so, i haven't posted on here for a long time. if anyone is reading this is bothered about catching up on my other posts, you'll see that i wanted to move to london by the end of september last year. i did.
it's been okay, nothing great.
my skin has improved greatly from when i was last posting and it seems to have been under control if anything. there have been times where i've had nothing to worry about for weeks and weeks, and times where my face has been a mess and i've been a hermit hiding away from the world.
i've been unemployed for just over a month and a half or so. i have a job waiting, but they're doing security checks and stuff so it's taking a while. i've realised i need a routine because for some reason it keeps my skin clear.
i've been largely doing nothing while i've been unemployed, sitting at home on my laptop or playing my ps3. my sleeping pattern is messed up where i see myself going to bed at like 2am and getting up at midday. my skin has been pretty crap for a few weeks now and it's really getting me down. like, really getting me down. it's not been very helpful that i've not been doing much with my time either.
i know it'll improve when i get back into a routine but for now i'm in a rut and can't see the light. i've booked an appointment with a doctor for thursday. i've been taking lymecycline on and off for 4 years now and while i've had things largely under control this year when i've had a routine and stuff, it's not been perfect. recently it's been far from it.
i'm gonna see if i can get something stronger and try make a case of accutane. i dunno if i'm a candidate for that as it's not as bad as people who usually get that prescribed, but the condition of my skin is a major contributing factor to my moods and overall outlook on life.
i've had an eating disorder for over 3 years now because of my skin and i take too much ibuprofen to reduce inflammation which i'm pretty sure isn't good for me. well, i know it's not. you're told not to take more than 3 a day of 400mg ibuprofen and i've been taking 8 a day quite consistently. this can't be good and i've not told anyone this. my doctor needs to know so i can finally sort all this crap out.
red marks are annoying. i don't understand why they take so long to go. if i cut my arm or get a mosquito bite somewhere on my body, it'll take next to no time to go away but a red mark on my face will take weeks and weeks. it's really boring to constantly have to treat these.
i'm not upset or anything over it, just bored of them being there. they're going down slowly but it's just the fact that they're taking soooo long. i'm still using aftershave balm on my face after i have a shave but i'm gonna switch to a different moisturiser this week to see if that has any effect.
i bought some vitamin e oil from the health store a little while ago and i'm gonna use that at some point this week too. i used it a couple of years ago and it worked pretty well. a few months ago, i used it as a tester on a mark that's completely gone now so all things considered, it should do some good.
i need to get my skin tone even again too. up close, i've noticed that parts of my cheeks are whiter than say, the top parts of my cheeks or around my nose because of all the bleaching cream i've put on it (i'm guessing). anyone got any tips for that? maybe the vitamin e oil would help that too..
life's pretty boring at the moment. i'm waiting to get some money together to move to a different city with more opportunity. i'm aiming to have the majority of these red marks gone by mid august which i think is doable, and i'm hoping to move to london by the end of september.
for now, i just stroll along thinking about the future and clearing the past
yo yo yo.
i haven't written on here for a while due to laziness and not much to report. my face is getting clearer and clearer from the red marks i've got but they're still there frustrating me and i've got an ingrown hair on the side of my jaw which is a choooore because it's quite big but thankfully not really noticeable at face value.
my confidence is growing but i've got a bit of a problem. that longing to look into a mirror when you haven't seen yourself for a couple of hours. like i'll be round a friends house chilling out or at work or something, and i haven't seen myself in the mirror since the morning and it'll often be on my mind about how i look and then find myself shying away a little until i've seen myself again, then my spirits will lift.
things are getting better but it's just this which is really annoying. i've also noticed i've developed an ocd for washing my hands since i've worried about skin problems on my face. i'll wash them at least 8 or 9 times a day without fail, and that's not including after going to the toilet!
i'm in a bit of a rut in my personal life at the moment which hasn't really been a consequence from skin problems, but i'm sure it's a contributor. i stay positive though because i know eventually things will get better with time. oftentimes i imagine what position i'll be in in x amount of days or weeks, and that'll make me feel better about stuff.
