so it's been a long journey for me with accutane but i'm happy to say that it's over now.
I've been off accutane for almost a month now and my lips and skin r back to being normal. sucks for my hair though i was kinda enjoying not washing it daily lol.
skin is perfect. for everyone who's suffering right now I want you to know that I've been there.
I used to lye on my bed and cry my eyes out to sleep because of my acne. but not anymore!
Now i have other things to think about like uni, courses, guys and shit.
Oh for those who r wondering what happened to your sexual drive. yeah it's accutane.
It'll come back once ur done with it. and i'm also back to drinking feels so good!!
For those who wanna talk about it, ask a question or anything. please ask me. i really wanna help you because acne has been the worst thing that has ever happened to me.it took away the best years of my life. but it all pays off at the end so keep ur head up and smile. because in a few months ur gonna be glowing
and, for those who have been reading my blog. thank you.
I'm home and i'm enjoying the sun and family. missing montreal though. will be back in august!
Good luck everyone and thank you acne.org! mwah
So, had my derm appointment 4 days ago.
Updates: no breakouts anymore, just red marks which supposedly fade away with time
They're kinda annoying because they give the impression that they're pimples but they're not. i have smooth skin now. This is my last month and I'm done
i really can't believe it, i never thought i'd have such skin. Accutane is truly a God sent!
I gotta admit my confidence has risen so much in these last 3 months! the weather sucks in montreal right now but i'm going back home in 25 days and i cannot believe it.
It has been such a stressful month with all these fights with my friends, and the guy my friend used to like is my crush now and he's so hard to read, he has such a tough personality and I would never wanna be with such a guy but I guess that's what's attracting me to him so much, i mean the fact that he's way too confident and a little proud makes him so damn hot! But i wanna move on cause I wanna be happy and celebrate my new skin with guys and a boyfriend maybe! :@ It's kinda hard though because I'm over his place everyday he's supposedly one of my close friends(him and his roommate). JE NE SAIS PASSSS! this sucks really! I know nothing can ever happen between us but it's still hard to get over him, i mean i do wanna get over him, but i should meet new people, i need to have a new crush someone whom i could end up being with. but where am i gonna meet new people? It's not as easy as they make it seem in movies!
I know it'll all get better with time, maybe I'll feel better back home ( which i will) but i don't wanna leave the country remembering him and knowing that i wasted around 1 month .
pfffft i wish we could just order a guy online , why do relationships have to be so hard? I know u don't wanna hear this but again this is MY BLOG! oh well, well wut u need to know is that accutane works, and for those who r scared of this medication please don't, and hang in there for those r in their 1st or 2nd month. u don't really see a big difference until the 3rd month . I promise you, you'll feel better very soon. 6 months is not too long, i can't even remembe when i started! time flies by! And believe me, I know how it feels to have acne, i know it is painful, embarassing, you don't wanna go out, you don't wanna socialize, you don't wanna take pics. I KNOW! been there and i promise i will never ever, ever make fun of a person with acne, i totally empathise with acne sufferers and i know this whole experience has just made me stronger. So good luck to all of u, and for the red mars, do not use emu oil, it's way too greasy and makes u break out more ( derm's advice) use vitamin C oil.
oh and don't just say, it's ok first 2 months r easy, no dear no. ur gonna go through hell at first but then one day ur gonna wake up and ur gonna be like : wut the hell? is that me? lol.
MY LAST MONTH OF ACCUTANE! no more blood tests, no more pills no more anything!!
I will keep pdating u guys with everything once I'm done. If u got any questions let me know I'm all ears and i have tried like everything, i might as well be a dermotologist. lol.
So it's been 119 days now and i'm telling u time flies! i can't even remember when i started taking this medication. Things have been going well not much has changed since last month i didn't break out at all not even one small zit! it's all super clear but i noticed small red dots underneath my skin i hope they don't pop out i don't think i can deal with breakouts any longer. the red marks r still there so i still need to cover them up with concealer and foundation and all that crap but otherwise, i'm not complaining! I've been able to go out in the public with my friends and actually have a good time i don't mind people staring at me closely and my confidence has been incredibly risen.
maybe these small red dots are because of stress cause i have my finals coming up next week and i've been having all these fights with my "friend" she like literally stabbed me in the back but that's because she's jealous her crush likes me so HAAA!!!take that bitch! lol well i don't mean to sound slutty but it's not my fault and i've been loyal and honest to her from the beginning it was obvious he doesn't like her but noooooooo she wouldn't listen! she thought i was jealous of her and she started talking bull about me. she even asked him to be her boyfriend and he refused! is there a bigger sign than this that the guy doesnt freakin LIKE YOU!!! oh well my life at this moment is in a mess and i still have 2 months of accutane to go hope it gets better i need to relax a bit i'm gonna visit my friends in toronto next week so that should be fun!
