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Day 61! Start of month 3

Today is the beginning of month 3. I have switched brands from Amnesteem to Claravis. I had to pay $256 at Wal-Mart for a 30 day supply because right now I don't have insurance. Sigh... My blood work was all great and my white blood cell count is back to normal and I am feeling a lot less fatigue. I still feel tired and not as energetic as normal but it has gotten a lot better over the last couple of weeks. Skin is doing better. No active breakouts at all just a lot of red marks and my face is red as always which sucks. I still have the dry lips and inside of the nose but it's okay. I can't wait to be done with this medication. I might still go on 60 mg next month for the remainder of the course but the doctor says he likes my progress. Nothing else is really new I am now just anxious for the redness to go away and hopefully I do not have another ridiculous breakout like I did about 2 weeks ago!!!

sundevil_87

sundevil_87

06/06/2011

 

DAY 57...almost month 3!

So I am a little behind, I should already be in month three but I got pushed back like a week because in May when I went for my prescription I couldn't get it because the pharmacy here at the hospital wouldn't accept my insurance (I live on a reservation so the system here is way different) wouldn't cover my Accutane. So it was a huge run around. I missed about 4 or 5 days, then I missed another about 1 week or 2 ago because I was feeling pretty crappy and sick so I decided to skip. Either way, things are much better I got a blood test last week and my white blood cell count is back up. I am getting my other blood work, pregnancy test, and prescription on Tuesday to officially start month 3! Face has been intermitentally clear then broken out. I got a pretty nasty breakout when I posted my last blog or two but since then it has begun to clear up. Hopefully now that I am entering month 3 it will begin to stay clear and I won't have to worry about the nasty breakouts but who knows. I am going to start using mederma in the morning for the red spots and continue to use vitamin e at night. The vitamin e is just really sticky and uncomfortable. Mederma smells kinda weird but it's not greasy at all--I've used it before and had excellent success on scars. My moods have been kind of unpredictable...I want to say accutane just stresses me out a lot more and makes me more suseptible to getting down but I don't know if it's directly caused by it. I can't wait to get off. September better come fast!

sundevil_87

sundevil_87

06/03/2011

 

Day 46

So it's been awhile since I last wrote a blog and all I can say is that I am frustrated!!! First of all, my white blood cell count was down the last time I went to the doctor and he wanted to take me off. Hopefully when I go back again the first week of June it will be okay to stay on. Secondly, I have noticed accutane makes me a lot more "irritable". I am a lot more sensitive than usual I guess and it sucks. It's not terrible but enough for me to seek outlets to get rid of it. I am going exercising and taking 5htp whenever I feel moody lol. Third, my skin was doing so great and then all of the sudden last week it got bad again! UGH!!!!!! I got a breakout on my chest and back as well as like 6 on my face. I keep getting whiteheads on my chin and yesterday there was a huge (still have it) zit on my left cheek. When will my face begin to clear for good??!!?! I am going to post in the accutane forum to see if anyone has had a similar experience and some words of encouragement perhaps cause this is so annoying! Accutane is such a nasty drug but if it will clear my skin I guess all the side effects will be worth it!

sundevil_87

sundevil_87

05/21/2011

 

Day 31

Today is day 31 and I am so glad to be done with month one! I went to the dermatologist today and my white blood cell count is low so this is bad news...he wanted to take me off of Accutane but I told him I felt fine and I haven't been sick or anything. He consulted with my dad (who is also a physician and they work in the same hospital) and they decided that I need to get my blood drawn again on Monday. The dermatologist was going to bump me up to 60 mg but after today he decided to keep me on 40 and closely monitor what's going on. I hope I don't have to stop taking it because it's working so well for me with minimal side effects. He also prescribed me a topical steroid cream for the rash on my arms caused by the dryness. If worst comes to worst I guess I will have to stop taking the Accutane and then re-start it after my WBC's go up. I have no idea if this is unrelated but I think Accutane made my PMS exlpoddeeee. Normally I get a little irritated about 5 days before but mine was like a week and a half and I was so mad lol!!!! Also it made my period come a little late. I don't know if it's stress or the medicine but I thought that was weird! I never get that angry!!

sundevil_87

sundevil_87

05/04/2011

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05/21/2011

 

Day 24???

