I really wouldn't recommend telling a friend...
Wow these blog views really increased during that long gap I was away!
I kinda underestimated my school work... I didn't know the Invisible Man was almost 600 pages. Two more days till school.
Strangely Im not as stressed as I should be. Im thankful since I do get breakouts during stressful periods.
I hope everyone is doing well. I had a productive summer. Still training horses, but I got my first job working at a resort cleaning cabins and dishwashing. And of course, i got my permit and I will be licensed soon.
You can all panic now.
As far as my skin is concerned, its improved. Or maybe Im just more apathetic to it. Which is good. I find that the less you care, the better it seems even if things didn't really change. Besides your attitude of course
I hope everyone is well and I am excited to talk to everyone again!
I know I know I'm so bad for not posting... not like anyone's interested anyway but hey Im just gonna pretend you care.
Hello! Sorry for not posting for like a month. So here's what you missed: I tripped 50+ times, ate cake, finished my freshman year of HS, got a 4.21 on the report card, turned 15, and went to NY/NJ twice. So yay and because -God forbid- I traveled so much that can only mean one thing:
Yes bad hotel lighting.
Am I allowed to say holy crap. Because my pores looked like monsters on my face that were slowlly emerging out of their caves. Ok awful example. I was just bad. My period was late, and no I didn't have a bun in the oven so its all good It was just odd and late. I don't have a boyfriend anyway. So with all those clogged pores meant a lo of picking and a lot of scabbing on my cheeks. I was miserable. I had a zit on my mouth that made me look like I had plastic surgery. Ironically, I hate to meet my family that day.
But I'm with my horsey in WI now and my skin has been healing. My cheeks aren't as scabby but the adapalene is doing its thing and I got small red pustules near the scabs. But so far my face is covering up fine, my forehead has just some red dots that have nothing in um so I suspect its a new alien source of acne that I started. Welcome. And except for on spot near the middle of my chin thats like a whole, I suppose you can say Im doing better. Maybe.
Thanks for reading!
I apologize for not blogging the rest of my adapalene experience. Finals were coming around the corner... oh joy. Anyway did I mention I was able to wear moisturizer? Well yay I was. So after those two vigorous weeks of dry skin I noticed it was clearing up nicely. But of course once I got into the regular zone of things I had a small breakout (most likely do to the stress of school ) and then my period was extremely late. And no, no pregnancy. I never had a relationship so I doubt thats in the question. But I had a big breakout ( 2 small cysts on chin ) and began picking at my skin. The pores on my jawline were forming into small dots and I had no BP I just wanted it to go!! My forehead is terrible and clogged and just ew. It was always clear though so Im not entirely shocked. Well all the places I picked at are beginning their healing process though they keep getting infected, but next to that Im just... healing. Ill be going on a flight soon. I always tend to breakout on flights. Im the kind of person that screams "Holy crap we are gonna die!" when turbulence hits. Very stressful situation.
Wish you all the best!
Hmmmm so this is odd....
It seems I am having my clogged pores uh how to put this delicately... pop up? Well I am finding some pores are getting easier to rid them of oil basically which leads to very small zits but I am just worried my face is relapsing. Of course I'd take the skin I have right now to the skin I had back then any day but I really would like it to improve more and going back to "that" place ain't gonna do it. Maybe it has something to do with all the tests I had this week. Guess we'll find out.
thanks for reading!
You gotta ROLL WITH THE CHANGES!
Sorry thats been stuck in my head for a good long time.
Well my period is dying down. Haha sorry if that was um direct. Well I no longer look like a water melon but hold your applause because even so I still have semi dry skin and small red spots every where which I pray fade fast. I know have no big zits. Meaning no red scabby looking lump or whatever the only thing really are some clogged pores on my forehead which I will try to fix... and basically thats it and maybe a small little white head like near the end of my eyebrow that I don't even notice. So please for all that is good and holy please at least keep my skin like this! Hopefully it does.
