I have really just stopped believing that any product or procedure will make my scarring heal faster. I stopped washing my face a few weeks ago, I don't see any difference. But then again I don't really get acne anymore it's just my scarring. The only product that I apply to my face is a light cetaphil moisturizer after I get out of the shower. I also steam my face once a week. I don't put my face to close to the water though. Although it doesn't hurt my face, I'm still afraid that it might damage my skin. Scarring on the right side is still bad. The left is not as bad. Over time I can tell it has healed. As long as I don't pester it, it will heal. I've done reading and simply put skin cells regenerate over time. My dermatologist says they are just acne scars and there is not denting or anything like that so eventually my skin should be back to normal right? I guess I will just have to wait and see. I think I might start updating this blog more often. Or maybe I shouldn't. Thinking about my scars to much may prove to be detrimental. Who knows? I think I have suffered enough emotional pain that my pain tolerance should be set pretty high. I wonder if anybody reads my blog anymore. I have fifteen thousand views but over the course of what? Three years? Well those of you who are actually reading this I would really weight the pros and cons of taking accutane. I know my personality has changed dramatically. But then again I was taking a pretty high dosage of it. Do I regret taking it? Probably not. I wouldn't be who I am today if I hadn't taken it. I would just do certain things different while I was on it thats for damn sure. Ugh. Well I guess that's all I have to say, until next time.
So as you can tell by the blog entry I have been off accutane for quite some time now. I still get the occasional break out every now and then but that isn't a big deal. What is a big deal is now my skin is scarred worse than ever before. I was taking a look at some of my previous blog posts and I remember writing that my scars are starting to fade and everything is looking better but I don't know what happened. The skin on my forehead, nose, mouth, and inner cheek area is perfect. But on both sides of my face where my sideburns would be, is completely scarred. And it is bad. And there is this thing that is inside my skin on one side. I went to my dermatologist months ago and he said it is just a cyst that is underneath the skin and wanted to give me a steroid shot but I wanted to go the natural way and let it come out on its own. After a couple months it's still here. I'm usually a pretty patient person. The scars that I had before faded after sometime and I'm just going to hope these do as well. And just a tip for anyone is on accutane or is just getting off, if you start to develop ANY signs of early scarring, AVOID THE SUN AT ALL COSTS AND WEAR SPF WHEN YOU CAN'T. I am pretty sure this is what caused my scarring.
So my face is still scarred. Not as bad as it was before though. I got a lot of sun recently and my tan face really reduced the visibility of the scars which was nice. I also notice that the scars on my face are really starting to clear up now. There are just two places on my face where the scars are really really red so once those start to fade I'm sure my face will look a hell of a lot better. They are all starting to fade away slowly but surely....
I honestly don't understand why my face is scarring like this. I know I took accutane for 12 months in total but I didn't pick my face at all!!?! I don't even know where all these red marks are coming from. Yeah the small ones I can deal with, I'll admit to picking at those but these big red ones are just a mystery. They is just a big clusterfuck of red marks on my upper cheek area. I really hope they will go away. I'm exfoliating my face once a week to help the scars heal. Hopefully this will go away in a few days like last time. Please go away.
The right side of my face is a big red mess. I have no clue where all these red marks are coming from. They aren't pimples they are just red spots on my face. If you look at my face from an angle you can't even tell they are there but if you look straight at them, you can clearly see them. I have no clue what the hell is going on. I guess I'm just going to have to be patient and wait until they go away whenever that will be. Trying to remain optimistic.
Somewhere around 380 day post accutane. My scars have really started to fade now. The only problem that I had was a short lived breakout period which caused more scars because I was stupid enough to pick them... Well those scars are now finally starting to heal. The only problem that I have with my skin at the moment is that there are small indents where some of my scars used to be. Hopefully they start to fill in naturally. I did however buy this product by Murad which is called their Environmental Shield Kit and it is suppose to help protect your skin from Environmental Damage (hence the name) and I just started to use it yesterday. I really love this product so far. The cleanser is really light and makes my skin feel nice, can't say anything about the toner yet, too soon to see result, and the spf moisturizer is nice as well.
So after having severe breakouts a month or two ago, my face is completely blemish free now; and on top of that all my scarring has dramatically decreased! The only scars that are even worth mentioning are on the left side of my face around my sideburns. The only thing I have done since then is drink a lot more water. I'll keep you posted
Okay so this is really weird. Three days ago I posted a blog entry saying that my faced started to break out again. Now my face is almost completely cleared again. I have only two small pimples on my face but the scarring is still there. The only thing that I have done since the previous post is drink a lot more water and touch my face a lot less so maybe that helped. We will see what happens.
So I stopped keeping track of the number of days after my accutane treatment but it is somewhere around 300 days i think. Anyways during this past month I started to break out like crazy! I got a hell of a lot of small pimples on my neck, jawline, and sides of my mouth. But now it seems as if the acne is slowly starting to go away. All I do is wash my face with neutrogena oil free acne wash and apply lotion once at night. Now from me breaking out just recently I have a bunch of red marks again and still have a little acne on the sides of my mouth. I haven't touched my face at all this past week and I think that might be helping. So unfortunately I have had two six month accutane treatments and my acne is still coming back! I probably won't go on accutane again just because my skin still seems very sensitive and will maybe wait a little longer before I even consider getting back on accutane.
Recently I became ill and took antibiotics. So I feel better now but the medicine made me break out =( I know one of the side effects was dry skin but I got two maybe three of these blood blisters (I think) and they are pretty big. Hopefully they will go away soon.