Hellooo! Okay, so I promise I will start doing better on blogging more often! Right now I'm at day 44, yay! I caught an AWFUL flu and was super-sick for about a week. I haven't felt that terrible in literally YEARS. I went home to my parents' house so my mom could take care of me even! You better believe I stayed on track with my Spiro though! Just got my perscription filled a few days ago...and I'm trekking along towards month #2! Sooo, skinwise, I'm just not sure! I continue to break out on the lower parts on my face. I even got a couple almost-cysts right on the right side of my face, but under my chin. Not visible and went away very quickly though. So yeah, more progress to come for sure, but I'm slowly improving. Had a pretty bad breakout a few days ago and had about 4 new spots, but the last of those went away. Forehead and right side look clear, left side has one big one (I picked it last night and it is not happy) and a couple clogged pores on either side of my chin. Nothing I can't deal with, and they are coming more slowly and less often than before. Still getting some blackheads, but those don't show when I wear makeup! I am also starting tanning (I know, I know) tomorrow and that's going to make the appearance of my skin soooo much better, even if I'm still getting a few spots here and there. It's not perfect yet, but it's definitely a HUGE improvement already. Patience is of the most importance, that and NOT PICKING. Still struggling with that one, but I've been doing better. Neosporin left on overnight is something that I highly recommend on sore spots; it really heals them SO much faster! Skin is still kiiinda dry, but it's down to 30* at night so it could be totally weather-related too. Hope everyone's regimens are going well too! xo
Yooo! I've made it to the one month mark! Haven't written in more than a week, bad blogger! I've just been working, doing fun things, and enjoying life! On to the skin situation..things are pretty good! I think (though not positive exactly when; Spiro messed up my cycle SO bad) I'm about to get my period within the next two days and right now, my skin is WAY better than it would normally be at this time of the month. Normally my chin area would be covered with at least 5 or 6 zits, right now there's two, and one is healing quickly. I got a couple pimples where I normally wouldn't have, forehead and sides of cheeks, but those only lasted a couple days. Overall, muuuuch clearer than normal. YAY! I'm hoping this will be my last period breakout for a longgg time; I'm figuring by this time next month I'll have almost nothing! Skin is still improving but definitely has a ways to go. Less blackheads and clogged pores on my T-zone, but those are taking their sweet time making their exits! I just wanna squeeze every single last one (and sometimes do)! I've been better about not picking and I know that also makes a difference. I know this is bad, but I sometimes sleep in my makeup and I use it as fuel not to touch my face..I just go to sleep and don't even enter the bathroom. Skin and lips still feel dry, and my skin is constantly flakey. Lots of moisturizer and a little exfoliation and nobody knows a thing though! Still getting pimples and clogged pores, buuuut they are more few and far between (by far) and smaller. If someone looked at me with makeup right now, they would think my skin is almost completely normal. Only I know the truth! The blocked pores, they're there! I feel comfortable enough with my skin right now to go out and be social and single though..yay! Progress is SLOW, and almost impossible to notice, but I already feel a huuuge change. Things aren't going to get any worse than they were, that's for sure. Can't wait to make it to the 2 month mark. I feel good vibes of clarity about it! xoxo
Hey world! I'm now at day 23. Haven't written in almost a week; had friends visiting for the last 5 or 6 days. I had SO much fun with them. Skin's really clear for the most part! I have still been getting some pimples, but they are very small and heal quickly. Right now all I have is one tiny one under my lip, which you literally can't see but is a little bit sore, and a healing red spot on my lower cheek, also barely noticible. Random blackheads sometimes too, but those are easy to deal with. Still have some skin-colored bumps around my chin but that's really about it! I'm surprised because I definitely neglected to wash my face the last few nights and I should be crazy broken out. My skin has been really dry and flakey, but now that has stopped for the most part. Red spots are also quickly fading! I feel like my skin is now getting used to the Spiro and is evening itself out moisture-wise. I'm already wearing less makeup! LOVE that fact. I don't think I'm completely in the clear yet though, I still have been getting zits here and there, so I've seen some ups and downs in my skin's clarity thus far. I just don't want to get my hopes up too high this early in the game, and I know that I still have a bit of time until I see the really desired results, but I feel like it's working already! Crossing my fingers that I won't break out bad again because my skin is already way clearer in the red spot department. I can now use one lightish layer of concealer and a little powder and my skin looks flawless! Still a tiny bit bumpy on the sides of my chin but only I would over-analyze those! So yeah, things are looking up. I wish I had done this so much sooner because I literally feel no negative side effects anymore, it's clearing my skin and it's effortless! Stick with it everyone!
