Hey it's been a long time! My face is now to a point where it improving everyday, I'm so happy!!!! Retin-A is a miracle cream!!! I have a few pimples but it's seriously better than before!!!!!!!!! I also changed my routine and stopped using benzole perioxide since my derm did'nt prescribe me this and it's just too irritating. This is my new routine (improved): Morning: - Cleanser Cetaphil (wash, rinse, wash and rinse again) - Clindamycin - A lot of Mosturizer Cetaphil on relax days or some Dormer mosturizer on day where I'm doing someting where I need to not have an oily face. - Non-comedogenic Make-up Night: - Cleanser Cetaphil (wash, rinse, wash and rinse again) - Waiting at least 20 min - Retin-A I also continue taking 200 mg of minocycline per day and Diane-35 but I'm gonna take a break to have my periods this time since my skin has improved so much! My dermatologist is sick for an undetermined period of time and she does'nt have anyone to help her. So I'm going to continue with this regimen until she's back and I can see her again.
It's been a long time since I posted something here...I've been so busy with the end of the semester but now I'm on vacations so I'll continue updating my blog to keep track of my progress. My skin is far from perfect but has improved very much. I have a few pimples but my general complexion is nicer probably because of the retin-a, wich is supposed to be a miracle product. I started using retin-a on april 21st and put it on my face for 6 days straight (BIG MISTAKE)... My skin started to look like I was tanned, wich was not the case at all and a cosmetician told me (when I went to the drug store) that I should use a good mosturizer coz I was SO DRY. She even asked me if I was on Accutane! That night, when I tried to put retin-a again, my face got soooooooooooooooooo red and painful that I started crying and running dowstairs yelling at my mother who did'nt know what to do! She told me to wash this shit off and to put some cold humid tissu (with ice) on my face, just like if I was burned. That helped! I was in shock and I understood that retin-a is strong medication and that I should always make sure my skin is not too irritaded before putting it on. I then took a 3 days break and I started again but more carefully. I put it 2 days straight, then took a day off, then 3 days straight with a day off, then 4 days straight with a day off. (I can tell that I tolerate the product pretty good compared to many people on this site wich is good I guess). So I put retin-A: April 21,22,23,24,25,26 and then BIG PROBLEM then took a break and continue april 30, may 1st, 3,4,6,7,8,9,11,12,13,14. Then I stopped cause I was having my second laser session on may 19th. My second laser session was much more painful than the first one wich may be due to retin-a or simply to the fact that I'm a big baby sometimes. I was very surprised to find out that my skin healed much much faster than the first time. What healed in a month last time healed in a week and a half this time! Retin-a is helping with the healing of the skin. I was able to start retin-A only 4 days after laser, this time mixed with a little bit of mosturizer. I put it on may 22,23,24,25,26,27,28,29,30 and then I started to experience a burning sensation but not as bad as the first time so I listened to my skin and took a 2 days break this time. First time I put it 6 days in a row and burned, this time I put it 9 days in a row and burned a little little bit only. Now I'm on again for June 2d and 3rd (tonight) I really noticed an improvement in the general appearance of my skin but the first 2-3 weeks were disgusting because I had a freaking huge breakout that left me with red spots in areas where I did'nt have acne, like my forehead...But they say that these pimples would have come out anyway but latter. Since I'm moving to another city in less than a month, I don't mind poping pimples right now while I study from home and don't see anybody anyway for now. I hope to be clear soon. I also changed my routine since may 7th: Morning: - Cleanser Proderm (anything soft without salicylic acid) - Clindamycin - Mosturizer Laorche-Posay or 211 from the Derm - Benzoyl Peroxide every 2 days on pimples Night: - Cleanser Proderm (anything soft without salicylic acid) - Waiting at least 30 min - Retin-A (Just a thin film everywhere in the face and more on nose cause nose can take more) I also continue taking 200 mg minocycline per day and Diane-35 without stopping! I must not discourage! If I'm able to do 2 weeks without stopping retin-a, I'll start put benzoyle peroxide more than every 2 days but since retin-a works more in the long run, I must priorize this instead of BP in case my face gets irritated.
