So - this morning - new spot come up on right side of jaw but it seems quite small so by the end of the day it should hopefully have a little head and piss off within a few days. I popped one on my cheek last night coz it had a propper head and that looks quite red today. New spot this morning on my hairline on the right side of my head and still got all these little bumps on my head which are really annoyin me! Little bumps under my eye area on the right side too. Dont know whats going on with the area where the nodule was and im not playing with it, LEAVING IT ALONE!! Couple of new tiny bumps on my chin area too. Skin is proper still purging and I really hope its going to stop soon! Really just want a derm appointment now every night m thinking about what Im going to say to him to convince him that I need either accutane or spiro. Im worried that he is just going to give my some topical stuff which I dont want! I want to get rid of this acne from the inside!! Still not taking my multivitamin, I bought vitamin K coz thats one that I was missing, also taking codliver oil that has A and D in it. Still taking all the other sups, dont think that niacin is the miracle cure for me though! the thread I read detailed how the op didnt get one pimple after starting taking it! have started drinking mint tea today instead of green, its supposed to be good for you so we shall see!! Realy hoping to see some improvement by this time next week, fingers crossed for me people!! xxx
Well most people are bragging about how they are clear now but no not me!! The little spot on my jawline got a head last night so I pooped it. Got another tiny bump under my eye which is really odd! Where the scab came off there are two- yes two puss sacks! Not really raised or anything but I can see them, 5 bumps on my head!! Yes 5! And two new little bumps on my chin!! This is getting really stupid now!! On the what to expect page it says most people are clear by now! What am I doing wrong?? Getting really pissed off now and feeling really down. I really need this to work! Xxx
well Im up to a whole third of a finger and putting it all on my face! woohoo go me!! Face did tingle a bit after moisturser but it wasnt like burning or anything insane. The two on my chin that I popped three days ago, scabbed, came off and have left minimal red marks! I think the aloe vera gel helped ALOT! lip zit has scabbed and should come off tomorow. The "wound" as I like to call it is ever so slowly healing but still looks like crap! Squeezed one of the little ones in the left size coz it was squeezable if you no what I mean, did it before washing and BPing so hopefully it will be ok tomoz...didnt squeeze the life out of it, just a litle so it could go either way really! Want to hear something funny!? I spend more time on here than I do on Facebook! I seriously must have read every single topic about the regimen and accutane!! And I think I have probaly read about half of the 'success' stories and tankyou letters to dan! Got to do something to stay positive. Ordered my AHA but I know it will be a few weeks before it arrives! Can anyone recommend something in the UK I can use now?? Thats all for tonight folks....PLEASE COMMENT!! Even if you just literally say hi! xxx
OK so my last entry was short and i was in a bad mood so I thought I should write again in more detail! The zit next to the wound that i popped has scabbed over and should be ok by tomorrow aslong as the scab stays on tonight - mental note - be gentle!!! I described in one post about the last nodule thing I had - well that was 3 weeks ago and last night there were two white head things there so I pin pricked them and not much came out. Today there was one lump there so ive had the puss out of it - just hoping ive had it all! On my left cheek I had this really little spot which is odd coz I dont tend to get them on my cheek - it was kind of like a black head but more swollen, dont know what that is about!! On the right side of my head i have two or three small bumps under the skin that im hoping will just go but they have been there for a good week or so now so im guessing they will come to a head or something. On the right side closed to my jaw line I have thre little bumps which have been there a really long time so have to try and leave them alone! So right now I have one inflamed spot but i did prick it so its my own fault, ive had ice on it for three hours now so im just hoping it helps. It seems that if i squezze a spot before its ready - ye it scabs and goes yucky but in a week its done, where as i left that nodule alone and three weeks later there is still puss coming from it! I also have a little spot just on my right eyebrow but its quite small so im leaving it alone!! Really pissed off at the fact I have read nearly all of the success stories and 90% of them are like this ......" I had severe acne and you products cleared me up in 4 days" REALLY??? I just find it hard to believe that it works that quick for people - why not me?!?! Im seriously fed up! I should be out having fun not feeling like this! I havent ben out with my friends on a night out since October last year - thats 8 months! I want my life back! Minocycline is nearly hitting the 5 week mark - people also seem to think this drug works for them over night! Something has to give, I cant take it anymore! Letter came today from the derm saying i will get an apt within 4 weeks and I really cannot wait, I want accutane, right now I dont care about its side effects, I know its going to be shit but I have tought about it - I even dream about it....and I really want it, knowing my luck it wouldnt work for me though!!! Anyhow, having a chinese and an early night and hoping for a better day tomorrow. God these posts must be depressing for people to read! I just hope that soon I can write - I have no spots today!!!! We can also hope, keep your fingers crossed for me!!! xxx
