Ok, so it's been a very, very long time since my last post. And actually, my skin is clear. Which is a first. The last few weeks have just seen my skin getting better and better, untill I forgot that it used to be a problem all together! Now, whether its the pills or the sun, well actually summer over here has been so completely shitty it can't have been the suns influence. Therefore, I declare the pills finally pulled through! That or I finally naturally grew out of it. Either way I don't care I have some scarring, but boy does it feel good to wake up without any major active acne. I still get the odd spot now and then, but that doesnt bother me. Next step, I'm thinking of getting a chemical peel to sort out my post-acne skin.
Ok, so its been a while. Over a month actually. The situation is, well, the same. Unfortunately I had massive break out a few days ago, with no particularly obvious cause like alcohol or junky food. I still get the same amount of spots, and black heads, so I can just say at this point that these pills fail. What a waste of money it is producing these pills. *Sigh!* Luckily summer is round the corner though, so at least I can cook my skin and dry up all the greasy spots. Unless something amazing happens in the next few weeks, you can assume this is my last entry. I have given it 2 months and there is no change. It's not like I'm going to quit now though, I just have serious doubts that anything will happen. Lols. I'm going to get a few more repeat prescriptions untill I am fully satisfied that the pills don't work. So, if anyone actually reads this, I highy recommend NOT getting these pills, because they are shit
So, skins looking pretty decent past few days. Its hard to tell though what actual acne I have thatâ€™s active because of previous acne scarring. Anyway my skins been pretty good past few days. It would seem this blog is ups followed by downs, like a roller coaster of acne! My shoulders aren't too good however. I never used to have a major problem with it on my back and shoulders, but recently has got quite bad. I'm just glad it's not on my face though. Unfortunately that probably means my face clearing up a bit was not down to the pills, since they are supposed to work on all acne such as on the shoulders and back, not just the acne on your face. Well, whatever I don't know what the reasons are but I'm just glad for now it's calmed down a bit. Made an appointment to see another GP who is hopefully more understanding than my normal one, so fingers crossed for a dermatologist!
Just as you think it's getting better, it gets worse. That's how I've always felt about acne, and here I am again, really pissed off because it's happened once again. Do you ever wake up, and just know you have some new stubborn spots on your face? Like you can feel them deep under your skin; the really red, sore ones that won't go down no matter what you do to it. It's been 1 month since starting my pills, and I am totally impressed at how my skin hasn't changed one bit. I have witnessed no change at all. Well, minus the normal ups and downs that occur every now and then like in my last post. My GP says my skin isn't bad enough to be put on Roaccutane, yet it's too stubborn for any of the other crap I get prescribed to do anything, so I'm stuck in the middle, with crappy skin. Maybe I should intentionally make my skin worse so my GP has no choice but to refer me to a dermatologist. How ridiculous is that. My back and shoulders aren't any better either. I hate feeling so bloody filthy all the time. You see all the shoddy products in Boots with a picture of some woman, who's clearly never had any problem with acne, modelling for the product saying "Hey, I have perfect skin and never have to worry about it, we both know this product won't work and is overly priced, but if you buy something you'll feel like you're tackling the problem." It's just insulting really. GOSH I get so worked up about this. I'll have a bitch fit every now and then to let my anger out. Anyway. Day 28: and nothing is different. Stay tuned for continual disappointment.
Ok so today is one of those days that defies everything you think you know about how acne works. I didn't even go outside yesterday, do any mild exercise, ate crappy junk food all day, and got about 3 hours sleep. YET - no new spots at all. Skin is, above par. Usually I am fooled into thinking this has happened every morning, because my visions blury in the morning and everything looks smoother, but I can confirm this is not an illusion. I guess it goes to show how random and unpredictable acne is. This time, it was in a good way. This time.... DUN DUN DUUUUUUH
Yes, randomly two weeks in to my program I decided I might as well start a blog. I'm taking the 408mg pills, once a day as a substitute for my GP refusing to refer me to a dermatologist. I've taken these pills before with no luck, but I'm pretty sure I didn't take them for long enough or stuck to the routine of one pill a day. So, my doctor is one of those doctors that love to say things like "oh it looks much better", or "it's perfectly normal", when what I want to hear is "I will not rest until there is not a single zit left on your face". He seems like a nice guy, but doesn't understand that it's serious for me; I hate living with acne, and I'm off to Uni in a few months and I feel like having this crap on my face stops me from being myself. At secondary school other kids had acne, but at college about 99% of people are clear. I feel like I'm the only one who hasn't grown out of it! And this blog has turned into a whiney diary already. Anyway this is day one, or, day fourteen I suppose, and I will be checking in whenever I feel like something has changed or enough time has passed, so I can moan about how the pills still aren't working.