Hello world! This blog will journal my experience taking the drug isotretinoin, more commonly known as Accutane. Since I will not be taking Accutane-the-brand (more about that later), I will refer to the drug I'm taking as isotretinoin or "iso" for short.
So, since I'm brand-spanking-new to acne.org, I'll cut to the chase and give you some background details. First, I'm a 31-old female who has suffered for acne for about 9 years. I started getting acne toward the end of my undergraduate studies and it never really went away. I've tried *everything* save for long-term antibiotics or BCP because I can't tolerate either type of drug. Like everyone else, I've suffered the pain and shame that comes with having horrible skin. Unlike most everyone else, my acne developed and came out of nowhere - most certainly brought on by hormones, stress, etc. - because I NEVER had acne as a teenager. Yes, you read that correctly. I NEVER HAD ACNE AS A TEEN. I was that "perfect skin girl" in high school....and then something happened. I'll never know what that was or why. But here I am...9 years later...at the end of my rope...
You never really know how lucky you are until something you have benefited from is gone. I say that about good skin and also good health. I hope to GOD that isotretinoin doesn't wreck my body, as it has done to some people, because I've worked a good long time at taking care of this body, my vessel. I'm in great health. So naturally, I'm afraid of what will happen when I start on this poison...And trust me, I've done everything in my power to avoid poisoning my body with a course of accutane until now because frankly, it scares me.
For various reasons which I may or may not go into here, I finally decided that this is my chance to give this drug a shot. All my fears aside, if my skin really clears up on this drug (if I'm able to tolerate a full course, that is), I will stand to make significant gains in my personal and professional life...largely because I will finally have the confidence I've been missing for almost a decade now. I WANT THAT CONFIDENCE BACK! I need it back to survive.
My plan is to track everything in this blog. Foods, moods, side effects, results, breakouts, levels of physical activity, etc. This will help me make sense of this experience and also to follow myself through the ups and downs that are surely to occur during my treatment. Basically, it will be a place for me to check in with myself...to say "how are you *really* doing on this drug, titania?"
I hope also that others will find my blog useful, informative, inspiring even? A girl can dream... Perhaps my blog will be especially helpful to other adult acne suffers and/or OCD types who want/need details details details. Anyway, if you are reading, let me know! If you have thoughts, etc. please feel free to comment. I'm sure I will have a ton of questions along the way. And believe me, I need all the support I can get right now.
Thanks for reading. I'll say more tomorrow about how/when my treatment will begin.