Hi everyone, I thought I'd keep a log of my bp nightmare/progress.....so here goes! So Im 24 and so far I have been on Diannette for 7 months with little improvement and I am now on my 4th week of minocycline, that isnt helping much either! I have also tried clean and clear advantage with salicyclic acid, acnease (waste of time) acnescript not really helping, collodial silver, tea tree, freederm...the list goes on!! I only drink water and green tea, dont drink alcohol or fizzy stuff, no dairy and lots of fruit veg salmon and chicken. I take a acidphilus, multivitamin, omega 3 fishoil, lecethin, msm, starflower oil and vitamin c every day. So anyway...my sisters wedding and my second graduation next month so desperate times!! I ordered dans products - the cleanser, treatment and moisturiser but was scared about starting. Then 6 nights ago I found my panoxyl 2.5 in the drawer, never stuck out using it before! so i used it and for 3 days my skin was ok, then it got irritated and flakey so on the 4th night i switched to dans bp. Im using cetaphil gentle cleanser as it is good at removing make up with a cotton pad and im using eucerin moisturiser. My skin is really dry and tight right now, hoping this will pass soon! hate peeling my skin off! only using a tiny amount in the evening and not doing it in the morning just yet. Tonight my face did not sting when i put on moisturiser which it has done for a few nights but i didnt put it around my mouth this evening as this is where it is the most irritated. Thankfully I dont have to go out muh for the next few days, only to drop my daughter off at school so it can stay dry and flakey! Anybody in the UK that can reccommend a moisturiser they think is better that eucerin feel free!! really not wanting to use dans as too many people have said bad things about it! waiting for jojoba oil to arrive in the post, any tips on that would be great too!! I will update as often as I can... Right now I have 1 nasty spot on my chin which is bad coz i tried squeezing it - naughty! lots of little bumps on right side of chin, 1 random little bump on my head which doesnt want to to anything and two comming up on my chin, not sure how they are going to go just yet!! keep u posted...all comments, advice, support and criticisms welcome! xxx
Well Im getting so frustrated, honestly about 3 more have pooped up on my chin through out the course of the day! Im using nearly the full amount of BP - which is fine coz im missing out part of my cheeks. My left cheek is covered in loads of little bumps now, the left side of my mouth looks awful and ther is something big brewing on my chin, still 4 bumps under the skin on my head. Honestly, my face looks a mess, such a difference from last night! So I rang the hospital to see how long the wait was for me to see a derm and its 4 months....so... I rang a private derm 60 miles away(!!!!) and have an apt in 2 weeks and 3 days and counting. Obviously my face is going to be fuct for graduation and my sisters wedding next weekend but heres to hoping that the derm can give me something! Its gonna cost Â£130 for the initial consultation but sod it, it has to be done. Its not like I spend money on going out or anything!! Can I really do accutane though? Im scared, like really scared but I feel like it is my last hope at saving my face.
so today was graduation day and it went well except i spent the whole day thinking about my face. By midday my skin was really oily and urgggh. I have so much scarring on my face its mad, im starting to notice them alot more now and the one by my mouth is going to leave a really bad scar which im hoping the derm will be able to help with. Its really depressing that in the 8 monthsmy acne has been bad, this much damage has been done to my face. But ive honestly got scars that have come since using the bp, places where I havent had spots, its like the skin has pealed off and left a scar! its crazy! Anyway, spot check, the one on my chin that came up on wed got popped on wed night and by today it was just a mark. Still got two lillt lumps next to my mouth which i think im going to have to have removed by the derm coz they are deep ut no inflamed puss filled sacks! dont know what the hell they are! New spots comming up on jaw line - about thre, one on each side of my chin and still have two on my head. few clogged pores on my cheek but im not going to play with them coz ive got a wedding to go to tomorow and I look bad enough without messing with things! I really cant get over the scarring ive got, its insane! Really cant wait for my derm appointment now! 9 days and itll be here! xx
Well I didn't get all the puss out of that spot and this morning it had a yellow pussy scad which came off when I touched it so back to having a wound on my face! Great. No chance of covering it with makeup either! Wish I hadn't touched it now!! I think I'm going to have to start reading back here every time I feel like squeezing! I never learn my lesson do I! Shit shit shit!! The little ones that I popped seem to still be there even though puss came out of them! Wtf!? Not a good day today! I've got two weeks, please god let this work! Xxx