Hey guys! Not too too much to report, skin still being a little weird. I'm still breaking out a tiny bit, but not bad at all. I got a few tiny little bumps around my eyebrow, where I had another zit that I, of course, picked at. I think they will wash away with a little exfoliation though. My new goal is to not pick AT ALL, unless there's something really horrifying looking that I can't go out in public with. Washing my face at night is the most tempting time for me, so I decided I won't even look in the mirror, I'll just go to bed! I have one pimple on my right cheek, barrrely noticible, and one little whitehead on my lower left chin area. I also have a healing spot on my nose next to my eye and one on my chin..think those will fall off today or tomorrow. So over all, not that bad in any way! My clogged pores have been reduced by almost half on the sides of my chin, and those have been super stubborn for the past 3 months. yay! Slow progress, but I see major improvement already. Even if I'm still getting a few zits, the overall texture of my skin is changing in a really good way. But, it has been SUPER dry. I have to exfoliate everyday, but I do it with a cleanser and it's pretty gentle. The same thing happened to me with the Accutane, but my skin eventually adapted to the meds and it stopped. I'm figuring that's what will happen this time too! Last night I slept from 5-9 pm and then 1-9:30 am. I was exhausted, I guess! Not sure if it's from the meds at all, which I haven't really felt too many effects from lately. Still a little more thirsty than usual, but that's about it. I hope this blog has been helpful to people thus far..and I hope everyone is making progress in their own journeys. Just remember, it's only a matter of time! xo
Oh hey. It's day 15 already! It seems like the days are flyyying by, probably because I've been working a ton. Skinwise, things are pretty good, comparatively. Skin is still doing MUCH better, right now I have one zit on my forehead, one little guy on the side of my nose, and one on the side of my chin, which I think will be gone by the morning. My skin is pretty fricken dry though! It won't look it when I first wake up, but then I get out of the shower and there's some parts like look like alligator! Well, not quite, but it's bad enough that I have to scrub it gently with a warm washcloth before I put on my face lotion. Still have a few skin colored bumps and my mouth/chin area, and I think the scrubbing might irritate them a bit, which is why they're taking longer to heal. Everything else is drying up and being scrubbed away! My skin is definitely not perfect yet, but anyone who wasn't me wouldn't think I had an issues, at least compared to last week. It's starting to be really soft and smooth! A few tiny bumps I can deal with, for sure. Once I start tanning, the red marks will blend in very quickly too. Picked at my skin tonight after washing my face, so we will see if I wake up with any punishments. Hope notttt! I have some friends coming to visit within the next few weeks so I hope to continue to clear for the upcoming events. I'm feeling good vibes about this though! Things are on the up and up. Now if only I can stay patient...
Good morning, lovers. This post won't be very long, as there's not much to update, but I'm bored so I'm still going to write. Things are getting better since I upped my dose to 100 mg. Each morning I wake up with clearer skin! I haven't had a NEW pimple since about 2 days ago. The ones that I did have are very quickly drying up and the marks are fading. yay! Skin looks the best today since I started the meds and I think things are only going to get better from here. I'm a little worried about another major breakout, but I can't see it happening with the way things are going. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. My lips have been feeling really dry, though they don't look it. Not sure if that's the change in seasons/licking my lips in the cold or the meds, but I'm assuming it's the meds. Not too huge of an issue at all though, regular chapstick (my fav) seems to do the trick just fine. Feeling a little extra tired too, but not to the point of fatigue. Sooo, yeah! It's my mom's birthday today so I am going to go play with her for the day. I'm kinda sad because my friends are all doing really fun music things this weekend and all I get to do is WORK. YUCK! Oh well, there's always more good times to come... . SMOOCHES! ps- is anyone even reading this thing? I never get comments so I just don't know. Oh well, either way!
