Hey, its been a while - this website has even changed and i hardly know how to use it!!
Im up to 2 months post 'tane. My skin has started to have oil return back to it - hopefully it doesnt get back to how it was. Have only had a couple of small pimples. No blackheads have come back to my nose.
My right hand continues to give me grief. The skin split and it got infected so i had to go on antibiotics, and they made me really sick i am currently using advantan cream on it...
My lips are mostly back to normal
my scarring is getting increasingly better.. I have had really good result by rubbing into my scars 100% rosehip oil. I have used tiny amounts of oil, and a LOT of rubbing, and it has really reduced pigmentation, depth and yucky appearance of scars overall.
So im into day 6 after roaccutane
My fingers are starting to look better - not peeling as much, less red, less itchy
My lips are still dry, my face isnt oily, my nose is still dry on the inside. Clear Skin.
My hair is not oily.
I had one drink last night (vodka mix) and felt so unbelieably bad. I dont know if this has anything to do with coming off the roac or if perhaps it had heaps of sugar in the mix (as sugar has bad effects for me) - but what ever the cause was, i dont want that feeling again!!
So i took my last pill last night. I had it in my hand and stared at it for quite a while. It was quite emotional really...
It felt weird not having one after dinner tonight... it will be interesting to see if i feel a difference tomorow. I dont think i will. If anything, itll have to be a few days.
My derm has given me a prescription for epiduo, which i have never used, for maintenance. Hoping i will never use it
I uploaded pictures of my fingers so anyone who wants to see the blistering/dryness/irritation can. If you go through the main menu to gallery, rather then direct to my profile, its under the regimen one (gallery) i think, because i acidentally put it there instead of the accutane one - cos im a spaz...
Ive had Lucas Paw Paw ointment on my fingers today. Its quite gross as its really shiny and sticky, but i think its made a difference. The situation is made worse by the fact that its my right hand and im right handed.
Well thats it for now..
It is the END
At the beginning it felt like it was forever and a day away, but looking back now, 6 months has gone like the click of a finger!!
I havent posted in around three months as there hasnt been much to post about. Roac cleared my face up 100% and DRASTICALLY improved my scars. Part of the way through my treatment my derm decided to drop me to 4 months, (from 6), but after seeing the AMAZING (her words) improvement, she said we would do six months.
My extreme oil problem is gone. I havent broke out at all on Roac. All my black heads are gone. 99% of red marks are gone. Still some scarring, but NOTHING compared to what i thought i would be left with before i started the meds. I barely wear foundation/concealer now, and its no longer an hour long special operation to get it on my face.
For me Roacutane has been a WONDERDRUG. I have had only minor side effects (currently ongoing blistering on my fingers) and my confidence has skyrocketed. I am living my life now.
I AM SO HAPPY...
But im nervous to go off it - im scared ill get oily again and break out Ill post my experience whatever the case...
BTW, I have enjoyed reading the progress some of you have been making the past few months
WOOOOOWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEE its been a while!!!
I am almost done with month 3 already!
Now for an update, that cyst that was shrinking - well it shrunk too much. Now i have a trench in my cheek It has filled in a bit though and is less deep now, so we will see how it goes - maybe a candidate for future dermal filling.
On another note, the lump on the left side of my face near my jaw line just will not completely shrink - its so frustrating!! When i run my finger over it it kind of feels like a little pebble stuck under the skin - pretty hard, the size of about half my little fingernail. However when i look at it, it looks bigger (only when i push it out with my tounge in my mouth). When i push it out with my tongue, the lump shows up like white - whiter than my skin tone. I hope that makes sense! Anyway, im not sure what to do - considering having it injected, however, as it has been there for around a year (was much much larger to begin with), im wondering if it is injected, would it turn into a giant hole, or shrink a little bit rather than entirely .....etc? Anyone have any eperience here?
Okay got to go to bed people
Today is day 58, so im almost done with month 2 - and this means im half way in my course!!!! FARR OOUUTTT cant believe it.
