I only have one skin, so I am going to do my best to take care of it. Now that I have a job I do not have to worry so much about not being able to afford what I need to stay healthy. I will also be able to pay for a doctor's appointment and prescription drugs, even though I want to try the natural route to see if that changes anything. It has been like three days and I have not had one new cyst form. The small ones I had have developed, so I just need to see if my skin will stay clear. I am still using benzoyl peroxide with salicylic acid and it has been really helping with the condition of my face.
I read somewhere that kojic extract is good for hyperpigmentation, so I want to look further into it. If y'all have any recommendations or have used good products to deal with hyperpigmentation let me know. I should also mention that I just started using the glycolic acid from Acne.org and i'm going to keep combining it with my moisturizer in the night to help with the overall texture/tone of my skin. I hope this is enough to put my skin back on track, so to speak. I know I cannot be too abrasive to my skin, but I get so impatient, as I know most of you can understand.
Well, have an amazing Saturday!!!
This is a crazy thought, but I have even considered starting a youtube channel or just blogging more. I mean I have been going through a lot of changes in my life in all spheres including work, personal, and my lifestyle. I can honestly say that I am vegan. I am not 100%, since I don't check on the labels of products too often and I had been using honey as a face mask, but in terms of my diet I am vegan. It is funny because I changed my diet so I can feel better and improve the condition of my skin, but I am persisting on this diet, even when I get frustrated and feel like my skin will not get any better so what is the point of depriving myself from eating junk. But, the I remember the videos I saw online about the horrible conditions the animals are in and how they are brutally killed. And, then I think how can that even be a job? I mean, when you need a job you need a job, but I can't imagine myself doing that.
I am starting to realize that I love to rant....is that what I get for watching too many youtubers?
Okay, so I am very impatient when it comes to clearing my skin. Especially now, since I was clear for almost five years with only minor issues such as oiliness and clogged pores. I am trying a new regimen for my skin and I can say that the salcylic acid has made dramatic improvements on the clarity of my skin. My skin looks less blotchy overall, but I still get painful cysts.
I have cut out all dairy for about a month, yet I still had some muffins (which I am pretty sure it had some form of dairy.) I am trying to commit myself to a vegan diet in order to eliminate any potential food allergies that may contribute to my acne. (I will post on my diet on a different post.) This type of acne is not normal. Once one zit heals and goes down another one pops up. I have not experienced this since high school, so I know that there is something going on with my hormones or it could be lack of exercise, stress, and/or not eating the right food. If I could battle this naturally, then I wouldn't mind restricting myself from consuming junk food, gluten, and animal products. I am going to really commit to this new diet for another month in order to really see if it makes a difference.
I know that diet is only part of the equation, so I am trying to keep myself calm and enjoy the little things in life. I just started working on recipes to post on my food blog, which are mainly vegetarian/vegan, yet it really is about eating tasty, healthy food.
Here is the link to anyone that is interested.
http://goodbaking.weebly.com. (it is work in progress.)
I am a healthy food nut, and I can't shake the feeling that eating carelessly and stuffing my face with bread did not help my situation, both in terms of my skin and overall health. I remember thinking, it's fine if I stuff myself because I need to carb up in order to run in the evening or early morning; yet I did not always go out for runs. Anyway, I know I need to go out for runs, but my skin feels too sensitive to be out in the sun. Still, I know how important exercising is so I need to work something out.
1) Cleanse with Cerave foaming cleanser for normal/oily skin (I might just switch back to cetaphil when I run out)
2) Tone with apple cider/water/tea tree oil
3) Apply Paula's Choice 2% salicylic acid liquid
4) Apply Dan's BP all over face
5) Moisturizer with Dan's moisturizer or Olay sunscreen for sensitive skin
Same steps all the way to 4
5) Apply Renee Roulea's anti-cyst treatment to inflamed zits.
6) Moisturize with Dan's moisturizer
Exercise: 3 times a day (jump-rope, dance, yoga, push-ups, jumping jacks, and walking the dog.)
- I noticed that the salicylic acid really helps with the overall texture of my skin, because when I stopped using it my skin didn't feel and look as great. Again, I still get zits, yet I feel like my skin can breathe, if that makes any sense.
Why the changes?
1) The Argan oil made my skin look too shiny, even though I applied it in the night I thought that it was not worth it.
2) I have not used any masks or scrubs for the past week because I do not want to cause further damage to my skin by over exfoliating it. I think the salicylic acid should be just enough, since I am using it twice a day.
