So my first official week in my plan is going well. I have not attempted to pick or squeeze any bumps without a head. Its annoying because i just got 3 new ones -_- One is right in between my eyebrows. I'm kind of excited for it to get a head and I'm hopping it forms before bed so i can pop it... This is not what I should be thinking but it is what has been going through my head all day long. I'm going camping this weekend and i really don't need these new inflamed bumps. It is so frustrating. I keep reverting back to my thinking that if I'm just able to pop it, it'll go away faster. I have no idea why I still think this and there is like this urgency that makes me excited for the end of the day when I can take off my makeup and hopefully find a head so I can just pop it. I know popping a pimple doesn't necessarily make it go away faster but I feel like a scab is less obvious than a giant red bump, especially on my extremely pale skin. I'm trying not to think this way anymore but like I said in my previous post, it is really hard to reverse years of habit and thinking. Hopefully my step program works.
I'm having great difficulties in not popping/picking at my whiteheads. I have been successful in not picking/popping larger pimples. This whole not picking thing is not going as planned and is much harder than I first anticipated. I guess because I have been doing it for so long it'll take a lot longer to ween off, so quiting cold turkey was not the best idea. I'd compare it to a long time smoker trying to quit smoking in a day and never doing it again. It seems close to impossible. I'm going to give my self a step program. Week 1 no picking large pimples with no heads, Week 2 add in non-inflammatory acne such as whiteheads & blackheads, and then Week 3 I'll add in my favorite things to pop/pick inflamed acne with heads & skin flakes. After that it will just be maintaining and I can do the absolutely no picking at all count. I'm excited.
I think I've been looking at my failure of yesterday all the wrong way & I want to shed some positive light on it. I've had 4 giant pimples on my cheeks (3 on left 1 on right) for over a week now & I have not squeezed or touched any of them and they are slightly fading and going away. So despite me going ape shit on my many various whiteheads & blackheads (which were popped with very little pressure in a sanitary way and disinfected after) I've been very good about my other forms of acne. So I am not a complete failure and should be slightly proud of myself. Especially because I had the urge to find a way to pop these monsters many a time, but I didn't & showed some self control. That is a pretty big accomplishment for me. I'm going to start over my challenge again tomorrow & I'll tell you all how it goes.
I failed today. I broke down and started aimless picking at the flakes on my face which led to me taking it further and popping a few whiteheads.... This means I am back to square one and have to start my 5 day challenge over again. BIG LE SIGH. I'll do a longer update tomorrow and I feel bad for not putting a lot of time into this one but I really want to get back to bed. <3
So, I have just successfully washed my face looked at myself in the mirror and not picked anything. This is very huge. I always pick after i remove my makeup and before washing my face. My trick was to no look at myself too long in the mirror & to not look super close. Avoiding mirrors for long period of time is going to be crucial to me not picking. One day down, 4 to go
I'm not even halfway through my first day and I've already tried to pick off a crusty dead skin with a scab in the middle. Luckily I didn't go through with or I'd be back to square one. This is going to be difficult but I know it is worth it. I have little scabs all over my face from last nights extreme picking relapse, but i only have 1 big active underground zit on my left cheek, 3 big fading ones 2 on my left and 1 on my right and then a couple small pimples along my jawline. I also have a few whites and i can see some little underground bumps that will eventually surface and become a whitehead or a pimple. Only time will tell. I'm pretty sure I won't have anymore picking problems till bedtime because I am about to go to the pet store and that will require me to put on makeup. I don't pick when I have makeup on but once i take it off right before bed, I'll have a shit ton of problems and urges. Bedtime is my usual picking time, especially if I've had a stressful day. Update again right before bed, lets hope everything goes as planned
Hi guys, I've decided to create this blog in order to motivate myself (& hopefully others) to stop picking! I've recently within the last month admitted to myself that I have a problem. I pick at my skin, specifically my acne. I've done it since I can remember. It sprouts from some idea in my head that if I somehow pop the zit and drain it, the pimple will go away faster. This is obviously not the case & I'm left with scabs & red marks. I'm hurting my skin & most likely causing new pimples to form and spread around the areas I have picked at. I've noticed I pick more in times of stress & anxiety and I believe after tons of research that my picking is most likely a form of ocd. I should also note that I am on retin-a micro and picking is especially bad for me because of how much thinner and more sensitive it makes the skin. I'm in my 5 week now and am in the IB period where everything is coming out and I have a ton of zits. Much more than i am used to & it is just so hard not to pick at all the white heads and new pimples. Infact a couple of hours ago I did a real # on my face which prompted me to make this blog in the first place, I NEED TO STOP! My first challenge to myself is 5 days NO picking!!!!!! let the games begin