i know i haven't been posting, but i've been very busy at my job as a bartender, at which, as i'm sure most of you are aware, looks are very ( however superficially) important. i have become a master of disguise so making it look like i have good skin is no problem (except for the extra hour i have to get up earlier to put my mask on in the morning). but i just wanted to show what (little) progress I seem to be making, and ask this community at large...is this normal? are the monthly blow drawings and expensive pills going to allow me to go for jogs, go out and get the mail, hell even (crazy thought) go to WORK without make up one day??? Day I started (gross) Uploaded with <a target='_blank' title='ImageShack - Image And Video Hosting' href='http://img6.imageshack.us/i/20110208173648.jpg/'><img src='http://img6.imageshack.us/img6/7960/20110208173648.jpg' border='0'/></a> Uploaded with <a target='_blank' href='http://imageshack.us'>ImageShack.us</a> Uploaded with <a target='_blank' href='http://img6.imageshack.us/i/20110208173648.jpg/'><img src='http://img6.imageshack.us/img6/7960/20110208173648.th.jpg' border='0'/></a> Uploaded with <a target='_blank' href='http://imageshack.us'>ImageShack.us</a>
so i'm about to graduate from a program called americorps, a domestic peace corps of sorts- in about one months time. being 20, and having suffered since 13, i never thought it could get worse. benzaclin, differin, BC, monocycline, tetracycline, bacterium, proactiv, acne free, burts bees, clean and clear....like literally name anything you want i've tried it and been miserably disappointed. its gotten to the point where i quit my job as a life guard because i was scared of going in the water and my make up rubbing off. i can't take showers without bringing make up into the bathroom with me. i dont work out because i know sweating and make up don't mix.i don't feel comfortable sleeping over friends houses. and i pretty much only go out at night because i fear natural sunlight draws attention to it. i've let my acne take over my life, and its only gotten worse in my program because we move from one end of the country to the polar opposite every month. its like a nightmare program for skin. i can't even go out to the mail box without make up on. its got to stop. so i figured, put together all the money i spend on make up and experimental acne meds, i feel like accutane, should it work, will be a worthy investment. i've gotten over my fear of needles and went on BC and i'm ready...i think. the only thing is....i'm worried about getting a job once i start! i've been known to call in ugly to work before (seriously...i'm pathetic haha). but having dry, peely skin is sure to keep me in my bedroom cave all day. is it hard or rather- inconvenient- to carry out normal day to day activities with your skin throwing scaly skin/ pimple parties on your face? thanks you all. this website was the final factor that made me decide- after 5 years- to go on accutane. i'm ready to be as beautiful and confident as all ya'll!!!