so the cyst that was on my chin is really just a big scab now- my skin is so fragile. the other cyst on my chin is sloughing off skin like no body's business so i actually put neosporin on it tonight.
i have a little pimple on my forehead. thats about it.
so today i still have the little pimple under my lip, the dying cyst on my chin ( which has incredibly sensitive peely skin) and now another cyst on the lower left side of my chin. hoping it dies before it comes to fruition. a small pimple on my forehead. other than that- pretty clear! my 'new' cheap makeup is incredibly bad at coverage. but it is comforting to know that i dont need as much coverage anymore
wow, i cant believe i keep forgetting to sign in. that makes me feel horrible.
I have one pimple under my lip, and a dying cyst on my chin. I think all the chapsticks are maintaining a break out rate around my lips, but i think i will manage.
I lost my makeup bag- thats about 300 bucks worth of makeup and makeup tools. the most expensive being my revitalash- which my mom bought for me. so i had to go to walgreens and spend 30 bucks on new stuff. :bla.
but for the first time in my life, i was able to barely cover my pimples, and then walk out of the house feeling like a normal person. i didnt have new scars or splotches all over my face. and yeah, i looked 'tired" but i didnt worry about it all day.
if the bag turns up, i will be sooo relieved, but it is almost exciting to think of the day when i dont wear any makeup....
in the mean time, my eyes are still twitching a bit. i have started wearing my glasses (they are the slightest prescription possible for astigmatism) which i think relieves strain, and i am still carrying around my eyedrops like they are gold.
lastly, i switched to nivea chapstick, it seems to last longer than aquaphor, but also feels like a chapstick and not goo.
So not only have i forgotten the last couple days, i also numbered things wrong..whoops.
I am in the midldle of a little breakout it seems, I am thinking it has something to do with my period.
i have a couple active pimples, mostly small, but the one on the bottom of my chin is a bit more swollen, wit not obvious head, and the skin is super super fragile.
my hairdresser said that my hair is still pretty healthy, so that is good.
My eyes are really really dry, and only now that i am using drops do i feel how bad it is.
I am wishing that i had more results right now. but- meh- this is how it goes.
photos up today
Sorry i missed the last couple days, this was my birthday weekend so i was kinda pre-occupied.
I have had one small pimple on my chin that has been annoying. It hurt alot yesterday, but i think that was more about location than size. It is already dying.
For the last month i have had a nasty eyelid twitch that started around the same time i got sick. It has gotten worse and worse, moving to both eyes and upper and lower lids. At times they would twitch simultaneously, or for extended periods of time.
I finally realized it might be a side effect- DUH. so i looked up treatments for blepharitis (which is really for the lid being dry, but whatev) and i started using eye drops. instant relief!!
I have also had some stomach cramps that... well for lack of more 'polite words' give me that ooooo there is a serious BM coming. but without the actual doodoo.
I have been researching that, and it may be a small ulcer?!! I dont know. I will continue to be alert.
today i had to refill my prescrip and i spent to long battling the insurance company that i missed my morning pill. I am mildly dry still, with peeling on the nose, around the mouth, and on the ears. i have some bad dry patches on my arms, chest, and back.
i washed my hair today, and it has been flaky all day. yyyuugh.
So i had my one month appt today with my derm. She said that she couldn't hope for better. We agreed that i escaped all of the serious side effects, and also evaded most of the initial breakout. So on ward! now if only i could remember my iPledge id.. gotta get my wallet...
today my peeling was minimal. I plan on showering tomorrow morning to scrub down my body, but i am debating washing my hair. Almost curious to see how long i can go without washing it. I am on day two without a wash, and everything looks pretty normal.
I bought new chapstick, to experiment. soft lips seems to absorb quickly, but if i let it, it leaves a moist feeling behind. Also nivea is nice when i need an instant relief.
my black heads are disappearing, but the white heads under the skin are still around. I have two dying little pimples on the outside of my mouth.
I can wear makeup all day and still look good at 7:pm. It is like magic. and suddenly, i dont find myself covering my mouth when i talk. I am also comfortable looking my fiance i the eyes, at close range. the emotional difference is the most amazing thing.
The dry skin pretty much sucks. But for me (and as i said, i got pretty lucky with side effects) this has been a wonder drug.
So i have my first followup appt tomorrow. my mouth still has a few little whiteheads, and lover dermis white heads. but mostly it is just dry.
i am beginning to think that some of the fatigue i thought was from my cold, may actually be a side effect.
