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Woot! almost one month gone by!

Already planning my week around the blood work and derm appointments which means... almost one month out of the way! Damn, I remember in February when I kept telling myself "only 8 more months" and now... its only 5! The initial break out was... in a word... bad. However, my skin seems to have calmed down significantly the last few days. I've got the scars and pocks to prove its been taking me through hell, but my friends and family are already complementing me on how much better it looks than before i started accutane. The breakout lasted for nearly two weeks. It was a hail storm of nodules and cysts. But as suddenly as it came on it is now drying and peeling away. I am drinking a lot of water on the regular. This is something I am finding is absolutely necessary to speeding up the process of pushing zits out as well as preventing the intense muscle and joing soreness I experienced at first. My back and ankles are still achey, but keeping myself hydrated keeps me on my feet. No news really besides all that. I will try to update more often. I guess it could get a little monotonous listing every zit and every healed zit I am getting. Good luck to everyone else out there!

humarojo

humarojo

04/25/2010

 

Dose 19

Dose 19 down and its not good news. Definitely experiencing the initial breakout! It's not any worse than bad breakouts I've had in the past, but compared to the great results I was seeing the first few days of treatment I'm kind of bummed. Fortunately the zits seem to be going away really quickly and are just under the surface of the skin. Also the little white heads that have been sitting under the surface for months are now coming up. Lips are super dry- had to switch to Aquafor. Back is killing me! All my joints ache after I run. Don't know if its some of the depression symptoms or if I'm just feeling self conscious but I've definitely been kind of down the last few days. right now my sister's showing me a friend of hers on facebook that got a boob job for her graduation present... from highschool... makes me feel like there is no hope for women's lib and no place in society for a woman suffering from a little acne. My curves are ample- i'm not jealous- just... dissapointed in this girl's parents for buying them for her, for this girl for being stupid enough to think that fake tits are going to give her a happy life, and at the media for promoting this LUNACY!!!

humarojo

humarojo

04/19/2010

 

Past the one week marker

I've taken 8 or 9 doses now and the side effects are coming on strong. My lips are very dry and I've had to switch to Vaseline (much cheaper than aquaphor and definitely effective). My scalp is itchy and dry as well. My muscles are so sore! My ankles are killing me from standing on my feet at work all day and my back and shoulders are constantly aching. My skin has become so sensitive to the sun that I got a sunburn from running at 7 am on a foggy, rainy morning. Someone mentioned that I should be taking some vitamin C to boost my immune system and I am going to take that advice. I've developed a chest cold and have been hacking up giant yellow globs of mucous the past couple of mornings. I'm blaming the accutane because my lungs have had this dry feeling ever since I started. Maybe the dry-feeling is causing some inflammation? On a positive note: the skin is looking good. I am having about 2-3 small nodules that come up daily around my hairline or jaw and I have one giant mutant cyst on my nose, but I can't believe that my cheeks and forehead are not a pizza pie right now! My blackheads are also already completely gone!- a miracle in and of itself. I'm applying lotion all over my body daily after my shower and making sure to let the conditioner soak in when i wash my hair. I'm still using a lotion on my face that is formulated for problem skin and contains tea tree, chamomile and some other really helpful herbs. Last night was the first time that I tried to apply plain old diluted tea tree oil to my face and it was so overwhelming to my skin that it burned. I'm going to scale back on the tea tree oil but keep up with the medicated lotion. Aside from that, I am having a bit of a time remembering to drink enough water. Hope everything is going well with all of you! Have an awesome weekend!

humarojo

humarojo

04/09/2010

 

Dose 6

Took the 6th dose last night. Definitely starting to see the dryness coming on. My lips and eyes are dry and I'm getting a little bit of flaking around my mouth. The all natural chapstick I bought seems to be working well for now. Also, for the first time since before I hit puberty I was able to go for one day yesterday without washing my hair with shampoo. It was oily but not practically dripping with grease like usual. I am breaking out but no worse than usual. I have about 6 nodules right now that are all just bellow the surface and are slowly oozing out as I type. They are actually much more shallow than usual and are definitely healing faster. What really looks bad are the tiny little whiteheads just bellow the surface of the skin that I have right now around my forehead, nose and cheeks. They don't seems to want to get any worse- which is good- but they also don't seem to be going away anytime soon. My back is very, very stiff and sore. Did a one and a half hour yoga class and I have been paying for it with back soreness ever since. My hips were so stiff in the class that I could hardly move. Trying to drink a lot more water to maybe flush out the soreness. Anyway other than those slightly annoying side effects mentioned all is looking great! tone and texture look a thousand time better. accutane is the shit!!!

humarojo

humarojo

04/06/2010

 

