Ah, I was just thinking ... maybe I should tell something again about the products I'm using at the moment. 'Cause althought the Regimen didn't really work out for me, I kind of tried to keep to the scheme for cleaning my face.
I changed some products. I'm using very gentle products so they won't dry my skin out. I never rub my face anymore. I never touch my face or pick at my skin anymore. And I clean it every night. I think I've found the right routine for my face, because it never feels dr
I just wanted to tell everyone that I believe that my acne is actually gone! It dissapeared! It's a miracle! And it feels sooo good! I haven't had any spots for three weeks now. My skin feels so soft and it's starting to look better every day.
The higher doses is giving me some problems though ... At first I thought it would be better to go back to the 20 mg/day, but it will take me so much extra time, so I decided to stay on the 30 mg/day. The side effects are much more then
I didn't update for a longgg time, and I'm sorry for that. On the other hand I'm very happy, 'cause it means that I'm not so busy with my acne anymore.
I can tell you that it's going very well! In the summer I had to take 10 mg/day for a while, because of the sun. I was a little bit scared that the acne would get worse again, but that didn't happen. The acne is slowly disappearing and I'm not so worried about it anymore. I didn't have new acne since about six weeks, but this week I
Last week the acne came back (oh, what a surprise ... honestly, I was just waiting for it ). I was desperate. I just want it to be GONE! Is it really so hard? Just stay away and stop attacking my face! Grrrrrr
The scars are very bad. I have two enormous red areas on both sides on my face. It is horrible!
I will start another month of 20 mg/day and then I'll go on a lower doses for a while (because of vacation and sun). In september my derm wants me on 30 mg/day. I just hope it will be gon
My skin is still doing okay! It makes me feel so happy I've had some very small infections over the last week, but they were gone pretty soon and weren't so bad. But I must admit that I did some picking at my skin again this week ... which is not good.
The scars seem to be more red then they were, but my derm told me that it will be better when I've stopt with the roaccutane. So it's just something I'll have to deal with.
It really feels like my skin is getting better already. It defenite
Just a short update! My first month of roaccutane is over, and it feels good!
I had to see my derm again yesterday and she told me that I would stay on this low doses. She had good results with this in the past and she thinks the roaccutane is much more bearable if you have a low doses, because the side-effects won't be that bad. I thrust her, so I think it will work out great. She told me that it worked for every single person she gave it to. I can't wait to be done with this
My skin is
Luckely the cysts disappeared fast. The last week has been okay and it was really a relieve! It just feels so much better when your face is relaxed and it doesn't hurt all the time. I even tried to flirt with some guys again
I'll be seeing my dermatologist this tuesday again. I think she might want to bring up the doses a bit more. But I'll just hope that she'll say something good and that my 'progress' is okay. Still I'm scared that the cysts will get worse again, as they always do.
I don't know how I have to deal with this anymore. It's so hard to forget about it. Last week it was all a bit clear, but this morning I woke up with pain again. And yes, there they are: five new cysts. Aaaargh!
I took a shower and when I was drying myself my skin peeled off. So, I can't be in the sun and now the last bit of sunbrowned-skin is gone. Hmpf. I did moisteriser and sunblock on my face and went on with my foundation, but it didn't want to stick to my face. And now I'm so angry! It
It is going great! The areas of infection are dissapearing and there are just some small cysts left over. There are no wounds on my face and it looks okay. But the best thing is, it feels okay! The thickness is absolutely gone, so I can talk and smile again without noticing some pain in my face.
I don't know if this is done by the roaccutane, but I'm happy with it. I hope it will stay like this.
Acne: it's okay (small cysts, redness);
Roa: 14 days, 20 mg/day, total 280 mg;
I'm still alive! Although the last week wasn't so very good. I had an uncountable amount of cysts and it was sooo bad! The left side of my face was twice as thick as normal and I looked like I've had a fight with someone. I tried to ignore it, but it was diffucult. I couldn't move any part of my face without feeling a lot of pain.
Last saterday was the worst day of all. I felt it when I woke up. It was one of those days that you don't even have to look into the mirror to find that you look ba
Well, this morning I took my first Roaccutane pil. It was kind of weird to take the first pil. I was like 'ok, so now I'm going to ruin my total health and condition just to have a clear face'. But on the other hand I don't want to have a ruined face, so I guess it is a good decision.
I've totally stopped the benzoylperoxide, which is a bit dissapointing because I was really believing that this would help me out. Maybe my acne is just to tough to handle with this. But overall it helped me to
Since I've stopt with the doxyxycline (only two days now) my face is getting back to were it was. I can feel new cysts coming up and my cheeks are bumpy and red again. Damn it. Won't it EVER go away?
I think I'm getting better at accepting the situation. It's really not that simple, but I'm trying to stay positive about myself. A few of my friends told me that it isn't that bad and they still think I'm a beautiful person, and I should stick with that. I'll just avoid mirrors for a while I'm
Well, I was right wenn I didn't say my right side is 'healed' jet, 'cause two cysts came back again. (It's like they want to remind me to think of them every week or so ...) Luckely they were only painfull for three days and they are fading again.