I HOPE SO!
btw u can never get rid of the eczema for good while u're on accutane it just keeps coming back so u need to moisturize daily remember moisturize!!!! have my derm's appointment in 4 days so will let you know what he says!
pffffffffffft i need a massage!! and sun lol a bientot!!
Hey everyone, it's seems like it's been forever since i last updated u.
Anyway, i had my derm appointment yesterday and he told me things are going exactly the way they should be. I havent broken out in the last 2 weeks which i tell u is VERY weird this has never happened lol. I only have 2 small little blemishes on my left cheek and that's it. No cysts, no crap!however, i do have red marks from previous acne but i can't complain honestly because i'm a girl and i can cover it up with make up. sometimes i try to imagine how different my face would look like if i only had those 2 little blemishes without the red marks! but then agaian, i remember how depressed i was 3 months ago and the improvement i've had over the last month and i thank God for accutane every day, all the time.
For all those who are scared to go on this medication, don't! there r very few side effects mine were mainly: dry skin and eczema. and that's it. And accutane does NOT cause depression, people on Accutane are probably already depressed BECAUSE of their acne so if anything, accutane should be their antidepressant u know? So I'm happy with the results i still have 2-3 months. If things r super clear in 2 months i'll stop but if not i'll finish in june which i don't mind. weather in montreal is AMAZING, it's been sunny for the last 3 days and i've been walking down the streets aimlessly not feeling self conscious or anything!!
I haven't seen my hot neighbor in like forever! lol seriously it's so hard to forget about a person if he's 24/7 in front of u! i always hear him and his friends shouting and bla bla pfft screw this i have like 3 guys wanting to date me and all i can think about is that bastard!
oh oh ohh and I' m in that stage where i don't care if i have make up on or not u know? i never thought i'd be in such a place in my life. Ok so i hope things keep improving, take good care of ur health, don't eat fish and spinach cause they cause acne and don't drink. soon enough u'll be smiling and being nice to everyone because u feel beautiful and believe me it feels so good when people keep looking at u and u know they're not staring at ur acne but they're staring at YOU!
for those who have eczema: don't put soap on your eczema, wash it with cold water and vaseline then moisturize like 5-6 times a day with La roche Posay moisturizer cream and i promise u it'll be gone in just 3 days.
If u have any questions or just feel like complaining i'm all ears. A bientot!
So i'm 2 months and 2 weeks into accuane. Nothing much has changed yet, eczema is back on both hands, very dry and painful. Face still very dry, cracked lips, muscle pain, very sensitive skin like anything could make me bleed.even wind
and what else? i'm gonna end my 3 months in 2 weeks and i'd have 2 more months to go.
I really am not able to smile or stay positive, last night i got drunk eventhough wwe're not supposed 2 drink but oh well it couldnt hurt to drink once.. and then i saw my neighbor crush with a girl at 4 am and they both entered his appartment:( laughing.. maybe she's just a friend but i still feel jealous eventhough me and this neighbor r not even friends..but i was planning on doing something abt it...u know! damn i hate this! WHY CAN'T I GET OVER THIS GUY! what's wrong with me!!??? i cant believe i was crying over something i don't even have.i'm really so confused and i have a lot of stuff going on! i had a date last night, he was so sweet and cute but all i could think of is my neighbor! all the FREAKIN time and now that i think he has a girl, it makes it even worse. so anyway 3 months for summer and i can be happy again...i hope something happens...and changes my life..makes it happier , maybe a miracle or whatever that gives me hope.pffftt i know no one cares about this but this is my blog and i'm here to complain!!
not supposed to break out anymore an things should get better soon.. let's just hope so! fingers crossed! good luck to all of u and let me know if u have suggestions on the eczema
I had my derm appointment this morning. He said my blood test turned out just fine i was worried because all the drinking i had last week!
he also said my acne looks better and i shouldnt break out anymore this month. He said if im clear by the end of march then we'll stop and i can livvvvvvvvee
and as for the red marks he said they'll fade with time and he also said that i don't have any scars.
