Wowzers, its been a long time since I updated my blog! April was super busy at work, home and planning our wedding.
Unfortunately, not much new to report. Still the same old same old. As far as side effects go, just the consistent dry lips and as of late red eyes. My vision is fine, but people have been noting my eye seems red and irritated. I'm sure it's a mix of accutane and my computer screen.
As for my face, personally until it is "low maintenance" I won't be happy. It is better, but I still get a few breakouts, I still have scaring, and redness, I still have random dry patches and the pores on my nose are still way to big for my liking.
I dream of a day where I can wake up, wash my face, moisturize and apply a small amount a make-up. I still have faith though, fingers crossed this day will come!
Good news...my engagement pics had to be moved to the end of June as my photographer had some family thing, that gives my face a few extra weeks to look better!
So, I have 5 old cysts that are still hanging around on my chin. They aren't active anymore, but they are noticeable and red. I have one spot right by my upper lip that is just very yucky, looks like a cold sore...I picked at it though, so that one is my fault. The cyst on my chin invited another pimple to its going away party so now I have two active spots, one practically right on top of the original cyst! Got my first forehead breakout since I started accutane. Its just one spot, but its big and sore.
I know I need to be more patient, but I am just soooo over acne!!!! Gahhhh
Shall keep it short and sweet today...
Went to see my doctor. She and I are both happy with my progress, have decided not to rock the boat and keep taking 10mg/day. My acne is fairly moderate, I think mostly hormonal, so I am okay with this decision.
Got a prescription for 6 months worth of accutane. That would bring my total course to 8 months. However, she said I can stop whenever I feel I'm ready. So for now, I'm just takin er a month at a time.
Vampire Diary's is back on tonight! Yaaaa, its my guilty pleasure....
Speaking of blood, I've been seeing it a lot lately. Pre accutane my acne would just kind of dry out, peel off and heal. I try very hard not to pick and squeeze my blemishes, but when there is a crusty layer (sorry, so gross!) I peel it off so it can heal....when I do this to my IB spots they bleed like a mo'fo, like bright red blood running down my face. As soon as I put a clean cloth and pressure on it its fine though. Just wondering if anyone else has experienced this????
Also, forgot to mention the other day about my nose. I woke up one morning and it looked like I had a sunburn on my nose! If you pulled the skin it like cracked. So I sat there and peeled off all the loose skin, it was like I was a snake shedding a layer. It was really weird. Since then my nose is a lil red, but no breakouts and no more peeling.
The cyst below my lip invited a friend to its going away party. Luckily not another cysts, just a regular ol'pimple. It's pretty big and arghhh sore, but it came to head last night so hopefully it will be gone in a few days.
Got my doctors appointment tomorrow, hoping all goes well!
So ya, since I started my accutane course I have to say I've been having some messed up dreams. Can't even explain it, they are just sooo real and I can remember all of them, like 2 or 3 a night. Sometimes I can't even differentiate between life and dreams until I've been awake for a while. Just thought I'd share, anyone else experience this?
Last night was a good night though, I washed my face, crawled into bed and didn't feel anything. I hate the way acne looks, but I also royally hate how it feels. When I eat, smile, talk, laugh I can feel the cysts, the pimples and they hurt! Its a constant reminder that they are still there!
As of today, I have no active acne, everything seems to be healing. My skin is still very red and blotchy looking, but I think that it will even out more down the road and hopefully once I can get a bit of sun on my face.
Other then my apparent paleness and random dreaming I have nothing else to report today
Current mood: Meh
So, one month down and I have noticed many improvements to my skin. But like I said in my very first post, if my face looks anything like it does today on my wedding day I will soooo not be happy about it!
I've been reading other blogs and my skin seems to be on track with other people. The random dry patches have healed nicely, I got rid of the blackheads, my face produces like zero oil. But, I have three semi-healed cysts, three I never want to leave your face cysts and one pimple that is slowly drying out.
I hate to wish away time, but can it be June please, like now?!
Thanks to all who've been reading my blog, I hope to post some pictures soon.
Its been almost a week since I last wrote. I am in a better place mentally. Had a good weekend with my amazing friends and that really helped put things in
perspective for me.
Wish my face matched my mood. I thought I would get lucky and my IB would not be to bad as I am on such a low dose....wrong, oh so wrong
My chin is gross! 3 old cysts, 2 new ones, 2 random dry patches of skin and 2 very big, sore pimples! Not to mention a couple blackheads and redness.