I cannot believe it has been nearly three weeks, its gone really quickly - still wishing that I had started this regimen months ago though!! Before i go any further, I have t tell you all about something ridiculous that I read last night... So i was reading up about supplements and skin and all that crap and I came across one guy who CLAIMS that BLACKHEADS are WORMS under the SKIN! WTF??? I almost wet myself when I read it!! Seriously, derranged is not the word! Everyone is entitled to their own opinion but please? At least make it believable! and the worst thing was - people were commenting on it, asking how it could be treated and so on! This was all on my mobile last night and I cannot find the site now, but I will try and find it and post the link!! As far as skin goes, scab is looking awful but should come off tomorrow hopefully and just leave a red mark, the 'wound' has scarred and looks quite bad, the spot that was next to it is a red mark now but still looks awful. One little inflamed blackhead thing on the right and a small spot on the right by my eye. Still got bumps on my head and a couple on my jaw line, but they arent really that noticable. Face was VERY flakey this morning, despite doing th jojoba oil massage last night. It seems to be worse in the morning than the evening for some reason! Hoping this scab comes off soon coz honestly it looks awful! It didnt look too bad before i put make up on but now it looks all dry and crusty - resisting temptation to pick!! Any how, been thinking about my derm appt and Im wondering whether to try spiro or not before accutane - coz i really doubt that I will be granted it! Does anyone have any opinions on this?? Anyhow, speak to you later guys xxx
So I've had my bloods done and as long as they are ok I will pick up my prescription next week!! Derm was really good and understanding and he suggested it, I didn't have to beg or plead! So here's hoping that next week I can start a 4 month course on 40mg!! This blog is soon to change people-hopefully! I'm scared and excited! If anyone reading this knows about the cumulative dose please let me know coz I don't understand it!!
well the yucky scab came off again so still got an open wound on my face so still wearing a plaster! used bp this morning so will try for twice a day from now on, still using a tiny amount, face is still dry but not as bad. the two spots on my chin are just lumps that really hurt, wish they would just get a head or piss off! what I dont get is this.....if BP puts oxygen into the skin and bacteria cannot frm in oxygenated environments, they why dont the spots die and why do they come up in the first place?! not a good day anyway, not leaving the house again, fed up and had enough! minocycline is supposed to work by now, Im over the three week mark so why isnt it working?? ringing doc this morning to get a refferal to a derm, think its time to see about isotretinoin (accutane)....cant take much more of this. Acne has done wonders for weight loss - Im so depressed I cant eat, people think im anorexic! its not cool at all but i cant eat when im sad. feel weak and tired all the time. wish there was a miracle cure! talk to you later xx
So this morning I used Dans cleanser on my face coz I really felt like I needed to wash with something rather than using the cetaphil cleanser. Everything is healing but still got a lot of under the skin bumps which Im guessing are going to come up soon. Ive been reading back through some old blogs and have seen that so many people used a pea sized amount of bp for the first two weeks so im glad ive got mine up quite quickly! No redness that ive noticed and not really dry skin, just a bit of peeling around the old spots that are healing. I was reading last night about iodine and how it is not good - and yes it is in my multi so have stopped that as of today. Would rather take 20 pills seperate than risk it! Also been reading up of vitamin K so that is something i will be buying today! Today I am going to atempt NOT touching my face at all! Ive put makeup on to stop me playing and poking and I am not looking in the mirror at all. I really do think it becomes obsessive - seriously I look in the mirror around 100 times a day. I was readin on dans questionnaire thing about how touching damages the folicles - and then thought to myself - actually ye, whenever I get a spot and touch it, put things on it and play with it, I get another one or two or three next to it!! So have to stop touching and obsessing! Have had a really upset tummy last night and this morning, may be the niacin but dont really know! will have to keep an eye on it! Nothing else to report at the mo, we know that can all change in a few hours! Will prob update again tonight as I have no life!! xxx
well 7 weeks on the regimen is up (almost)! I had my prescription for accutane yesterday and am starting it today. My skin isnt looking that bad if im honest, but the BP has given me scars for sure and also made me break out in places that I never usually did. The BP also failed to get rid of spots tat had been sat under the skin for 6 weeks! I hope my blog has helped some people?! If you want to follow my accutane journey then please do - I have a log going on the message boards. Thanks for reading! Over and OUT!