as well as having an ocd, i have a pretty obsessive nature. like, if i enjoy something, or like something or whatever, it's all i think of and at any opportunity i can i'll make sure i can fulfill that enjoyment. recently, it's been clementines and i have to have at least a bag of them every day. i'm rubbish at saying "last one" then not going back to the bag for another. in fact, i finished a bag off this morning, then went to my friend's house in the afternoon and stopped off at the shop to get 2 more bags...and i've now got 4 clementines left! haha. as well as tasting good, i know it's good for your skin and because i've been eating so many of them this week, i actually think i'm seeing an improvement in my skin. which is obviously gonna happen cuz i'm ingesting a looooot of vitamin c so there ya go. i'm a massively fussy eater so any chance to eat a shit load of stuff i enjoy is good.
gah i want one now........
yo yo yo. hi to anyone reading this.
i'm in a bit of a mixed mood, but generally quite positive.
let's wind the clock back a few weeks. i had 3 major annoyances on my face, but they didn't really look like spots, more like bites. one next to my nose which lasted a couple of weeks and never came to a head, it was just this big red bump and felt quite tough. it's gone now. then on the other side of my nose, the same thing but slightly smaller, which went, then came back as a white head and now i'm just dealing with the small red mark left over. and finally, a red bump which came next to my lip on my mustache line appeared for like a couple of days but it was pretty light, then went.
now, my face is generally clearer. the red bump next to my mouth reappeared lightly about a week ago and now looks like it's been trying to come up over the last couple of days but now looks like it's subsiding. i put it down to the finacea purging it out since it kind of just went on it's own accord without treatment and came back as i've been more thorough with cleaning my face.
i've had a couple of problems around my nose, like in the indented part if you know what i mean. i read somewhere that it's probably due to the fact at sitting at a computer or screen for the large part of the day and your pores getting bigger, etc. i think that's more than likely the story for me to be honest. i'll be getting much less time at screens as of tuesday so we'll see if that helps..it's not a massive problem but oh well.
the rest of my red marks appear to be fading quite nicely which is uplifting. i didn't shave last night as i was at a friends and ate a shit load of unhealthy food..will be interesting to see the effect of this as i've avoided so much food over the past 18months or so.
i shaved tonight and before putting on the post shave balm, i got an ice cube and rubbed it all around my face until it melted. it felt really good and my face has felt pretty fresh since. it's supposed to help reduce inflammation all over your face. i got a bit disheartened for a second after because my red marks seemed to be a bit darker, but then i realised it was stupid of me to worry as naturally, it would. i read about the idea from a member called wynne on here, so if it works to good avail when i see myself tomorrow, i'll be sure to thank her!
i'm just kicking it tonight trying to relax and listening to lights. everyone should go get her album, it's pretty damn good. i haven't slept properly for a long time, stretching back to over 3 years and i've read that has an adverse effect on your skin. i've lost a hell of a lot of sleep over the past 3 nights and reeeeally wanna have a good night sleep so i'm just trying to be chilled before i go to bed.
anyone have the same problem? or does anyone have any decent tips to help me sleep better? i'd really appreciate it.
i hope everyone's doing well and being positive. being negative always makes things worse, not only with your life in general but with your skin too. if anyone dares to bother, i suggest saying hi to 5 passing strangers with a smile on your face and watch their face light up..it'll fill you with confidence. trust me. and that's something we all want more of!
be good. 'til again
evening/afternoon to anyone reading.
i've had this whitehead at the bottom of my cheek near the back of my face for the past couple of days, a really tiny one that fiiiinally surfaced from like friday. it's pretty annoying because i've had to shave around it and left a few little hairs around it instead of getting a cleaner shave. it's also next to these 2 red marks and makes it look a bit more unsightly around there, although not too bad in all honestly...it's just me being pedantic.