Hey people! Day 12 here. I doubled my dose of Spiro, so it's now at 100 mg. I was going to go from 50 to 75 to 100, but last night when I was about to take only 50 (I took the full 100 the night before) I thought, "Don't you want to clear up as quick as possible? Don't be a wuss!" So I just took the 100. Oh well, I'll just live through the side effects if they get bad! Skin-wise, nothing too major has changed. I have about 3 or 4 almost-healed, sexy little scabby things, a weird cyst-like thing near my ear, which gets hidden by my hair, and a few bright red spots. All in all, not super-terrible but not great yet either. Blackheads are still alive and well on my nose, and those little flesh-colored mini-lumps are still around the sides of my chin. How exactly are they going to come out? At least with big zits, they pop and the shit comes out. With these little guys, I feel like I would have to squeeze every single one for the pore to empty. That, clearly, is not the wisest idea, so I only squeeze at the more obvious ones (bad, I know, but I don't force too much at all.) I don't know if you can really even see them that much unless I scrunch my lips in and make the skin stretch. That's a wicked hot visual, huh?? Haha! Whatever, because I know they're there and that's all that counts. I felt off yesterday after taking the 100 mg the night before, but I kind of expected a couple weird days during the increase. Tired, a little nausea, thirsty, and not really hungry. I think things will settle back to normal today. God, I can't WAIT for good skin again. I wish I had taken action sooner, because I've been breaking out since June, but I kept making excuses for my skin and why it SHOULD be broken out. Like, it's period time so obviously I'm zitty, it must be that new moisturizer I tried, it must be my face wash, etc. I just couldn't accept that I was one of those people who Accutane didn't work for. Well, it worked for about 6 months, and my skin was so perfect I thought my troubles were done! Overly-optimistic apparently. I try not to let my skin hold me back from doing things, but it SO does. I obviously have to go to work and live my life, which I do, but if my skin is bad, I will NOT go out with my friends. That's so sad to me. A lot of it is seeing people who saw me with really bad skin in highschool. I feel like they will judge and be like, "Really, still?" I feel like I was awkward and ugly in my younger years, and now people tell me I'm beautiful. Sometimes I almost believe them, with exception of my recent skin fiasco. I had no self-confidence for years and years and years, and I think it did a number on my sub-conscious. I just don't feel comfortable in my skin yet..literally. Sometimes I think I have that disorder where you see yourself completely different than everyone else, because no matter how many compliments I get, I don't believe them. I pick myself apart all the time, and I feel like a bad relationship/acne/being teased when I was younger really screwed with my head. At least I'll have good skin going for me soon, and that will be a HUGE boost for my confidence. That and a good tan, hehe. Living in the VI, it was SO EASY to look good. You're tan all the time, in shape from walking and swimming everyday, and have great beach hair. I got here and I feel like the ugliest, pale little creature. I decided (I know this is so awful), that once my skin clears, I'll let myself go tanning for the rest of the winter. Argg, I know it's so bad, and right now I just use self-tanner, but I refuse to put it on my face and I can't deal with a tan bod and pale face. If I'm trying to meet a new man and be comfortable without make-up in front of him, that is NOT the way to go. So I'm going to celebrate my new glory, when it happens, and get my confidence way back up. Life is good, but it's going to get great! Sorry this post was so long and Debbie Downer-style, it's just one of those days. Still thinkin' positive...sort of! xoxoxo.
