When I was struggling through accutane, I always was curious as to whose blog I was actually reading.. what they looked like, and how they healed after the process. I don't have any pictures of when I was breaking out on accutane.. Sorry I was a chicken :/ But here are pictures of me now and to anyone who followed my blog and is curious as to who I really am. Just me http://i52.tinypic.com/1zlgbxk.jpg Homecoming http://i54.tinypic.com/w9vh9i.jpg Sadies http://i56.tinypic.com/dggl86.jpg Not much but yeah enjoy! and don't be afraid to ask any question, I'm happy to help!!
So stillllllllllllllllllllll breaking out lol nothing to significant but I've noticed my forehead is super clear lol like it's really weird because i would have little bumps here and there normally but now its soo smooth so somethings working! my tzone is also perfectly smooth and clear complexion its just the sides of my cheeks that are being the buzz kills haha, but it's ok because my derm told yesterday that this is probably the last month I will break out and month 5 will be the dramatic clearing so yeah they also told me some people just break out later in the process and it's totally normal ... Why couldn't i have just broke out the first two months.. oh well lol but The breakouts now is not as painful as before and it's just the aesthetic issue I have problems with now haha but I'm starting my 4th month in two more days so yeah hopefully stuff starts to get better. Oh and I'm going to be on 40 mg for my fourth month too since the side effects are way more manageable Uhm that's about it and I tend to sweat more easily and get really hot sometimes it's really irritating. But other than the acne issue, life's pretty good: work is fine, studying for my sat/act is going pretty good, loving my boyfriend, and just enjoying everything and being optimistic
So here's the deal, I'm still breaking out, BUTTT considerably less. Like I would have a battlefield on my face a couple of weeks ago with immense pain, but now it's like way less just the annoying aesthetic related breakout that's bothering me not so much actual pain. All my HUGE nodules are inactive, but just the small teeny bumps left to go and the red marks from my past crazy continuous breakout I had. I would say I'm improving, but it's hard to tell because of the marks they left. Whatever! 4th month starts in like 5 more days for me so I'm sure I'll improve a lot in that month. Another thing is I'm debating on whether I should stay at 40 mg or bump up to 60 mg, I know it's based on my doctor's recommendation, but I'm scared to bump up because I HATE THE SIDE EFFECTS. Then I want to bump up because I don't want to relapse and I want the process to speed up. I'll probably bump up though ehh. Side effects: My nostrils are a little more dry, but not bad at all. Skin is a little more dry and lips are chapped. Nothing else, and my blood test was done yesterday and everything is still normal and fine . ALMOST HALFWAY DONE
Still breaking out but less haha, still pushing out the nasty stuff. Month 4 is in about one more week so hopefully I'll see more change. I don't know about other people, but for me accutane is a pain in the ass. I can't believe I broke out for about a month straight lol. So the sides of my chin and lower jawline is breaking out less while the sides of my cheeks just started breaking out like last week into this week. My forehead is getting wayy better, its pretty clear with one or two bumps. My tzone is like crystal clear smooth. It's so weird like parts of my face are clear and smooth with a great complexion and then the other parts are like bumpy and breaking out. Whatever I still have 3 months to clear up so I still have my hope . I've been still drinking lots of water, exercising, but I need to catch up on some sleep so I'm gonna take a nap today Oh and the other night I was watching tv and i flipped to MTV's True life and it was I Have Acne. I was so surprised, but my luck goes out to all the three teens that suffered from acne. One went on accutane and two tried laser treatments.. looked extremely painful. Anyways I'll try to update more often, I just get busy and lazy sorry! Keep checking because I know it'll start working soon
So, this stuff is no joke. I woke up this morning with a bloody nose, lasted for like 10 minutes. Then after an hour it bled some more for about 10 minutes .. -_- its whatever though haha Still breaking out what i mean by this is like a new pimple everyday, but when i first got my IB it was like 3-4 at once so at least its one a day but still so frustrating because I usually don't break out this bad. Seems like all the nasty stuff is pushing out, hopefully this goes away soonnnnn My face is still dry but managing better and my lips are still dry but managing oh also i noticed after i washed my face and as i was straightening out my back it was really stiff and sore and i felt like an old grandma haha that is probably the accutane because never have any joint/bone/back issues. If anyone is experiencing an IB or want to give any suggestions PLEASE feel free to comment because I would love advice, support, and comments in general! Now this is where I'm going to be a little more pessimistic.. This sucksss real bad like i hate this initial breakout, I feel like an ugly beast really. Why can't I just have good skin genes?! I hate these random nose bleeds, my dry lips, and being stuck in my house ughh.