3) I stopped taking the zinc and fish oil, because I got tired of it and taking them made me feel weird. I do not know if it is because I am not used to taking multivitamins or anything of that nature, and I should first see if changing my diet is all I need to do. I may continue to take the zinc and fish oil, but maybe once in a while. I think if I eat enough of the food my body needs, then why should I have to supplement.
Today is Saturday and I should be outside enjoying the summer heat or going out with a friend, but I much rather rant on how sensitive and dry my skin is getting.
So, I have been on the acne.org bp for a long time and it worked. I stopped using it as consistent, added stress stress into the mixture and I got inflamed acne lesions once again. It took over 3 weeks for all of it to heal and my skin is still not perfect (especially now with all the scarring.) The only change I have made was that I added salicylic acid and I want to say that it has helped me, but it might had only made my skin more sensitive and at times irritating. I know I am using too many products, but I am afraid of cutting them out too early and letting my skin go cray-cray.
I have also cut out dairy and meat products, so I am basically living a vegan lifestyle. I feel great! I am supplementing with fish oil every other day, 1/2 of a b-complex tablet everyday, and 1 zinc tablet. I drink a lot of water and take my time when making my food (mostly veggies of course.) I try to only moisturize with argan oil, yet it leaves my skin visibly oily and I do not want to leave the house like that. It even affects how my make-up looks. I read good things about it and I wanted to try it, so far it hasn't made me breakout, yet I still get small comedones in between my temple and cheekbone area and I wonder why....
I am going to just use the salicylic acid once a day now, to see if my skin feels less irritated. I really just want to do an all natural approach, but I know that when it comes to acne prevention is key, otherwise I will just keep scarring.
If anyone knows of any good natural products please let me know.
Earlier today I was contemplating life and I came to the realization that I need to accept myself for who I am and everything else about me, including my acne. I do not know if what got me thinking this way was spending two hours with my mom at the grocery store or just eating healthier and doing my best to stay positive and prevent stress. I think that make-up is a huge confidence boost for me and it will always be. I hate to admit it, but I relied on it too much in the past to the point that it masked my acne relatively well. Now, make-up is just a confidence boost. I cannot change the reality of having acne and carrying the physical scars along with it. Yes, getting zits is embarrassing, but it is somewhat temporary. It just sucks when acne takes so long too go away and leaves your skin damaged. So, now what? I could spend the little money I have to try every single acne scar removal system out there and go to a dermatologist to get chemical peels or laser treatments, and I am planning to do all that, but for me what it is important is that I get my acne under control.
Thankfully, my face has cleared to about 90% clear. The huge problem areas are no longer inflamed. I still get clogged pores and have oily skin, but my huge problem is acne scarring. It is so frustrating to carry those spots on my face. To wake-up each morning and know that even though the day can be an amazing one I still have to face my own reflection. Other people might not understand, since I cover up with make-up. Yet, this is what I have to carry on the daily basis, which is why self-acceptance is crucial in my journey to clear skin. I cannot pretend and say that once I have flawless skin I will be happy, because happiness is internal. Still, I cannot say that I am happy now about the condition about my skin, so I need to be accepting of myself for who I am now. My family does not understand. It isn't as simple as going to the dermatologist to get my skin treatment for the scarring. This is about feeling awful when others see me without makeup, almost as if I am not worthy of being looked at. It is weird, because i am not trying to be superficial and this sounds like it. I just want to not have to hide behind make-up anymore. My acne is pretty much healing and the worst is over. The inflammation is completely gone, yet things are not picture perfect.
I am pleased to say that the cluster of cystic type of acne is completely gone from my left cheek, yet I have hyperpigmentation and scarring to take it's place. The one cyst on my left cheek has turned to 2.5 pimple type things, which is weird. Now, I have one new one in the middle of my forehead. This is also so weird. I am going to try a different product specifically designed to treat cystic acne, since bp obviously isn't cuting it.
On the plus side I am learning french and I feel empowered in some way. I guess acne itself is humbling, but not knowing a foreign language is even more so. I feel satisfied with my self on a personal level I just need my face to catch on.
Oh, yes. And, I am becoming full blown vegetarian for a month to see how it goes. Technically I am an "ovo-vegetarian," I need to get my protein from somewhere, right? Anyway, I have been eating a lot more vegetables and I feel amazing. I have always been good at consuming plenty of fruit, yet now that I am becoming more educated on how diet and lifestyle are key factors for overall good skin, I realize that high glycemic foods might not be too good for my skin. I am also cutting out dairy completely from my diet which means no cheese, yogurt, or ice-cream. I have been drinking soymilk for the longest time, but now I am considering almond milk since I read that consuming too many un-fermented soy products can lead to breast cancer. Still, all of this is not a big change for me since, I have been vegan in the past (back in college when I developed irritable bowl syndrome), yet I did not continue since I was really low on energy. Therefore, if I am going to follow along the same path as before I need to be really smart about my food choices. I am a bit worried about calories, since I just notice how hard it is to consume enough calories when I am depriving myself from staple foods. I have been using myfitnesspal.com to track my food intake (It takes the guess work out of figuring out protein, oils, and carbs in every single food I consume). I highly recommend this website and I think you can download the app in your phone, too.