Um today is either day 23 or 24 I haven't taken my pill yet but I decided to write a blog anyway. My hands are so dry and I have this rash that seems to be spreading all over my arms. I tried putting unscented lotion on it to help but it's not working so I am going to ask my dermatologist what to do when I see him in about a week. I broke out with 4 pimples on my left and 1 on my right...I'm supposed to be getting my period soon so I think that is contributing to that but it sucks!!! I am going to try and apply some ice packs and see if that will help with the redness and inflamation (although they arent very big)/ I have noticed that the breakouts I do get go away much faster than when I wasn't on Accutane. Before, I would have a pimple from a few days to a few weeks! Now they are gone within days. I know some people say that their hair falls out while on Accutane but my hair is growing like a weed!!!!!! And not just on my head but everywhere! I have to shave my legs and arms now almost everyday cause the hair just won't stop! I am taking this supplement called "elements for hair" along with fish oil so I really do think it's because of that! So if you are experiencing any sort of hair loss I really suggest you try these out!!!!! I have been having some mood swings and I think they are totally just stress related cause of school and the new apartment and everything else....pms? LOL. But I don't want to rule accutane out in making it worst...hmm.. Thats all for now.

sundevil_87

sundevil_87

04/27/2011

 

Day 20

Only 10 more days till I am done with month one! Time is going by fast...I'm so busy with unpacking and starting school soon. My skin is clearing really nicely. It is more vibrant, smoother, and a lot less red than when I first began. I had a whitehead on my left cheek yesterday that I picked at..oops I also have a few small ones on my forehead that are going away as well as another breakout on my left jawline that I'm hoping will go away soon. My left cheek is pretty clear. My lips are pretty dry...somedays they are pretty chapped and others they are bearable. But overall I still need to apply chapstick a few times a day (when they are really chapped I'm applying it almost constantly). My nose is dry?? I don't know if that's common but I get some bloody noses (they aren't that bad). I am going to go to CVS and see if I can find something for that. I also have developed a rash on my right hand and left arm. It just feels and looks like really dry patches of skin and they itch! I guess I will buy some hydrocortisone for that since lotion doesn't seem to help. Other than that, nothing else is really going on. I don't feel tired, irritated or anything. I can't wait to be done with month 1!

sundevil_87

sundevil_87

04/23/2011

 

Day 14

Wow it's been 2 weeks already!! Time goes by fast! I've been really busy with moving and I just got accepted into the STEP Program and I begin May 16th so that will definitely keep me occupied..the more I'm occupied the less I think about being on Accutane. Side effects: skin is not really dry, it's just drier than usual and there is no oil production. I have to moisturize 2x a day or else it's flaky and dry. The breakouts on my forehead from last week have gone down but have left red marks (surprise surprise...ugh) and I got a huge pimple on my right cheek a few days ago. At first it felt like a cyst but then a few days later it began to hurt really bad when I touched it and I squeezed it (I know shame on me) and it popped...a LOT of pus and blood came out it was SO gross but it's gone down now and it dried up. The flakiness of it went away today after I showered and used my Clairsonic. Now there is just a red mark but I am continuing to use my Vitamin E oil and supplements. My lips are finally chapped. I was hoping I'd be super lucky and avoid this since for the first 12 days they weren't dry and more windburnt feeling. But nope, they are dry now and I have to put on chapstick or my clinique balm every hour or so. My husband hates it lol. Oh well. My hands are dry and itchy but lotion takes care of that for several hours. No dry hair, no dry scalp...appetite is good and no dry eyes. If this is as bad as my side effects get *crossing fingers* then Accutane isn't bad at all. Sure it's a little bit inconvenient having dry lips all the time but for clear skin it's worth it!!! My skin texture is overall smoother and brighter right now. For the last 2 nights I slept with my makeup on...BIG NO NO. So tonight I promise myself not to do that. I feel nasty when I do that I wake up feeling icky. That's about it for now...I need to drink more water it's 100 degrees here!!!

sundevil_87

sundevil_87

04/17/2011

 

Day 11

So today is day 11...it feels good knowing that after this pack I will only have one more then it's the end of month 1!!! I am trying hard not to think about how long my treatment is, after all, 5 months is nothing relative to my life and relative to the time I have been struggling with acne so I really think it will be worth it. Side Effects: I had a breakout on my forehead a few days ago and they are all starting to dry up now. They are basically all gone and all that remains are those horrid red marks. But I am continuing to use vitamin E oil twice a day to hopefully get rid of them. I have been using vitamin E oil since the beginning of my treatment and I can definitely see some improvement, especially on my cheeks. I am sure if I use it for the full 5 months twice a day that the red marks will be gone (hopefully). The dry lips are definitely starting to kick in....I am less dry on my face now that it's day 11. The first week was AWFUL i was so crusty!!! It was like my face was made of sandpaper. My lips aren't dry but they are sensitive. They feel wind-burnt. But I apply my lip balm a few times a day and it doesnt really come off because it's so thick so my lips stay moisturized. I guess it's not so bad I don't think people can tell it just looks like I'm wearing a little too much lip gloss haha. My hands are dry!!! Everytime I wash them I have to apply cream immediately or else they feel all cracked and hard. I am going to try moisturizer with gloves at night to soften them. I am continuing to use my Clairsonic because I think it helps remove my makeup better. I don't want anything to clog my pores and give me a bad breakout while the accutane is pushing out all the crap from my skin. Other than that I am trying to drink a lot of water but it's been kind of cold here so I drink herbal tea instead with no sugar. I'm going back to Phoenix soon and it's DRY AND HOT AS HELL there so drinking lots of water will be easier. I wonder how the change of weather will affect my skin..... That's all for now.