So as I said before I'm gradually improving, my breakouts are slowly declining and giving my skin time to heal. Hopefully this is it and I'll continue to improve from here on out. Today I really felt excited and my hope came back. My face is actually getting better. I mean it is still a mess, but I can see and feel the difference. So I never lost hope, even when I reached my lowest points..but I don't want to jinx myself anymore. I think work, exercising, hanging out with my boyfriend/friends, going out more has all been significantly helping with the process. It makes time fly by, decrease my stress levels, and evoke all the happiness in me so therefore less breakouts . Still drinking lots of water and lately I've been running again after my like one month off season break from track season. Honestly it has been hard getting back in shape but one more week of running and core workouts should do it. I've been running 3 miles everyday with intervals of p90x (ab ripper x) every other day. WELL ANYWAYS haha hopefully more improvement throughout this week Oh I went swimming yesterday and my neck has been itchy.. weird but yeah that and chapped lips are basically all the side effects
I think I'm slowly improving daily, it's a gradual process. Same old breakout though. So my lips are dry and whatever, but it stresses me out whenever my boyfriend tells me to stop applying chap stick on. He doesn't understand that after just like 20 minutes it will dry out, chap, and crack. Like I've been on accutane for 3 months now and he thinks my lips, skin, and everything is normal. It's so annoying. Other than that, no other symptoms except when I get ticked off, I get really upset and stressed out. Hopefully I'll clear up soon!
Recovering from the cheek break out ...I'm so over the whole break out process like I don't even care now lol I'm at the point where I'm not really stressing over it, but I'm still staying optimistic. Dry lips, skin on my face is a little flaky lately Basically still breaking out, it has been about 3 months and 3 weeks ish, but I am hoping month 4 is the clear up month. AND the thing is I broke out near the end of month 2, so I got my horrible IB a little later than most people and I'm hoping it lasts only a month because this is just brutal to the point where I'm indifferent now. Whatever I STILL GOT HOPE!! haha I believe in these magical pills like I believed the Lakers were going to catch up to Boston's 13 point lead... just takes time and patience Exhausted from life skills class I had today GONNA NAP hopefully my skin revitalizes during it lol
So you know how I was breaking out on the sides of my chin and forehead well its clearing up A LOT, BUT I'm not breaking out on my cheeks. great. But the pain is almost nothing compared to the lesions that appear on the sides of your chin I think your skin is just more sensitive there. Well after my cheeks, that covers basically all of my face LOL. Meaning I broke out in like increments of time first it was the sides of my cheeks and my forehead, now the cheeks oh and my nose has black heads here and there. What a process, but after this hopefully that's it! I am so over this break out stage. So, I started work Monday as a medical intern and it's pretty easy, but also lots of work. The people are all nice and very friendly so that's good . Tomorrow is the LAKER VS. CELTICS! Lakers are going to own Boston and eat them for DINNER! haha lets go Kobe, Gasol, Artest, etc haa But yeah I'm not really oily again, lips are chapped, and nothing else HOPPPPPPE THIS BREAK OUT GOES AWAY AND I MAGICALLLLLLY CLEAR UP
Getting better SLOWLY. My left side has been clearing up faster than the right side. My forehead is looking slightly better. So you know when I said I was getting more oily lately. I've been getting EVEN more oily. My t-zone is like a grease ball when I wake up lol, I think I'll ask my doctor about upping the dosage for sure for next month. I've been less stressed this week about my skin and I think it's helping the recovery process. Drinking lots and lots of water seems to be helping with the symptoms as well (no headaches). Another thing I noticed, my pores look huge lately. Hopefully these pills will kick in soon and clear me up.
