so today is officially the end of week three! and let me say that i feel FABULOUS! dont get me wrong i still get the lil' bummed out moments of when i find a new little devil that has popped up each morning or night. but they go away so fast now that i just keep smiling!
the last 2-3 months have been soo emotional for me. i mean ive always had acne, but it was maybe 3-4 zits at a time tops and they were easy enough to cover up. but since i had this EXPOLSION around my mouth i couldnt even hide it anymore. i went out of my house and to work for the first time COMPLETELY cover-up-less. (is that a word?) and i was mortified. i felt like every person i talked to was thinking the exact same thing.. "look at that horrible skin!" im sure some felt sorry for me, but not like pitty thoughts are any better. ive been going without coverup since a little bit before i started the regimen, and now i can deffinatly say im used to it. i feel okay in my own skin without covering anything up for once. it kinda feels great.
as i push on through week four, im sure my smile is only going to be getting bigger as the days roll. just one step closer to flawless skin! no more hiding in my house, or making up excuses that i cant go hang out with my friends. (sad i know) id say right now i have... 6-7 active zits. working my way down to zero baby! then just to deal with the pesky red marks they all leave behind.
lalala, im just sitting here watching sex and city and doing this. almost cant wait to sleep to wake up to even better skin tomorrow. once i am totally clear no one is going to beable to shut me up about it!!!
so once again, my regimen are as follows:
Jojoba Oil Scrub/Mask
Spectro Jel Cleanser
Jojoba Oil (i just apply then wipe off access so it can dry properly)
Proactiv 2.5% BP
repeat morning steps
im also still taking the erythromycin the doc gave me about 5 weeks ago. so ill be finished that by the end of this week coming up. also still taking all my vitties! (vit.d, fishoils, zinc, women's one a day, and my yasmin BC)
OHHH and my actually Acne.Org supplies should be here any day now!! yay!
so thats it for now, another update sometime next week!
so just yesterday morning, after i thought i was truly clearing up i had a huge breakout.. of like 5-6 zits. (ARGHHH) i wish i knew what it was from.. cause i was almost at ZERO active zits. damn..
owell, last night i started using the jojoba oil in a different way that either is gunna help my skin emensly.. or do the opposite. i use it as a mask/scrub before i clense. then after i wash my face.. i do the same thing.. but i just wipe the access off gently with a towel and proceed with my regimen like normal. is conquors so much more flakes and leaves my skin silky smooth. AND NO REDNESS AT ALL. i love that i have no redness to my face with no oily feeling aswell. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT.
only problem is it takes longer.. so like an hour to do everything now.. but worth it.
im really hoping that by the end of week 3 my face will really improve. im gunna really get back into exercising and eating right. bring my stress level down. at work i cant really help it but im gunna really put my head into this. try NOT to touch my face at all unless i have a VERY noticable whitehead.. cause i was doing good with it and then i kinda got into the habbit of popping even the smallest whitehead that i could only see if i was right up close to a mirror. AHH i just want these things to heal... but once i pop it another zit comes up right beside it.. so overall - im not doing myself any justice.
i really love how this blog gets all my fustrations out. and helping myself make a plan
between the stess and the breakouts.. thats when i go on zit popping frenzies.. and then i regret all the irritation i caused my face. this time i have to change and just STOP. create a thing just for me that will effectively keep my hands away from my face when im not doing the regimen.
maybe just thinking to myself that 5 more will come up when i try to pop one? i think thats about all that will stop me. cause im so tired of this.
but anyways.. new regimen as of last night
jojoba oil scrub/mask
jojoba oil mask
proactiv 2.5% BP
repeat morning steps.
after time im sure the jojoba oil scrub/mask part ill only have to do at night.. but for now since my face still gets very dry from the bp.. im gunna be doing it morning and night. just a reminder to myself aswell - to be as gentle as POSSIBLE on face while doing all of the regimen. if i stop picking, and start being as gentle as i can.. i wont have another one of these nasty breakouts when i feel like im close to being clear!!
every day at this point im seeing improvement in my skin. im getting lots of break outs still.. but they are either the tiniest little things (whiteheads) or they are just nothing but small red marks after 2.5 days. i think by the end of this week ill be well on my way be being almost clear, but still have a lot of left over red marks. which i dont mind.
this huge acne outbreak was weird for me. it happened about 6-8 weeks ago. i used to always have about 4-5 zits on my face.. but it was all over my face. there was no telling where my next breakout would be. but now 90% of it is all around my mouth, chin, and jawline. few zits here and there on my forhead, nothing too bad tho.