sundevil_87

sundevil_87

04/15/2011

 

Day 8

So today is Day 8 of accutane and some of the redness from the pics (see my gallery) has subsided. Side effects: My lips are surprisingly not that dry. They feel extra soft actually (weird)...it's almost as if my face feels feverish from time to time and that somehow results in my lips being softer. I use a Clinique lip balm at night and a balm from Bath and Body Works during the day (I think it's called Bigelow's Plum Mint...works like a dream and is minty and has a nice color) Skin is definitely dry...hardly any oil production if none at all. When I put on makeup you can tell my face is dry, regardless of moisturizing prior. I use Clinique makeup because it is good for sensitive skin and is non-comodogenic. I am not crazy about their formula because it seems to go on a little heavy but I need the full coverage plus I prefer it knowing that it is better for my skin than other makeup brands. I used to used Chanel Mat Lumiere in Claire which is very expensive but WORTH it. Once my skin is all cleared up I think I will switch back to this formula because it is very light, fresh, and matches the skin so naturally. Then again...maybe I won't need makeup! I am using vitamin E oil twice a day on my skin for the red marks and I can honestly say that within the 8 days that I have been using it, it has really improved the redness and evened out the tone. I will continue to use this throughout my treatment so hopefully at the end of it, my red marks will be significantly gone. I have heard that Clinique's Even Better Spot Corrector Moisturizer is really good...anyone every tried it?? I am taking 1,000 mg of fish oil a day and I really think that it helps with the dryness, in addition to the other health benefits it provides. I am also thinking of adding vitamin E pills to this, since I am only using it topically. I think it should be safe. I will post pictures soon to track progress. Good luck to all of you!!!

sundevil_87

sundevil_87

04/11/2011

 

Introduction/Amnesteem (Accutane) Day 6

Here we go...I am in my first week of Accutane. I posted to the Accutane Logs forum but since I am starting my own blog I might as well re-introduce myself. I have been struggling with moderate to severe cystic acne since I was about 12 years old. It started to get pretty bad about 8th grade and persisted from there on..I am now 23 and I just graduated from ASU in December of 2010...I was supposed to go on Accutane in the summer of 2008 but I chickened out because I was naive and had only heard horror stories. Here I am now, wishing I had done this sooner but everything happens for a reason I guess...I am well prepared and have done A LOT of research and it is time for this acne to go once and for all!!! I have tried everyyythinggg (I'm sure all of you can relate)...antibiotics, topicals, proactiv, murad, the Clairsonic system (expensive!), chemical peels, blue light/red light...and on and on and on. I am SO happy I found this website...I no longer feel alone and I finally feel like there is hope for me...I am tired of hiding behind a mask of makeup (although I've gotten really good at it lol!!). I also just got married in February and my husband is aware (duh) of my struggle with acne but it really sucks having to hide from my own husband...regardless of how much your friends and family love you, you will still have lingering self-esteem and confidence problems (God knows I do). I just want to be able to stop relying on makeup and spending hundreds of dollars on trying to create this "faux self esteem"...people say confidence lies on the inside...I beg to differ! Try suffering from acne for over 10 years and having people stare at you...I don't think it's crazy to feel embarrassed. LOL. Anyways...I keep ranting but I thought I would get my "story" out there. I know it just like a lot of other people's. I hope to gain suggestions and feedback about what to do/not to do/etc. I will also post pics soon!!! So far in week one...I haven't experienced anything except for a few headaches. Still kind of oily (however I had a Fraxel non-ablative about 5 days before beginning I think that helped with oil). I had a breakout but I also started my period the same day I began Accutane. I got zits on my chin and lower cheek/jawline where I never get zits so I am not sure if that was the dreaded "initial breakout" or what...I did also get a breakout of milia (small whiteheads) after the Fraxel treatment so it could've also been a result of that. The breakout is clearing but I still have some cysts that are finally going down. My face is so red and my scars seem more pronounced (this is where I need your help, guys!!!!!!)....has anyone gotten a fraxel and their scars seem DEEPER?? Maybe I am just freaking out or my face is irritated from the first week of Accutane...no idea but it's scary. After I am done with my Accutane treatment I definitely need some serious scar treatment....the money part sucks though. Having acne has put a hole in my wallet!!!!! Arghhh! LOL... Ok well this concludes Day 6...I am going to blog again in the next few days or next week. I am moving soon so I will be busy but hopefully I will avoid this "initial breakout" if I didn't already get it. Tootles.

sundevil_87

sundevil_87

04/09/2011

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04/10/2011

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