Definitely broke out and experiencing my IB. My left cheek is just disgusting, I would consider this one of my bad breakouts. I was wondering if you guy could tell me how long your IB lasted? I have a huge dilemma because prom is in 2 weeks! Fingers crossed? I also just got the flu/cold yesterday and stayed in bed all day. I was achy, feverish, and so weak along with a runny, congested, plugged nose. It was horrible, but i managed to not take ANY medication and fight through it naturally. Today I feel so much better and proud that I didn't have to pop even more pills. Although I'm feeling better, my skin begs to differ. My forehead broke out which usually stays clear, both sides of my cheek but more on my left. I am so frustrated, but hopefully it will calm down soon because my spring break ends in 3 more days . I am dry, the sides of my nose especially because I keep having to blow it ever 5 minutes because of my cold haha and whenever I wake up I have flakes everywhere disgusting I know.. Also my lips are dryer than before and i switched chap sticks from burts and bees to the classic chapstick strawberry flavor it seems to work better. My scalp is also very itchy even though I use dandruff shampoo. Hope to clear up soon and manage my dryness better!
Still the same old breakout. I'd like to believe it's getting better, but looks the same in the mirror, maybe because the red marks after bumps go away. Less pain on the sides of my chin and mouth which is good. Drinking lottss of water lately and hi-c haha, every time I feel dehydrated after a nap I drink a carton of cold hi-c because drinking so much water made me tired of it haha My lips have been a little more dry lately but still not chapped so thats good What's weird is that this month my face is slightly oily again which is weird because it had no oil at all the last two months. Only on my t-zone area though not the cheeks.
Same stuff, but I feel like the bumps are less and going down so that's a good sign. I'm going to stop worrying about my breakout now and just live life. It's the summer and there are parties every night, so I'm just going to have fun and do my thing. Last night I went to a graduation party and people offered me drinks and shots, I would say about 20 times noo jokee. I gladly refused every time, refused the hookah, refused anything "bad." Main reason was because I honestly think it's a waste of time and kind of pointless. I decided that I want my senior year to be sober, live up to my captain title in cross country and track, and be a role model pointing out that you don't have to drink and smoke to have fun at parties. Along with the fact that I'm on accutane, everything works out . Maybe I'll even save some breakouts from alcohol? haha I don't know Anyways lips are just dry, no headaches, no bloody nose, no dry nose, no sore back. I know people have said they had hair loss, but I seem to be growing more and more hair quickly! It's weird I don't know if it's linked to accutane, but my hair seem to be growing faster and thicker, not complaining .