the redness from a lot of marks is fading quicker i've noticed. they stood out a fair bit before but now, since i'm able to get topicals to them easier without loads of hair there, they're going down and not being so troublesome. i'm talking about like 3 or 4 big red marks around my nose area that have significantly gone down over the past week or less. the smaller red marks around my face are also shrinking a bit more..and now that i'm having less spots, my attention has turned to these. it feels like someone's put something in your hand then as you're about to grip it, they remove it and it leaves you with that feeling of having something briefly before that feeling is snatched away from you. red marks are annoying but i'd take them over spots any day. i'm still staying positive though.
after my shave, i'm still using this after shave balm (quite obviously) i've got instead of moving onto the moisturiser i bought. the balm's not really a moisturiser but it's been working okay so far and i've told myself i need to just take the plunge and start using the moisturiser as i know it'll be better for any red marks. but i've also said to myself that i'll use it when i my face is clear of any spots and i've got that tiny one at the moment! boring! haha
this is all i do with myself at the moment:
morning - wash face with cold water. aspirin mask every other day followed by finacea or i just use finacea after a wash when i don't put a mask on.
night - wash face with warm water, use nivea sensitive shaving gel, shave with wilkinson sword 2 blade razors with a vitamin e strip on them (i used a 3 bladed one with vitamin e and aloe vera on it the other day when i went a day without shaving). after shaving, wash with cold water, apply nivea sensitive post shave balm. after about 45mins, apply finacea.
i take a tetralysal (lymecycline) tablet in the morning an hour before breakfast, but i was getting spots before i started all this shaving etc, so it makes me wonder if i should stop it sometime soon. we'll see.
aaaand that's pretty much it at the moment. any suggestions for improvement would be cool, and as i said, it's mainly red marks i'm having to deal with at the moment or spots that have gone down in the past week.
i'm off to bed, nighty night.
things are going really well. how're things going with anyone else?
i'm gonna try not to make this a long winded entry because there isn't much to report except my skin is getting better and better. i missed shaving last night and just had one now with 3 blades. if i was shaving like, 3 weeks ago, my face afterwards would be really red and blotchy in places, but now, after a shave, my face actually looks really good.
i've got a lot of little red marks everywhere that only i notice when i'm up close to the mirror and they're fading quicker...obviously the combination of shaving more frequently is getting rid of any dead skin cells and the finacea is actually being able to be absorbed easier, or applied easier or whatever...it's working and that's all that matters. haha
i'm feeling a whole lot better about things, i've even got a new job starting on tuesday doing face to face selling..something i didn't even wanna contemplate even a week ago..that's how much my confidence has soared. i'm beginning to feel like i can be myself again round people which is good.
i've got a patch of big red marks on my left jawline which is really annoying me and i'm not shaving round there..so i think i need to get on that soon so they fade quicker. it's not as bothersome as being on my face but i strive for perfection (as we all do i guess).
i mentioned before that i drink peppermint tea and would whole heartedly urge anyone to give it a try. i used to drink a lot of decaff green tea but if you get it from the supermarket, i think they add loads of stuff to it or take stuff away or something, so it's not as good. the peppermint tea i've got is from the supermarket and there's no additives or anything in it. it's been good for settling my stomach (a plus for anyone on antibiotics) and aiding digestion which will in turn be good for your skin. it also helps you sleep at night too, and being an insomniac, i've felt the effects in that part even moreso!
for anyone who's reading that deals with redness (like i do), i also recommend eating a load of tomatoes. they're so good and i can't believe the difference i noticed from eating them. i buy a 6 pack of them twice a week and munch all of them on the day i get them..definitely worth a shot. i also take ibuprofen if i notice any inflammation occuring and that always makes a spot smaller in size instead of some humdinger.