im a picker, which is horrible cause everyone knows it can make acne sooo much worse. since ive started the regimen tho.. ive been looking in the mirror less, and popping zits only when necessary (huge nasty whitehead just looking right back at me in the mirror). and i feel great. im still experiencing redness, ALOT of dryness, and a bit of irritation that only last for about an hour to 2 hours max after i apply the BP. OH, and my little secret aswell.. i have some of my clindoxyl gel still that i put on just the NEW, painfulish breakouts which make them either not come up at all.. or ones i can tell are forming.. just flatten out without turning red or anything. hehe yay
im still taking the erythromycin, which prolly helps a bit from within. along with the vitimins i just started taking (omega-3 fishoils, zinc, vit. D, plus ive always taken my womens one a day, plus my yasmin BC) i eat pretttty healthy, and try to exercise at least 2 times a week. there are weeks i get lazy and not the mention just splurge on the junk food. i cant say ive noticed any difference in my acne at those times tho. all i do know is the regimen is working, it sucks that its so time consuming and i have to get up earlier to do it, and again all the side affects that come with it after you've just started... but clear skin is SOOOO worth it.
it does suck that theres only a month left of summer and once i get my flawless skin i wont beable to beach it and show it off untill next year.. but family gatherings in the winter and not to mention MY 20TH BIRTHDAY in 2 months is gunna be AMAZING
and so my regimen (because of my intensely dry skin) has changed in the slightest:
Proactiv 2.5% BP Lotion
Proactiv 2.5% BP Lotion
I use neutrogena makeup removing cloths for my eyes at night and for any concealer i put on my forhead breakouts only (never put makeup on my chin). spectroljel doesnt seem to get the makeup off unless i massage the cleanser for a bit and DKR calls for only cleansing for 10 seconds or less so i just get rid of the makeup before hand
WOW. what a long post - just had to get all my excitment out tho, and log what exactly im doing because yayayay its working. AND my family is tired of seeing me in tears and complaining/talking about my acne all the time. which i dont think is fair cause they dont have it so they dont understand how horrible it actually is! but anyway, i have to go clean house now haha, ill update again with new pictures at the end of the week. most likely friday!
so, i have been using clindoxyl gel with 5% benzoyl peroxide instead of the 2.5% BP because thats what i was perscribed by my doctor. and ive had a bit of a break out the last 2 days, not to mention it makes my face DRYER than a freakin desert. but i found some unopened repair lotion from my past proactiv sets that i never used with 2.5% BP because i didnt like the way it made my skin so dry.. i became immune to proactiv long ago and thought i might use the left over repair lotion for some strange reason, so im glad i never got rid of them!! so ill be using that instead until my regimen products come in the mail (yay!)
so basically so far my regimen will be as of tomorrow:
Wash with Spectro Gel
Proactiv 2.5% BP
Complex 15 Lotion
Wash with Spectro Gel
Proactiv 2.5% BP
Complex 15 Lotion (Cetaphil if im more on the dry side)
im trying to keep my stress level down, its hard when a love interest i have wants to see me but im not quite ready. wanna get rid of some of these zits first!! he lives outta town and is planning to come here next weekend.. so im corssing my fingers that my face will be semy clear by then.
sheesh, all that butterflies crap really makes the face go haywire! sucks.
So basically i'm quite fed up with with acne and all its problems that come with it.. (social barriers, depression, etc)
i've been doing nothing but research on this for the past year and half as i think this burden should have left by now seeing as im nearly 20 years old. my mom is tired of me sharing my discoveries and what not with her and she thinks i should just leave my skin alone and it will go away.. not so much mom.
ive been prescribed benzoyl peroxide before but ive never really used it long enough to see its true affects i think.. i always dreaded the peeling and constant dry skin that i thought it was doing my skin more worse than better.
just about 2 weeks ago.. i went to my family doctor again seeking oral antibiotics because my acne was getting super bad.. especially around my mouth (which adult acne tend to migrate down there). he however didnt prescribe me drugs for acne.. but for perioral dermatitis. now, i believed him and thought that hes the doctor and of course he must be right. but i did a crazy amount of research on this infection.. and the only complarable symptoms i have to this dermatitis is that its around my mouth and of course its all red a splochy. but i get cysts and white heads still.. and people with perioral dermatits have a rash with tiny little blisters. so im thinking the doctor missed diagnosed me.. HOWEVER, he perscribed me Erythromycin.. and that too is supposed to help with acne.
so this antibiotic will be part of my regimen.. hopefully it wont work against anything and just help me get clearer.. FASTER