3rd dose down

Downed dose three last night. Not experiencing any severe symptoms yet. My skin look immaculate though!!!!!! pores are already drastically smaller, no blackheads!!! I was cleaning the bathroom at work yesterday and I couldn't stop looking at my face. I'd forgotten what it was like to have my makeup lay flat on my skin without accentuating all of the craters. I was going through a mini breakout when I started, but within a couple of hours after my second dose everything pushed its way to the surface and out. I even had one little zit above my lip that popped and actually spewed crap out on its own! (so gross, but only someone who has been dealing with acne as long as i have will understand the joy that brought me). so far i have not gotten the dreaded initial breakout. by the end of the day, this stuff has pushed out so much grease in my face that my skin feels swathed in oil. But no pimples come of it somehow. Granted, I am only taking 40mg and I'm sure the breakout will be here in a couple of days. I am still using tea tree oil daily (against doctors orders ), which is probably helping to keep everything disinfected. I wasn't on any perscribed acne regimen before I started accutane however, and I wonder if suddenly stoppinng that routine when starting accutane is the reason why a lot of people get the initial breakout... ?? I guess we shall see. Had my first stint with dryness last night- my eyes were killing me this morning when i woke up: so dry and itchy. It felt kind of like having allergies. My lungs also feel really dry and I keep coughing this morning. Really not too bad though all in all. The worst side effect I've seen thus far is the muscle soreness. Having a lot of residual cramping after running and weight lifting. A hot bath with some epsom salts takes that away though. The one thing I'm kind of irritated with is my inability to drink while on accutane. I will probably drop a little water weight with this break from beer, but I just turned 21 a little over a month ago and it sucks to go back to going to bars to see some music and not being able to buy myself a pint of magic hat no. 9. My mom and I went to happy hour at this restaurant the day after my first dose and I had a pint there. That one pint definitely broke my seal and I was peeing like a race horse all night. Since that has never happened to me after one pint of beer, I'm guessing it has something to do with the diuretic effect of the accutane. Anyway, good luck to everyone and I'll update in a couple more days. Please feel free to ask questions or give advice. Peace

humarojo

humarojo

04/03/2010

 

OFFICIAL FIRST DAY

Last night I took my first dose of Claravis: 40mg. Lips are already a little dry, but not noticing any intense symptoms yet. I spoiled myself a little the last few days. Splurged on some cute hats and some long sleeved linen/cotton tunics to keep the sun away from my skin this summer; bought some really quality all natural face washes and moisturizers, some epsom salts and a mustard bath. Here's my little product list so far: Oatmeal/Rasberry Corrective Cleanser from Collective Wellbeing Honey/Rose Honey Buff from Collective Wellbeing Very Clear Problem Skin Moisturizer from dermaE (MY SKIN LOVES THIS STUFF! contains Tea Tree, Willow Bark, Rosewood, Lavender and Chamomile) Green Tea and Gingko SPF 15 Moisturizer from Aubrey Organics Lavender Chamomile Moisture Stick from Deep Steep and Unrefined Shea Butter from CoatalScents.com for my body I also am still planning on using good ol' tea tree oil for spot treatments- although my doc warned me not too, so I'll try to be cautious. Aside from the beauty products, I've made quite a few lifestyle changes in the past couple of months that are doing my skin a lot of good. Since the beginning of last month when I learned I was going to be starting accutane, I made a pledge to get into as good of physical shape as possible. If my body is strong and well-toned than it will better handle such an intense medication. Right now I might be in the best shape of my life! Last weekend my friends and I headed out to go mountain climbing and my friend and I literally RAN up the mountain! Here is a list of dietary/lifestyle guidelines that I've been pretty well keeping up with: DRINK WATER Severely limit sugar intake run! hike! jog! get outside and move for at least 45 mins a day! Sleep at least 8 hours nightly NO PICKING PIMPLES take a B-vitamin complex helps with stress, give energy, and beautifies skin, hair and nails limit caffeine intake to green tea (NO BLACK TEA!) avoid/ quit eating dairy **you must supplement with calcium or eat a lot of greens take Live Pro-biotics in milk or soy culture wash face with cold water instead of hot like i was taught... stay out of the sun- wear glasses, hats, and long sleeved shirts made from thin fabrics avoid processed foods like bread, pasta, cereal, granola, granola bars, etc. and last and most difficult: avoid chocolate and other super antioxidant rich foods- antioxidants are good in preventing aging, but they can also cause inflamation if eaten too regularly If anyone has any good recommendations I'd really appreciate it. I've read a lot of blogs and watched the youtube videos, but I still feel there is probably a lot I don't know. Waiting a month to get the medication was a pain, but getting the prescription filled is pretty easy. You have to take a little test online before you can get it filled. Its about 7 questions and takes about 10 minutes. Not difficult in the least. Alright guys I'm headed out for a morning jog. You know, it sure is nice to look in the mirror in the mornings and be able to say to yourself: only 6 more months (and really- only 2 until I see results!)

