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Day 17 - take two

OK so my last entry was short and i was in a bad mood so I thought I should write again in more detail! The zit next to the wound that i popped has scabbed over and should be ok by tomorrow aslong as the scab stays on tonight - mental note - be gentle!!! I described in one post about the last nodule thing I had - well that was 3 weeks ago and last night there were two white head things there so I pin pricked them and not much came out. Today there was one lump there so ive had the puss out of it - just hoping ive had it all! On my left cheek I had this really little spot which is odd coz I dont tend to get them on my cheek - it was kind of like a black head but more swollen, dont know what that is about!! On the right side of my head i have two or three small bumps under the skin that im hoping will just go but they have been there for a good week or so now so im guessing they will come to a head or something. On the right side closed to my jaw line I have thre little bumps which have been there a really long time so have to try and leave them alone! So right now I have one inflamed spot but i did prick it so its my own fault, ive had ice on it for three hours now so im just hoping it helps. It seems that if i squezze a spot before its ready - ye it scabs and goes yucky but in a week its done, where as i left that nodule alone and three weeks later there is still puss coming from it! I also have a little spot just on my right eyebrow but its quite small so im leaving it alone!! Really pissed off at the fact I have read nearly all of the success stories and 90% of them are like this ......" I had severe acne and you products cleared me up in 4 days" REALLY??? I just find it hard to believe that it works that quick for people - why not me?!?! Im seriously fed up! I should be out having fun not feeling like this! I havent ben out with my friends on a night out since October last year - thats 8 months! I want my life back! Minocycline is nearly hitting the 5 week mark - people also seem to think this drug works for them over night! Something has to give, I cant take it anymore! Letter came today from the derm saying i will get an apt within 4 weeks and I really cannot wait, I want accutane, right now I dont care about its side effects, I know its going to be shit but I have tought about it - I even dream about it....and I really want it, knowing my luck it wouldnt work for me though!!! Anyhow, having a chinese and an early night and hoping for a better day tomorrow. God these posts must be depressing for people to read! I just hope that soon I can write - I have no spots today!!!! We can also hope, keep your fingers crossed for me!!! xxx

Del!

Del!

06/26/2010

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06/27/2010

 

day 16

Well I didn't get all the puss out of that spot and this morning it had a yellow pussy scad which came off when I touched it so back to having a wound on my face! Great. No chance of covering it with makeup either! Wish I hadn't touched it now!! I think I'm going to have to start reading back here every time I feel like squeezing! I never learn my lesson do I! Shit shit shit!! The little ones that I popped seem to still be there even though puss came out of them! Wtf!? Not a good day today! I've got two weeks, please god let this work! Xxx

Del!

Del!

06/25/2010

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06/25/2010

 

End of day 15

WELL ....i had to pop the one by my mouth...because it was throbbing and i could feel it all day! so i wrapped my fingers in tissue and pushed it a tiny but and the puss came out - just like that! i did push a bit more and got some blood so i stopped then. Have cleansed, bp'd and moisturised and will put some aloe vera and ice on it later and hope for the best!! The one on my head thats been sat there for days had a tiny head so i popped that too. Also a blackhead by my mouth really came up ready to be popped and two little bumps that have been on my chin for a while also came to tiny - and i mean tiny - little head so they had it too!! so skin is deffo still purging a bit but I would rather have ten little spots than one massive one. The last time I had a nodul cyst kind of thing (dont know what to call it - the ones that never get a head and sit there swollen for ages) was three weeks so im guessing that being a lady it is in the next few days it will happen! fingers crossed I dont coz the last one (three weeks ago) went down after about 6 days - religious icing) but in its place i have dealt with about 4 little white head things under the skin! so anyway, used about half a finger and had so much bp i really didnt know what to do with it! anybody else have this problem?!?!? Right need to ice this spot again now, really hope it heels as fast as the others did! they were over and done with in three days! please god please!!! xxx

Del!

Del!

