God..the order processing takes so fucking long. While waiting, i broke out again. This time, 3 new pimples on my right cheek and one on my left. They all came out on top of fading pimples and PIHs so now both my cheeks look really bumpy and red. I had to go to school today but i couldn't. It's the first time in 4 years that i'm actually caring about my acne. I called my mom in the morning and finally confessed that i'm insecure. She allowed me to stay home but i don't think i can even go tomorrow. In fact, i don't think i can go for at least the next 2 weeks. It's the 2nd semester of my senior year and i've been accepted to all my colleges...doesn't really matter..i'll just bring an excuse saying my grandfather was terminally ill and there was nobody but me available to care for him. I remember a senior last year that missed about a month straight with that excuse.. My mom tried to buy me AC Care products. They're Korean but nobody in the world has ever heard of them. I couldn't find any information on them in the internet so i argued with my parents and they canceled their order. What did i do so recently that caused this massive flare up?? they're not hundreds of little pimples, they're like 3 or 4 big fat red ones. Those, in my opinion, are far worse than having hundreds of small ones. Also, some of my old pimples turned purple and i have 3 black PIHs clustered around each other all in my right cheek. They look like bruises and it's so disgusting. This Regimen shit better work. Dan needs to make a product to help heal PIHs a lot faster. They take their own sweet ass fucking time.
I've had acne since the beginning of 8th grade. It started out with one red pimple on the tip of my nose and that eventually mutated into a facial of acne. Recently, i've been doing many things to prevent acne (inspired by bubzbeauty of Youtube). Such things include drinking plenty of water, not touching my face, eating more healthy, exercising on a regular basis (i can get lazy some days), Changing my pillow case once a week, sleeping on my back, sleeping at least 8 hours a night, and moisturizing with an oil-free moisturizer. By following her guidelines, i managed to clear out my forehead and my nose. A few week ago however, i got a big pimple on my left cheek and one on my right. Being the fool i was, i popped both of them, hopped in the shower, and scrubbed them really hard thinking it might get rid of the scabs, scars, and dry skin on my face. Instead, my entire skin layer peeled off and i had two ugly scabs for a couple of weeks. When the scabs came off, they left with a tender "fuck you" of leaving scars. After a while, i started breaking out around the scars (my cheeks). I left them alone but they kept growing and growing. Then, they started to fade and disappear, but they also left behind a big "fuck you" with blemishes and scars. I was so embarrassed to be seen like that so i skipped the last 4 days of school before a 1 week vacation with the excuse that i had a torn muscle on my right calf. I though that nearly 2 weeks of staying home will give me enough time to heal. I tried the lemon on my face (made shit worse), then the honey (didn't so squat for me), and the Aveeno Ultra-Calming Daily Moisturizer with SPF 15 that guarantees to reduce redness in as little as 1 week (well i used it for one week and it didn't do shit...fucking liars). Two nights ago, i got so frustrated with my skin that i just lost control. I hopped into the shower and i scrubbed my face thoroughly so hard that it hurt (i thought it was going to get rid of flaky dead skin). When i came out and looked in the mirror i thought "HOLY SHIT!!." My entire face was red and irritated. My skin felt like it was a burning inferno. I immediately put honey on it for 15 mins and then used Aveeno (claims to soothe irritated skin but didn't do shit for me). So yesterday night, i went out and bought two things: Clean & Clear Oil-Free Dual Action Moisturizer and Clean & Clear Advantage Acne Spot Treatment. They both claimed to reduce pimple redness and size in as little as one day and to get rid of dead skin by using salicylic acid. I tried them on and so far no improvements whatsoever (fucking A). That's where my blog begins. My right cheek is still mildly irritated and i have two red pimples forming on both cheeks. I'm going to give this regiment a try and actually stick with it for at least 8 weeks. I woke up this morning and my scars got a lot darker (NOT good) with blemishes more visible and zits everywhere. I'm definitely not trusting Clean & Clear anymore. Just ordered my kit and i'll be getting it in 3-10 business days. Let's see how it goes.