarrassed. They were attractive and appeared to be smirking.
One of them leaned over to the other and said "Dude, would you go that or no?" and the other one shook his head and laughed out loud, as if it were some massive joke.
"No way man...look at that face. Mangled as! She's probably diseased."
I'd grown used to hearing this crap, but somehow it never ceased to amaze me, how rude some people can be. No matter how many times I hear it, it still hurts.
It struck me as something a 5th grader would say. Not a 20 year old man.
It took me way back to grade 5. It was my very first day at a new school, in a new suburb. I was shy, mostly due to my skin.
I was playing by the monkey bars when a few of the "popular" boys came up and called out for me to get down. I did.
I extended my hand, and told them my name was Eliza.
The ring-leader, let's call him Henry, looked me up and down; then let out a barking laugh followed up by: "Look what we have here boys, pizza face. Pizza face! Pizza face!"
I was humiliated. I went home early and cried for hours.
I'm not sure if anyone will ever read this, but I wonder. Has anyone else come across people like this? Had similar experiences?
It's a shame, that in today's day and age there are still people out there who don't even have the common courtesy to keep their cruel comments to themselves.
It's day 5. I've been taking my pills religiously with breakfast and dinner, every day.
The first few days went without incident. I didn't expect to see very many changes in such a short period of time.
By the fourth day, yesterday, I began to notice that my scalp became extremely itchy. My nose became itchier too, and my break-outs had become a lot worse.
I was told by my doctor that my skin would get worse before it got any better, so it hasn't bothered me too much.
Today is the fifth day into my journey with Oratane.
Mentally, I'm feeling fine. Emotionally, fine. Physically, not so good, but I was prepared for this.
I'm not sure if I should be noticing changes so early on, but I seem to be.
My skin has become red on my forehead, and very sensative to the touch. I was given some very gentle face wash that I was told I could use once a day, but have really only been using it every second day.
I washed my face with it tonight, not expecting to feel anything, when suddenly my entire face began to sting.
I'd noticed earlier that my nose had become red and the skin was flaking. I didn't really think anything of it.
Now it felt as though it was on fire.
I quickly washed off the face wash, and patted my face dry with a soft towl. I applied some moisturizer and found it soothed the skin straight away.
I have a feeling I'll only be using that face wash every few days now.
I know it's early on, but I can already tell it's going to be a long time before I see any noticeable changes in my skin.
I'm not sure how this works really, but I figure I'll give it a shot.
My name is Eliza and I'm 17 years old. I've had acne for...wow, going on 6 years now. It's never been too severe, but no matter what treatment I try, nothing has helped to make it clear up.
I've tried everything. Pro Activ, anti-biotics, topical creams; countless different medications and facial treatments.
Though it helped in the short term, as soon as I stopped, the acne came right back.
Recently I went to visit my dermatologist, who basically told me that Accutane (or in my case Oratane, same thing) would probably be the best option.
A 6 month treatment, 20mg, twice a day. I'm a little apprehensive about the side effects after reading through a few of the posts, but I'm excited to finally have clear, beautiful skin.
My entire teenage life has been foundation and cover-up. I very rarely had the courage to go out without it, even to the shops.
Looking through many of the posts and photos that have been put up, I feel extremely guilty, knowing my acne is nowhere near as severe.
I don't have any pitting of the skin, or severe scarring. Mostly just redness and break-outs along my chin, forehead, sometimes my cheeks and my nose. The worst of it is on my chin.
After losing my script for the Oratane, I went back today and managed to get another one from my dermatologist. My mum and I went straight to the pharmacy and picked up the Oratane.
I've already taken my dosage for the day (2 pills) and it's now...1:01am, which technically means it's tomorrow but really.
I'm not sure if it's common to feel any side effects so soon, but my lips are beginning to tingle. My face feels "tighter" and it's red and blotchy. I haven't washed it yet, I've only taken the medication.
I'm nervous for the IB to start, but it's sort of comforting knowing there are people going through the same thing.
Updates to come!