I am super tired, so more tomorrow.
so last night just as i was going to sleep, i went to itch my back and realized i have a rough patch of skin on my upper back, just below my neck. being that it is on my back, i cant tell if i am breaking out or if it is just dry skin.
other than that the st.ives seems to not be as awesome as my face cream. meh. we will give it more time.
i am washing my hair every two days, and still getting compliments. woot!
no active pimples. just some black heads and under layer whiteheads. pics posted later tonight!
I am really loving my new moisturizer, it also acts as a decent base for makeup ( i have never used primers, but this seems to keep the makeup looking fresh. I am sure having no oil helps there too..)
I am a bit peely by the evening, but that was mostly from opening my mouth wide for salad.
right now i have one dead pimple on my chin, and one red bump that never came to a head on my nose. I am suspecting that it will come back with a vengeance, instead of going away as we would hope.
i still have a few little whiteheads, under the first layer of skin, but mostly everything is fading away.
my face is really smooth and soft. first time in 12 years.
my vision is a bit blurrier than it usually is (i have very very slight astigmatism) but other than that i haven't had any other side effects. holy poop.
the only upcoming challenge is buying my new prescription. I can only hope that my 2nd insurance lowers my cost from 350 to at least 175.
so i bought new moisturizer today, as well as body lotion and bath wash. i now have
loreal dermo expertise for sensitive skin- and it has already made a big difference in my flaky dry face. also, st.ives body lotion for dry/cracking skin. Oil of olay shea butter body wash, and lastly head and shoulders for itchy scalps.
i have one pimple right now. super chapped around the mouth, and lips. itch patches all over my body. but nothing as bad as acne. amirite!?
so last night i was up late, when my cookie recipe went horribly wrong. I don't know if it is because i had less flour, but it was HORRIBLE.
Anyway, I was so tired, i left my makeup on when i went to bed. I use bare minerals, so the only reason i usually remove it is to remove the oil on my skin. But last night i realized that i hadn't produced any oil, so i went to sleep. This morning, my skin was still just as dry, so i put on a bit of moisturizer over the peely areas and went on my way.
my ears are super peely, and my scalp is flaky, but i am working hard to not wash too much.
so if nothing else right now, my maintenance routine has been reduced to almost nothing.
my skin is still dry and peely, I am planning on buying a new moisturizer when i get paid....
actives are beginning to simmer down, and as long as i am really careful how i wash my face, i can keep the dryness from getting out of control
the black heads are definitely beginning to clear up. yay!
I missed yesterday!
My skin has been breaking out around my mouth, and still on my lower right chin. Also, my skin is pretty dry, especially around my ears-- it is actually cracking and peeling. I am only washing my hair every other day, and that is helping keep it from drying out.
the black heads around my nose bridge are beginning to settle down, so good news there.
I am feeling like i should switch to a new moisturizer, something a bit longer lasting- any recommendations? My skin gets kinda crackly around 3ish.
So i uploaded new photos.
my mouth area has become very dry, and cracky. But it is also breaking our it seems. this may be because of my period.
my forehead is still patchy with whiteheads, and my t zone has black heads, but of course the pimples around my mouth are the real irritation.
so much for evading future breakouts. eh.
I have a cluster of pimples on the left upper corner of my lip. It hurts, they won't come to a head, prob because they are so swollen, and there is more than one ( indicative of a cyst deep below) and so when i try to pop one it just bleeds. ugh. I know i am not supposed to, but the pressure makes even talking awkward.
I have noticed that while the rest of my face is very dry, my forehead is still slightly oilier, which is probably what is causing the lasting whitehead issues.
blackheads remain on nose, chin, and forehead. a few whiteheads on my chin today.
dry patches on arms.
so the black heads are still around, and some of the lower dermis white heads are coming up for air... but it is ok. scalp is super itchy, but I am just trying to take it in stride ( I saw an obnoxious head & shoulders ad yesterday, but it is looking pretty good now since it was for itchy scalps).
my arms are pretty dry, even with daily moisturizer. but, honestly, for week three, i haven't had any severe breakouts, and i am not feeling depressed, so i think i got a pretty good deal.
it am so sad that many people do not have the same luck (not that blackheads R us is the best deal). I know what it is like to want to hide all the time. In my age, my skin has calmed down quite a bit, but my scars still make me afraid to go out in public, and life without makeup seems like a dream i once had.