Have a great rest of your day because I have no idea what time it is in the location you live in
And now Im depressed again. Its a beautiful sunny day out and once my face was getting better BAM my period starts to come and I'm breaking out and becoming depressed again. Unbelievable. Honestly will I ever be pretty? Now I got nice red scabs every where and all the girls in my school can look perfect in make up. Hope this passes.
Hope your better then me
Its been three days since my previous blog were I described how I had a face of leather that practically resembled a desert. Well I snapped. No surprise since my will power is just about zero. But my derma called and gave me a moisturizer ( cetaphil ) which I could use a bit of. And I now I don't have to eat cheerios one at a time! Serious my face was so dry it hurt to mouth. But now its getting better. Im having a slight breakout of easily poppable pussy zits ( yuck that was not needed ) but basically its noting that bad. Not exactly clear though but nothing big and I guess my pores don't look as bad.
The whole dry skin issue really did have a negative effect on me. My friend just had to point it out and I spent the whole 4th period crying in the social worker. It doesn't seem fair to have to go through this so young but having acne while I'm old doesn't sound that fun either. It just stinks in general. Hopefully I get better.
Well this...... sucks. Nothing feels better then walking into a school full of girls with pretty faces and skin that is relatively clear or at least looks near perfect with make up on. Unlike mine. So with the no moisturizer rule my face feels like a bunch of things. A cactus in a desert, a cake in the oven, an ant in the sun, and much more. My face thirsts for moisture and at the end of the day my face starts producing oils but of course with all my clogged pores and yucky face zits it looks oily but still feels dry. Feeling ugly on a monday definitely sucks. I have some painful zits on my right side and some that are healing and one big one thats scabbing on my left not to mention a painful one on the side of my jaw. I cannot stand it! Ugh spent all Easter weekend crying and now my face burns. And lo and behold no moisturizer. Well four more days to go. If I weren't so scared of death I think'd I just end it. Ugh I don't wanna even think about the next four weeks.
Well I feel like this is pointless mainly because nothing new has happened. So um YAY! I put on the differin lightly ( got a bit scared because my face feels a bit itchy ) but its okay not red phew. Well I guess Ill try putting on make up on my chin and parts of my cheek ( no where near my nose cuz thats where it creases and is very dry ). Haha sorry I feel like since nothing new is happening I can't keep posting until then. Thats why I have a sporadic blog. Its fun keeps you on your toes. Welllll not really. When something happens, which I'm sure it will, I'll keep you posted.
Until then Happy Easter! ( or if your not religious happy chocolate bunny day! )
I think that should be a relief actually. I woke up to just about nothing after applying the differin. This medicine is supposed to take a while before kicking in so I'm not disappointed in the least. I do feel a slight drying sensation which could easily solved with... uh oh can't use moisturizer. I guess I'll have to find a creative way to put on my make up.
2 small little white heads emerged. And I saw emerged because they were already issues to begin with but they finally uh "surfaced" if you will. (yuck bad wording) so I got rid of those in an instant. Hopefully they don't leave a big impression on my face before school. I already got a big black mark on my lip. ( Don't ask lets just say I can't kiss people until its gone. On the bright side my cover story is "I was making ramen noodles and stirring them with a fork and when I put the fork to my lips I kinda got burned" believable no? Please say yes.)
So I'm kinda screwed..... eh I'll find a way. At least I don't look all red and itchy but that's probably due to the fact that I put little to none of the new medicine on my face. Guess Ill keep doing that for a while then ramp it up. But haha no way am I doing that now.
Hope your doing good random reader. I know I'm not.
Best of luck
Hello! Thanks for clicking.
As you may know I haven't been posting at all. Okay so you probably don't know nor do you care but eh what can you do. Any who just a little bio: 14 year old girl, light-moderate acne (heck I don't know) And finally after a load of lies that consisted of "Ill be here constantly blogging in the next few days." I'm back. A month later. Or was it 2?