I had an appointment with the dermatologist yesterday. I was a bit curious about what she was going to say, but when I got back I was just very confused. At first I had to answer a lot of questions. It was good that she asked me so much, because I r
It's almost three months!
I went to see the doctor again today and I have to go through another month of anitbiotics. Hmpf, that's dissapointing. But on the other hand, it Ãs working and I'm almost sure that it will be gone by then.
The right sight of my face is completely acne-free, which is really a miracle, 'cause I've had acne spots on that area for a longgg time. My face feels so soft. It's a relieve! The only bad thing is that it turned into a large red area. It feels like babyskin
Oh my, eighty days!
Well, the good news is that I'm not so bothered with my skin anymore and that the right side of my face is really healing (I would like to say 'healed', but I'm still scared that it will come back ..). I guess the antibiotics are doing a great job!
The bad news is that my left side is bumpy again. Nooooooo! But I didn't touch it at all, which is very good and I think the spots are fading allready. So. I'm gonna win this fight. It will be gone. All of it!
I think I'll g
Ooops ... didn't write for a while. But I'm alive!!
I think I forgot to write because it's going a lot better with my skin and I don't have to think about it anymore. The doxycycline is doing a great job! I'm putting the BP on my face only once a day and that saves me a lot of time and frustration.
It all cleared up a lot. The spots are nearly active and it's all just hyperpigmentation and scars. And that's while I'm only a weak on it. I really think that this is gonna help me out. All I
Okay, I couldn't take it anymore. It's enough.
I went to see the doctor today.
My doctor found it problamatic and she gave me an antibioticum: doxycycline. This should work and I have to take it for a month. I'm going to use the benzoylperoxide only once a day now, as a support. If it all works properly the doxycycline should get my face clear en the BP should keep it clear.
Count down. One month to go!
Hmm, my face ain't so happy today. I've got two new zits. Noooooo!
I should stay positive. I shouldn't touch my skin. I should still be smiling. I shouldn't think about what other people think. I shouldn't complain about it. I should just have faith in it.
Why is it so hard ...
It's weird actually that I can feel so bad just because my face looks bad. It's like I feel it all day. Even when I don't look in the mirror I'll just feel bad. It's so hard to just ignore my face and be happy a
Two months counting and still smiling!
I can honestly say that I'm very happy that I tried this product. It really works! Althought it took some time, I think that my skin is healing by now. I haven't had any new spots this week, which is very good!
Because I was on vacation I didn't had the time to do the BP twice a day. I decided that I would only use it in the morning. At least that's better then not using it at all. At first I was avraid that once a day wouldn't be good enough, but it
Yesterday I couldn't take my smile of my face. I looked so good! It's the best I've looked in YEARS! My skin feels soft and there is no redness at all.
Today it's still the same, so that's a good thing. I bought a new (less expensive) moisterizer yesterday, but yuk! that stuff is awful! It's thick and it doesn't absorb very well. It could be a good moisterizer, but defenitely not in combination with the BP. Let's hide it somewhere where I can't find it.
I also bought the vitamines. I have
Today I've been officially seven weeks on the Regimen!
It is still going great! Althought I made a HUGE mistake this week. On Tuesday night and Wednesday morning I couldn't make time to do the BP (or I didn't want to make time ...) and that was really the most stupid thing I could ever have done. It was all going so well until I scipped these two. It all came back. AGAIN!
I felt so angry with myself. It was just stupid and I'll never do it again. Luckely it is all clearing again by now. Ju
Just wanted to tell you how HAPPY I am! Yesterday I decided that I should stop complaining and just pretend myself to look beautiful and clear. I had a fantastic night and it felt good! This morning I woke up and it actually WAS beautiful and clear (well, not clear, but at least a whole lot better!!). I can't tell you how good it feels! I think I'll just go around and smile all day.
I'm proud of myself
Six weeks on the regimen!
That sounds like a lot ... This week my skin has really improved! Althought many people still think it looks bad, I can see a difference. The spots are still there, but they don't seem to be active anymore. So the only problem left is to make them dissapear. I just hope that I won't break out AGAIN, 'cause then I can start this whole process all over again.
I really tried to don't pick at my skin and let the BP do all the work. I think that helped a lot! Thought t
Okay, I should stay positive about it. Or else I might just as well stop the BP.
I was absolutely frustrated yesterday. I just didn't know what to do anymore. The cyst-area changed into a large wound. So many people told me I looked bad. At that moment I really wanted to just stay in bed all day. But that never proved to get rid of your problems, so I guess that's not a great idea.
I had a steam tablet from Lush with Tea-Tree and it said to be good for irritated skin, so I decided to try i
Oh no. I think my skin is mad at me or something ... I don't want to go outside. I have such a huge infection!
I really don't know what went wrong. I took every step of the Regimen precisely and it still doesn't work! It has been better for a while, but at this moment I actually think it got worse then it was. Damn it. I will keep going on with the BP, but I'm feeling very angry and insecure.
Guess I'll just hide in my house and hope that no one will see me like this.
I really could cry