06/24/2010

 

Day 15

hey people!! well i have two weeks to go til graduation and my sisters wedding so I am praying at the moment that I can look half decent for the events!! I had one spot in my eyebrow that i popped last night, I have one on my head that doesnt want to do anything, and one by my lip that is small but red and quite swollen even though ive left it alone! lots of litlle bumps on my chin too! All these people that claim to see results in 4 days are talking crap, I just dont get it! My skin is dry round my mouth but Ive got to keep upping the BP so that I reach the full amount next week, so its tuff luck really! so feel a bit crap today, think i was expecting miracles over night, wish I had more time, wish I had started earlier, wish I was more patient! xxx

Del!

Del!

06/24/2010

 

end of day 14

dry skin and about 3 new spots - gutted! On a positive note, I was awarded a first class honours degree in management and business today! Still pissed off with new spots and cant decide on a moisturiser! eucerin or simple?? Fed up now anyway! speak tomorrow guys xxx

Del!

Del!

06/23/2010

 

Day 14 - the two week mark

ok, so last night I said the dryness was ok, I lied (or jinxed myself) upping the BP had left me with flakes arounr my mouth and chin, but I'd prefer that to any new giant zits! My skin will just have to get used to it coz Im not using less so this morning i used between 1/3 and 1/2 a finger. Just waiting for it to dry before I moisturise. Got 3 little ones on my head, no head on them, just tiny bumps. Loads of blackhead kind of things round my mouth and on my chin but they're not very noticable. Going to try again today not to touch my face, this will be day 3 so Im doing really well!! speak to you later xxx

Del!

Del!

06/23/2010

 

End of day 13!

Nearly at the two week mark! Thats gone really quick! Well a new tiny little one came up on the right side of my head, but Im always less concerned about them on my head coz i can attempt to cover them with my hair!! Bit of peeling this evening when I took my make up off, but only around the bits that are healing after the nasty breakout last week. no touching again today or obsessing in the mirror! YAY! I really want to up my dosage of minocycline, Ive read loads of people take 100mg twice a day but I only take it once a day, wondering whether to do it for a week then go back to the doctor a bit early for my repeat prescription. What are people's thoughts ????? Any how, got to go as my mum came back from Canada today so got to be sociable! Till tomorrow!!! xxx

Del!

Del!

06/22/2010

 

day 13

Well good morning people! Today is day 13 - unlucky for some I know! Well yesterday I managed to not touch my face all day (apart from cleansing and make up) which is just amazing for me! I was going to update last night but thought I'd end up checking my face in the mirror again so thought best to leave it! I'm going to try and do it again today, see how it goes! Not much to report really, the wound has healed over fully so can at least be covered but it still looks quite crappy. really wish I hadnt squezzed it! the two that I popped on my chin have virtually left no mark at all which is quite amazing! I had this little flesh coloured bump on the side of my head for weeks and weeks and last night it had a tiny little white head on it so now thats gone!! I have another one on the other side and I assume that one is doing the same. scab came off the lip zit this morning, i rubbed it gently with a flannel to help it along!! Up to about half a finger this morning and last night! last night my face was a little bit irritated - nothing major just a bit tingly and itchy but i didnt touch it! Probably coz Ive upped the BP. Still dont know how I will get up to a full finger but Im sure I will get there! hopefully in a week or so I will be there. No real dryness, skin is peeling around old marks that are healing. i noticed that my chest is very red all the time - ive been using dans bp and moisturiser on my chest - so im doing a little experiment and last night i used panoxyl 2.5 and a different moisturiser to see if it makes any difference. Will let you know! waiting on my aha now! see ya later! xxx

Del!

Del!

06/22/2010

 

DAY 12!

So this morning I used Dans cleanser on my face coz I really felt like I needed to wash with something rather than using the cetaphil cleanser. Everything is healing but still got a lot of under the skin bumps which Im guessing are going to come up soon. Ive been reading back through some old blogs and have seen that so many people used a pea sized amount of bp for the first two weeks so im glad ive got mine up quite quickly! No redness that ive noticed and not really dry skin, just a bit of peeling around the old spots that are healing. I was reading last night about iodine and how it is not good - and yes it is in my multi so have stopped that as of today. Would rather take 20 pills seperate than risk it! Also been reading up of vitamin K so that is something i will be buying today! Today I am going to atempt NOT touching my face at all! Ive put makeup on to stop me playing and poking and I am not looking in the mirror at all. I really do think it becomes obsessive - seriously I look in the mirror around 100 times a day. I was readin on dans questionnaire thing about how touching damages the folicles - and then thought to myself - actually ye, whenever I get a spot and touch it, put things on it and play with it, I get another one or two or three next to it!! So have to stop touching and obsessing! Have had a really upset tummy last night and this morning, may be the niacin but dont really know! will have to keep an eye on it! Nothing else to report at the mo, we know that can all change in a few hours! Will prob update again tonight as I have no life!! xxx

Del!