So how are things Ella? Why thanks for asking. Awful. Well I suppose it could be worse. I have been restricted, denied, tormented, suppressed ( sounds like im in jail...) and have been forbidden to wear moisturizer. My main question after crying my eyes out a speaking like a 7 year old while hiding in my bed ( No swear to God I actually did that- I have a bit, just a BIT of an anxiety issue) was " huh doesn't that kinda of contradict itself?" He ( my derma ) claims my pores are clogged because of all the moisturizer I have been using but my main issue is the medicine he just put me on. ( Adaplene/ differin which I could have sworn another doctor who this time wasn't a dermatologist gave me. He succeeded in scaring the life out of me when he stuck his hand down my shirt and asked if I had breakouts there. If you want to stick your hand down a young woman's shirt well I guess this time word's are a lot better then action)
I was very worried considering the fact this medicine which I was on previously had caused my face to redden and itch and make me look like I got in a fight with Freddy Crougar or however you spell his name. Wow I sure hope that wasn't bad luck...... any who moisturizer helps with that peeling situation does it not? It evening says that if redness or peeling occurs use lotion. Well brilliant. The one thing that makes the redness stop is the one thing I can't use. Only to me would such a tragedy occur. Now of course I could be in the tsunami or been born in a third world country which would be ten times worse ( hope every one is alright )
So now Im stuck with a whole "no makeup no moisturizer your gonna just have to wear hot clothes and hope no one notices your face" problem. And what had to happen on top of this was that after nearly 15 years of never falling in love ( hmmm wonder why surely not my face...my fat knees perhaps?) I had to develop a crush now. -.- Sucha girly thing to freak out about. Hopefully my friends won't care but I know I definitely will. I guess its time for me to break out my main weapon: Sarcasm. Comedy. My main defense. My best defense that is my best offense? Point is I like to make people laugh and I find they don't mind as much. But at the end of the day I'll still be in my bed crying like the huggable ugly 7 year old at heart that I am. Hopefully you have much more self confidence than me. Which I bet you do. I mean who ever has the guts to read all of this random stuff surely is cool in my book no matter how you look. I wish you all the best.
Ahola beautiful peeps!
Haha just trying to be cheerful. Though my face isn't looking exactly pleasant. Well I suppose that because I was picking at it I deserved a few nice little red dots. Next to my huge pores on my forehead and chin I got a zit (hate the word pimple and I rarely use it) near my mouth which feels like a cyst but i know its just swelled because its in a sensitive area. But still thats not good and I got a small cyst (thank you doxy for shrinking that sucker) on the right of my chin which I of course was like, "Is it a cyst? Should I pop it?" I took a shower and I could tell it had stuff in it so I added a little pressure, just checking, and I did manage to easily get all the gunk out but now of course I got a nice hole that needs scabbing so those 2 things are probably the most noticeable things on my face. Then of course I have a small inflamed white head on the side of my chin and I have 2 small red bumps that were big pores that I scratched off.
I sound like a really violent person who picks at their face so much but I try my best not to and I find i don't really scar. Lucky me. If a big nodule or cyst goes boom (ew) however I find a dark spot that thankfully fades.
It feels rather odd describing my facial issues on the internet I gotta say. But I suppose that is why the site was created.
I'm thinking of getting a facial. My mom says that I'd have to pay for it myself. I really need to have this because my pores if I smile look like little white hills. So does anyone have a job I can do thats worth fifty dollars?? I'm desperate. Haha well not that desperate but I really think it might be beneficial.
Forgive me if I'm not constant with my days. Day 2 my really be day 20 because I'm lazy. I'll probably title it something a bit more creative then "Day..." since they won't really be accurate. Besides tomorrow I'll be in the car for 7 hours so I'll probably be consuming an unhealthy amount of junk food and not being able to use the computer. Eh we'll see.
