I've finished second month, and now starting 3rd, getting bumped up to 60mg of Accutane. Excessive dryness is back, although not as ridiculous. Headaches and aches are back as well, but you know what...I'm a Superwoman, and my body will work through it, just like first months on the medicine. However, my skin looks amazing, compared to what it was three months ago. No active zits as of right now (knock on wood...no, really, knock!). Scars are healing and slowly fading, and I dont spend as much time in the morning to get ready. Before it was almost like a sacrificial ritual, detailed to the T, spending countless minutes covering up those fucking zits, and stressing and crying about how horrible they look. I clearly remember avoiding looking in the mirror, because, in my mind, if I didnt see how bad it really looked, then it must've looked ok. Nevermind that the makeup would slide off after an hour of application...How painful and awkward those times were...And now I only cover up the red spots left behind, which is nowhere near as tough as covering up active pulsating and throbbing cysts. I cannot wait to finish, but Accutane is already changing my life.
I cannot wait to finish this almost-cruel phase of ridulous dryness...seems like I've been battling the harsh winds while climbing the mount Everest...this shit is off the wall, I tell ya! today is a little better, down with first 10 days of second month. No improvement as of yet. I cannot resist picking those little fuckers that pop up on my face, and I pay dearly for it with red scars. Looks like my face has a chicken pox. On the bright side, my back cleared up completely and back isnt as achy, since I eased up on work outs (turns out doing dead-lifts while on accutane is a recipe for disaster. An-old-and-crusty-lady-like back pain, to be exact). I still feel gorgeous, just because I know things will get better. For all of you who still struggles, I feel your pain!! There were days when I didn't want to leave the house because my face looked so bad! But things will get better, and keeping up an upbeat attitude will definitely help you get through the day, I promise! if you dont get hung up on your pimples, people wont either. Speaking of which, a buddy of mine noted that he could still see the zits under heavy camouflage, and I told him he still was a dick despite his nice-guy appearance. The dispute was settled on that. With that being said, if anyone gives you grief, tell them to go have sexual relations with themselves. Works like magic. I love you all!!
Accutane...a tale in the making
just to get this off the ground inspite of a writer's block...started accutane just a little over a month ago. I am a 23yr old girl, with a looooooooooooooooooooong history of acne, 5'8", 130lbs. Self esteem is either on crack or on a roller-coaster, as it soars and plummets along with disappearing and reappearing pimples. It was up there just last week, when things seemed to be getting better. Zits were drying up, and flirting was getting hotter. Aaand now I seem to be growing an evil twin sister on the right side of my chin, and if I pick it, it even has a heartbeat. Oh how tired I am of these painful bastards, why wouldnt they leave me alone. Am hoping for a Cinderella-like story, emerging beautiful and flawless by the end of the treatment (never mind other flaws, i'll deal with those later). But so far all I got is severely dry lips. I imagine this is what one's lips must feel like after performing felatio on 37 guys in a row. Along with similar sexual fantasies go sore back and other joints. And a banging headache, every single freaking day. And my skin adopts an embarrassingly bright red hue whenever I am either hot or stressed out.
Well, it is only the beginning of month two, so I am hoping things will get better sometime soon. Or else. I hate you, Acne, you evil bitch...