Had a crazy couple of days there. Today was no exception, and I must be brief. I have switched to putting the CeraVE on before the BP. Works wonders. The Neutrogena Extra Gentle Cleanser ROCKS MY WORLD. My skin *was* doing brilliantly. My skin tone was no longer red, my pimples were fading and shrinking; in fact, this is the best my skin has looked in a while. All that changed tonight. Due to the stress of work and other forces, I had a slight anxiety attack, and I practically squeezed and picked the life out of my face. One step forward and two steps back. Tomorrow I will see how badly I've damaged my skin. Right now it's just a red and bumpy mess. Aw, crap. And here we go again.
So, no new pimples, but my old ones haven't gone away yet. Granted this is only day three, so what can I expect? I tried to put a little BP on my face before adding the CeraVE, and then after putting on more BP, but my face is still pretty sticky. I am going to try simply putting the CeraVE on completely before the BP. If that doesn't work, I am going to get a new moisturizer. Ok. Tired now. Going to bed. Stay lovely.
I wasn't expecting any miracles. Before I started the new regimen, I sat myself down and gave myself a long talk about getting my hopes up. Okay, so, not really, but I really am trying to be optimistic without looking too far ahead. When I woke up this morning, I didn't have any new pimples, but some original ones had finally "sprouted" to the surface. That was nice, I guess, because it means they will be gone soon, but it was bad news for my tempted fingers. I forgot to add in my last post that I am a habitual "picker". When I first started breaking out, back when I was 11 or 12, I was never properly educated about how to deal with pimples. So, when I saw one, I picked, popped and scratched until my face is raw. I have unfortunately carried that habit with me, though it is not as severe as it used to be. I am hoping to break the habit by writing every picking instance here. So, I picked at three separate pimples this morning, and then one more when I got home from work. Ew. That sounds so gross when I write it down for everyone to see. Lovely. I washed all my make up brushes last night... I am hoping to be a little more attentive to that. OH! I FORGOT! I learned something new this morning. I was browsing Acne.org and stumbled onto a page about acne cosmetica. About four months ago, maybe a little longer, my skin started developing these little bumps in various places along my face. I was very confused by them, because they were the same color as my skin tone, and weren't like black heads or other zits. I picked at them, making them worse, but they never seemed to go away. It was odd, because my skin was usually very smooth, apart from the pimples and all, if that makes any sense. I am glad to know now what the little lumps are. They're like little grains here and there, just under the skin. I am pretty sure that my LORAC make up isn't causing them, because I just switched to that about a month ago. While using LORAC, no new bumps have appeared. The old ones haven't gone away though. I think they appeared because about six months ago I experimented with lots and lots of new cosmetics. I think that triggered the outbreak. Okay, so back to DAY TWO of the regimen. I really think I am going to have to put the BP on AFTER the moisturizer. The CeraVE kind of balls up when it is applied over the Neutrogena BP. My skin feels super, super soft right now. My makeup went on pretty well over the moisturizer, but I think it will go on better if I switch the order of the BP and CeraVE. On a slightly more sour note, my neck stings a little right now, but I know why. I have used BP before, and when I sweated, it stung my neck when the sweat dripped down it (ew). However, after a few more days of BP application, my skin got used to it and it no longer stung. I am a restaurant hostess during the summers, and when it gets busy, I do break into a sweat. That's what happened today, and my neck is suffering slightly for it. The skin on my face does not sting, however. So, my goals for tomorrow are to a) not pick at my face and b) not to touch my face unnecessarily. I have a tendency to constantly touch my face- not necessarily picking at my skin, but just rubbing or wiping, etc. Alright, that's it for Day Two! If you guys have any tips for me, I would love to hear from you. Stay lovely! -Louise
Ahh, nothing like the excitement and hope of starting a new acne treatment system. I've visited Acne.org many times, but it was generally only to the review boards, to see how fellow acne sufferers had rated a newfangled spot destroyer that I was dying to try. It wasn't until two nights ago that I finally poked around the rest of the site and discovered a whole slew of information. I also delved deeper in to Dan's regimen, and decided to give it a try. I had intended on buying his products, but I was at the drugstore today and was instantly struck with a bout of INSTANT GRATIFICATION symptoms. So, instead of ordering Dan's products online, I bought three that I had read good things about. I have detailed them below, in case anyone is interested. Cleanser: Neutrogena Extra Gentle Cleanser Benzoyl Peroxide: Neutrogena "On-the-Spot" Acne Treatment, 2.5% Moisturizer: CeraVe Moisturizing Lotion Sorry to bore you, but I suppose I should include a bit of history about my skin. I began breaking out when I was 12 years old. It got really, really bad from about 7th grade to 10th grade. By my junior year in high school, it had calmed down a little bit, but not enough. Now I am 21 years old, in my fourth year of college, and still with acne all over my face. Now, I will be the first to admit that my skin is not the worst out there, and it is a million times better than when I was in high school. However, my skin is still a sore spot (HA! pun intended) for me. I feel so completely insecure with my appearance. There are times when I won't go to class, or I'll call in sick to work because my break out is too bad. I am embarrassed for people to see me. To make myself semi-presentable, I put on make-up. I use Lorac liquid foundation, followed by a powder to set it. And the usual mascara, eyeliner, etc. My skin is combination. I get black heads, white heads, lumpy spots, oily parts, and dry parts. There is ALWAYS acne on my face. I do not have those days where I am zit free. Now, earlier tonight, I began my new regimen. I hopped in the shower and slathered on the NEUTROGENA EXTRA GENTLE CLEANSER. It has a really creamy consistency, almost like a lotion. It spreads well and doesn't really lather, but it felt nice on my skin. It smells a little bit like play-dough to me... but I actually kind of like it. Heh, brings me back to my childhood. Anyway, when I stepped out of the shower, my skin felt like... well, my skin. Usually cleansers leave me feeling squeaky clean or with tight skin. This cleanser seemed to have removed any last traces of make up without stripping my skin of moisture. After padding around the bathroom a bit (including nearly breaking my neck when I tripped over the floor mat) I went for the NEUTROGENA "ON-THE-SPOT" ACNE TREATMENT. Normally I would have put it on after a moisturizer, but Dan says to put in on before, so I decided to try it his way. I put a generous amount on my fingers and spread it around. The spot treatment is meant for, well, just spots. When you spread it over your whole face, it does tend to get a bit sticky. However, after a few moments, it absorbs into the skin and isn't sticky anymore. However, it does give my skin a distinctly more white tinge. It's kind of odd. After the spot treatment, I reached for the CERAVE. It is a little bit more thin than I am normally used to, but it went on well and didn't have any scent to it. I sitting on my bed as I write this, and my skin feels a tiny bit sticky. I think I might have gotten too much moisturizer on. I also feel a tiny bit of stinging around my eyes, but I think it is because I wasn't super careful when I applied the BP. So, that's it for now. I hope to post regular updates. Right now, I might order Dan's BP, just because it looks like it goes on so nicely in his videos... is that right? I've taken pictures, but I can't find my camera cord... hopefully I can hunt it down and give you guys some visual aids! Anyway, thanks for reading. Stay lovely! -Louise