But i still don't feel fine and i the red marks r giving the impression of acne so i'm still ashamed of my skin and the acne that's left i really want to see results this month this has got to end sometime! and the emu oil which supposedly helps in reducing the red marks, seems to break me out even more so JE NE SAIS PAS! life sucks!
let's see! a demain!
P.S: my eczema that i previously mentioned has gone now! normal hands again! pheww!
in addition to the painful cysts i mentioned in my last entry, i also have a SUPER DRY, flushed face today! life's amazing i can't tell ya!
oh and a bad, embarassing eczema on both hands! still using the cortisone cream but it doesn't look like it's doing anything.ANY SUGGESTIONS? HELP!
So i'm almost done with my 2nd month of accutane
and i can't really say that it gets better in the second month. I'm still breaking out i have 3 major cysts on my left cheek and 2 major cysts on my right cheek in addition to red marks due to previous acne. It sucks and i don't really know when i can stop breaking out and start seeing really good imporvements. Getting my blood tested next week and then to my derm appointment. I can't believe I'm gonna be in my third month and I'm still getting painful cysts. This is unbelievable people usually clear up at this time:S I'm so disappointed.really..
My derm said that I should be clear by the end of 3rd month but it doesnt seem like it.
but then again.. who knows what can happen in 1 month!
It's so frustrating and painful to look at the mirror..:S life sucks with acne we don't deserve it. no one does..
there's light at the end of the tunnel..
Ok so today i noticed a few new pimples. Not cysts but pimples which is good because the last thing i need right now is whiteheads that i could feel while im in class or while im working out.
I dunno why people don't feel with us that we're freakin SELF CONSCIOUS!NO we don't want to go shopping NO we don't want to go to the supermarket NO we don't want to go to bars and socialize with guys we can't get and drink and make our liver explode
PFFFT i'm sick of this. But it'll end soon i saw a girl on youtube today who has really bad acne but she was brave enough to post her accutane diary and she was very confident i loved that about her. it made me feel better that my acne isn't all that bad and maybe i have a good chance of clearing up hopefully
You know I believe everything happens for a reason and dealing with acne definitely made me a better person, it made me love people more, i started hanging out with all these random sweet people and really not giving a shit about image.i mean seriously maybe it's easier for me though because i'm new to this city and i don't know anyone so i walk down the street and i'm like wut the hell no one knows me and they won't prolly recognize me when i dont have acne lol.
Really enjoying the gym and working out i wanna look great in may when i go back home i keep imagining myself in a few months and that's prolly the only thing that keeps me going.
I know i talk a lot i even doubt anyone's reading this but thank you if u r because going thru accutane is a very emotional period of time and it's nice to know that you have people with you in this and even strangers whom i've never met, thank u!
My lips were so chapped 2day they bled!remembers guys, drink WATER even if ur not thirsty and LOTS AND LOTS of chapstick!moisturize and have faith!it can only get better!
Okay, so i'm trying to have peace with my acne and i want to believe that it will soon get better because honestly it's kinda frustrating to sit and wait for it to get better.
trying to live my life as much as i can because come on we can't hibernate for 5 or 6 months.
Investing my time at the gym i actually registered today and i'll be going like everyday cause as i said i wanna lose these 7 kgs ive gained lol.
Hope this stuff works:( i wanna be clearrrrr it's so depressing seeing everyone with clear skin i mean r we alone?? is it just us? i dont see people with acne but i thought of it!
and i think that acne sufferers like to hide themselves and they isolate themselves that's why we dont see them a lot
anyway it can only get better and with every pill we take we're closer 2 being clear so i'm gonna be hanging in here for the coming 2-3 months.
i don't really have dry skin just dry lips and dry scalp. that;s pretty much everything i have 2 say.
i don't wear make-up. Dove soap bar for face wash, SOMETIMES la roche posay correcter for extreme zits. and ca c'est tout!
Good luck to everyone and i'll keep updating you if it gets better/worse.
Let's do this guys! we can't give up on this we're gonna fuck the shit out of u acne!