Del!

06/21/2010

 

Day 11

well Im up to a whole third of a finger and putting it all on my face! woohoo go me!! Face did tingle a bit after moisturser but it wasnt like burning or anything insane. The two on my chin that I popped three days ago, scabbed, came off and have left minimal red marks! I think the aloe vera gel helped ALOT! lip zit has scabbed and should come off tomorow. The "wound" as I like to call it is ever so slowly healing but still looks like crap! Squeezed one of the little ones in the left size coz it was squeezable if you no what I mean, did it before washing and BPing so hopefully it will be ok tomoz...didnt squeeze the life out of it, just a litle so it could go either way really! Want to hear something funny!? I spend more time on here than I do on Facebook! I seriously must have read every single topic about the regimen and accutane!! And I think I have probaly read about half of the 'success' stories and tankyou letters to dan! Got to do something to stay positive. Ordered my AHA but I know it will be a few weeks before it arrives! Can anyone recommend something in the UK I can use now?? Thats all for tonight folks....PLEASE COMMENT!! Even if you just literally say hi! xxx

Del!

Del!

06/20/2010

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06/20/2010

 

end of day 10.....doesnt it piss you off when.....

Doesnt it piss you off when your friends or people you know go out drinking every weekend, eat crap, slepp crap and still have great skin?? Just my rant of the day! think I will have one of them every day from now on! Well ive been putting aloe vera gel on the scabs allday and I think they are ready to come off but I have made that mistake too many times so I will do my best to leave them til tomoz when they should come off and not bleed! the wound still hasnt heeled! Im thinking maybe the plaster stoped the air from getting to it so stopped it from healing so no more plaster! Its like the size of a nib of a pen so not huge but its indented so deffo gonna scar....any ideas??? Squeezed the lip zit coz it had a whit head and Ive put some tea tree oil (diluted) on it. Skin is deffo not as dry so upped the BP a little bit more, if I get up to a full finger length it will take a bout a day to dry coz honestly Im on about a third now and that is enough for my whole face!! By the end of the second week I hope to be up to half a finger, maybe in the night and a third in the morning. I do the regimen early in the evening coz it stops me from smoking! trying to quit and have managed to stop from like 4pm onward, keep busy have food, have a shower and do the regimen! I know that if I smoke after I will have to wash my face again!! so it is a good idea!! Not much else to report, night to relax without my 3 year old now! Fantastic - kind of but itsnice to have company from a person who doesnt care if u have a scabby face!! Only one comment so far.....come on guys!! Say hi!! xx

Del!

Del!

06/19/2010

 

Day 10

Well it is day 10 and this morning I have 5 healing scabs on my face, no new giant lumps but a lip zit which i will deffo leave alone! the wound is close to healing over. needs a few more days though! today is going to be pants though as I have to take my daughter to her fathers house and I hate him seeing me when I look like shite!! Just drop her off end get out of there and have a nice evening to myself! Put quite a bit of BP on today but I dont really know what I will do with a full fingers length like dan suggests! i think i have a small face coz I really thing that much bp could do my face twice! never the less I will try to get there! skin doesnt feel dry or irritated but the test will be when I put make up on after, thats when the dryness shows! Anyway, I shall update later, please feel free to comment!! xx

Del!

Del!