keep your chin up if you're upset, there's other people in the same boat as you. keep up whatever you're doing..money grows on the tree of persistence as they say. i've noticed a lot of people on here saying that they keep themselves locked up inside all day and whatnot, and i've been there too. however, the best idea is to get outside and get some fresh air every day..you'll feel a difference doing that. even if it's a walk by yourself one afternoon in the sun, you'll feel better for it. and if you are feeling down, speak to someone about it. it's unhealthy to keep stuff locked away. as i said before, keep muttering the word "clear" in your head, and telling yourself your skin is clearing..it will work!
also, like i said in my last blog, if anyone wants to ask any questions or seeks encouragement, feel free to get in touch!
take care. 'til again
so i finally did it. i shaved over 2 consecutive days for the first time in nearly 6 months, and used a 2 bladed razor for the first time in over a year.
it felt a bit weird to be holding a smaller razor and for it to glide across my skin so easily without having to cut a load of thick black hair. there was less irritation obviously and after my shave, there were no patches of red from discomfort on my face or anything. all in all, a success.
i did have a patch on my chin where a spot that grew yesterday in a bit of coarse hair is recovering and didn't shave as cleanly around it as i would have liked, but it won't really matter to be honest as i can shave it next time. also, i bought some nivea moisturiser which i used to always use after a shave but opted to go with my regular post shave balm for the moment just to test the water. i don't expect anything to go wrong really but it made me feel better for now. once everything is a lot cleaner, then i think i'll go for the nivea. but for now, i feel quite good about doing it.
i woke up this morning and as usual, as you all do i'm sure, is check my skin first thing. any problems i had 24 hours prior seemed to be going down or have gone down - a sure sign that shaving works for me. yesterday i was fearing them with a thick black mess of hair on my face but this morning i woke up realising there was nothing to worry about.
all day, my skin felt cleaner and more clear. although i have some areas that are annoying me at the moment, i generally felt a lot more confident about my skin. when i think of myself when i'm clean shaven, i generally think of myself as having no problems on my face even if i have a couple and i think that has a really good effect on my skin recovering quicker. my face hasn't itched at all all day like it does when i have a lot of hair on it and i've noticed any spots clearing a whole lot quicker without any hairs on my face irritating it.
so as i said, i feel a whole lot better right now and feel i look a lot better without any facial hair...i have a proper baby face! i know this is the right route, i don't know how but it seems to be working. i'm not shaving tomorrow night as i have a football (soccer to any of you yanks reading! ) match to play in the evening and would rather let my face settle after running around in the chilly evening for an hour or so.
i'd love to hear from anyone who's reading to see if i can give them a bit of advice or motivation. i feel a whole lot better writing this than keeping any thoughts crammed inside my head so if you wanna get in touch, please feel free to do so. i'll be glad just to listen (or reading in this case) or give any advice to people...i've read a whole lot of stuff about acne since i've been suffering with skin problems so will surely be able to help in some way.
i'm off to do my nightly cream applying ritual and brush my teeth etc. got an app with the dentist who is gonna be giving my mouth a proper clean out tomorrow afternoon...does anyone know anything about oral hygiene and acne? it would be interesting if there's a correlation.
take care. 'til again
evening/afternoon/morning to whoever's reading! how're things?
so if you've read my other posts then you'll know about my thoughts on shaving etc. i said i was going to shave every night and expect a positive result from that, however, i didn't because of a couple of spots etc.
i've shaved tonight, as i usually do every 3 nights, and it's given me an opportunity. with these recent thoughts in my head about how my face is affected by shaving or not shaving, i've examined my face as my facial hair as grown. here's what i noticed:
wednesday night: shaved, couple of spots on either side of my chin and just above my moustache line.
thursday: in the morning, i had a few tiny whiteheads that weren't really inflamed near my mouth, one on my chin and a recovering one on the other side. i applied more finacea gel than i have done in a while to very positive results.
in the evening, i couldn't believe the results, face looked smoother, smaller pores, less blotchy and red blah blah.
friday: morning everything was improving, around my chin, a dormant spot i had for weeks came to head and all in all looked better.
last night, nothing massive to report. noticed in the dryness that it felt as if something may come up where the hair was but still looked much better than a few days previous.