Well good morning people! Today is day 13 - unlucky for some I know! Well yesterday I managed to not touch my face all day (apart from cleansing and make up) which is just amazing for me! I was going to update last night but thought I'd end up checking my face in the mirror again so thought best to leave it! I'm going to try and do it again today, see how it goes! Not much to report really, the wound has healed over fully so can at least be covered but it still looks quite crappy. really wish I hadnt squezzed it! the two that I popped on my chin have virtually left no mark at all which is quite amazing! I had this little flesh coloured bump on the side of my head for weeks and weeks and last night it had a tiny little white head on it so now thats gone!! I have another one on the other side and I assume that one is doing the same. scab came off the lip zit this morning, i rubbed it gently with a flannel to help it along!! Up to about half a finger this morning and last night! last night my face was a little bit irritated - nothing major just a bit tingly and itchy but i didnt touch it! Probably coz Ive upped the BP. Still dont know how I will get up to a full finger but Im sure I will get there! hopefully in a week or so I will be there. No real dryness, skin is peeling around old marks that are healing. i noticed that my chest is very red all the time - ive been using dans bp and moisturiser on my chest - so im doing a little experiment and last night i used panoxyl 2.5 and a different moisturiser to see if it makes any difference. Will let you know! waiting on my aha now! see ya later! xxx
Nearly at the two week mark! Thats gone really quick! Well a new tiny little one came up on the right side of my head, but Im always less concerned about them on my head coz i can attempt to cover them with my hair!! Bit of peeling this evening when I took my make up off, but only around the bits that are healing after the nasty breakout last week. no touching again today or obsessing in the mirror! YAY! I really want to up my dosage of minocycline, Ive read loads of people take 100mg twice a day but I only take it once a day, wondering whether to do it for a week then go back to the doctor a bit early for my repeat prescription. What are people's thoughts ????? Any how, got to go as my mum came back from Canada today so got to be sociable! Till tomorrow!!! xxx
okay so its been 32 days...yesterday was the wedding and it went really well, i avoided mirrors and just had fun! By the time I got home a huge spot had come up on my hair line so it had been hidden but it really hurts today! Loads of little blackheads keep surfacing on my chin and they are really pissing me off! I just squeezed a few out and i know i shouldnt have but im just hoping that nothing more comes of them!! Knowing my luck they will be all inflamed by tomorrow! Still got tre bumps on my head, dont know how long they have been there now but it must be well over a week! dunno what they are, they are pinhead size under the skin...wtf?! Still got two little lumps next to my mouth, one of them has got 3 or 4 little puss sacks in it now! GRRR! ANYWAY....... derm appt in one week.....yay! It has gone quickly, but not quick enough!! Will keep you all posted for te next week but im realy hoping that this blog turns into an accutane log in the next few weeks! get all this over with once and for all! xx
ok, so last night I said the dryness was ok, I lied (or jinxed myself) upping the BP had left me with flakes arounr my mouth and chin, but I'd prefer that to any new giant zits! My skin will just have to get used to it coz Im not using less so this morning i used between 1/3 and 1/2 a finger. Just waiting for it to dry before I moisturise. Got 3 little ones on my head, no head on them, just tiny bumps. Loads of blackhead kind of things round my mouth and on my chin but they're not very noticable. Going to try again today not to touch my face, this will be day 3 so Im doing really well!! speak to you later xxx
dry skin and about 3 new spots - gutted! On a positive note, I was awarded a first class honours degree in management and business today! Still pissed off with new spots and cant decide on a moisturiser! eucerin or simple?? Fed up now anyway! speak tomorrow guys xxx
Well its coming up for 5 weeks and I am still miserable! New lump on my jaw line - one on either side! One if them has been a tiny bump for about 6 weeks and the other olny started forming a few days ago. They are rght under the jaw so leaving them well alone for as long as i can! Still got three bumps on my head...when will they go away! The blackheads i played with last night? Well one on my chin scabbed over and i pulled it off so i have a tiny wound on my face that really hurts! Started using the AHA last night, just a little bit all over my face, I am really hoping itwill help to even my face out a bit!! The family stuff is over now so if i react badly to it then i can hide away for a while!! Derm appointment this tie next week! YAY!!!!! xxx
hey people!! well i have two weeks to go til graduation and my sisters wedding so I am praying at the moment that I can look half decent for the events!! I had one spot in my eyebrow that i popped last night, I have one on my head that doesnt want to do anything, and one by my lip that is small but red and quite swollen even though ive left it alone! lots of litlle bumps on my chin too! All these people that claim to see results in 4 days are talking crap, I just dont get it! My skin is dry round my mouth but Ive got to keep upping the BP so that I reach the full amount next week, so its tuff luck really! so feel a bit crap today, think i was expecting miracles over night, wish I had more time, wish I had started earlier, wish I was more patient! xxx