Still breaking out, but I ended up popping all of the lesions all over my forehead and the sides of my chin. I know this is not recommended but I don't scar easily and my red marks fade really quickly. My skin is just different, so I highly suggest people NOT to do the whole popping thing. However, the pain from the lesions and cysts were too much and the only fast relief was removing all the nasty stuff from my pores. Let me tell you guys that was the most painful experience EVER. After I quickly washed my face and put a layer of aczone on my face and the next morning my face was significantly better. I had no more pressure, pain, and inflammation. Although I do have some scabs and patches from everything, everything is slowly healing. I'm still breaking out, but it's a littllleee bit less. No significant change, but the cysts are finally off of my forehead just some on the sides of my chin and one on my front right cheek. I've also noticed that if I drink the next couple of days I WILL break out. For example, a couple of days after my birthday party in April, I broke out. So, I'm definitely avoiding any bit of alcohol. What else, oh yeah my lips are very manageable lately after I've been reduced to 40 mg it's great. I've been getting some oil on my face back, like my face is not like dry and unhealthy looking, but more natural moisture without moisturizer. So that's good. But all in all still breaking out, face looks a mess, but Slooowly healing
Instead of Claravis (60mg), I am now taking Amnesteen (40mg). Different brand name, but the same old stuff. My lips have not been so dry lately yay for that. So I'm still breaking out with cysts all over my forehead now and the sides of my chin aren't soo bad, but still breaking out. I've noticed every clogged pore and all the small little clustered bumps I used to have are all surfacing out into huge pimples/cysts. And I had most of these small little milia looking bumps on the sides of my chin and my forehead so it makes total sense I'm breaking there like crazy. I'm thinking EVERYTHING will surface out, every little pore will detox and boy is it painful. Just touching my chin and my forehead hurts and I never really had the painful cysts. Definitely the worst breakout ever, but everyone around me is giving me support telling me to wait it out so I'm still hopeful. My back pain isn't that noticeable anymore and my arms are kind of dry. My lips are very manageable again. Oh I also have been getting baddddd headaches after naps and stuff and I thought they were migraines, but my derm told me I was really dehydrated and to drink lots and lots of water when that happens and throughout the day in general and I haven't got a headache since so EVERYONE DRINK LOTS OF FLUIDS. I am almost halfway done Hopefully by next week I'll be done pushing out.
So guy I have been off of accutane for about 4 days now. Not because I'm clear, or because my liver enzymes are too high but they said that my blood results showed that I'm one week pregnant! I ASSURE YOU THIS IS NOT THE CASE. They immediately gave me a urine test at my monthly appointment and surely it was negative. They interrogated me for about 10 minutes if I was sexually active and I scoffed a bit because I'm totally abstinent. Yeah but until I get another blood test they can not prescribe more medication. Sucks because apparently you can't get a blood test the next day because it is to back-to-back and so I'll be getting it sometime today or tomorrow since Sat-Sun-Mon they are closed (due to Memorial Day). So I'll be on it again by Tuesday . On brighter note they say it stays in your system for quite awhile after the last pill you took, so I will still continue to consider the days without me taking the pills as days that I took them. Also for my next month my derm lowered my dose from 60 to 40 mg because of the headaches, back pain, rashes, and etc. I'm kind of glad and uneasy. Glad because my side effects will decrease and uneasy because what if it would be more effective with a higher dosage? Ehh, I think I'll be fine. Also I'm still having a crazy breakout like no other. I of course asked my derm he said it was totally normal, common that some people breakout in between 2 - 3 months randomly. He gave me some topicals called Aczone and told me not to freak out because I'm on track and everything is fine. It's hard to stay positive when my acne was never this bad to begin with. It's so horrid to look at the mirror. I barely had crazy cysts only during the week of my period but omg I have cysts all over the sides of my chin and the sides of my cheeks that accumulate everyday since 2 weeks ago, but it's slowwly getting better with the cream he gave me. Also my lips are way less dry lately it's great. and two more days of school until the summer!
So this past week I've broke out REALLY bad. The WORST one yet from my whole life of having acne and accutane. Like it's a continuous thing, everyday I get new bumps it's so weird because nearing the end of month 1 I was clearing up A LOT and then all of sudden a roller coaster turn. I'm confused, discouraged and embarrassed to go to school with my face looking a hot mess, but I need to suck it up. My face is dry and peely, my lips are so dry it's so annoying, back is achy. I need this month to zoom by because my face is a mess. Mainly the sides of my cheeks and the sides of my chin. Still hopeful and optimistic, but with a lot of effort! But Tomorrow is the start of my 3 months so yay for that haha
So today is the end of day 6 and i am pretty dry and my lips are more dry can't leave without chap stick. I'm breaking out not too bad but still annoying on the sides of my cheeks and the middle of my forehead. I also noticed that i heal faster than usual which is good .. uhm that's all but i really hope this IB goes away soon because prom is in 2-3 weeks! Going to continue drinking lots of water, eating healthy, and moisturizing!