so the real test came today. the third day after shaving is normally where some problems come up because of the thick hair on my face and my face getting dry. the spot that had come to a head seemed to want to come out a bit more to play but has gone down as i treated it but another one has formed just under my nose where my moustache grows - coincedence? i think not.
as i've just shaved, i've noticed a couple of more areas where a spot has formed or is trying to form where my hair has got a lot thicker over the course of the day.
i'm going to apply some finacea before i got to bed and i'm pretty certain that a lot of these problems will have gone down a bit by the morning but with some more treatment then, i doubt i will have much to worry about tomorrow night. it seems conclusive to me now that my facial hair is causing the problems and i've got to tackle the issue more now if i want to see any improvement.
for any guys reading who may have felt the same or the story sounds familiar, i really believe that the facial hair is not allowing the topical gels or creams to get to the skin properly to do it's work (obviously) and that is inhibiting any of the treatment. i am growing facial hair and only putting finacea on my skin (a skin drying topical) which means my skin is not getting proper nourishment, there is less cell re-growth and bacteria, dead skin cells and dirt are lingering more around the dry skin which is causing a whitehead to form.
there is also the risk of ingrown hairs which is not to be confused with acne. people with curly hair are more prone to this, and as i sport a seth cohen do, i'm guessing this might be a problem for me too.
i've had these few days to kind of take notice of what's been happening and draw a conclusion from it and how best to treat it. it's obviously no coincidence that over the past 24 hours my skin has got worse as my facial hair has grown thicker and my skin has got drier. i know it may seem like a basic thing to know this, but i take heart in knowing that this is most likely the root of my skin problems and that i can look forward to a better future if i stay on top of it. i'm genuinely quite excited and positive that i can overcome everything within the next week or less but know the next couple of days will be crucial and a bit of a struggle...so stay with me if you're reading! haha.
i mentioned a word in that last paragraph that i wanna touch on too. "positive". i'm a big believer in positive thoughts and the power that your mind can have. i watched a motivational program last summer called the secret which i urge anyone to get a hold of. it's about how the power of your mind can create positive circumstances around you and takes a lot of mental strength which doesn't come easy.
to put it simple, i implore you all to try your best to think positively and use visualisation to improve your circumstance. imagine yourself with clear skin, don't dwell if your skin is looking bad one day, don't think of yourself that you have acne..that sort of thing. keep a picture of you from when you had clear skin or it was significantly better, or even photoshop a picture of yourself with clear skin and keep that somewhere so that you can look at it as much as you can. use it as a goal. if you think along the right route, you will see a massive improvement. i know it sounds like a load of bolloks, but trust me and try it. do yourself a favour.
another good trick is that whenever you catch yourself thinking about skin problems or thinking stuff like "if only i didn't have this.." etc, automatically make yourself think of the word "clear". clear is like the promised land to people who have skin problems and if you say that word enough in your head, you'll think about clear skin and not imperfections. this will have a massive affect on you and the way you look, i promise you. it does sound stupid, but give it a whirl. i bet you will see a difference.
i always think of myself from a couple of years when my skin was flawless and i'm seeing an improvement in myself. i remind myself of the picture below as much as i can instead of any current imperfections and expect myself to look like it again and it works. the picture is of me 2 summers ago (a bit drunk! haha) when i was taking care of myself (i haven't been for a long time now) and only a few months prior to that picture being taken, my skin was a horror show.
remember, positive thoughts. 'til again
first off, thanks to anyone who's reading this.
i've been doing a lot of thinking over the past few of weeks.. my mood has been up and down depending on how i'm looking and it seems that i'll leave the house, go to work or see friends and be really upbeat (well, as upbeat as you can be at work haha), but then come home and look in the mirror and get pissed off all over again and sulk at home until i next go out and manage to swerve some of my attention off of my skin and enjoy time a bit.
in the times i've been sulking, i've been thinking over and over again about what i used to do with my face, how i used to look and why aren't the antibiotics working as well as they used to be?
