After weeks of practice and annoying my roomies/neighbors, I can finally hit the notes of this song pretty spot on. Eh Eh? Layne's life may have been self destructive, but God bless him, he was a good singer and person.
consultation scheduled with a new plastic surgeon. his operating times fit my school schedule a bit better, so that's a plus. but it is in too long to wait.... 6 weeks from this thursday. then the next day i shall schedule for the procedure, the office said that is workable. that gives me 6 weeks and 3 days, basically to the end of the school quarter (finals time - shit!) to clear my skin. Probably still unrealistic. I want to clear my skin a. so it can be clear but primarily b. so pimples won't interfere with my scars, which I will have to wait about 2 weeks to close, scab, and fall off. then it's full focus on reducing scar appearance, which will be a year long effort in itself. Shitty. not to forget that i will have multiple small slits on my neck to deal with as well. Iv only been getting a couple pimples here and there and was clearing up quite nicely with a little bio oil until I immediately broke out following a bad shave irritation/epidemic which is a real bummer. It has cleared on one cheek rather quickly, but broke out on the other cheek just as quick. I'm now taking Dan's advice to use a two blade shaver. My problem probably was that I used the same 3 blade for the longest time (week and half?)until it got blunt.... bad idea. Did I mention how glad I am about finding this web community? It puts me on a mission to solve something and stay preoccupied.... a perfect balance between this and my tough time at school. In a sense it remedies the depression, but my mood has been extremely jumpy the past few days. however lately my twitching has increased a lot, which is a sign of my bad stress management and moodiness. It used startle my professors. now they are used to it. haha.
My two cents: Diagnosed with (diagnosed?) dysthymia sometime halfway through high school. That was four years ago. I took a light dose of Zoloft, finally weened off of it sometime last spring. That was a very bad idea, as I have been fighting unrelenting acne ever since. Now I'm on prescribed antibiotics: minocycline (Solodyn; goodbye liver), Duac and Defferin, on top of changing between washes (Neutrogena, to Basis, to Purpose.... to hell with neutrogena). I only thought I was in the clear until a few days ago when I broke out my worst yet on the cheeks and forhead. So what to do? They say patience is a virtue, but being enrolled in 18 credit hours for a school quarter (10 weeks) and depression has come back full force on top of that, i am anything but clear, both mentally and physically. Being that the acne is systemic, may anyone suggest to me diets that might improve my skin clarity? I am currently avoiding all fried foods (except chinese, duh), eating much more fruits and avoiding high fructose corn syrup altogether (green tea is as radical as i get). I am also in the market to getting moles removed, all in highly visible places (take a guess where?). The plastic surgeon is an arse (cold and unresourceful) but he's been on the Chicago top doctors magazine cover, so good for him, and me (no names). That said, I am also kindly asking for advice on helping scars heal, and interested in knowing what sunscreen is best for avoiding discoloration? the procedures are likely to be 3 weeks from now, I have done the consultation. Clearing up before then as been a large, but unrealistic goal for me (however my appearances tend to change rapidly). Given my recent bout of funk, I come to this website to become an active participant in improving my self esteem as well as ensuring/helping others who are battling with the same stupid issues, acne or other related. Thanks Dan for this wonderful idea. ...And any good suggestions for freckle lightening cream or removal procedures? (the list goes on).