humarojo

humarojo

04/01/2010

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04/02/2010

 

march 9th

Caught a little cold and am not getting much sleep due to congestion. Its 6am here but I've been up since 4. I've got some studying to do for a mid term I have today and needed to get my Food Handler's certification online anyway- might as well get it out of the way this morning if I'm not going to sleep! Thought I'd write a little update on my accutane journey as well... Right now I'm experiencing a mild breakout. To others and to my doctor it might be coined "severe", but its not the worst I've gone through. I have a handful of nodules, but mostly black heads and inflammation. I imagine how in as little as 6 months I will never have to go through this again- and it keeps me looking up. On another positive note: I don't have much scarring like other sufferers seem to have. I have a couple of pocs and my pores are a mess, but in good time they will definitely heal. A couple weeks ago I pledged to stop picking my zits- forever- and although I've had a couple of weak moments, I have noticed an ASTRONOMICAL difference in healing time, inflammation and redness when I can keep my hands off my face. I started wearing makeup again in December. I tried to hold out on wearing it for my skin's sake, but I became a total hermit and an emotional basket case. I use Lancome, and although it seems to cause some minor irritation it covers everything beautifully and looks very natural. Every time I put it on I can just imagine what it will be like not to have acne anymore. I will be beautiful! I am also grateful to makeup because I gained the confidence to go get a job- a great job- and I discovered I'm actually a pretty good costumer service person. I've also been a lot more outgoing- seeing old friends and meeting a few new people. I've even had a couple of admirers... (admittedly I have totally forgotten how to deal with being flirted with and probably responded like a total dork). I almost feel normal again- finally people are looking past this minor flaw and seeing the real, healthy me. On that point- a more depressing note. Of course, in hindsight, I shouldn't have tried to wake the sleeping dogs- as they say- but being an amicable person I decided to get in touch with an old friend from highschool... an old boyfriend. Another of his friends contacted me and we hung out once or twice, so I decided that maybe we should all just be friends. I would never booty call an ex, that wasn't my point in contacting him. I am friends and see regularly almost all of my exes, and with them I often share mutual friends, interests, etc. I am not interested in superficial bonds, and believe that I would have better judgement than to enter into a friendship or relationship with someone with whom I couldn't love as family. Anyway, I tried to contact him and got an asinine response. So I complained: called him immature, told him he needed to challenge himself, growup, etc. He isn't doing anything with his life- no job, no school, lives with his mom and was a real ass to me towards the end of our relationship. We split when I moved to NYC after high school but made some forlorn promises to continue to be friends. Shortly after I moved is when my acne started, and when I visited home and he saw me, he was instantly repulsed. I held out in my imagination that it wasn't the acne: it was pain he felt on a deeper emotional level that would not allow us to be friends. This was over the last couple of years. When I tried to contact him last week, however, he finally was straight with me. He called me ugly, messy, and overly composed. He told me to kill myself- that I had become too ugly. I responded that maybe he was right about all of that, but it was cruel and I still cared about him and always would. It hurt at first, but I'm nearly over it. I guess I told him exactly what he needed to hear... at nearly 21, he is VERY immature. Come on- "ugly"? Who beyond the age of 12 uses that to insult someone? And who would be so superficial as to end a friendship with someone who really cares about you based on acne? (Besides, his friend who contacted me... was kind of trying to get in my pants... ) Less than 3 weeks until I start accutane! I'm going to log into the iPledge system online right now- I got the letter in the mail with the activation code etc. a couple of days ago. Also: I started doing some major hiking and I've seen a great improvement in skin tone and texture from it. I weat a hat and sunglasses to protect from sun damage. Sometimes I just walk the trails, sometimes I run them. My booty and calves look amazing too! and its great for the abs. After I come off the trail my skin is always glowing- and not in a greasy kind of way. Helps relieve stress and anxiety too- I def recommend this for everyone Well guys, I'm feeling a little better. I hope you all have an awesome day and keep your heads up!

humarojo

humarojo

03/09/2010

 

Back Bitches and about to start Accutane

Well, I've been pretty adament until now about doing everything I can holistically before I resort to Accutane; alas, nothing has worked. (Helped maybe, but not worked). My health has really improved overall since I've stopped taking so many supplements, moved out of the city, and started really intensely going to the gym. My acne is now coming in waves where it will break out really badly for a week or two and then almost heal completely for a week. I definitely see a correlation to both food allergies and my cycle. But once again Im filling out those damn forms. Going to draw the first blood in a couple days. Started birth control again... worst of all... today. (Birth control REALLY throws me out of whack). I've already started to break out from the Ortho Tri Cylclen within a matter of hours. sigh So I guess I'll be starting Accutane for real in about one month. I'm not really worried about the tane so much as the birth control... between you and me- maybe I just wont take it

humarojo

humarojo

02/22/2010

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