i've come to a few conclusions, and i've made some changes in the past couple of days and seen a massive improvement. like, astronomical.
the problem was that i was spot treating with my finacea gel, and they would take a couple of days to go down, then another would come up somewhere, i would get pissed off and annoyed, then spot treat, and the cycle would continue.
i thought back to the time when i was clear and everyday, twice a day without fail, i would shave, moisturise, and apply skinoren cream (another form of azelaic acid) all over my face and would have no problems. absolutely nothing to worry about. when it all started going wrong, was the time when i thought i might as well not bother with the cream as much, or the antibiotics as much as i was clear. this was last year as you may know if you read my other post.
i stupidly listened to people telling me to get a different razor to make it easier on myself instead of constantly buying disposables, not worrying about putting on so much cream, not shaving as often, etc. when really i shouldn't of listened because i knew best.
ever since then, i've spot treated with a gel or cream, and not shaved as much.
i thought about this the other day as i was looking in the mirror where there were like 3 tiny tiny whiteheads on my chin and was aggravated by how this area was an area i'd cleared up a couple of months ago....that was because i was consistently putting finacea on it and it cleared up..something i've not being doing in a long time.
so yesterday before work, i put finacea on all around the problem areas on my face and it felt like i was applying the cream for the first time again because it seemed like my skin wasn't used to it anymore as i've been so sporadic with it. it was a little dry during the day, but my face actually felt pretty fresh, albeit a little tight for a while.
i got home from work last night, looked in the mirror and was amazing to see how smooth my skin looked. 12 hours before it was quite blotchy.
i decided not to shave last night though (booooooooo). i know, not a man of my word haha. that's because i had a whitehead in one of the areas i needed to shave in and a recovering bit of skin the other side of my chin where i needed to shave too. so i thought meh, whatever. i put on the finacea gel again last night as i had in the morning.
this morning, i woke up, went to the bathroom and looked at my face in amazement. all the blotchiness had gone. the red marks were so much smaller and paler already, the whitehead gone and the recovering bit of skin flat. sweeeeet.
i'd been thinking last night when i got home that i was being stupid by spot treating because they're only gonna keep cropping up so prevention was better than treating. and sure enough it seems like that's the case.
i'm making a promise to myself not to spot treat anymore, but to apply the gel to the places on my face that are prone even when there's nothing there just to keep everything at bay. seems like it'll work..i can't believe how well it's done already. i was already thinking of making excuses to put off seeing a friend til later on in the day on saturday because i wasn't happy with myself but i don't think i'll need to bother now.
on a side note, i've had a few problems with my shoulders for the past year or so since i was in dubai and going to the gym. i put some 99% aloe vera gel on them the other night and again last night...i'll update on how that goes.
everyone keep your heads up. it's all well and good putting your faith into tried and tested stuff, but noone knows your skin better than you and what works well for you. so instead of just following other people's ideas all the time, really put some thought into what works for you and think of your own regime.
i wouldn't wish skin problems on anyone, it's a horrible thing to deal with. but then there's that saying, those who matter don't mind and those that mind don't matter.
hi to anyone reading this, and thanks for having a gander!
i guess i'll start by saying my name's matt, i'm 21 and you've probably seen me around a few places asking rubbish selfish questions! haha.
i've called my blog "dark sunshine" because i'm an extremely positive person and everyone knows me for it, but wherever i am, or who i'm with, i've always got a second voice in my head questioning how i look or a second set of eyes concentrating on where people are looking when i'm talking to them. behind closed doors, i'm very upset, angry, pissed off, fed up and bored of worrying about this damn condition and spending extra time in the mornings or before bed applying stuff to my face knowing most, if not all, my friends have the luxury of not worrying about it. or some who get the occasional spot taking it light hearted and not giving a damn about it when it's a big deal to me.
and to be honest with you, i should be one of those people who take it light heartedly. i've seen pictures of people on here who have acne much much worse than me and i have a few tiny pimples here and there.
my problem is that i'm a perfectionist and really care about what people think of me, so any imperfection really eats at me. i don't have the occasional pimple, but i have a few whiteheads here and there but when i get them, they're pretty red which makes them more noticeable.
i have facial hair (and hair growing higher up on my cheeks due to azelaic acid) and it's very dark, so mixed with a couple of red zones, doesn't make for a pretty sight.
i think i notice my problems but other people not so much unless i have a proper humdinger somewhere which you'd have to be blind not to see!