Yesterday i woke up with a really bad stomach ache (like up where the stomach actually is, close to the bottom of the rib cage area) and it lasted most of the day. I have had similar pain before, and it was apparently gall bladder pain, associated with actions my liver was undertaking at the time. The fact that it is back when i am taking roac makes me nervous. I am hoping i have no liver damage or anything. If it happens again, i think ill call the derm.
Sore nose and eyes today, usual tiredness. Cyst is still shrinking. I noticed a rough patch of skin near my elbow - nothing too drastic though. Hair continues to fall out.
I wore bronzer on my cheek bones today - just to give me some colour. I look so washed out...I seem really pale now.
I woke up thismorning and got a shock! I looked like i had had a massive night partying lol. My eyes were so red and awful looking and feeling (burning) - and stayed like it most of the day, even though i used drops. Thanks for that roaccutane!
The Lump left under the skin from the cyst on my cheek is slowly shrinking (is very small really). I have continued to put benzac cream on it. Rest of my skin looks great. I have always had blackheads all over my nose, but not anymore!
was going to buy a lip gloss today, but put it off because im not sure what it will do to my lips or whatever..might just stick with balm to prevent the dryness at this stage.
...Ive lost drack of my days - cant be bothered working it out right now.
Not heaps to report. Have had 4 pimples at the 4 corners of my face. Not sure if i have mentioned this before, but i have an aloe vera plant, so i have been applying the gel from that to pimple scabs etc and it works really well - takes out redness and swelling and heals it quickly.
I got in my car today and just looked at myself in the rear vision mirror - in daylight. Big step. Have been avoiding mirrors for so long. Really liked what i saw too. Looking so much better than what i did a few months ago.
Also considering myself lucky becuse my younger brother has been on 60mg for 9 months and has really suffered with IB, and side effects, whereas i have been relatively smooth sailing...
Okay i am super tired so am going to bed zzzzzzzzzzzz
Good news champs! My cyst exploded last night - yeya! I put a bit of pressure on it washing my face and yeah, hello goop. Its pretty scabby at the moment and still a bit swollen but much, much better, and no pain! So i didnt look SOOO bad for my conference today. I did actually buy the apple cider vinegar, but yeah didnt get to use it.
In other news, had a few white heads thismorning, as well as a pimple on my forehead, which might go tonight.
Also, well done to me, because i still have not had one drink on the 'tane. Will power! He he
The inside of my nose has been better the past few days which has been a relief...But i have had a bit of trouble with my ankles - soreness etc, not too bad
The pimple on my cheek, hereafter referred to as the cyst, is HUGE and HURTS. Im trying to work out wheather or not to go to the shop to get apple cider vinegar to put on it to act as a poultice and draw it out...or put on the Benzac 10%.... Anyone used cider while on Roac?
Im so embarrassed by this monster Its taking over my whole face and i have a conference to go to on Thurs... I dont want to network when i look like this! Also weighing up going back to the derm for an injection tomorrow...
I am holding an iceblock wrapped in a tissue to my cheek right now. My pimple has doubled in size since last entry. The iceblock trick definately works for reducing swelling, redness and pain. It was throbbing most of today My derm said thismorning that depending on how it goes she could inject it with antibiotic...has anyone had this done? Im assuming its not the same as steriod/cortisone? Does it scar? In the meantime im going to continue to ice, and put on Benzac 10% which my brother left at my house. I have never used it before, so hopefully it doesnt burn a hole in my face
So anyway, back to my derm appointment today - it went really well - yaya! I think my course is going to be reduced to 4-5 months instead of 6. My next appointment is in 3 monts and she said it should be my last. She said 'im not going to increase your dose because your dry enough'. I thought that was interesting....they actually go on how dry your skin appears, evidently.
I havent mentioned this previously, but i have been using Advantan Cream 0.1% on 2 lumps that had been under my skin for a number of months prior to starting 'tane. The result is great - the lumps have dramatically shrunk. They still have a bit to go, but have gone from notceable, to unnoticeable. Also, i have forgotton to mention in previous posts, i had to start taking fibre pills really early on in my course...hope you get my drift
I need a new foundation because im nearly out, and im thinking of going from revlon new complexion to revlon photo ready....but im not sure wheather to stick with what i know or not...hmmm. I noticed that the photo ready has an odd mesh over the foundation - weird.
