So today I hit boiling point with these cysts, and decided to use some hydrogen peroxide on them. Nothing beats the satisfaction of seeing the bubbles and then watch the cyst shrink.
I know that hydrogen peroxide can work really well for some people, with reasonable logic behind it - benzoyl peroxide is based on the same thing, and introducing an aerobic environment for the bacteria in the pimple = death to that awful bacteria. Unfortunately, I also know about the free-radical properties etc etc blah. No one likes cancer. But no one likes acne either...
I'm going to use hydrogen peroxide as a topical for a week, maximum, to clear up these cysts. If it works amazing miracles on my skin, I may keep it up, but not for too long...free-radicals scare the shit out of me, and I don't think I drink enough green tea to warrant keeping it up for very long.
On another note, my parents are not helping...my sister cooked dinner tonight and forgot to mention she had used parmesan cheese. I only found out halfway through eating, not ideal for a dairy-free dieter. My mother's partner then made a comment about "why bother, it isn't helping anyway". Exactly what an unhappy girl needs to hear while trying to stick to a diet to help her skin (especially when she's stricken with cysts...GAH!). He's been cunty about a lot of things lately actually...so I'm going to try to keep my head up and ignore him.
massive clump of cystic acne on my chin, one on either side of my chin actually. stuff sucks.
I'm not totally sure what I should put this down to, but I think it may be a side effect of going back on the pill. I'm going to stick with it and see if it calms down.
but yeah, these cysts. I just ran out of toner a few days after they appeared (handy, I know). So I'm going to make a green tea toner and see how that goes. also going to up my intake of green tea and water, you know, just 'cos.
on the plus side, my cheeks have less and less acne. not sure why this is, but one side is almost totally clear (and I LOVE IT). just those pesky scars on that side now.
still dairy free, which I think it frustrating my mother, who has been very helpful as far as cooking dairy-free dinners is concerned, but she keeps dropping hints about "how much longer" I think it will take. I think she sees this cystic outbreak as a sign it isn't working but I don't know...it feels like it's helping me.
will update again soon! (hopefully)
so I know starting new regimes isn't a good idea, but I seem to have done this now..
(and apologies for not updating regularly!)
SO. Last week, my best friend said that her mother (who is a doctor) suggested I try going dairy-free to see if that helped my acne, and if that didn't work, to try going gluten free for a while. The idea of going without cakes and bread and most pasta and biscuits scares me, so I'm opting for dairy-free first, and will carry it on for at least two weeks.
Started drinking soy and eliminating all dairy three days ago.
ALSO. My mum and I are planning on baking bread, so went into our local organic shop to get barley and rye flours. I spotted some interesting looking soap and the name seemed to spark some sort of memory. so I bought a bottle of Dr Bronner's Peppermint Castile soap. Came back on here as soon as I got home and found out that it's been the holy grail for some people. WELL. So now I'm washing twice a day with diluted Dr Bronner soap.
This all + BP, after washing with Dr Bronner and then toning with Lancome toner (which seems to be very calming) and then following all this with a Lancome moisturiser.
And also keeping up the intake of water and green tea. And to be honest, my skin seems to be loving this. I haven't seen anymore big cysts pop up, and my skin really does feel clean. EEeeeeeeee!
So got some pretty bad cystic acne right now..
and my skin has gradually been getting worse for the last few weeks. I went to the doctor to organise an appointment with a derm, I just have to ring them tomorrow to sort it all out.
This is one of those times where I lose all faith. You know, sometimes I think that there should be a certain number of good reviews allowed per product. Seeing everybody else's success with the same items just makes me more upset when it turns out to be a disaster for me. Gah. Flaxseed oil is clearly the culprit, as nothing else has changed in my normal regime. FUUUUUUU...
So there goes my confidence once again. I thought it may be exam stress but when I look at it, I only have two exams and I'm not stressed about them at all....so there goes that theory.
tldr; NOT HAPPY, SKIN HAS GONE TO $HIT.
will go buy more BP asap to try kill some of these massive cysts. so painful..
Hey, sorry i didn't write last week. it was my birthday, got a bit hectic there.
Although, I should mention that 3rd week(birthday week), my skin became very VERY dry. Not sure if this is my skin adjusting to me using BP again or if it's just the winter air drying me up, but I'm keeping up my fluids and the flaxseed oil so it's under control now.
Skin is looking average so far. To be positive, I guess it hasn't gotten worse at all, and my parents seemed to think it was looking better (wishful thinking?). I've got to go to the doctor this week sometime, so I'm thinking I'll ask her about the dermatologist and what my options are there. Not to say I'll quit this regime or that I've given up on it, drinking all these flaxseed smoothies makes me feel awesome
exams coming up, here's hoping that the stress doesn't freak out my skin. sigh.
So a little bit to update, although I'm not changing the layout of my regime;
Went to this place my mum goes to often, to get my lip waxed on the weekend (and yes, yes, I know. waxing facial hair when you've got acne is NOT the brightest idea but the lady/therapist who is my regular there said my skin seems to cope fine with it, so I do keep going there.).
Pretty much as soon as I got there, my therapist asked me about my skin and what I was doing to help it. I explained my regime to her, and she then suggested I try Dermalogica products - which of course, is conveniently the brand they sell at this place).
After a full sales pitch and also 'face-mapping' to see what was wrong with my skin, (which was dehydrated all over apparently - not surprising with the BP but I kicked up the level of moisturiser I'm using now, and drinking EVEN MORE water too. paranoid? probably) I told her I didn't really want to invest in a whole new system. I asked her what one thing I should add to help overall instead, and she recommended this flaxseedoil supplement, Bestow Beauty oil.
SO to get her off my back/try this, because really I like the idea of natural supplements rather than chemical/topical treatments, I bought a bottle. One table spoon a day, starting today. I'll keep up posting results from that too.
fair to say my last attempt at keeping a blog was dismal, so here's hoping the fact that my last post was 2 years ago won't impact me too badly..
Tried a ridiculous amount of treatments since then, which no doubt my skin will be LOVING me for. Mostly natural remedies, as I didn't want to kill my skin off with harsh chemicals. ACV, BP, baking soda, OCM with EVOO for a while (which was just a nightmare..oh god. Just remembering it..), not to mention drinking huge amounts of water and green tea.
I sometimes think that people who have never suffered through acne must think we're insane, I know my sister must do, seeing the look on her face when she sees me sneaking from the kitchen to the bathroom with small bowls of oil and vinegar..
So here it is, anyway. My acne is moderate, was getting better for a while there until I tried OCM again (disastrous). Seriously considering going to the dermatologist (some people might shout "WHY HAVEN'T YOU DONE THIS YET, but not all of us have money going spare to get consultation ). I've been taking days off university here and there because sometimes, I just can't face people I know. I've found I can almost cope when it's complete strangers who look at me funny or avoid eye contact..but friends staring or trying extra hard not to mention it, I just can't cope with.
Here's to me keeping on track now, going to start a regime properly this time.
- wash face with neutrogena Acne Stress wash (w/ salicylic acid)
- ACV/water as toner
- 4% BP (^^all done gently as possible, following tips from Dan's regime)
- Wash face with Lancome gentle milk cleanser
- ACV/water toner
drinking only water and green tea, 4l water and about 3 cups of green tea per day.
Wish me luck.