2 years ago, i was 100% clear and the most confident person you would ever have met, yet humble and modest because only a few months before then, i'd been battling acne for a year and a half and knew what it was like to be judged on appearance. so i've always been able to look through the way people look and for who they really are, as i'm sure many of you are the same (if you're reading of course!).
i've been on antibiotics since december, having had a 6 month break from them after being on them for just over a year prior to that. i've had a couple of weeks where i've had no new pimples form but have had red marks to deal with in that time. i haven't been 100% clear since december 2008 i'd say.
my main problem areas are my chin and around my mouth, and occasionally either side of my jawline under my ears (i guess that's the best way i can describe it!)
i eat so healthily, make sure i get my 5 a day minimum, don't drink anything but water and peppermint tea (and occasionally fruit juices), i don't consume dairy or wheat or anything known to cause acne. i have at least 2 litres of water a day but average about 4. so i don't understand what's been causing my problem.
i've more recently been looking back to the time when i was 100% clear and looking at why i all of a sudden started breaking out again.
i've put it down to shaving habits since everything else is in my favour. i've been using 3 or 4 blade razors ever since i started breaking out last year again as opposed to 2 bladed razors.
i was using 3 blade razors every day last year and still getting problems. i moved to dubai to work for 6months in june and didn't shave at weekends as i would hit the beach or the pool so couldn't be bothered. the humidity of the place and the intense sun really affected me and it was the worst it'd ever been for me.
since i got home in december, i didn't wet shave for about 2 months, then i would shave randomly every now and then, and for the past couple of months, i've been shaving every 3 days at night with a 4 bladed razor. my mum seems to think that i'm getting spots because i don't moisturise enough, and looking back to when i was clear, i was moisturising every day. now, i don't really moisturise. i use an after shave balm after i shave (go figure) which is once or twice a week (sometimes i go 4 days without shaving depending on how easy i know it'll be to shave).
so i'm now setting off on an experiment. i've got a 10 pack of 2 bladed disposable razors and the same moisturiser i used to use. tonight, i shaved for the first time in 3 days with my 4 bladed razor. tomorrow, i'm going to shave with a 2 bladed one. this will be the first time i've shaved consecutively since december. it will also be the first time i've used a 2 bladed razor in well over a year.
i'll keep posting on here and i'll see how it goes! for anyone who's reading, stay positive. i've noticed recently more than ever that so many people have skin problems and even being light hearted or joking at your own expense takes the elephant out of the room if you're feeling uncomfortable with someone because of the way you look. that in turn then causes them to open up and takes their attention away from your acne. or it'll take their attention away from curious (looking around your face) to sympathetic. just a tip...try it. everyone's had problems in the past too i'm sure, whether you know it or not. one of my best mates has got good face skin, but has the reddest back you've ever seen. so what could go from an awkward convo with you trying to cover your problem could go to taking the piss out of yourself and people being more open and suggestive to helping you or give you encouraging comments. when i'm out i think everyone notices the tiny problems i have but you'll be surprised at how many people don't actually take note of it. when i was like 17, i used to hang out with this girl every now and then and i never noticed her skin problems because i was never conscious of my skin then because i had no problems. one day she made a comment on her skin to me and i was like "what's wrong with it?" because i seriously didn't notice! haha. you'll be surprised at how amazing life is if you just state the obvious instead of ducking and diving, and just being open and honest with people.
it's said a lot on these forums but try not to be desensitized to it - you're not the only one. take care! 'til again