Grain is another staple that I just decided I wanted to cut out in order to see if it has an effect on the number of outbreaks I get. I read that grains can inflame the body in some way, which honestly doesn't really make sense how this can contribute to acne, since clogged pores and overproduction of oil cause acne. Yet, I understand how high glycemic foods cause blood sugar levels to rise at a higher rate than let's say protein, so then insulin has to rise to bring down the blood sugar in your body. This is all cool, but a rise in insulin isn't always good. Here is what I was reading in case any of you are interested in this: http://www.livestrong.com/article/152940-acne-insulin-resistance/. Basically, I want to completely cut out grains in order to cut out this factor and see if their is some validity to it. This is going to be very sad because I love whole-wheat bread, pasta, brown rice, oatmeal, and pizza...the list goes on.
Thankfully, using benzoyl peroxide and salicylic acid has helped my skin tremendously, yet I still have oily skin and highly prone to breakouts. I had not had cysts in about four years, so the simple fact that I am getting them now says a lot about my lack of adequate nutrition and stress levels. I am really trying to live differently. I am taking a more positive outlook life and that isn't always an easy thing, since just looking in the mirror can be really discouraging. I know that acne is not my fault and that I can do things to change my personal outlook, but the reality is that I have no idea what is really causing my acne. Could it be that it is in my genes and I must make peace with it? I think not. I am going to make some changes that I know hope will help me in the long run.
Today, I feel good. I do not know if it is because of all the vegetables and healthy protein, oils I ate or the long bike ride to the post office, but I feel good. I have to say that I am pleased that the cystic acne I had on my left cheek has drastically reduced. I no longer have huge bumps and the redness, tenderness has subsided. All that remains are the dark marks and a bit of scarring. Great... Anyway, I have just one new cystic type of pimple on that same left cheek and other zits seem to be maturing and healing. This is what I have been doing so far:
wash with Cetaphil for normal to oily skin
tone w/ organic acv/water mixture
apply Paula's choice salicylic acid 2% treatment
Olay moisturizing sunscreen for sensitive skin spf 15 (I add a few drops of jojoba oil)
supplements: one 40mg Zinc pill
wash with Cetaphil
tone w/ acv/water mixture
apply PC salcylic acid treatment
Moisturize with Dan's moisturizer and jojoba oil
2x a week I use a mask with sulphur from acnefree or raw honey mixed with cinnamon
1x a week I use 20% salcylic acid treatment ( I leave on for one minute and rinse.)
I realize that this might be a bit excessive, but I cannot afford to get one more zit, because I scar so easily.
I decided that I have to use make-up and I ordered Tarte amazonian clay concealer and a bb moisturizer with sunscreen. I might leave a review after I tried them out for some time.
Overall, my skin texture has improved. I no longer have any zits in my chin area, except for one that popped up but is clearing up really fast. My problem areas remain my cheeks and in between my brows, which is my oily zone. So, my plan is to keep using things like salicylic acid to clear up my pores. And, even with just the acv/water mixture I have noticed an improvement in my skin tone and size of my pores, which is nice.
I remain hopeful and I really believe that a better diet and more exercise might really help me get my acne under control.
I will keep y'all posted on my progress and I highly recommend you check out Stephanie Lange (a youtuber and makeup artist) for tips on covering acne.
How am I supposed to let my skin heal and let all the benzoyl peroxide do it's job if I keep apply make-up on the daily? I have to cover up scars and cysts, and each time I do this I seem to get a new outbreak or a new one wants to start. I wonder if it is the make-up. I use almay skin clearing concealer and Covergirl shine control foundation. I apply it with my fingers, so maybe that is the problem. I just hate seeing no improvement and wearing makeup gives off the illusion that my skin is better when it really isn't. It is just so frustrating feeling like i'm almost there and then seeing a new blemish starting to form. Luckily, the new ones are easier to cover up and treat, since they are not cysts. I guess I have to remain on the treatment. It is just weird how the regimen stopped working after I introduced new products onto my skin and lessened the does of the benzoyl peroxide. I may had contributed to this. I though I was healed and that I could focus on clearing up my pores and reducing acne scaring and hyperpigmentation. I guess I was wrong. I really do not want to go into a doctor's office to have them prescribe me things that can be too harsh. I hope that I can see some improvement soon.