Get clear and be happy!
Okay so maybe this just works for me....
For Lent I decided to give up soda which I have been drinking a lot of since my school has fending machines. Whether to be happy or sad about that I don't know. Anyway not drinking soda won't magically cure anything as I am sure you will all agree but I have discovered that cutting off soda at least makes yourself feel good.
I say this because if there is someone with acne who drinks a lot soda, while the skin won't drastically improve, your energy may perk up, causing you to be more positive and not be depressed about your skin more. I find when your depressed your skin seems worse then usual.
I drink a lot of orange juice and Izzies ( kinda like.... naturalish... sparking...ish.. juices...) They are a good substitute. And of course a lot of water! Green tea helps too.
For some reason my skin doesn't feel as greasy and my body doesn't feel as yucky. This is a good thing because now I have more energy and get out of the house and get some sun ( heard the big yellow star in the sky helps, but sun burn is unpleasant, especially if your me and it looks like a 4 year old drew all over you with red marker )
Now about gas stations. This is something I love and a little thing that I thought of for the people who are worried about how others view them with their acne.
First off my family always go to our cabin every long weekend we get and its a nice boring 7 hour drive. The point is we visit a lot of gas stations. The reason why I like gas stations is because (food) they give a person who usually doesn't wear make up during long car rides a chance to be themselves.
The idea is that on a long car ride NO ONE at the gas station knows who you are. Whatever you say or do ( I encourage happy things that aren't illegal and make the person smile ) won't matter because you leave in a matter of minutes. So Ella what are you trying to say?
Well at school or in a lot of people's cases work, they are around people that know them or see them often. In school I see a lot of the same people and if my face is bad one day I worry how they will point it out on the next. The good thing about going to a gas station a while's away is that no one knows you, they'll most likely forget you, and when you can leave you can think "Huh wow I hope they didn't notice my face. Doesn't matter I won't see them again." And when your nice to the cashier or a traveler you aren't worried about your face, your happy you made them smile.
I've been to so many gas stations and its nice to know that while I'm constantly focused on my skin the people you meet for five seconds won't remember you for that.
That's why if your someone who suffers from depression and don't get out I suggest, though its crazy, to so something like that. Your skin may be bad but when you leave the station you think, "Hey why's their opinion matter, I'll never see them again." Only on a rare occasion you might but hey that's highly doubtable.
I really hope this helps and hope you don't think I wasted your time.
Please don't hate me I am just a child.
Best of luck with your beautiful selves!
Well hello there!
Haha welcome to Ella's personal little blog. This will be my first time blogging so forgive me if I'm not particularly good at it. A little about me before I begin. Call me Ella. ( I'm not up for giving my real name to strangers, hope you understand) I'm a freshman. I love reading philosophy, I train horses, and I adore piano! I have had acne since I was 11.
So starting today I will be blogging the ups and downs of my complexion. I'll try to make it as entertaining as possible so no one hates me.
Well as of yesterday my skin is improving. I don't have very severe skin but I get the occasional cyst and nodule but since I am taking meds that has improved slightly. (I am taking 100 mg of doxycycline which has reduced and shrunk my cysts. I suggest it for anyone with mild acne)
But since oh gee a week okay I got 3 small cysts. One on my cheek, one near my mouth, and one on my forehead. And since I have the mind of a toddler I tried to pop them. So I got some nice scabbing going on but thats slowly coming off with just little red marks that slowly fade. Its a miracle that haven't scarred.
So I guess you can see that I am improving but I wan't to get all my clogged pores that look like mini white heads gone. I'm gonna slowly work my way up. The first step is to not touch and pop any zits which is VERY hard. Haha I'll get there. (Psh probably not)
So if anything drastic occurs or my face gets better I'll let you know. Though I doubt anyone will actually read this and I'm just talking to myself. Nah. Anyway let me know your thoughts. I'll post more on another time. Thank you for reading and good luck!