06/19/2010

 

day 9 - post 2!

ok, so ive figured that I need to wait at least 20 mins for bp to dry before moisturising so i'm filling my time by posting here. Skin is not as dry and I really feel that panoxyl well and truly messed things up for me. I used a little more that a pea size amount tonight so it may get a bit more dry by tomorrow but by the nd of week two I want to be using half of what I am supposed to be using so I can keep up with Dans recommendations. I also figured that using cetaphil cleanser and only cetaphil is a good idea. I was using tea tree face wash as well which i think was making my skin more dry. It feels strange going in the shower and not using a product to wash my face! But I can see that the simpler the better. In the mornings I have been using clean and clear advantage but I think I'm just going to use cetaphil and I have a tea tree scrub with almond exfoliationg beads which I will use a couple of times a week. Again it will feel odd tomorrow not using face wash so to speak - for those who dont know, cetaphil cleanser isnt a wash, you put it on gently rub it in, wipe it away with cotton pads or tissue (i use cotton pads) - it removes make up well but if I have had a lot of make up on I use a simple face wipe first. Tonight I again used jpjpba oil, one drop on a damp coton pad and I wiped it over my nose and jaw line, will start using it properly soon, but one thing at a time I think! Also today the Niacin I ordered arrived. Ive read good things about it s will give it a go, just one tablet a day. I also realised that I take to many supplements here is the list am - multi vit vit c (500) x 2 - meant to take it with minocycline apparantly b complex lecethin/msm alternate days vitamin e/starflower oil alternate days 2x acidophilus 1x dianette pm - 2x acnescript evening - 1x niacin (500) 1x omega 3 fishoil 1x minocycline (100) thats alot of pills and up until 2 weeks ago I was taking a mega dose of b5 but that wasnt working. Also for anyone that wants to know more about b5, it gave me a bad stomach - permanant and when I started taking it began waking up at 5am every day, regardless of the time I was going to sleep! I am still doing this and havent been able to stop! Its hard work and I end up having to go to sleep at 9 just to deal with it! I have tried keeping myself up til 11/12 but still wake up at 5ish and feel exhausted!! I just know that if my face was clear I could get up and deal with being tired and have the motivation to do things! I havent left the house for three days now, thank god tesco deliver!! the wound is healing slowly, the two I popped yesterday have scabbed over, still a bit sore but nowhere near as painful they were! 1 active one on right side and another one healing on loft side. I am going to order dans aha tonight aswell and prob order more bp as I am using it on my chest too so I dont want to run out! Shame its soooo expensive to ship! I want to add that I started using dans bp on my chest the same time I started using panoxyl on my face and my chest has not gotten dry or irritated at all! Not seeing results yet but hey - its been 9 days and as of tomorrow I will be simplifing things even more! so keeping fingers crossed speak to ya tomorrow!! x

Del!

Del!

06/18/2010

 

Day 9

well today is day 9, managed to put a bit more bp on this morning which is good, im slowly getting it up! Skin isnt as dry today, still got a plaster on, this wound just doesnt want to heal over, its quite deep which is crap, my own fault though for squeezing the life out of it. the two that i popped yesterday have scabbed over and they are not as pinful. still got lots of little spots on the left side which dont seem to want to go away. used a bit of jojoba oil last night, heard that it broke people out sometimes so I just wet a cotton pad and put 1 drop on and rubbed it over my nose and jaw line. dont know if it did anything really!! still feeling crappy coz I know this wound is going to take a long time to heal and it will deffo leave a scar. so another day in the house hiding away! got to love this life - not! really hoping this bp starts working soon! some people see results in the first week, but no not me!! cant wait to get an appointment with a derm now, really cant wait. xx

Del!

Del!

06/18/2010

 

second time today!

well this is the end of day 8, used bp morning and night - not much but about a pea size amount twice a day is enough for now, I will up it in a coupple of days! Well i popped both of the two painful ones on my chin - they were just getting bigger and they hurt like hell! mostly blood in there really but cleaned them with tea tree and put an ice pack on them for about 2 hours and have put some aloe vera gel on them. will see how they are tomorrow! The scabby bit is healing slowly - been putting aloe vera gel on and a plaster over it. as for the dryness - my face wasnt uncomfortable when I came out of the shower thank god! realised why my moisturiser was stinging - it has lactic acid init, which is like AHA - just read that in dans FAQ. Woops, not spposed to mix bp and aha for a few weeks coz of the stinging but it doesnt sting anymore so never mind! Have ordered a different eucerin moisturiser and a simple one am thinking about cetaphil if anyone has an opinion on their moisturiser??? any how, i rang the doc and she has referred me to a derm which may take a while, but she said i have to take minocycline for thre months before they will consider giving my accutane (iso) but i intend to beg and plead. I am ready for it now i think, read the horror stories but seen the results people have had! anyways, will post tomoz, early night lots of sleep and hopefully wake up feeling happier!! bye xxx

Del!