I hope everyone who reads this knows that they are not alone.
so i have been able to go every other day without showering because my oil production is slow. I am also using a lot of moisturizer to keep my skin from chapping. i still have blackheads all over, and the biore strips i bought were pretty much useless. any pimples are mostly on my forehead and lower right chin, though they are showing up and disappearing quickly.
despite the blackheads and minor blemishes, my skin seems to be looking better in general. I am wearing far less makeup, and i feel more confident than in a long time.
whoops forgot yesterday.... I am certainly getting drier in the face, I don't look like an oil slick after being out all day. My skin is getting a bit peely, but is doing ok with the moisturizer.
other than that, i have 1-3 pimples showing up everyday but then being deflated the next.
Also, i still have black heads spread accros my chin, and also up the bridge and side of my nose.I have never had them there before. so that kinda sucks. but it could be worse - yeah?
Well here we are at the end of week 2
I have a huge cyst on my forehead- it doesn't show up at all on the photo i posted. But it hurs soooo bad.
my lower face has really began to slow down oil production. I have black heads all over my chin and lower face, but none the less, things seem to be drying up. I do have one small pimple on my cheek, but it doesn't compare the one onf my forehead.
i had a really bad day after i discovered some new stretch marks. but other than that, I have been pretty happy to get over my cold.
Today when i woke up my chin was all peely. I take that as a sign of progress, but we will see. I still have tons of blackheads down there, and it's pretty bumpy, but it could be worse right?
My forehead seems to be getting the worse treatment. I have a very large cyst growing almost smack-dab in the middle. It kinda sucks since it's on a bony part of my head, and that meanst the cyst truly protrudes outward, toward the world. The other pimple on my head is already healing, but I am expecting my forehead to give me the most problems. I don't know if this qualifies as an IB. any thoughts?
My scalp is still dry and flaky. didn't wash today, so i hope that helps. I am getting over my cold slowly and plan on going back into work tomorrow, so i will use morrocan oil when i style it.
So today my lips were more like plastic than skin.
my little black head lower dermal whitehead thing continues to annoy, but regular pimples are still showing up quickly and leaving just as fast.
my scalp is super flaky, and i didnt make it through my first day of not showering ( I hope to wash my hair only every other day to protect the moisture) on account of my cold.
the good thing is that it seems like my oil production is slowing.
after my bath was able to remove most of the dead skin from lips, and now aquaphor is my buddy. neosporin lip care- NOT GOOD. but if i combine chapstick and aquaphor, it manages to to moisturize before rubbing off.
I wrote a message to someone today. I figure that it was made of worthwhile thoughts, so i just wanted to put it out there.
Hi, thanks for the comment on my blog. I am fairly new, and you are the first person to let me know that people on here do as much desparate searching as i do.
I hate when my mom points out things (like, "come here, let me see that pimple- want me to pop it? wait come here, let me see you skin..") about my skin. In fact, when people make comments about acne in general i get really embarrassed.
my brother took accutane when we were young, and he was one of the ppl who had really bad depression as a result. He went off of it quickly and even with only a couple weeks, his skin cleared up for several years. It never returned in full force.
I mentioned on my profile that i have tried just about everything under the sun, and for the last year, i have had a super intense regimen. When the derm and i finally decided on accutane, (i am taking clavaris) we agreed it was the right step. She told me, and this may comfort you, that at our age, our hormones are settling down, and so we are much more likely to have permanent success, with slightly less severe side effects.
I decided that all the birthcontrol/bloodtest/ blablablab was worth it after i had a friend casually mention that she was on it, and that she loved it. She said that in order to keep her body and scalp healthy, she was only showering every other day. I could see the difference. And she was NOT covered in nasty dry patches.
So I actually have something to talk about today.
My scalp is def dry and flaky, with less breakouts, more itchy.
my lips are in major pain, along with my nostril area - due to the incessant mouth breathing and nose rubbing.
but more than that, i woke up today and noticed that the blackheads on my chin have grown/ multiplied. Also, i seem to have what i have been thinking of as whiteheads, without the head. they are very tiny, not read, and only visible when i use my toungue to apply pressure. They have always been around my mouth. But now, they seem to have bred and are in full force.
my skin, after my bath also seemed to stay red.. so i guess i am getting the "tane flush" look.
lastly, as ironic as it seems, I seem to be breaking out, but also producing less oil. It could be that my fever has affected my skin, but indeed, i was a bit drier.
next photo opp is just a few days away. yay?