My lips are super dry today
I discovered today that 'tane has exacerbated my skin allergies. I am allergic to hairy animals ie, horses, cats, dogs and my symptoms are usually very minor, and occur only if i have HEAPS of contact. I actually have a beautiful dog of my own, i just make sure not to rub myself all over him, or touch/rub my eyes after touching him.
HOWEVER, I had to touch him more tonight as he just had surgery on his leg and is less mobile and needed help shifting around - so i had quite a bit of contact on my bare, inside forearms. This made me break out in a massive red lumpy rash, which burned and was really itchy. I put aloe vera gel on it asap it and cleared up quickly, but WOW what a surprise!
Also my lips were super dry today It seemed no matter what i used, they were still chapped. I turned down the brightness on my work computer monitor today too - i think that might help with the super sensitivity of my eyes...
I dont want to jinx myself, so 'touchwood' here i guess, but i think my scarring is actually looking better. I know this sounds crazy when i am on the roac, becuase your skin's healing is inhibited etc, AND my derm warned me that it wont heal scars....but my theory is that the roac has calmed my skin down and reduced the oil/inflammation/infection, thus putting my skin in a much better position to be able to heal itself finally........
Also i am loosing a lot of hair from my head......too much
Mountainous pimple on my cheek is subsiding thankgod!
I still have the giant pimple (yeh, the one that is impersonating a MOUNTAIN!) on my cheek. I have to stop putting tea tree oil on it because its made it really red and DRY, and dry all around it. You could even see the dryness through my makeup today.
I have also shifted from cetaphil cleanser to QV. At the beginning, the derm gave me a little pack full of products, and so did the pharmacy (both free) and they contained, among other things, QV cleanser. So anyway, i thought it would be really good, but it seems to be drying me out more I might have to go back to cetaphil
I havent mentioned this before, but i decided to take up the piano when i first started my course of 'tane. I have always wanted to learn an instrument, and piano in particular, but it was a strategic move too. I thought it would be good to have something to really focus on, so i wouldnt get obsessed with my skin. It was a good decision, and its going really well
This morning my right bum bone was really hurting sitting in the car - as in i actually had to keep changing my position to try and stop the hurting...I also have to mention that i am really sore all over. Yoga is getting really quite hard - well, harder than normal lol im not particularly flexible.
The pimple mentioned previously is still there in all its massive glory on my cheek...
Last night i washed my face, which had foundation on it. As i was (gently) rubbing in the cleanser, i noticed my right cheek really hurt! Then i had a squiz, and a massive pimple, kind of half under the skin, had developed during the day without me knowing - sneaky little scoundrel!
So i dabbed neat teatree oil on it, and after 10 minutes it stopped throbbing. This morning when i got up i had a quick look and it appeared to have disappeared! However, when i washed my face a bit later, it had pumped itself back up again...so i repeated the teatree, and applied my makeup. I cant feel it right now, but ill know tonight when wash my face before bed.
Im just wondering if im having my IB late?? Is my big pimple a sign of many more to come
i hope not!!!
I know i posted just a few minutes ago - but i was just reading a blog which detailed what an American can pay for accutane and associated expenses without insurance - $450 per month!!! This is outrageous!!
In Australia because of subsidisation (regardless of health insurance or not) most medications and specialist doctors are affordable. So for me, a 60 pack of roac is around $30, my derm was $130 and i got $70 back, so total cost was only $60 for her, and blood tests are free...
Therefore for my total cost for 6 months assuming 3 derm visits is: $270
Compared to $2,700 for an american without insurance .....