Good morning people!! It is nowww...day 11. Things are going well! I continue to clear up; right now I have about 6 healed zits that are about to fall off completely once I shower. I woke up with 3 whiteheads, but I picked a little last night and the zits I picked stuck around because of it, I think. But, they are pretty minor. I'd say I only have 2 noticible spots, one cheek and one chin...not too bad compared to the 20 I had about 3 days ago. Yay! I'm going to see some friends' AWESOME band play this weekend, and I'm seeing a bunch of people I haven't seen in awhile, and I was praying my skin wouldn't be out of control. Now I'm sure it will be fine, what a relief! I'm hoping progress continues because I'm also seeing my ex in a couple weeks and I need to be GORGEOUS. He has a girlfriend..but we have a major first-love bond, so whatever. Can't ever let the ex see you looking bad! hehe. I'm thinking it's time to up my dose from 50 mg to 100 mg, but I think I'm going to start by taking the 2nd pill every other day (75 mg is what it will amount to) to avoid another breakout, and then take the 100 every day in a week or less. I'm super-sensitive to all medications, I wonder if this will cause it to work any faster? From what I've seen so far, I'm guessing I'll be mostly pimple-free in about a month, but that's being very optimistic. I just have a feeling! I think my skin and hair has already begun to be less oily also, I worked all day yesterday and felt shine-free until the evening. I'm still getting a few new zits, but nothing compared to the breakout I had a few days ago. If my skin stays like this, just a few spots at a time until I clear up, I think I can deal. I've had waaaaaaay worse skin than this at some points and having just a couple zits should be something that I'm really thankful for. As long as I don't feel like a freak My side effects are still minor, but we will see if they stay that way now that I've increased my dose. I've read a lot that they subside a lot of time by the 2nd week either way, so I'm eager to see. As long as they don't get a lot lot worse then I should be perfectly fine. I have been seeing more blackheads on my nose, but I think those are just on their way out, so they're just making their way. You can't really even see them if I wear makeup anyways! All the little skin-colored bumps around the sides of my chin are also fading quickly, and they've been around for awhile now. Progress!! I'm not sure if I've lost any weight, I don't have a scale at my house. I'm praying not because I'm already tiny! Bigger boobs wouldn't be so bad though!
Good morning! It's day 9 currently, and all I can say is...thank GOD! I made it through my IB! Truthfully though, that was awwwful. From day 6-8 I had THE WORST skin I've had since before I went on Accutane! It was like, new zits every hour. At one point, my forehead was completely bumpy, I had about 7 or 8 on my left cheek, about 5 or 6 on my other cheek, and about 6 on my chin. Talk about gross. Zits of all sorts too! I felt like total crap the last couple days, but thankfully if I part my hair on the other side, I could hide the worst parts (some of my chin and my right cheek). BUT, crisis averted...my skin is looking SO MUCH BETTER in the last day/night. Of course I had the work everyday this weekend, including a double on Sunday, and I literally didn't want to leave my house because of my skin. But I got home from work last night and had nothing new or acting up at all, weirdly calm skin! I think that today when I exfoliate, my skin will be 90% normal looking. Yay! Peeing and thirst have both kind of evened themselves out; they're both still more pronounced than usual but have definitely toned down. Still having minor dizzy spells that are barely worth mentioning. Lips feeling a bit dry, not Accutane dry though; they're not painful and I can use regular chapstick and feel relief. I haven't been feeling the awful fatigue that some people complain of, which shocks me since that was a huuuge side effect for me when I started Tane. Good thing because I like to work a lot and adventure and enjoy nature, live music, etc, and being tired just doesn't fit into the mix! I'm feeling positive about things right now not only because I defeated the IB, but I feel like Spiro is really starting to settle into my system. All the side-effects I had started to chill out and my body feels good. I just into a beautiful little house in the woods with 2 of my all-time, soul sister-status best friends. We have a dog and we just got a cat that I absolutely ADORE. And fall is here, my favorite season! So life is really great right now and I have great friends&family, and my skin is going to get better in the very near future. No complaints there, right? xo
Yoooo! Day 7 has arrived...one week. woohoo! Not too much to report here...besides the fact that my skin SUCKS right now. Most definitely entering the IB zone, how terrible. My skin is, what I can call, weird. I'm really broken out on the right side of my face, especially my chin and lower cheek. They're sort of healing but there's new ones forming. It's just basically gross and scaly with a few tiny whiteheads that are too deep to mess with thrown in the mix. FOUL. I'm also getting little clogged pore in spots where I normally don't, on my cheekbones and on the sides of my face. They're a tiny bit itchy and just generally yucky. In a way I'm glad that I'm getting an IB right away; that means I'll get used to it sooner than having an IB pop out of nowhere at like, 3 weeks. Fingers crossed! Side effects are still generally the same, slight dizziness at random points at night..very minor, a little tired feeling, very thirsty and lots of peeing. Now my lips are starting to feel dry also. That makes me happy because soon my SKIN will be that dry and oil-free! I know that this is the tough part of the journey, but i hate hate hate it. I feel like crap about myself! Plus, I'm newly single and ready to mingle and I just don't feel like I have the self-confidence to look for someone new until my skin gets better. I'm lonely though! If I had makeup on, in a dark bar, I'm sure nobody would even notice my skin but I know in MY mind that it's all I will think about! I see people with worse skin than me all the time, and I always say a prayer for their strength and confidence, because in a way I'm lucky my skin is not even worse. It's just that all my friends have beaauuutiful skin. Hopefully I'll be in that club soon . Think that's about it for now..have a lovely day everyone!