Del!

06/17/2010

 

hate my face

well the yucky scab came off again so still got an open wound on my face so still wearing a plaster! used bp this morning so will try for twice a day from now on, still using a tiny amount, face is still dry but not as bad. the two spots on my chin are just lumps that really hurt, wish they would just get a head or piss off! what I dont get is this.....if BP puts oxygen into the skin and bacteria cannot frm in oxygenated environments, they why dont the spots die and why do they come up in the first place?! not a good day anyway, not leaving the house again, fed up and had enough! minocycline is supposed to work by now, Im over the three week mark so why isnt it working?? ringing doc this morning to get a refferal to a derm, think its time to see about isotretinoin (accutane)....cant take much more of this. Acne has done wonders for weight loss - Im so depressed I cant eat, people think im anorexic! its not cool at all but i cant eat when im sad. feel weak and tired all the time. wish there was a miracle cure! talk to you later xx

Del!

Del!

06/17/2010

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06/17/2010

 

urrrrghhhh

well the horrible spot had a yucky scab on it this morning and it came off so now i am left with an open wound on my face, great! not going anywhere today and keeping a plaster over it in the hope it will heal! the two on my chin havent come up fully but they are bigger so the BP is really not touching them at all! I can tell they are going to be nast ones too...any advice? skin is less dry today but still a bit flakey, even in the bits where i didnt put the bp last night. Hating this at the moment, face is a mess, cant go anywhere, dont want to see anyone and walking round with a plaster on my face....this is a reminder to me - never squeeze another spot - EVER! you think we would learn - why did i do it! it would probably have nearly one now! fingers crossed it will heal and quick! will post again tomorow - people are reading this so please leave some comments!! xx

Del!

Del!

06/16/2010

 

starting with Dan's BP

Hi everyone, I thought I'd keep a log of my bp nightmare/progress.....so here goes! So Im 24 and so far I have been on Diannette for 7 months with little improvement and I am now on my 4th week of minocycline, that isnt helping much either! I have also tried clean and clear advantage with salicyclic acid, acnease (waste of time) acnescript not really helping, collodial silver, tea tree, freederm...the list goes on!! I only drink water and green tea, dont drink alcohol or fizzy stuff, no dairy and lots of fruit veg salmon and chicken. I take a acidphilus, multivitamin, omega 3 fishoil, lecethin, msm, starflower oil and vitamin c every day. So anyway...my sisters wedding and my second graduation next month so desperate times!! I ordered dans products - the cleanser, treatment and moisturiser but was scared about starting. Then 6 nights ago I found my panoxyl 2.5 in the drawer, never stuck out using it before! so i used it and for 3 days my skin was ok, then it got irritated and flakey so on the 4th night i switched to dans bp. Im using cetaphil gentle cleanser as it is good at removing make up with a cotton pad and im using eucerin moisturiser. My skin is really dry and tight right now, hoping this will pass soon! hate peeling my skin off! only using a tiny amount in the evening and not doing it in the morning just yet. Tonight my face did not sting when i put on moisturiser which it has done for a few nights but i didnt put it around my mouth this evening as this is where it is the most irritated. Thankfully I dont have to go out muh for the next few days, only to drop my daughter off at school so it can stay dry and flakey! Anybody in the UK that can reccommend a moisturiser they think is better that eucerin feel free!! really not wanting to use dans as too many people have said bad things about it! waiting for jojoba oil to arrive in the post, any tips on that would be great too!! I will update as often as I can... Right now I have 1 nasty spot on my chin which is bad coz i tried squeezing it - naughty! lots of little bumps on right side of chin, 1 random little bump on my head which doesnt want to to anything and two comming up on my chin, not sure how they are going to go just yet!! keep u posted...all comments, advice, support and criticisms welcome! xxx

Del!

Del!

06/15/2010

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06/27/2010

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