Hey guys sorry I haven't been posting daily, but I took a sharp turn and my improvement went down the drain. I broke out again pretty bad. I flared up all over my cheeks and some on my forehead. It was like back to week 1-2. I was pretty confused why I was breaking out again near the end of month 2 but I guess it happens. As of right now I'm recovering from the break out and it's almost all gone, just healing the scabs and red marks. This stuff is bipolar I swear, one day I'm clear and fine, the next day I go to school looking like Shrek haha. It's whatever though, no one seems to notice much.. but I DO! I hate it, but I still have faith. Did I really have like 2 months worth of gunk in my pores to push out ?! On to the side effects, I've been a little moody and depressed nothing severe though and my back is a little sore. My rashes are all almost gone. I still get clots of blood after blowing my nose, and the sides of my mouth are dry along with very dry lips. My skin is thinning out as well, for example if I hit something like the wall not even that hard, i'll start bleeding from a cut and the wall has a smooth, dull surface lol. Just got to suck it up and deal with it
So I got random bumps lately :/. I came to the conclusion that I'm going to continue to break out for another month and clear up around Month 4. I'm guessing I'm just pushing all the impurities out gradually. My lips are really dry, and skin is manageable. I got a rash on the back of my right hand also. Hair isn't oily anymore . But I'm still optimistic about the process despite the continual breakouts and side effects.
So tonight is the end of day 5 and I am on 60 mg/day which is a high dosage for a small girl with moderate acne but it's whatever. My nose is peeling, especially the sides and it burns. It's very irritating. My skin is already peeling and dry and my lips are dry but very manageable. Often when I blow my nose in the mornings, blood will stain my tissue but a persistent flow never happens. My scalp is slightly itchy but nothing crazy. Other than the well-anticipated side effects, I have been experiencing a small little break out on my forehead, and a couple of bumps on my cheeks and chin. I honestly believe this to be my IB which is annoying, but not very severe so that's good. I'm quite surprised on how the side effects took place so soon and my IB... maybe it just means i'll clear up soon as well? Fingers crossed.
So good news, every morning my face gets significantly better all my active bumps are gone except for a couple of small pimples. Not so much pimples but rather clogged pores. And I don't scar or have red marks left from my acne so everything is smoothing out nicely. I'm not saying anymore incase I jinx myself again haha. My lips are annoying and dry. My face is manageable just around my nose and mouth I get a little peely. I noticed when I get angry, I get fired up in a rage now, I wanted to like punch people in the face. I need to calm down and think more rationally, but I think it's probably accutane because I'm usually passive and tolerant. Tomorrow is Relay for Life and I'm excited!
Alright so I get a few bumps still especially the sides of my chin, my skin is a little dryer and ultimately semi-improvement. Like my past break out is healing with the addition of a new bumps every other few days. My lips are really dry and irritating me. I feel kind of impatient now because it has been 2 1/2 months and I'm still getting bumps, why? My theory is I'm still pushing out my impurities.. BUT good news my last ap exam is done tomorrow
So, unfortunately still breaking out :/ but it is not as bad as the beginning of the first month or the breakout i had in the beginning of the second, I'm just getting cyst here and there and random pimples. My nose is peeling and very dry, I get usual nosebleeds/clots of blood, and my lips are a little drier, been getting small rashes sometimes but not a usual thing. So track is finally over so no more sun exposure all the time, but planning to do some p90x soon Uhm I'm not very content with this accutane process so far, I thought I would start seeing big improvement after the first month since i was a moderate case, but I'm still breaking out... why? Hopefully the third month I'll see improvement. Also I'm kind of getting anxious about all the commercials I see about the dangers of accutane and to call if a "loved one" experienced the adverse side effects ohh god. I've taken 2 out of the 4 AP tests I have, track is over, everything is almost complete and hopefully my clearing face will happen quick