WELL ....i had to pop the one by my mouth...because it was throbbing and i could feel it all day! so i wrapped my fingers in tissue and pushed it a tiny but and the puss came out - just like that! i did push a bit more and got some blood so i stopped then. Have cleansed, bp'd and moisturised and will put some aloe vera and ice on it later and hope for the best!! The one on my head thats been sat there for days had a tiny head so i popped that too. Also a blackhead by my mouth really came up ready to be popped and two little bumps that have been on my chin for a while also came to tiny - and i mean tiny - little head so they had it too!! so skin is deffo still purging a bit but I would rather have ten little spots than one massive one. The last time I had a nodul cyst kind of thing (dont know what to call it - the ones that never get a head and sit there swollen for ages) was three weeks so im guessing that being a lady it is in the next few days it will happen! fingers crossed I dont coz the last one (three weeks ago) went down after about 6 days - religious icing) but in its place i have dealt with about 4 little white head things under the skin! so anyway, used about half a finger and had so much bp i really didnt know what to do with it! anybody else have this problem?!?!? Right need to ice this spot again now, really hope it heels as fast as the others did! they were over and done with in three days! please god please!!! xxx
Oh my god my face is dry dry dry! I tought the AHA was meant to exfoliate? All around my mouth is so flakey, its like starting the regimen all over again! Going to lay off the aha round my mouth for a few days and just moisturise....seriously the amount of skin that came off this morning was insane! I may have to not out bp there tonight just to try and sort it out a bit!! I really want to use the jojoba oil but im scared that it was holding me back a bit! Still got three bumps on my head! both umps on my jaw line had heads last night but one of them didnt want to die, so even though i popped it, it had puss init again this morning! the one on the other side has flattened out this morning. Still not impressed with how this is going! Cant wait to take my makeup off and moisturise my face! Maybe the AHA irritated my skin a bit and caused the flakyness? I dont know but it has caused no problems on the rest of my face and it was only round my mouth that it tingled. Anyway, will use it on the rest of my face tonight and just normal moisturiser round my mouth. Derm appt next monday!! yay! xxx
hey guys....well my skin is still really dry around my mouth area which is pants! it looks awful and feels so tight...used a tiny amount of bp tonight and will maybe use aha tomorrow night if the dryness has subsided a bit. ive had to put loads of moisturizer on tonight and will put more on before bed. spot wise i was ok this morning but now i have two more little bumps on my right jaw line and a new pimple on my chin which was tiny but i still attacked it! a lot of healing going on and stil 3 bumps on my head!! i went to the doctor today to get more minocycline and she said I was looking better which is good! Got another two months worth off her but I told her that it was really affecting my stomach ....she asked if i could tolerate it and I said yes but not for much longer. She said I would be better off talking to the derm next week so thats what I will do! Im really expecting a massive breakout coz i have been eating really badly the last 4/5 days...really bad!! but its been so nice to eat some unhealthy food....i missed chocolate! Anyhow night all xxxx
good morning all! I feel cheerful today coz I had such a good sleep last night - witht the help of sleeping tablets from the doctor! Ive had trouble sleepin for months now which I thought was exam stress but my body is in the routine now of getting up before 5 every morning, regardless of what time i go to bed! I blame the vitamin b5 i tried megadosing on coz it only started then! So any way the doc gave me sleeping pills and ive taken them a few times but didn think they worked at all, so last night i took 2 then when i woke by 5 I took another one. I know this isnt the best thing to do but it nocked me out til 8,30 this morning! i havent slept til that time for months and months, prob not since last year! Only drawback is now I feel like a zombie and cant actually walk without leaning on something!! oops! Maybe from now on I will take one at like 3 in the morning and see if that helps! you never know it may work! Ive got into the terrible habbit of getting up to check my face and its driving me crazy and is not healthy!! Skin wise - the scab did come off last night whilst showering even though I was gentle, but today it looks like a red mark so by tomorrow it will deffo be ok. the zit i popped is just a lumpy nearly scab so that wont heal over til tomoz probably. The lumps that i spoke about are still there not doing much! so right now I have no actives so to speak, just a yucky bump. everything else is healing or under the skin. Ive also added grape seed extract to my supplements as it is meant o be a powerful antioxident, better than vitc so will take one a day of theat aswel! I swear to god I should rattle! Stll at half a finger full but I think this is best for now to deal with the flakeyness. I have also bought eucerin hydro protect with spf, but it feels really greasy so im testing it at the moment next to my eyes and under my jaw. people seem to sewar by this moisturiser but its so grasy it may have to be a night time one, it was ridiculously expensive too coz boots dont sel it at the mo so had to get it off the internet! anyhow, back to bed coz i feel very strange from these pills! Im glad nothing new has come up over night, but as we all know very well, alot can change in a few hours!! will update later on! (oh and for those of u concerned about the sleeping tabs, I only use them when my daughter is at her dads, just in case!!)) xxx