Hellllo all! (assuming someone is even reading this) Today is day number 6...I think? I thought I posted yesterday but now I can't seem to find the entry. Not sure if I'm just confused or if I have no idea how to work this site yet..whatever. Day 6 it is! Not much new to discuss...right now my forehead and cheeks are clear, save for the 2 tiny whiteheads I woke up with. Fortunately, they were the kind that just go away when you wash your face. My chin, on the other hand, is another story. I have probably 5-6 small, half-way healed spots. They are almost flat, but they're very red and scabby feeling. So basically they will be gone in a couple days but before then they will dry and peel. I HATE that..how am i supposed to put my makeup on if I have skin falling off my face!? In this situation, I usually scrub my skin really hard with a towel but I am well-aware that makes matters worse. So I'm just not quite sure what to do! Guess I'll just walk around with skin falling off in a trail behind me all day..ha, ew! I'm also not sure if this is part of an IB, from my weird fake (but heavy) period that Spiro gave me, or just my regular shitty old skin being its lovely self. Anyways, Spiro has been making me pee like a MADWOMAN. I never realized how incredibly annoying that is. I usually only have to pee maybe once or twice a day, and I think yesterday I was at about 6 or 7! It sucks to have to plan out when you can pee in preparation for a car ride! I have also been suuuper thirsty. It's weird, I have been getting a tiny bit dizzy everynight around 8 or so, but it's mild and eventually just fades away. I will notice it at work (I waitress) at random times, but it hasn't been serious enough to make me have to sit down or anything. Slightly uncomfortable but very manageable thus far. As for my skin, I'm just not sure. I know changes must be happening since I am having side effects, but I'm very hesitant to say it's making a difference yet since it takes so long to kick in. I was assuming I wouldn't see much change before the 2 month mark at least. Buuut, my forehead is very smooth and my blackheads aren't bad at all. Skin would be pretty great right now if it weren't for my chin/cheek issue. Sometimes I wonder what other people see my skin as compared to how I see it. I have friends who tell me that my skin is not nearly as bad at I think it is, but it's all I see. I'm good with makeup, so that helps. What they don't understand is that I need my skin to be PERFECT. After so many years with acne, and having perfect skin after Accutane, I feel as though I'm allowed to want that! It's literally become an obsession, which sounds weird but you know how I feel. It's the first thing I think about when I wake up, and I am constantly checking it out in mirrors, car windows, etc. Did I mention that I'm a picker? AWFUL. That's something that I'm really trying to get a handle on, but it is SO tempting. I know how detrimental it is but it's literally like I can't NOT do it. But I've been trying not to...and I've been doing a lot better. Think that's about it for today; I just moved into a new house and I think we are going to pick up our new kitty today and I'm so excited. Animals are so incredible because they love you no matter how you look or feel. Unconditional love! My dog never gives me the side-eye about a zit..bless her heart. Write again soon..bye loves!