I started the topical clindamycin yesterday and it seems like it's a great product (I can't judge by now but this morning when I saw myself in the mirroir, I already noticed an improvment )...This product is supposed to dry skin like crazy and the retin-A as well. So to make sure I don't have to wait 2-3 days because my skin is too dry, I'm applying some strong moisturizing for the body. I'm now putting Retin-A + Moisturizer + non-comedogenic Make-Up in the morning and Clindamycin + Moisturizer at the night. I remove make-up with a marcelle product and I wash my face 2 times a day with Proderm cleanser. I also take 200 mg/day monocycline and diane-35. I'm hoping that's gonna work very soon!
Yesterday, before going to the dermatologist's office, my mother told me that she understand that I'm impatient about my acne because I started a new treatment 6 months ago and everything but she said that she thinks I'm becoming obsessed with my skin problem. She wants me to let go and be patient. Well guess what? I'm not gonna be patient and I'm not gonna wait eternally. If I did wait, I would have wait till july 6 to see my dermatologist...But I came yesterday in her office and she helped me right away. Why wait when you know deep down that the treatment is not working? I'm not gonna listen to her, I promise myself I'm gonna keep on working till I have a perfect skin. That's it that's all. Now I take 200 mg/day minocycline, topical clyndamicine, retin-A, diane-35 since march 9. By the beginning of June, I should see an improvment...In about one month.
I went to see my dermatologist's assistant this morning thinking they would send me to hell saying that I need to wait more and more but I was soooooo surprised to see that they ask my dermatologist to see me right away! She saw me in consultation and she declare herself that my treatment was'nt working properly and I was so happy! Then she doubled my actual antibiotic dose and prescribed me another topic antibiotic!!! I'm gonna see her again on july 6th. I'm sooo happy, I'm hoping it's gonna improve soon! I also bought quality make-up to cover the red spots I have and it's pretty much doing the job! Thank God!
Today it's may 4th and I'm less depressed than yesterday because tomorrow I'm going to see my dermatologist's assistants to inform them that after 6 months of minocycline antibiotic treatment, I'm not satisfied with the result at all. I only take 100 mg per day as I used to take 200 mg/day when I was younger. This does'nt make any sense and I'm wondering why am I now taking such a small dose. I know I have to wait another month for Diane-35 to start doing someting but with the antibiotics that I've beeing taking for 6 months, I should already see a big improvment, wich is not the case. I hope they listen to me and at least give me an appointment with my doctor sooner than expected...They're saying they have no space available before july 6th but I know that's a lie...They always keep space for their patient. It's just that they don't wanna see me before. I'm gonna be so mad at these people if they don't give me the proper service I deserve.
Today, it's may 3rd and I'm so desperate with my acne; I'm 23 and I had acne for the last 10 years or so. I'm getting so sick and tired of looking like crap everyday, I feel like life does'nt worth beeing lived anymore... I can't go out, I don't wanna do anything, I don't want to see my boyfriend cause I'm scared that he thinks I'm ugly, I don't want to see any of my friends either and even not my family cause I know that my acne is the first thing everybody notice when they look at me. Seriously, I know this sounds pretty stupid and selfish but sometimes I think (a little bit) of comiting suicide. I know appearance is'nt erverything in life but acne is a constant psychological pressure that decrease my self-estim to the point where I'm fucking lonely all the time while I know I'm a naturally social person. I'm writing this blog almost for myself, just to keep track of my life and to complain somwhere when I feel like complainin cause my family is tired of me complaining. I started minocycline 100 mg/day in october 2009 and I saw a small improvement in february 2010 but now it's getting worse again... Seems like it does'nt have any effect anymore. I'm also on Diane-35 since march 9 and my acne has gotten worse!!! I decided to take it without stopping it every month just in case the effects would show faster... I'm gonna finish my third pack on may 17. I'm so desperate!