EEEEEEEEKK! We got it good here..
i had my hair cut short in an entirely new style a few days ago. I have say it was amazing to sit down in the chair and be able to look at my face, and really look. I have been trying to avoid looking at myself at the hairdressers the past year (a very difficult thing to do when you are right in front of the mirror!) but now i was so happy to look and see how good my skin looks
Also, i have been feeling really good because SO many people have commented on my hair - they love it! I even had to go in to a managers office who i dont usually liase with just so he could see lol embarrassing!
But yeah its really boosted my confidence...
In other news, my skin seems a bit dryer. Its not breaking out tho, so im happy. My scalp is also
still a but flaky Ive noticed that im loosing my summer tan really quickly too.
I see my derm Mon 7 for 6 week checkup - its rolled around quickly yea yea!
My poor nose is sooo sore on the inside every morning i have to begin to make movements with it only slowly, otherwise it jolts me (like if i scrunch it up or anything). Its all like constantly scabby with blood pretty much - YUKY
lucas paw paw ointment is working wonders on any broken skin i have BTW...
ALSO i wanted to note that any little pimples i get now are different to anything i used to get - i know this sounds weird, but their coposition is different - and if i attack them, they dont get massively infected like before, they just disappear in a few days. I think there is less puss...
hmm, i think that is all for tonight
Hey guys i just thought i would let you all know that i had foils done to lighten my hair today, and i was a bit nervous about how it would go because of the bleach (with my hair and scalp being dry now), but all went well!
The hair dresser didnt actually touch my scalp with the bleach, and my hair itself didnt have any crazy reaction. I read a fair bit on the net about not bleaching/dying on roaccutane, but was fine for me.
So YEAH! no more regrowth
My sincerest apologies for not blogging often. However, i havent had heaps to report.
My skin is looking the best it has for 10 years (bar scarring). The oil is gone. My make up lasts all day now without blotting. Its now obvious to me how inflammed and kind of swollen my skin was without me realising before. It just looks so calm and un-red now, which is very good.
The inside of my nose is so dry and sore. The skin on the inside has now taken on the consistency of conflakes. I rubbed vicks vaporub up there (awkward!) a day ago and that relieved it a lot. It was very menthol-y though, and i dont actually think its meant for that kind of use, but oh well, i had to do something.
My lips have cracked at each edge i have been putting lucas paw paw ointment on the cracks and that is quite good. Ive now got a whole range of lip balms to alternate for my poor, dry lips.
Scalp has calmed down, and im not flaking skin every where now, but my eyeballs have dried out. I have started using eyedrops to keep them from feeling like they are burning. My hands are also really dry. Still quite lethargic.
Im quite excited that its almost the end of month 1...only 5 to go. I see the derm in a cuple of weeks for the 6 week check up on my progress.
CANNOT SLEEP!! Sooo tired. I think im going to have to take the 'tane in the morning instead of at night...
In other news, my skin looks okay. A couple of little ones, but nothing major. My scalp is itchy, and my lips are very dry - i couldnt previously imagine this level of dryness and the uncomfort it would bring ehhhh Vaseline provides the most relief.
I also feel SO unmotivated. I am seriously lacking energy right now. I would also have to say that it is afecting my mental capacity. I have made some really stupid mistakes at work over the past week....it could be the lack of sleep though, not just the roac...
Okay bloggers, thats about all i have to report
over n out
Well, 'BAM' and the oil is gone.... but im not dry dry. I really like it, soooo over the oil. My skin looks really good at the moment, the best it has in over a year. It has quite a calm appearance, my lips are dryer, but not unmanageable.
No break outs ....(yet...) Assuming my IB is lurking around the corner just up the road...
I had some freakish allergic reaction to i dont know what at work today, resulting in me having to blow my nose about 700 times this afternoon with cheap work-supplied tissues My nose is now soooo sore and red and im woried ive broken the skin and it will take ages to heal, or get infected or something. I put some hand cream on it (all i had in my desk!), and when i got home i coated it in savlon antiseptic cream....
Other things ive noticed: I do feel the sun more, and thats on pretty tanned, usually un-sun-sensitive skin. I have had a bit of trouble with sleep. I have had a few incidents where i have just had no energy whatsoever and have had to lie down.
Really, im travelling okay so far...