Hello all! Like many of you, I have spent a lot of time on these boards trying to figure out just what the heck to do when it comes to acne. I feel like I've learned a ton from this site over the years, so I decided to start my own blog to try to help others too! I'll start by introducing myself and my skin. I am a 24 year old woman who has been suffering from varying levels of acne since I was about 13. I can remember getting my first acne in 8th grade; I don't think it really had much effect on my self esteem at that point. Everyone was awkward! Anywaysss..my skin continually got worse throughout the first few years of highschool, then became cyctic my junior year. I tried all different kinds of topicals..no such luck. Both salycylic and glycolic acid make me break out, so I can't even use cleansers with them in it, nevermind a topical containing them. Yikes! Tried mino- and tetracycline, both upset my stomache too much to continue, and never cleared me up fully. This continued until I finished college...short term solutions, but in the end, I still had really crappy skin. Thinking back now, I can't believe I could even have left the house. I am SO self-conscious about my skin now that I probably couldn't. Finally, I tried Accutane, and I LOVED it. The side effects weren't super, super bad (mostly soreness and itchy skin at certain points) and I loved how dry it made my skin and hair. I was living down in the Virgin Islands for most of my stint on Tane, and the meds mixed with salt water and sun gave me the most GORGEOUS skin. OMG. How I took it for granted! I was wearing just bronzer everyday, and I never ever thought my skin would be able to do that. Unfortunately, it didn't last. I started breaking out again when I moved home in May, and that's how it's been since. Talk about a double punch in the gut..moving home from paradise and regaining my gross skin. Awesome!! I also have anxiety problems stemming back from a long-ago relationship, and had a really rough time moving home, so I started taking Xanax. Not a good thing for your body, but at the time I felt like I had no choice. My anxiety continued through August, and I'm just finally starting to feel better now. Sooo, I'm not sure if the acne came back because of high stress levels or just because the Accutane "wore off". Either way, it sucks. Once your skin is good, you really forget to appreciate it. Now I remember what it was like to be self conscious about being in sunlight, with your bad skin side showing, etc etc. I forgot how shitty that felt to have to worry about that! Now I wake up and immediately wonder how many new friends I've made while I've been sleeping..ughhhh. Not that my acne is nearly as bad as it used to be..highschool and college was a lot of cysts and big painful whiteheads. I don't get cysts anymore really; I think I've had one since my acne came back, but I have blackheads and clogged pores on my T-zone, and I get bigger, painful ones around my chin area. Some randoms on my cheeks once in awhile too, but those are super manageable. I hate wearing makeup!! Alright, enough rambling..the point of this blog is to chronicle my newest endeavor..Spiro! I'm excited because it has the effects of the Accutane (hair, skin) and I think that the side effects sound very manageable. I only worry about the weight loss, I'm 5'5 and weigh about 115 now. I look healthy (I'm just long and lean!) but I'm worried about losing any more weight. Guess I'll just have to drink my weight gainer (ha)! Better check it's potassium levels! My dermatologist gave me two choices...Spiro or Bactrim. I started with the Bactrim because it seemed like it would work faster. Big mistake. Took one dose and it made me reaaallllyy anxious, as weird as that sounds. My derm said he had never heard that reported before, but I went online and did some research and found horror stories about Bactrim and it's terrible side effects, one of which, being anxiety. Screw that! It's kinda pointless to have good skin but to be too anxious to show anyone! So I've started Spiro. Right now, I'm taking 50 mg a day, which will be increased to 100 in 2 weeks or so. I take it about an hour before I go to bed right now, with food. I'm a couple days in, so here's a recap: Day 1- Took my first pill at about 11 pm. Do you think it matters what time you take it at, as long as you're consistent? Day 2- Felt fine all day, maybe a little tired and just BLAH. I recently went through a breakup, so I think that contributed slightly to the BLAH factor. Whatever. I was at work and was feeling dizzy for a little bit when looking down, but nothing out of control. Not sure of skin changes yet. Day 3- Same exact feelings as the day before, but not as down feeling as the day before. Definitely some dizziness at around 7-8 pm both nights. I had about 4 medium whiteheads on my chin when I started; they're finally drying up and going away (after i popped them, whoops) and a little patch of flesh colored bumps on either side of my chin...clogged pores? I don't know the technical terms, so I'll just describe what they look like! Those are what really bother me; I'd rather have a couple bigger zits than bumpy skin! ew! Failed last night because I fell asleep without washing my face or taking my pill! Okay, well that's my intro! Future posts will not be this long and drawn out, I just wanted you guys to get the gist of my skin-life thus far. I'll try to update at least every few days. Until next time, be brave everyone! We gotta fight the good fight! xo RG