Wow i'm using this Epiduo gel that is suppose to last me about 2 months and i'm only 1 month into the treatment and i have like a little left! hmmmm.... maybe buy some more online since i can't refill it until next month!!
and i'm seriously considering Accutane due to the fact that several months on antibiotics is not working out for me. though i will probably start in june due to the fact i'll be out for school and i when i have my IB, i won't feel as bad about it. And just found out some of my friends had use it without telling me (so that's why they have perfect skin!!) and now i'm contemplating about it..
Anyways until my next blog...
Wow just got done watching Smallville Season 4 episode called Facade. Wish there was a such thing as a kryptonic needle surgery that can zap all your acne overnight. Lol although the side effect of kissing someone else would make them go insane. Just comes to show how bad Acne can affect teenagers everywhere. And i also lked how the Lois was saying how beauty is from the inside and Mrs. Fine replied back with "the only people who say that is when they already have it on the outside..." so true.
Anways until my next blog...
Being crippled in an acne ridden life has caused me grief for the past year or so, trying desperately not to look in mirrors for the sake of shedding tears. You may say i now have the fear of mirrors or reflections. What i used for my advantage every day is now the facade mess of what i endure. Although my acne comes and goes as it pleases, it's nice to know my skin does not heal the way i want it to.
Red marks or i guess hyperpigmentation, is the culprit of my disease. I curse the day my skin stopped getting rid of the ability to take away this culprit. What could have caused it? Certainly not diet,stress, or any common factor of acne. It was simple, a curse from the Gods to show that beauty is indeed the eye of the beholder. What i cherished everyday in mirrors is my downfall in my self dignity. Whether or not i believe it or so.
You would probably ask me if i had try medication or over the counter stuff that certainly may have fixed your problem. But alas my skin is complex and having tried MULTIPLE combinations of EVERYTHING or changing diets, lessening stress. drinking more water, getting more sleep, have not stopped it. Maybe what i need is a mental image derived in my mind of how i looked a year ago every time i step in front of a mirror. To disguise my blotchy ridden face of how miserable i feel inside and out.
Envy is my sole feeling i have right now for every acnefree face i see from my friends and everyone else. I envy the way they can look in the mirrors and worry about 1 pimple they see. Freaking out just because of one pimple. PSH if only they knew the pain and anguish i felt trying to get rid of this disease will they find out how badly i feel. They assume that i have to live with it and will enventually give up. And so i have for the time being.
Until the next blog...