Everything from the nose up is just peachy though. A lil itch and dryness in the forehead region, but that is combated with moisturizer. I am not happy with the way I look, but since I am female, I can cover most of the marks with make-up and everything seems to slowly be healing so I can not complain to much...It helps to daydream about being finished accutane and looking great at my wedding!
As for side effects. My scalp is still a bit itchy, lips are a lil dry, but manageable. I did have some drinks on the weekend, but drank tons of water the next day and felt pretty fine actually.
Feel like such a hermit sometimes...really looking forward to re-joining the world
I've always gotten compliments from men and even women, but every time someone would call me pretty, all I could ever think of was "you should see me without makeup". I would actually feel worse, like I was fooling everyone. When I look in the mirror I see the real me and ya, me no likey
I have been trying very hard to repress the depression, but the tears just keep on flowing. I am mad at myself and feel so stupid for letting something so trivial get to me. I feel a little disconnected from my partner, he can't kiss me because my lips are smothered in Vaseline 24/7. I don't want him to touch my face because he might make it break out and because I don't want him to feel the lumps and bumps. I just don't even want him to look at me right now....
I feel another cyst coming. The other three are healing, but are still sore and very noticeable. Tried the blackhead nose strip, did nothing. Today I say FML...tomorrow?
Booo my life, well actually just my face...
I still have not had any major breakouts and my skin seems to be looking more even and smooth in areas, BUT I am getting a ton of lil bumps. I've never had pimples likes these before. I'm trying to just leaving them alone for now (my guess is these are a result of my skin purging all the crap in my pores?!)
As for my IB, I was getting impatient and put topical cream on the cysts two nights in a row. Biiiggg mistake!!! Its like my skin melted off!!! They are scabby, tender, super red and sore....will probably scar even more now
Note to self: be more patient!
The sun is shining today...unfortunately this is not necessarily good news for me and my self esteem. Itâ€™s been a long running joke in my family that I am like a vampire. I donâ€™t think anyone really gets the reasoning behind my aversion to sunshine...Like hello, my skin is horrible and it looks ten times worse in natural light!
Am I the only person that actually thinks about what lighting conditions I will be facing before I participate in something....I cannot wait till I can finally stop caring about such useless sh*t
As for my skin, I got home from work yesterday and was touching up my makeup before I went out again. Part of my routine is using like 3 or 4 of those oil absorbing sheets before I apply powder. Guess what, after a whole day at work I only needed to use 1!!! Iâ€™m super happy about this development.
As for those damn cysts, Iâ€™m happy to report they aren't getting worse, but they aren't really getting better either
I don't want to write it, let alone say it out loud but...I have not had a major breakout in 2 days! I really hope I'm not jinxing myself here, because for as long as I can remember my skin would clear up for a while then....BOOM!
Is accutane really working? I hope so...
P.S. The last couple of days my scalp has been so itchy...no dandruff or anything, just an increasing urge to scratch it! Anyone else had this?
My skin pre accutane:
oily, uneven, whiteheads, scaring, cysts, bumps
I'd say 95% of my outbreaks are in the T zone, 5% jaw line
Outside the problem areas, my skin is actually pretty decent.
Treatment: 10mg/accutane day for two months...then possibly 20mg/day for 3 months
I've been taking it for just over two weeks now.
The dreaded side effects, I know I'm on a low dose but I still got them....headaches, sore lower back, small trace of blood after brushing teeth and blowing nose, dry lips. All of these are rather annoying, but manageable for now.
As for my skin, IB resulted in three large super sore cysts. Getting some breakouts in places I didn't before like on tip of my nose. My skins texture has lost its smoothness, now it is very bumpy and blotchy looking? Pores around my nose and forehead are huge!
Scaring...before my skin would take forever, like weeks even months to heal and scars to fade. I am honestly shocked at the difference. Yes, I am still breaking out but the spots are healing and fading (minus the damn cysts) at a record pace!
I know it is still early in the game, but I'm optimistic!
Hope I am doing this right, I'm a newbie! The purpose of this blog is both therapeutic and to keep track of my progress....
I am a 25 year old female with mild/moderate acne. Back in the teen days I had pretty much average skin, what you'd expect during puberty I suppose. Since university though, its slowly been getting worse. I, like most have tried everything to clear my skin. I am engaged, getting married this fall! So ya, after much research I decided to take the plunge and try accutane cause if my face looks anything like it does today on my wedding day....well lets just say my maid of honor will have to drag me to the church! (I know that sounds totally vain, but seriously wedding = everyone staring at you and like the most photographed day of your life......I hope this works!)