I have to say that eating healthy makes me feel so good even without going out for a jog. It's mostly hot and humid where I am at, which is not my kind of outdoor running weather. I am planning a jog later, but I might just end up jumping rope in the backyard.
Okay, so I am seeing a very slight improvement on my cystic acne with the use of Neutrogena benzoyl peroxide and tea tree oil. I just started using tea tree oil instead of the benzoyl peroxide during the day time. My skin does not look irritated and I find it easier to apply versus the Neutrogena brand of benzyl peroxide. Still, I am patiently waiting on the acne.org treatment to arrive, so I can continue with the acne.org regimen.
This is also my third day taking zinc pills with copper. I ordered them from iherb.com after reading online articles about the correlation between zinc deficiency and acne. I am basically my own guinea pig, but something has to work. Right? I give myself a month and if I see no improvement, then I am going to get prescription treatment.
Well for now what has been really soothing on my skin is the following:
*honey mask: I mix honey with cinnamon and apply all over my face. I keep it on for like twenty minutes, then I rinse with water.
*baking soda spot treatment: a mix enough water into it just to form a thick paste and leave on up to twenty minutes.
O yeah, and I try to avoid wearing makeup as much as possible, since my pores clog up so easily because of it. I am basically trying to go all naturale.
*special note: I just saw Dan's how to video on the appropriate way to wash skin and I have been doing it all wrong. Now I wonder if I have irritated my own skin by being too harsh. I guess for these masks it is important to remove the ingredients completely from the face, so it might take more than 10 seconds. Yet, I need to be extra careful not to cause too much friction with my hands.
Acne has been a part of my life since freshman year in high school. I wanted to find an alternative to antibiotics and I just thought that out of all the acne treatments out there I had to find something that worked for me. I came across acne.org after having suffered from acne for about two years, and my life changed. First, I gained a support network. Knowing that there were other people like me made me feel that there was hope. Secondly, by using Dan's products my skin did improve, drastically. It did take a long time for my skin to actually clear up; and I still relied on make-up to cover up old blemishes and scarring. I reached the point where I did not have to use so much benzyl peroxide and I could wear make-up without getting nasty acne. My acne remained mild, but it was under control. Yet, now it is a different story. I noticed my skin getting worse after I quit my job. I was stressed out about figuring out my finances and looking for employment that I just started bursting uncontrollably. It didn't help that I was home and dealing with family is not something I considered to bring me peace and serenity. Yet, they are not at fault for anything. I am just putting two and two together. So, now I have cysts on the left side of my face. They appeared slowly and have increased in size dramatically. I continue to use benzyl peroxide (Neutrogena spot treatment) and I feel as if the cream version burns my skin a bit. On the plus side, my skin is not as oily, yet it is a lot more dry. I am thinking of seeing a doctor to prescribe me birth control pills in order to balance out my hormones, since I read somewhere that acne in adulthood for females tends to be due to hormonal imbalances. The funny thing is that I have been tested for thyroid issues, polycystic ovarian disorder, and other hormonal issues back in college and they all came back clean. Which leads me to believe that there are other variables to my skin issues. I am now taking a closer look on my diet, fitness, and stress in order to come up with a more natural solution for my skin care problems; which I believe to be more caused by stress than anything else. My plan is to eat a well-balanced diet and cut out many things that can raise my insulin levels such as: cow's milk, simple carbohydrates, and junk food (mostly candy and chips). I am going to start taking Zinc in capsule form and making sure that I consume enough vitamins and minerals.
Also, I may be unemployed right now but that does not mean that my life is over. I need to use this time to reflect and re-examine my skin-care regimin. I looking forward to coming back to the acne.org community in order to come up with the best options for myself and I hope to share my successes.
Going to college next year is something I am looking forward to. Now what to do about my skin? I have created myself a goal of finding a way of making my skin better, and I have faith in myself, that it is in fact a possibility. I am tired of feeling bad for myself, I am not going to let my skin condition get in the way of my happiness. I believe we need to all have faith and hold on to our happiness, because no one is going to give it to us, we need to create it. Yes, we have our bad days; the ones when we don't even want to leave the house, but we are also strong individuals. I mean who else would of made it this far? We don't define ourselves by how we look, we define ourselves by what we are: we are smart, caring, and beautiful. Better believe it.